The Fog and Fatigue of 'Chemo Brain'
“It's a fuzzy feeling, like trying to think through a fog. Throw in a little bit of exhaustion and fatigue, and it doesn't leave you at your cognitive best.”
"Chemo brain." It's a term that I haven't really used, but a number of you have talked about it. And I'm definitely feeling it today. It's that... well, how to describe it to someone who hasn't had it? It's a fuzzy feeling, like trying to think through a fog. Throw in a little bit of exhaustion and fatigue, and it doesn't leave you at your cognitive best.
I don't get it all that often. For me, it comes in the form of real lethargy. It's hard to concentrate. It's hard to focus. It's a little hard to write this blog sometimes and have it make sense. It's a little bit like the feeling you get when you've had one or two or more drinks too many, and you don't want to be drunk. You try to will yourself into clarity, but it doesn't always work.
It's tempting to just give in and sort of let the day go blah. As I write this, the director's cut of Alien is on TV, and it's very tempting. I will, however, avoid the obvious metaphor to cancer of the alien growing in that poor guy's stomach. Instead, because yes, I've seen that movie a million times, I'll just try to fight through the chemo brain.
And there's a little bit of depression that comes with it, too. I think that all of these feelings, these side effects, feed off each other. So what do we do? If any of you have suggestions on how better to cope with it, I'd love for you to share them.
For me, I know that it won't last forever. In a couple of days, as I get further into this chemo cycle, my chemo brain will clear up, that drug-induced fog will lift and I'll feel more like myself. That's something to look forward to. In the meantime, I guess all we can do is just keep fighting through it. And hope there's something good on daytime TV.
6:53 AM ET | 11- 3-2006 | permalink

