No New Side Effects Yet
“One of the strange things about cancer is that it sort of makes you distrust your own body. After all, it, or at least part of it, is trying to kill me.”
I started a new drug yesterday: Avastin. This is the one I wrote about a few weeks ago — the one that has the potential for very serious side effects, such as bleeding in the brain. But I had a brain scan a few weeks ago and it was clear, so after a long talk with my oncologists, we decided to go forward. I am writing this having just gotten back from the hospital. I'm sort of listening to my body to try to see if there are any new problems.
There is one side effect that caught my eye. I was kidding about it with my doctor, and he said he knew that I was going to write about it. Gastrointestinal perforation. That's a scary term. It sort of brings up images of your stomach exploding or something like that. In truth, as my oncologists calmed me down, they explained that developing a hole in the gut is a very rare side effect of the drug that can happen if you just had surgery in the last month or two. Not something for me to worry about, although I keep looking down at my abdomen, expecting the worst.
The doctors are pretty excited about Avastin. It has shown some real promise in actually shrinking tumors, not just holding them in place. That would be terrific. Of course, this is also one of those times when you realize, as a patient, that your frame of reference is very different from the medical community. In tests, Avastin has, in some cases, led to about an extra four months of survival. That's great. Of course, as the patient, what would be really great would be four years. Again, just looking at the same thing from different sides.
One of the strange things about cancer is that it sort of makes you distrust your own body. After all, it, or at least part of it, is trying to kill me. Most of my body seems neutral; my lungs however, seem to have an attitude. You look at your body, and know that this war is going on, but it's all hidden from view. But I have put my body through some punishment. Maybe I should be more forgiving.
Bottom line, no new side effects yet and a new drug that may help — I think this counts as a pretty good day after all.
6:06 AM ET | 08-29-2006 | permalink

