Other Things on My Mind
“One of the things that this blog makes me do is focus on my cancer every day. I have to stop and think about it, think about what it's done to my life and what it's done to my friends and family.”
So I've been sitting here at my computer for a while, trying to figure out what to say today, and to be honest... nothing has come to me. I usually wait for inspiration to strike. I usually write in my head. I think about something, and gradually, the piece comes into view and I sit down and pretty much write it in one sitting.
Sometimes finding a topic is easy, I look at the comments that you all send in, and someone will say something that triggers an idea. The responses to yesterday's column about optimism were terrific, I hope that you all read them. Several people wrote in to say they had bought new houses, a real commitment to the future.
But today, nothing is coming to me. Maybe this just isn't a cancer day. Maybe that's not the most important thing in my life today. I have other projects to worry about. Other things on my mind. One of the things that this blog makes me do is focus on my cancer every day. I have to stop and think about it, think about what it's done to my life and what it's done to my friends and family. Every day I try to find meaning, a lesson, some way to make sense out of what so many of us are going through.
But as I have tried to do that today, other things keep crowding into my mind. The whole cancer thing keeps getting pushed aside or into the background. I still have the little reminders — the tingling in my feet and hands and all that. Maybe it's because I'm in a week off from the chemo, and I'm starting to feel a little bit like my old self.
I hope that I haven't disappointed any of you by not coming up with more today. But this is one of those rare days where cancer has taken a back seat in my life. And you know what? It feels pretty good.
6:48 AM ET | 09-14-2006 | permalink

