Marching Toward Monday Morning

 
“I'm not really nervous about the operation. After all, I'll be asleep. I trust my doctors, they're good at their jobs. And in my case, there really is no choice.”
 
 

First, I want to thank all of you for the tremendous outpouring of support, good wishes, and prayers. I cannot thank you enough. As we all know, a life with cancer includes moments of fear and loneliness. But remembering that we are all in this together can banish those feelings and give us the strength to keep walking down this road, no matter how difficult the next step may be.

As I get ready for my surgery, I know that there are so many others out there, getting ready for their own procedures or their next chemo appointment. Or just trying to get through a difficult day. This is not an easy life. But it's the only life we have, so we might as well get on with it.

I'm not really nervous about the operation. After all, I'll be asleep. I trust my doctors, they're good at their jobs. And in my case, there really is no choice. But I went into the meeting with my surgeon yesterday with my mind made up, anyway. This is what I was going to do.

So now I'm running around like crazy, trying to get everything done before Monday. It's a little like getting ready for a vacation, except that you know the food won't be great, there's no pool, and they certainly don't serve frosty drinks with little umbrellas in them. But the dress code is pretty casual, so I guess that's one plus.

If anything, I have to keep myself from getting impatient. Monday will come soon enough. And there's one tumor that has no idea what's coming. I like that.

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Leroy, you and Laurie and your entire medical team will be held in God's hands on Monday. We're all there for you. God Speed.

Sent by Karen | 7:19 AM ET | 09-28-2007

I hope between all the getting ready you enjoy your weekend with the complete trust that by next weekend you'll be comfortably recovering from the surgery--minus one tumor and hopefully with much less pain. And I hope wehn you get into that "casual dress" on Monday you can feel all the good wishes from all the people who read this blog and will think of you.

Sent by N.R. | 7:27 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy,

That tumor has no idea how much it's picking on the wrong guy! Love your attitude. We in this comunity love & need you. We will pray- hard,you heal - fast!

Sent by Kathleen | 7:35 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Best of luck Leroy! I am one of the many who read your blog every day but never post, but today I could not resist. Your thoughts this morning resonated with me as I have a difficult day ahead filled new, unknown situations. I hope you know that you are an inspiration and friend to so many in and outside of the Cancer world. Wishing you all good things-

Sent by Merin | 7:38 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy
Although I do not post often, please know my thoughts and prayers are with you. Remember, it is not courage if you aren't afraid! We all look forward to having you back with us soon! Take care.

Sent by Maria | 7:43 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Maybe if you said "pretty please" someone could conjur up a frosty drink with a little umbrella in it. At the least, you will be getting breakfast in bed.

That tumor would be quaking with fear if it knew what was coming. Hit it hard, Leroy.

Do something really fun this weekend. The weather looks great in the East.

Sent by Art Ritter | 7:43 AM ET | 09-28-2007

I think you'll do great, Leroy. You're a pretty tough cookie. You definitely know how to fight the good fight. Bravery isn't being fearless. It's facing fear straight-on when you have to. Picture faces lighting up all across the country when we finally read the blog that says you're doing well. We'll patiently wait and pray. I hope you can feel the love.

Sent by Laura | 7:51 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Ah Leroy a sneak attack on that tumor. Good move.
Before my first trip to Hawaii in 2006, I received a small bag of little paper drink umbrellas. They were in case I ordered a drink that didn't come with them. I would glad to share them with you, since I have some left.

Best to you on Monday Leroy, I'll be thinking and include you in my prayers.

Sent by Sue Chap | 7:58 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Sounds like they will be cutting our more than the Tumor Leroy. Aren't they also removing the major pain source as well? Wonder if the worst of your pain in from the tumor itself or from the gluing job that was done. Do you know that? My husband and I have been contemplating that procedure because of his long time back problems.
Our love and prayers go with you Monday and we look forward to hearing from you soon again, when you are up to it.

Sent by J C R | 8:09 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Good Luck to you Leroy! March in on Monday like the good soldier you are. This is the first time I've written you but I have been following your blogs daily in awe since the TV show! God be with you. Josie

Sent by Josie | 8:16 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Hey Leroy,
You sound great. My husband and I (haven't we all?) have really learned that attitude is everything. You will be great and you will roll with the punches. Our prayers are with you. I'll miss hearing from you each morning but look forward to the morning when I check and there you are! :) Hang tough...AGAIN, my friend!

Sent by Sarah Senter | 8:32 AM ET | 09-28-2007

If you ever have any doubts about what a difference you make in our lives, yesterday's posts speak volumes!

Monday morning, the prayers and good wishes of all of us will be with you. You have truly found your purpose in life with this blog and the good that you do here. God will be with you and will bring you back to us so that you can continue your good work. Ask for His mercy, grace and healing power and it will be delivered to you.

Prayers as always for you and Laurie.

Sent by Al Cato | 8:34 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Our thoughts are with you. You will be on my mind all day on Monday. Good luck to you and your doctors. We'll be waiting for you right here when you get back.

Sent by Karole Ives, Duluth MN | 8:38 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy, Love your attitude and it helps me and I think everyone else on the blog. You are surrounded by love and prayer and so all will be well. Thank you for thinking of us out here facing our own trials - I see Oncologist today about continuing treatment and am hopeful that it will help symptoms that have returned.

Sent by Vicki (FL) | 8:43 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy, you will be in my thoughts and prayers on Monday. October 1st has always been a special day in my family. 52 years ago my parents married on October 1st. I hope it will be a happy (and pain-free) day in your life too. Susan

Sent by Susan | 8:52 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy and Laurie - you'll be in my constant thoughts and prayers.......we'll be "stormin the heavens with prayer"......and just think that nasty little tumor is in for a sneak attack!!! and this is one gunfight at the ok corral that the guy in the white hat is going to win!!!!
So, just like before a good ole main street draw down......get some rest this weekend, enjoy some great food/beverage (maybe with an umbrella)..rest and restore so you're ready to go!!
We're all out here thinking of you, praying for you and knowing that you will prevail!! All Shall Be Well......

Sent by Ruth Chermok | 8:54 AM ET | 09-28-2007

I'll be thinking of you, Leroy, all weekend. Especially on Saturday morning when I have a PET scan. I had back spasms a couple of weeks ago, and the doc ordered an MRI. They found something suspicious in my T7 vertebra. Dang.

Hang in there, Leroy.
Ruth
http://ruthsmusings.blogspot.com

Sent by Ruth from Virginia | 9:05 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy,

Will be thinking of you and praying for your speedy recovery. Blessings to you and yours.

Connie E.

Sent by Connie E. | 9:09 AM ET | 09-28-2007

I hope your experience with the operation and recovery will go smoothly- right on target and that any pain will be managed well and that the chronic pain problem will be solved.I just got great scan results, so I am feeling that faith that good things can and do happen. I will think of you and burn a candle for you on Monday.

Sent by NancyGM | 9:11 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Hi Leroy,

Thank you for taking the time to post today, what with everything going on.

Your post touched my heart. Made me smile and cry. I will be keeping you and Laurie in my prayers, that the next few days go smoothly and happily, and for Monday to be a successful surgery. And for quick healing. You both are surrounded by lots of love.

I'm struggling with immense grief this week, because a woman who I cared a lot about and who cared a lot about me, died this week from stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. I am so sad and angry I can barely breathe. Her death feels like a mortal wound inside me.

Also, my 94 year old grandmother is dying. I'm told it could be anyday. She does not have cancer. She's dying because she's 94 and her organs are failing. (My mom says it's Granny's time.) I truly don't want it to be anybody's "time" to die, dammit!

My heart is breaking. My grandmother has been my best friend my entire life. That's been for 46 years. She has loved me unconditionally. As did the friend who died of breast cancer. I loved them unconditionally too. So for me this is a week of terrible heartbreak.

Thank you very much for this blog and the opportunity to post here. You and everyone, help me more than you know.

Take care and love,

Kim Blankenship

Sent by Kim Blankenship | 9:16 AM ET | 09-28-2007

My prayers are with you. You are an amazing person who is so strong. That will sustain you and you will get through this to be pain free. God bless!!

Sent by Kate | 9:18 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy, I recognize your anxiety. almost two years ago I underwent a vertebrectomy for metastatic kidney cancer. We're fortunate to live in an age of skilled surgeons armed with refined techniques and high technology. So, like you, I wasn't worried so much about the surgery. My real worry was about my life, and the fight for it, that would follow. Today, I am walking and working and still fighting my cancer. I'm sure that after Monday, you will be too.
----Mike

Sent by Mike Winner | 9:20 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Good luck with the surgery and recovery. I'll be thinking of you, and looking forward to reading your blog again soon.

Sent by Luba | 9:31 AM ET | 09-28-2007

don't forget leroy, that hot sexy patient loungewear that is waiting for you!!! :) ...thinking of you and your family as we drive into mondays' surgury...and thinking as always POSITIVE!

Sent by marianne dalton | 9:32 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Surprise attack! Yes! Your army of support in the background who laugh with you and cry with you are eager to hear from you when you are recovering and hope you will get a true vacation before long, in every sense, complete with the drinks with little umbrellas in them. God bless you, Leroy!

Sent by Karen Q | 9:32 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Isn't it funny, that impulse before surgery to get everything squared away? I was a maniac before by breast reconstruction surgery in June, cleaning my house, paying bills, etc. It reminded me of the nesting instinct some women have before they give birth. Please make sure you take some time to do something nice and fun this weekend. And you know we will all be thinking of you on Monday. And Tuesday, and Wednesday . . . !

Sent by Gretchen Hoag | 9:40 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Each day you contibute to the lives of so many people. May all of that good karma come back to you on Monday. You are surrounded by infinite positive energy, support and love.

We are with you.

Sent by Laurel M. Jones | 9:53 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Good wishes for you and Laurie on Monday

Sent by Irene | 9:59 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Add another voice sending prayers your way. You are an inspiration.

Sent by Ann | 10:07 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Hi Leroy- I started reading your blog a few weeks ago and now I look forward to your humor, wisdom and honesty every morning. I will be thinking of you this weekend and in the coming week and praying that everything goes well and the you will be back to your blog soon. Keep your sense of humor - is it priceless!

Sent by Elena | 10:09 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy, My prayers and very best wishes to you for a successful surgery and recovery. Will be thinking of you constantly and looking forward to hearing from you after you recover.

Love to all,
Betty Lewis

Sent by Betty Lewis | 10:14 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Mr. Leroy,
I love your attitude, I wish you all the best I will be thinking of you from Madrid. Buena suerte, amigo.
Angela

Sent by Angela Gonz??lez Granada | 10:19 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Hi Leroy:
I echo the sentiments of everyone else here. I wish you a successful surgery and a speedy recovery. Tell me, what is the correct pronunciation of "Sievers?" I don't get NPR in my neck of the woods and when I include you in my prayers (as I have from the first time I read your blog), I wanna be sure God and I are talking about the right guy!

Your Canadian friend,
Nancy

Sent by Nancy Boomer | 10:24 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

I pray for you everyday. Not for an outcome I want for you. That would be presumptuous. I pray God gives you strength, and peace.
You are loved by more people than you will ever know.

Sent by George | 10:25 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy
Good Luck to you!! We will be with you in spirit and prayers..I read your blog daily but never posted until today ..We are with you!!!

Sent by Luisa | 10:27 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy: Been following your Odyssey all along but felt I needed to add to the army of positive thoughts. Thank you for sharing your brave heart with us. Never, never, never give up. Love from Jen in New Orleans

Sent by Jen | 10:29 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Being in the best hospital in the U.S. (for 17 yrs straight), having probably the best doctors in the business, being (relatively) young, having a "Giberalter" partner in Laurie, and having your blog-family with you, firmly - you can and will do this well. Mr. C can hear the stands roaring, "Push 'em back! Push 'em back!", as the dream team comes out of the huddle and lines up for the play, snorting and ready.

Onward!!!

Cathi Simmons, Camas, WA.

Sent by Cathi | 11:00 AM ET | 09-28-2007

God Bless You.

Sent by Carole | 11:05 AM ET | 09-28-2007

What they said! In my prayers daily,

Diana

Sent by Diana L Santamaria | 11:12 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy

I have just been touched by your story, You are in my thoughts especially on Monday!! and anytime during your recovery I would glady bring you a frozen drink with a little umbrella!! A Michigan friend Joyce

Sent by Joyce Burby | 11:19 AM ET | 09-28-2007

DIE TUMOR, DIE!!!

XO
Lori

(Somebody put an umbrella in this man's post surgery apple juice.)

Sent by Lori Levin | 11:19 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,
Your views on life and your positive attitude continues to amaze me. You ROCK! I've taken many of your writings and substituted "divorce" or "jobless" or "alzheimers" etc. for the word "cancer" and received the most amazing epiphany... your words and wisdom apply to all life challenges, hence the huge appeal, readership and participation on this blog. I send up prayers for comfort, strength, contentment and victory for you, those you love, and all who are touched by challenges.

Sent by Stitches | 11:22 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,
I too had to add my thoughts for a VERY SUCCESSFUL operation. May all your pain be only a distant memory after the surgery. You have a huge following that will be there in spirit if not in person and who look forward to hearing from you when you are feeling well again.

Sent by Natalie | 11:25 AM ET | 09-28-2007


Dear Leroy,

Gotta luv that sense of humor! Blessings and prayers for a speedy recovery.

With much love........sasha

Sent by sasha | 11:27 AM ET | 09-28-2007

I admire you Leroy Sievers. Your fighting spirit inspires me. From Australia I send you my positive thoughts that you will stay determined and strong throughout this next ordeal and my best wishes that you recover from it quickly and completely. Anelle.

Sent by Anelle Flanagan | 11:32 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy,
You are on my mind and I'll be sending out positive thoughts and prayers in your direction. Hope you feel "marinated" in good vibes for next week's surgery. You are in the best of hands at JHU. Keep up the good fight!
Kathy
Carlisle, PA

Sent by Kathy Hope | 11:37 AM ET | 09-28-2007

In my own treatment I learned that you don't have to be brave. You just have to show up! The Lord bless you and keep you...

Sent by C. Eckert | 11:38 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy, We wish you the best and will miss your blogs - please take care - we will all be rooting for you! Hopefully this will be the magic operation that kills all the bad guys!

Sent by LJ | 11:42 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy, you are in my thoughts and prayers every day, but especially now that you are heading into this surgery. There are so many people who care for you and hope and pray for the best for you. Your courage is amazing, you are such a light to everyone you touch. Blessings, Barbara in Salem, OR

Sent by Barbara Cullimore | 11:46 AM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy,
When I was first diagnosed, what surprised me most was the outpouring of love -- even from acquaintances and strangers. I had no idea. You're so loved here, and will be in my thoughts and prayers all next week.
My cancer has taught me to be selfish sometimes. So, you better get well fast and get back here pronto! No dilly-dallying with frosty drinks.

Sent by Michele | 11:48 AM ET | 09-28-2007

"They certainly don't serve frosty drinks with little umbrellas in them" -- And why not, I wonder?

All the best -- my thoughts and prayers are with you and will be with you on Monday during your surgery, and as you continue to recover.

Sent by M Wms | 11:48 AM ET | 09-28-2007

You will be in my intentions as usual with with a little more emphasis on recovery and paper umbrellas.

Sent by Pat Zalewski | 12:03 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy

I've been away from the blog for a few days, so just learned of your upcoming surgery. Anything I could say has already been said so well by others, but I still want you to know how much I care about what happens to you. Thank you for everything, for sharing your experiences, for your insights, for your attitude.

I will be thinking of you on Monday and hoping fervently that everything goes well for you.

Sent by Jane | 12:30 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Reading your blog is part of my daily routine, just after checking my personal e mail. I will miss the daily contact next week while you are engaged in the next battle but I am praying for excellent results from the surgery and lots of TLC as you recover. I also hope they find an appropriately sized gown for you when you feel good enough to care about being covered up!

Sent by Eleanor | 12:34 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Good Luck Leroy
I will be thinking of you and wishing for the best. Come back soon we all will miss your writing while you are out.

Sent by robin | 12:41 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy and Laurie, Monday will be a difficult day, mostly for Laurie as she sits in a waiting room somewhere. Know that we are all there in spirit, and pulling with all we have. The result will be spectacular, and will remove the specter from your spine. And the pain will be gone too, a bonus.
Hope to hear from you soon. Stan

Sent by Stan Wozniak | 1:12 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Good wishes and prayers for Monday. My prayerswill be for you.

Sent by Linda | 1:27 PM ET | 09-28-2007

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. You are an INSPIRATION to those lives you have touched.

Sent by Vickie | 1:30 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Hi Leroy,
I'll be praying and sending positive energy your way with all the others who a pulling for you. Your spirit is amazing!

Sondra S.


Sent by Sondra Scott | 1:31 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,
Just before my surgery to remove a tumor from my chest cavity, I informed my cancer that there were a couple a guys that it was going to meet and they would be bringing some really sharp knives. I have not heard from that tumor in a while. I wish you the same success. All the best.

Sent by Pat | 1:34 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

I was so sorry to hear about the lastest developments. I know you have a lot to think about, but please remember that we are all sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Hope has a very healing power so we are all hoping for the best for you.

Good luck. I will be thinking of you Monday morning. Try and enjoy the weekend and the fall colors and beauty.

Sent by Jill Brusco Fox | 1:47 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy...I hope you will be comforted and encouraged by all the good thoughts, wishes, hopes and prayers expressed by everyone on this blog...if so, I am convinced all will go well for you. Positive energy can only produce positive results. I am hoping for the best for you and will be thinking of you on Monday as you undergo your surgery, along with so many other people who care about you. I look forward to reading that you are back to writing and free of pain. -- Bobbie, Alexandria, VA

Sent by Bobbie Liegus | 1:58 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy - looking forward to hearing from you after the operation and know you will emerge as irreverant, triumphant and cantakerous as ever. Keep it up. we need you.

Sent by Claire | 1:59 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Good Afternoon Leroy and All,

Leroy and Laurie, we are all here with you, all the way! We have the Road of Prayer to the Heavens all constructed and now you and Laurie will walk that road on Monday. We will all be cheering you on!!

To All, the bonds of strength everyone offers is shared by all. What a wonderful group!! God Bless!

Eileen Pruyne
Charlotte

Sent by Eileen Pruyne | 2:10 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Dear Leroy,
Good luck & prayers to you and Laurie. You are an inspiration, thank you for caring for us as we care for you. We will all miss you while you are out, but please take care of yourself, we will all be here when you are ready to come back! Peace, Martie

Sent by Martie | 2:39 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

Thank you for giving a voice and forum to what living with cancer feels and looks like. I am in awe of what you and so many others go through every day.

I am sending my prayers for healing and gentle hugs.

Sent by Jocelyn | 2:50 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Another procedure. Another victory.

Sent by Scott Fertig | 3:03 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy...what can I say? I can imagine that the response that you've been getting is pretty overwhelming, and that should reinforce the power of what you share, and how that ripples out in the world. I noted today that people wrote in from Australia, Spain and Canada. You've gone international with your mission and with the love that you've earned. As you're recovering from your surgery, I hope that you are helped knowing that so many fellow travelers are praying for you, and wishing you everything good.

Sent by Nancy K. Clark | 3:43 PM ET | 09-28-2007

So, many docs wouldn't do the spinilectomy on tumors not primary spinal tumors. If you can afford it and it might save you pain, it shouldn't be their call anyway. You're the one with the pain and who will have to bear the surgical pain. They are the ones who go home in the evening, not in pain and healthy. And, with your money in their bank account. Who cares what they think.
You go for it and more power to you. I wish you all the best and pray for success for you.

Nancy McFadden

Sent by Nancy McFadder | 4:15 PM ET | 09-28-2007

I'm so glad you don't have to wait too long for your surgery, i get impatient as well, good to get it over with I say.
All the best Leroy, we'll be here when you are ready to write to us again!
Jenn

Sent by Jenn | 4:21 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Your post brought a smile to my face. What a great attitude!!
Like others have said, do something fun this weekend, have a big ice cream sundae or a really good bar of chocolate (at least that is what I do for fun :))
With Best Wishes and Prayers.

Sent by Chandana | 4:34 PM ET | 09-28-2007

You are the man Leroy. Put your faith in God and he will see you thru. We will all be with you on Monday my friend. You don't have to do this alone. Wishing you a speedy recovery that is pain free. Also, Kim Blankenship, I have walked that same mile in your shoes. My grandmother was very close to me. She passed away 5 yrs. ago at 102 and I still miss her. It hurts my friend but I promise you it will get better.

Sent by Teresa in WV | 5:23 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Yes, I think your surgery is worth it too. It is interesting that you are able to continue to keep up the fight against the cancer. No matter what it throws up, you can do it one better.

This is likely to be the future for some cancers, and for more patients. Continued therapy to prolong life, until a cure comes.

Good luck to you.

Sent by Scott S. | 6:26 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Look forward to a visit with you "around the campfire" when all the work is done.

Nikki

Sent by Nikki | 6:48 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

Godspeed, my friend. We'll be waiting for the first post, post-op.

All will be well, Joanne

Sent by joanne | 7:10 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Cancer cannot take your courage away--May God bless you on Monday, and every day. Laurie, my thoughts will be with you as much as Leroy. My husband always told me to "be tough", that he could get through the cancer battle as long as I was OK, so be strong. Treasure each moment...
Jane

Sent by Jane Garrett | 7:17 PM ET | 09-28-2007

The food may not be gourmet...there may be no little chocolates on your pillow...and the apparel's not even as fashionable as a powder blue tux with ruffled shirt, but let's all be thankful that the service will surely be excellent. Thanks to talented doctors, yes, but even more, thanks to great nurses everywhere! May your surgery be uneventful and your recovery swift, Leroy! Rest, heal and take care of yourself.

Sent by Sandy Fisher | 7:27 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy:
I've read your blog everyday since the Documentary. You are one inspirational man. Thank you for giving all of us a glimpse into your Cancer World. Like so many others, I send special prayers for Monday.

Sent by Elaine S. | 7:33 PM ET | 09-28-2007

I haven't written before, but have followed your progress online since your interview on NPR and the amazing Koppel special.

I decided in December of last year that my doctoral study in Nursing had to be related to blogging during illness. Finding yours was another illustration of how much we nurses need to really 'get' what LIFE with cancer is all about for every person we see.

I will be thinking of you this fine fine weekend and praying for you on Monday,as you are in my prayers often.

Sent by Catherine | 7:53 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy- I only recently heard you on NPR and discovered your blog and now I read it faithfully. What a great attitude you have! I especially like your references to movies and how some of them fit in with your cancer. My husband was just diagnosed with lung cancer- it's far advanced and it does not look too hopeful, but reading your words-I have been going back over all your postings- has given me so much hope.For awhile there I had been thinking that life was one big practical joke, and not a very funny one either- and then I would go back and read your words. My thoughts and prayers will be with you on Monday. Take care.

Sent by Rosemary Neves | 8:21 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

If I didn't have a test on Monday and Thursday, I'd skip my clinicals and bring you a frosty one :o)

Rock on.

Sent by Teri Thomas | 8:51 PM ET | 09-28-2007

hi leroy i have learned a great deal by reading your blog.what a great attitude you have despite all the challange.i am sending my prayers yohannes

Sent by yohannes | 9:14 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy,

Were with you all the way.You and Laurie both please try to have a good weekend. Our prayers and best wishes for
good results on Monday.

Sent by dorothy | 10:12 PM ET | 09-28-2007

A late entry but I just returned from Spain and wanted to share my good wishes with you along with everyone else. I am so glad you have doctors willing to continue to use numerous interventions. All positive energy and peaceful thoughts will be with you through the surgery and recovery!

Sent by Dona | 10:43 PM ET | 09-28-2007

Leroy and Laurie,

Cheesesteaks and big frosty drinks with umbrellas on all of US - you can count on it after this latest battle is behind you.

Until then, I hope you feel strength and reassurance from the thousands you have touched with this blog - we will all be praying for you on Monday, and in the days ahead.

Godspeed,

Amy

Sent by Amy | 12:20 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Dear Leroy,
You don't know me, but after reading your posts I feel I know you. I found your site while researching tumors of the spine. My brothers wife has metastasized breast cancer that has spread to her spine causing great pain and some numbness. She is hospitalized and is speaking with the doctors about surgery, I am sure somewhat like yours. Your courage is hard for me to fatham. You will be in my prayers daily, and I look forward to reading a wonderful post surgery report next week. God be with YOU!

Sent by Debbie Harrington | 12:48 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy,
I admire your positive adittude toward what I know is a daunting surgical proceedure. I will keep you and your loved ones in my prayers and ask that you do the same for me. I am in the 13th month of a diagnosed stage 4 Lung cancer and am wondering what is next for me. I've been fortunate so far to not have too many negative episodes. Who knows what is yet to come. I know that I am loved by many friends and family but worry that I will become a burden. Enough about me.
Peace and all good. I'll be thinking of you on Monday which is the Feast of St. Theresa the little patron of the little way. May she interceed with the Almighty on your behalf.

Sent by Robert G Oehl | 2:32 AM ET | 09-29-2007

My dearest friend always says, "[enjoy] these precious present moments." Be in the moment; surgery will come soon enough.

Off to battle! My prayers are with you!

Elaine

Sent by Elaine Barnes | 9:33 AM ET | 09-29-2007

May God be with you.

Sent by Jane | 10:25 AM ET | 09-29-2007

my prayers are with you Leroy,i am going through chemo and radiation also. I appreciate your blog, it helps keep my head on straight

Sent by doug davis | 10:29 AM ET | 09-29-2007

All of us who are your fans,supporters, listeners, friends and now, because of this blog, family send you off on Monday with big love and great hope. There are many, many unrecognizable faces out here that hold you near and dear in our hearts. Just like with our own families that have faced surgeries, treatments, chemo, etc., we will be there with you on Monday. We will be supporting and loving you and Laurie from all points on the map. Our thoughts and prayers are with you both.

Sent by Penny Coeur d'Alene, Idaho | 10:43 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy- I am always amazed by you and this community you have on line- You continue to give us hope and the will to live each day the best we can. You know every day is precious. You and your docs will be in our thoughts and prayers this weekend and Monday as you have surgery. Don't feel any pressure about the blog- perhaps this community can continue posting without you for a week-or 2. I am sure we all will be thinking about each other continuing to hold each other up for the next day!

Sent by Jeri | 10:43 AM ET | 09-29-2007

HI ! LEROY THE ONLY THING I CAN TELL YOU GODBLESS YOU WITH OLL MY HEARTH AND I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE OK.

ISABEL FROM LONGBRANCH,NJ.

Sent by ISABEL COLLAZO | 10:52 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Dear Leroy,
I read and look forward your to your post daily. I am hopeful for your with this procedure and wish you all the very best!!

Sent by Janet Nafissi | 10:54 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Along with so many others, I send my prayers for smooth sailing in this procedure, Leroy. I hope that you feel immense energy from this unfortunately large population that you have gathered together with your wonderful writings. But, please use that energy for your recovery. We will wait patiently for your next blog whenever it comes, always with you in our thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Jan | 11:03 AM ET | 09-29-2007

I'll be sending out prayers and positive thoughts for you Leroy.
Scarlett

Sent by Scarlett Harris | 11:10 AM ET | 09-29-2007

Thank you Leroy, for all that you do to make others' lives more full of hope. You will be in my thoughts and prayers this Monday. Wishing you a speedy recovery and a release of the pain.

Sent by Barbara Langan | 11:14 AM ET | 09-29-2007

My hopes for healing and prayers go with you. I hope you realize how much I appreciate your blogs. I have cancer and have been surrounded by friends and family members who are also suffering with this disease. You bring hope and determination to us all!

Sent by Nancy Abbott | 11:44 AM ET | 09-29-2007

(continuation of my earlier comment that got cut off when I hit the wrong key) I'm glad you have the activities of this weekend to expend the nervous energy of waiting. And I join the rest of the cirle of folks who "have your back" while you have the docs mend your physical back. We will hold a space of safety, peace, and great, good healing energy for you. We have come to love you during the blog readings: for your grit, for your grace, for your truth-telling and for who you are. My father used "I really do!" as the shorthand to his children when he wanted to say "I love you -- I really do!" I expect there is a sentiment akin to that wafting in from the whole blog community. Can't hurt, and might levitate you for the adventures ahead. Wear it like a lovely blanket, warming you through and through. Namaste! Sarah

Sent by Sarah | 1:08 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy,
You are, indeed, a blessed man. Wonder if the satellites in space are picking up all this powerful energy radiating from across the world on your behalf?
Once we prove on Monday that this wildly powerful,loving energy works on you, perhaps we should turn the spotlight on world peace next! :-)
But first things first; to borrow someone's excellent chant: LE-ROY!
LE-ROY!! LE-ROY!!!
Love, Anita

Sent by Anita Solomon | 1:29 PM ET | 09-29-2007

MSK has gourmet room service, massage, slipper socks and art therapy to allay fears, boost morale and divert attention.
I also treated myself, before surgery to an Ipod full of favorite music, pictures & a video of daughter kicking ass in Tae Kwon Do.
Hold on to the beauty and kindness, and to the faith in your healers' expertise.
Love & Peace to you, Leroy, and all of you brave and battling souls

Sent by Rosetry | 2:58 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy,
I can not come up with any words that have not been said.
You do amaze me with your perseverance. I too will be praying for you Monday.
Take Care

Sent by joyce | 3:11 PM ET | 09-29-2007

I'm a consistent reader and occasionally post a comment. Today I just want to add my good wishes to you on your upcoming surgery. That tumor should be afraid, very afraid! Hugs,
Cindy

Sent by Cindy | 3:26 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Dear Leroy!!!!

Godspeed, my friend.

Love, Briana

Sent by Briana | 3:41 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy, Keep fighting the good fight. I have a mate who's battled cancer and is now clear of it, and recuperating in the U.S. You deserve some luck because of all your pluck. Good fortune on Monday morning and pulverise that tumor. Cheers, Tom

Sent by Tom K in Sydney | 4:32 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy, I don't know if you will get this before your surgery but I am thinking of you and wish you well. Perhaps later after the surgery you can get one of those drinks with the unbrella in it. Maybe that would kill the cancer. LOL. I hope the best for you.
Oh if you ever need information, I am a librarian and you and Laurie (Lorie?) can consider me your personal librarian

Sent by Jean Hughes | 5:00 PM ET | 09-29-2007

You are such an exceptional human being. No modesty now. This is fact. My prayers and blessings surround you as you move forward in your fight with this disease. Stay strong!!

Sent by doris gormley | 5:58 PM ET | 09-29-2007

All our hopes are with you Leroy. You are loved and admired amongst your colleagues. Stay with us.

Sent by Stella | 6:10 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Dear Leroy,
I want to tell you I am sending positive healing energy your way before, during and after your surgery on Monday. And I know you will have a good outcome from having this procedure done. I look forward to reading your blog when you are feeling better.
In Peace,
Lynda

Sent by Lynda Joko | 6:11 PM ET | 09-29-2007

I hope in some small way it helps you to know how many people you have touched with your openness and humor. Even if you don't mean to be, you truly are amazing.

Prayers for you and your family.

Sent by Suzanne | 6:27 PM ET | 09-29-2007

To the many well wishes here, please add the perspective of my husband (an eight year leukemia survivor) and me (a 20 year beneficiary of spine surgery).

Poke the sleeping bear and dance with them what brung ya.

-Laura B.

Sent by Laura B. | 6:31 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy,
Good luck on Monday. You have many people wishing you the best and sending their good thoughts and prayers your way. I am a physician with metastatic breast cancer. My husband is a spine surgeon. We have both taken care of people with metastatic spinal disease, and attitude is everything. I am sure you will do great and in a couple of months will be over this surgery and in less pain. We will be thinking of you Monday. Thank you for your daily blogs. I look forward to reading them each day.

Sent by Anu Datyner | 8:08 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy, I will be thinking of you on Monday and I hope your surgery goes well! Get well quickly ;) Thoughts and prayers your way!
Continue to be strong as always.

Sent by Cristina Gonzalez | 9:36 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Dear Leroy: I don't post often but i have been reading your blog daily pretty much since the beginning. You are a truly amazing human being, and an inspiration and friend to so many. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and Laurie on Monday, as they are every day.
Suzanne

Sent by Suzanne | 10:29 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy - better late than never to add one more blessing for success on Monday. You are the CHAMP! (theme from Rocky playing in soundtrack) Good luck - we'll all be pulling for a speedy recovery.

Sent by Bob Maimone | 10:46 PM ET | 09-29-2007

Leroy, You are in my prayers.

Mike

Sent by M Haanel | 11:56 PM ET | 09-29-2007

God speed on your recovery Leroy. I will miss your blogs for the time your off and will be checking in regularly for updates on your recovery. With everyone in the family thinking good thoughts and praying for you, I hope you feel us like a warm fuzzy blanket keeping you warm and safe...

Sent by Ellie Wingerson | 1:31 AM ET | 09-30-2007

I'll be thinking of you while you go through this. I admire so much that you fight and fight and fight to stay alive, it's a wonderful tribute to the people you love that you are trying so hard to stick around. Looking forward to your next blog entry. Love and prayers.

Sent by Lisa Burt | 5:44 AM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy - I hear you.

Sent by Sleepless in Seattle | 8:42 AM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy,

I have a hunch your name, Leroy, goes back to the French "le roi," the king. Indeed you are. Blessings.

Sent by Diana Kitch | 12:25 PM ET | 09-30-2007

But, Leroy, please, please have your wife post updates on how you are doing while you are away. Please?

Anyway, I know you'll do fine and hope the surgery solves the problem. We'll all be thinking of you tomorrow.

Sent by Nancy McFadder | 12:33 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Dear Leroy:
I wish you well on Monday and hope that everything turns out great for you. I enjoy reading your blog. You are an inspiration to many and your sense of humor is wonderful. Prayers for you. Barbara Usher

Sent by barbara usher | 1:39 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Dear Leroy,
I've been following your blog for a year now, but I never wrote because I thought to follow a cancer blog in the USA while leaving in Spain was pretty creppy. Anyways, I just wanted to wish you best of luck and know that someone will be thinking about you next week when most americans are sleeping.
Best and thanks for your blog,
Sole
(after you recover from your surgery, I'll teach you how to pronounce my name)

Sent by Sole Santos | 2:25 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Finally October 1 is almost here. You have no choice in what to do but you also display great courage. Thank you for sharing your cancer life with me. It is okay to be afraid and my prayers are for you and the powers of healing in your body, but your surgeons and other medical staff.

Sent by Gay | 3:23 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy,
You are incredibly courageous, and must really love your life. I know that you say you have no choice because this is the "hand you've been dealt," but you could have said "enough" a long time ago. But you are still choosing to undergo procedures, surgeries, and treatment. That's what I call courage.
Good luck to you. Godspeed.

Sent by Donna | 5:04 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Your attitude helps me keep going. Tumor begone. My prayers are with you.
With care,

Anne

Sent by anne lumberger | 8:08 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy,
I have thought of you often this weekend and will be praying for you, Laurie, and your doctors. We are thankful you have an option and hope this operation will be successful. I know you will come roaring back and continue to share your journey with all of us - providing the much needed hope for all those battling this disease. God bless.

Sent by Nancy and Phillip Owen | 8:15 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Dear Leroy,

I look forward to reading your BLOG daily and will be thinking of you tomorrow. I have stage IIIC breast cancer and live in constant fear of a recurrence. Your humor and insight are an inspiration to me. Thank you for opening your heart to me, another resident of the Cancer World.

Pat

Sent by Pat | 8:19 PM ET | 09-30-2007

It's getting closer to the time of surgery and I am feeling that anxiety (or maybe it's the "no eating" rule that I feel before procedures.
You are in such good hands and I know you are have just the right spirit.
Can't wait for the updates.
Be strong.
Use the painkillers.

Sent by Robin Smith | 8:44 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy,

Good luck tomorrow. I started following your blog after the Discovery Channel doc. I just thought you were so engaging.

I'm also an OR nurse and reading your thoughts as a patient helps me to better take care of mine. SO thanks from me and all the folks that your insights are rippling out to on the 'big lake of life'.

Sent by Karen | 9:58 PM ET | 09-30-2007

God bless you and your family, Leroy. You and the rest of the cancer community are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Joyce | 10:09 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy, Good Luck Tommorow. My prayers will be with you. I have my 2 year followup appt/mammogram tommorow, so am saying some prayers myself. Best wishes for a pain free, speedy recovery amd a cool drink with an umbrella.

Sent by Beth | 11:12 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Leroy,

There is a great belief for many of us that prayers have a powerful effect on healing and are related. With so many people sending you bursting rays of positive energy tomorrow, there's no doubt you won't be affected by those prayers on your behalf. You have connected with us and we connect with you in your journey. I'm also thinking of all those with you tomorrow, the doctors, nurses and what must be a multitude of staff for such a lengthy operation. We can't know exactly what you're going through, but we can be there with you in spirit to help you through. All the best, Leroy, for a smooth operation & recovery.

Sent by sheron | 11:16 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Dear Leroy, I have been reading your blog since seeing you on the Ted Koppel special but this is the first time I am writing. I had to wish you the very best tomorrow and in all the days to follow. You have so beautifully put to words the complex emotions that run through our minds every day and I feel like I know you. My husband is also fighting the beast and gets great inspiration from you. You hang in there and know that our thoughts and prayers are with you. Take good care of yourself. Lorraine

Sent by Lorraine | 11:41 PM ET | 09-30-2007

Dear Leroy:

May the Lord Bless you and keep you safe.You are in my prayers..
I'll pray tomarrow all through your surgery.And after for your quick recovery.


God Bless you and yours,

Beth Morrison

Sent by Beth Morrison | 12:02 AM ET | 10-01-2007

Dear Leroy,
It's Monday morning near 3:00 and here's one person wishing you even now: GO GET 'EM! You're not just looking at the hand you've been dealt, you're gonna spill some chemical on it and watch it go, forever more. So, as I said, GO GET 'EM - you can! Love, Kathy

Sent by Kathleen Hale | 2:53 AM ET | 10-01-2007

It sounds like such a tough op and after so many other procedures recently. I hope you find support in all these posts to help you through this one too. My sincerest best wishes to you and your family and to the doctors carrying out the procedure. I also hope that strong sense of humour you have keeps going as it seeems to help us all.
Remember, there's hundreds of people trying to carry you now Leroy. We cant be there in person but we are all trying to be as close as we can to help you through this.....just kill that SOB.

Sent by JJ | 3:10 AM ET | 10-01-2007

Good luck, Leroy. I look forward to reading your first post-surgery post SOON! Thinking of you today, Margaret in Florence, Italy

Sent by Margaret | 5:12 AM ET | 10-01-2007

I've been reading your blog ever since I watched the special you did with Ted Koppel. Your words have inspired me as I have endured by cancer journey this past year. I will keep you in my prayers. May your surgery be a success. I'll miss your postings and look forward to reading them again sometime soon. Keep the faith and your sense of humor! You can beat this.

Sent by Pam Cassidy | 8:56 AM ET | 10-01-2007

Leroy, so surprised when I looked to see your comments, but not really. Were in your corner today. Stay Strong

Sent by dorothy | 1:21 PM ET | 10-01-2007

Oh my gosh! I leave you alone for a few days, come back and find you are going through surgery.

How compassionate to think of everyone else even when you are facing major surgery.

I'm heading in for my chemo treatment and can honestly say my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope and pray you find yourself pain and cancer free when you wake up (who knows, maybe the lung nodules will look at what's going on and decide to flee the area).

Sent by Karen D. | 4:05 PM ET | 10-01-2007

A day without your blog would be a day without sunshine. I so look forward to seeing how you are doing each day. It was so nice of your wife and Ted Koppel to keep us informed of your condition. I remember you in my prayers, Leroy, and I know the Great One will pull you through this. Patience is not my greatest talent either. Had my knee replaceed in May and it took a long, long time. But it finally paid off. Now I am back in chemo for my lung cancer which I've had for two years and I pray each day. I wish you well and hang in there, buddy.

Sent by Sheila Rollings | 12:49 PM ET | 10-13-2007



   
   
   
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