I am glad to hear you are home and to hear from you.
Take care.
I am also glad that you do feel supported by all of us.

Sent by JJ | 7:50 AM ET | 10-11-2007

You have helped so many. Hang in there and we will all keep praying.

Sent by sarah | 7:54 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Good Morning Leroy,

I think, it is normal for people not to be patient. I know that at times, I am extremely impatient especially when I do no longer have control on my life, surroundings, and it appears to that everything I am trying to do harder than it should be.

Continue to rest, recuperate, and heal. As my dad would say, "Slow down and take time to smell the roses." Since it is fall, take time to smell the leaves burning if you can find someone who is doing that.

Sent by Sue Chap | 7:57 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy
As one door closes another opens. Wishing for a wonderful view!

Sent by Patricia A | 8:04 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Welcome back! It is always easier for others to talk about patience than those trying to endure what needs patience. Reading everyone's emails to you and seeing their concern and desire to share their feelings was a joy for me so I can only imagine what it might have felt like for you. I know dealing with the blog right now might be difficult but I always think putting feelings into words helps so I encourage you to "dictate" those demons. Peace

Sent by Dona | 8:11 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I'm believing that your vision will return & looking forward to your pain being a distant memory. I'm surprised to find myself considering you my friend....I talk about Leroy & when people discover that I know you through your blog, I get a roll of their eyes. You are important to me and everyone else reading this blog....others living with cancer can truly relate....thank you & I am praying for your good health.

Sent by Jennifer A | 8:11 AM ET | 10-11-2007

A Very Good Morning Leroy! How nice to be able to say that once again.
You have experienced pain for so long now, that I think you would not recognize freedom from it.
The stroke is a different animal and Leroy, I do not mean to play "know it all" but I had the exact same thing happen to me six months ago and was told exactly the same things.
How was Cancer involved. except that a clot formed, (probably during one of your surgeries) which blocked & damaged the eyes. I can tell you that now, six mos later, I have some improvement in the vision, and am learning to adjust to turning my head more to see to the sides. It is very difficult not being able to realize what is to my left without turning my head which then, makes me lose the right side of the field. But it seems to be changing constantly, and hopefully, yours will also. YOU have been through so much but you will discover, as you have with the Cancer, that your vision will adapt and change to fit your needs.
I was an Artist, so you can imagine MY depression with not being able to paint and participate in the Annual Art Show, which happens to be taking place in Millwood VA as I type this! But. like You Leroy, I am determined to overcome this and will YET, get back to my Art!
Fight on, we are with you!

Sent by J C R | 8:12 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Prayers for your back pain - this too shall pass and we will be counting the hours with you until it does. Until then, please practice, "better living through chemistry". Pain will slow down your recovery and I am sure make you grumpy as heck.

My prayers for the healing of your eyes. Losing my vision has always been one of my greatest fears.

Peace be with you the next few weeks (and always of course).

Sent by Robin LeTourneau | 8:14 AM ET | 10-11-2007

It's sad that eradicating this hideous disease is not our country's #1 priority. If 5 years ago we put all the money and human resources into fighting cancer, instead of down the drain in Iraq, who knows how many people could have a better outcome. Leroy I have nothing but respect for your courage and resilancy, keep on keeping on!

Sent by David Pierce | 8:15 AM ET | 10-11-2007

We are glad to have you back. Dictate away and let Maeve do the postings. One of the things that we are all reluctant to do is to ask others to help us when we do really need it. Please let others help. It does make them feel useful and a part of your overall healing process. What greater gift is there to help someone in a time of need!! The way we can help you is to continue our prayers and good thoughts for your healing. Your extended family of bloggers remain at our stations and the prayers continue for you and Laurie. Count on it!!

Sent by Al Cato | 8:16 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Greetings from one of your side-line cheerleaders. We send up a cheer for you everyday.

Sent by Susan | 8:21 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Thank you Leroy for your update. You are really coping with so much right now. Pain can just distort everything as you so well know. The unexpected curves in the road just seem the most unfair. I hope you can find some peace this day, this moment for your body and your mind. Your blog family continues to be here for you in every possible way we can be. JLMoyer

Sent by JLmoyer | 8:22 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,

Hello. Every morning my partner, Virgie, asks me, "how's Leroy?" She sits down, before she leaves for work and I read her your blog. (If it's a podcast, she gets to hear your voice, which is always a good thing.)

We are both carrying you in our thoughts, prayers, hearts, sending you all the healing energy that it's possible to send. It's a morning ritual here, our cats and dogs gather around us, and cup of coffee in hand, we check to see how you are doing.

We both are sorry you are in so much pain. The issue of the stroke is a terrible blow to be dealing with on top of the cancer. Vision is such a precious thing, while losing one-third of your vision in each eye is not fatal, it's an enormous loss for anyone's spirit. (it would be for me.) I always think of you as a person with great vision, and I mean that in the symbolic way. Doing this blog has shown courageous vision on your part.

We are out here, surrounding you and Laurie in love. Hold on to that. We are both hoping that your physical vision comes back 100%. We know you'll never lose any of the wonderful, life-changing vision of your spirit and heart.

Heartlight and peace,

Kim & Virgie

Sent by Kim Blankenship | 8:25 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I can't say it better than David Pierce did. We're all pulling for you Leroy!

Sent by Ann Donley | 8:27 AM ET | 10-11-2007

So good to hear from you Leroy, and especially to hear that you are not dragging yourself to the computer each day so as not to disappoint us. That worried me, because I knew you'd still be in a lot of pain. As someone said, learn to accept help....it is a gift which serves both the receiver and the giver!!

I know how troublesome your worry about your eyesight is; try to set it aside each day, especially now, when you are recuperating and don't rely too much on it, and accept that God's healing is continuing both on your body and your eyesight at the same time. I feel certain that eventually, you will have either recovered your vision or will have received the strength to accept what is and adapt, as you have done in the past with every other obstacle that has been thrown into your path. There is no use worrying about it, what will be, will be. Try to put your mind at ease and concentrate on healing.

Loving thoughts and prayers continue your way.

Sent by betty obst | 8:36 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy this is the first time posting I read your posting every day my husband are in the last stages of cancer he can't wait to get a up date from Leroy we missed you while you were in the hospital hang in their that's all we can do yall are the brave ones going threw treatments and lots of surgery cj

Sent by Carolyn johnson | 8:47 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I missed you - my thoughts were with you everyday. I don't feel like my workday can begin until I have heard from you - what a gift you are to all of us! Thank you for blogging through the pain!

Nancy

Sent by nancy | 8:47 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, YOU are a source of strength and inspiration. The fact that your surgeons are so thrilled with the outcome is outstanding. Oh, and those doc's that said they think your vision will likely return? Those are the one's I'm bettin' on. Stay tough!

Sent by Karen Laven | 8:50 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy, I too am not a patient person and as a nurse don't like being a patient at all. I have side effects from my radiation that affected my vision which I hope will resolve. I am sorry you are still in some pain and hope that you are taking your pain medicine (sometimes that's the only thing that helps me get through the day). Thank you so much for continuing this blog by whatever means you are able and you have a great support at NPR and from your friends and family in addition to all your blog family. We love you and continue to pray for you.

Sent by Vicki (FL) | 8:53 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy
So happy to see a note from you. I am sending all the good karma I can your way to make the pain less. Just rest..we are all here for you

Sent by Ellie Wingerson | 8:54 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Thanks for the note Leroy. Get stronger and take your time.

Sent by Brit | 9:03 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Good morning, Leroy

I'm so sorry about everything you're going through. Not sure what to say other than that I'm thinking about you, I care, I read your blog every day, and, of course, I hope your vision returns and your pain goes away - soon.

Warmest wishes from Cincinnati.

Sent by Jane | 9:10 AM ET | 10-11-2007

"Home sings me of sweet things
Life there has it's own wings
Fly over the mountain
Though I'm standing still"
-Carla Bonoff

I wish that all the comforts of home will help aid in a steady, solid recovery from surgery and pain free days to come. Big hug to you both!

Sent by NancyGM | 9:11 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Welcome home. You will feel better out of the hospital and at home. Good luck with your pain and with your vision.

Sent by mt | 9:13 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
Just sending you a hardy HELLO HUG and my recommendations as "Dr. friend" that you allow yourself large doses of exhausted, grumpy, miserable, sad and mad. Follow that up with slowly increasing doses of joy, hunger, gratitude and increased energy.
Take time to heal.
Thanks for dictating today!

Sent by Deb | 9:22 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
I am glad to hear you're home and somewhat mobile. I'm sorry about your vision, hopefully it will come back. But if it doesn't you will find a way to cope with that also. This stuff really sucks-I guess we should just be thankful for modern medicine and enjoying what we can! Listen to the radio, there's this great show called NPR.

Sent by Donna | 9:29 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear friend:
My vacation continues, and every day you are in my thoughts.
As I sit here in the internet cafe of a deluxe cruise ship, tears run down my cheeks because i want so much for your pain to lift and your vision to improve.
You and your journey are so much a part of my life. I am grateful for whatever comfort you derive from my and all the bloggers love and concern.

Sent by Harriet | 9:29 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Thanks for your update. As you are the king of positive thinking, you know this too shall pass. All of my positive thoughts to you and yours.

Sent by Betty OConnor | 9:30 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy - I hope & pray the pain goes away sooner than doctors say. Keep up the fight!

Sent by Brian Dowd | 9:33 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Keep on keepin' on, Leroy!

Sent by Heidi | 9:33 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Just so you know--it is YOUR messages that are a daily source of strength and inspiration to many people. Thank you.

Sent by Kathy Essex | 9:36 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Just want to thank you for sharing your journey with cancer in a way that is honest, hopeful and thought provoking. Like so many other readers,checking in with you has become part of my day. When I was dealing with infertility I used the internet as a great source of support and everyone was always sending one another "baby dust" on my message boards in the hopes that it would help us conceive. At the time I thought it was a little hokey and sappy but I appreciated the sentiment. So, in that spirit I am sending you powerful "healing dust" to rid you of pain and help your vision improve. Hey, it can't hurt.

Sent by Amy | 9:36 AM ET | 10-11-2007

So, loss of vision will be "the first time that my cancer will have truly changed my life." So your life has not been truly changed before this? Boy how our perspective changes with this disease. I told my pharmicisst this morning that I "love" my new medications - because they are not nearly as horrible as the last ones!!!

Sent by Cheryl Leatherwood | 9:37 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Ah Leroy...you ended your message today by saying "...all of your notes are a daily source of strength and inspiration."

Dear man...that is exactly what we all feel from your blog entries!

Rest and recuperate.

Peggy

Sent by Peggy Miles | 9:38 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,

I am so sorry to hear about the vision. I thought it was only one eye, which I have dealt with for many years due to childhood amblyopia. I always fear losing my good eye, because I would become legally blind. I can understand your feelings right now very well. "Sight" is something so many people take for granted. To be in pain, and have your vision messed up is a double blow. That has a HUGE impact. I wish there was something I could do - you don't deserve this, but all I can do is pray that the vision will return or improve to a degree that you can adapt to it. The pain, I hope will lessen, and one by one things will improve until you are totally well, and on your feet again, driving and living life to the fullest. That is my constant prayer, Leroy. In the meantime, God Bless you and Laurie.

Sent by Connie E. | 9:39 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,
Just tried to post and some goofy error thing came up, so if you get this twice, pls. adjust! So glad you're home to heal. May you continue to have the grace and tenacity to endure the discomfort, the vision issue, the interval of healing. Love to you from Sherri in Texas, BC dx 4-06

Sent by Sherri Eggleston | 9:41 AM ET | 10-11-2007

thank you for taking the time to post, even if someone else did it, you took the time to send us a message.
I really hope that the pain lessens every day, even if just a little, at least you'll know there is progress. Sending you healing energy as always!
jenn

Sent by Jenn | 9:42 AM ET | 10-11-2007

So very, very nice to have you back with us, Leroy. I think cancer has already 'truly changed your life' - perhaps your vision would be the first PHYSICAL change but I'll bet you've changed in how you react to your daily experiences. I know we have. Life - and every moment of each day - is so much more precious now. Reaching out to those we meet along this life journey, showing them that we care, putting more importance on being kind and compassionate ... leaving a legacy to be proud of. You're setting a beautiful example with your blog and I thank you.

You continue to be in my prayers, Leroy.

Sent by Dianne in NV | 9:45 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy - I know the vision problem is really scary and the pain is severe, so until it resolves - close your eyes and feel all of our positive energy lift you up.

Sent by Michelle | 9:47 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I can't tell you how happy it makes me to read (and reread) your dictated message this morning, Leroy. For you to continue to share your journey with us in your typically direct and personal way is but one of the qualities that has so endeared you to those of us in your prayer circle/fan club.
Just so you know...
I scan thru lots of accumulated
e-mails each morning deleting many w/o ever opening them. AND THEN THERE ARE THE E-MAILS FROM NPR!!! I quite literally put my cup of coffee cup down, turn off my radio and open each of your entries with such anticipation my heart actually quickens.
It's like the moment you spot a really good friend walking toward you at the airport and know how happy you're going to be to spend time together even when things in one or both of your lives isn't going particularly well. That's what your presence has become for me, Leroy, and I have no doubt from reading entries from all over the country others feel the same bond that I'm struggling to describe. YOU'RE OUR GUY, LEROY. HANG TUFF!!
Love, Anita

Sent by Anita Solomon | 9:48 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Been away from the blog for about a week, but have thought about you every day. Glad you are home. There's something soft and wonderful about your own place. My very best for your recovery.

Nikki

Sent by Nikki Schwerdfeger | 9:51 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,
You have a gift of reaching inside and putting whats there in a few words. You have helped me so much with this. I find myself quoting you so often. Each time I have to go through something I stand at the end of it and am amazed that it is over, and I made it through. I hope this all goes that way for you. Keeping you and yours in my heart and prayers.

Sent by Eileen Pluta | 9:52 AM ET | 10-11-2007

So sorry about your pain Leroy. Hopefully it will pass soon.

The vision issue really sucks. I'm visualizing the vision coming back as the pain decreases. By the time the pain is gone, your vision will have returned. Let's see if that works for you.

Sent by Laurel M. Jones | 9:54 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, As much as you thank us, likewise I need to thank you for your honesty and strength which shine through so beautifully in your words and life. Keep strong and rest well!

Sent by christine | 9:54 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

Simply said, "You are the MAN!.

Every best wish,

Jerome Magid

Sent by Jerome Magid | 9:55 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

You are a force.

Everything is scary when it's new. Believe me, there are "things" I am left with as a souvenier I wish I didn't have. But isn't it always the way? We know there is no question of the trade-off we made; we would do it again. Maybe not gladly, but still, we would prevail.

Leroy, there is still so much to do.

Sent by Teri Thomas | 9:55 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Welcome back, Leroy!

It is truly a blessing that your back surgery went as well expected. I pray that your recovery from that surgery also goes as well as expected.

While this particular surgery had a "small in the major scheme of things" price to pay--a stroke, the bottomline line is that those bone mets and the vertebrae that they had attached themselves on are no longer in your body.

While, the surgery was necessitated by the presence of cancer, I would respectfully suggest to you that you not give the cancer the power suggested your statement regarding should your vision not be fully restored that it will be the first time that cancer will have truly changed your life. The stroke was a risk of such a delicate and long surgery. Notwithstanding the cancer necessitated the surgery, surgeries for non-cancer related reasons have risks such as stroke inherent in them.
Whatever the outcome with your vision, don't give cancer the power of it having minimized your vision. I'll certainly be praying that God grant you the courage to adapt in ways that continue to maximize your enjoyment of life.

In the meantime, I'll leave you and all of your friends and supporters on this blog with the following quote from an anonymous author:

What Cancer Cannot Do

It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot destroy faith.
It cannot destroy peace.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot suppress memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot invade the soul.
It cannot steal eternal life.
It cannot conquer the spirit.

Peace and Blessings to all today.
Respectfully,
Minoar

Sent by Minora Sharpe | 9:59 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy, I am so happy you are back at home. You have been an inspiration to me as I finish a Clinical Trial this month. I lost vision in one of my eyes after radiation but the vision returned to almost 20/40. You can have hope about vision but it might take patience. I heard a great quote: "Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape." I think you are wonderful and look forward to hearing from you often

Sent by Ann Erdenberger | 10:01 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Today you said that the comments are a source of strength and inspiration for you. I am happy for that, But let me said I have kidney and lung cancer and have been reading your blog daily for a long time. I have been through a lot, but by no means all that you have been through. YOU have given me strength and inspiration. I wish you a speedy recovery, my friend. I know we have never met, but I still consider you my friend. Take care.

Sent by Roger C. | 10:02 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Thank you for writing Leroy. My day can go on. You don't know how much I look forward to just seeing your words.

Sent by Lisa | 10:05 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, I am so glad you are home now! Being home is such a nice place to be and the next progression on the recovery road. Reading about your surgery brings back a flood of my own memories from surgeries. Not only am I thinking about you frequently and praying for your complete recovery, I am confident that, with a little time, your body will heal with the loss of pain and that your eyesight will come back. As one of your other readers commented, I consider you a good friend, even though we've not actually met. Your daily blog and your gift to write are such an inspiration and source of comfort for me, and I'm sure many others. Please be patient, my friend, your body has an amazing ability to heal.

Sent by Jeffrey Beach | 10:14 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi, Leroy. I read you daily and keep good thoughts for you. My husband has stage iv colon cancer. But I have MS--and not the kind that people think "there is anything wrong with you"!

One of those things is my peripheral vision. I too can't drive, but I found this isn't as bad as other things. Can you read?

My eye doctor gave me exercises to do that helped my peripheral vision, and I wear glasses that allow my eyes to work at the same time.

As for patience, no patient is patient, and men are normally the least patient. My husband wants the drains out so he can go swimming!

Fondly, Tommy in NYC

Sent by Tommy McDonell | 10:15 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I was gladdened to read you made it home. Each day I look for you posts and wishing you a speedy recovery.

A friend of mine, who was recovering from a kidney transplant, taught me a trick to manage the pain. He told me to breathe deeply for 20 minute sessions. I didn't think I had the patience to do this, but I had no other choice because the pain medication was not working. After a couple of sessions, I got some relief. I also find that the more I practice it, the better the results.

Sent by JA | 10:17 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
To say that I couldn't wait to read your blog this morning is an understatement. Your progress is so very important to us all.
This morning, my local paper carried a article about you and the positive impact of your blog. Now maybe my friends will understand when I "go on" about Leroy.
Keep envisioning yourself walking, smiling, and feeling pain free.
Joan F

Sent by Joan F | 10:18 AM ET | 10-11-2007

home sweet home! my heart is singing for you today! the healing will be so much better from home. i'm sure of it. all the best.

Sent by ejd | 10:20 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I am glad you are home. Hopefully your pain will go away soon. And your vision return You are an inspiration to all. Thank you for your blog.

Sent by D. Rubin | 10:22 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Hello, Leroy. I read your blog everyday and you are continually an inspiration to me. I actually update my co-workers daily on how you are doing and we are all rooting for you. I am so relieved that your surgery went (relatively) well. You are in my thoughts and I wish you as speedy a recovery as possible.

Sent by Margo Roberts | 10:26 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Mr. Sievers...I wish you continued strength in your huge fight against this dread disease. I will be praying and thinking good thoughts for you .. and your family. Best wishes -
Patti

Sent by Patti McCurdy | 10:27 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I'm so glad that you're home and able to be annoyed. I've been reading your blog since shortly after the Ted Koppel program, but this is my first comment. I'm 2.5 years out from breast cancer and radiation, my husband is 6 months out from radiation for prostate cancer, my good friend is just finishing up her radiation for breast cancer. And it goes on, and on, and on. You're an inspiration to us all. Keep on keeping on!

Sent by Mary Zelle | 10:27 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,
I hope that you are taking your pain meds and not trying to tough it out. I pray that your vision will return, but if it does not, I know that you will adapt in some way, because you have the capacity to do so.
I read your posts every day since watching the Discovery documentary. Unfortunately I am losing my beloved 57 y/o sister to this dreadful disease as I write this. She is with hospice now. Her cancer spread within her peritoneal lining and to her liver and onward and upward. The way that she dealt with her cancer is the antithesis of the way that you do: she is, and has been, passive and defers to the "professionals." But in her own way, she is quite a fighter. I love her so and can't bear to think of life without her. So I want to tell you that your blogs actually help me to cope. I am sorry for what you are going through, but I'm glad that you are proactive and actually have a life. I am sending you positive thoughts and hope that in some small way, this will help you. You are an inspiration in more ways than you can ever imagine. Blessings to you and Laurie.

Sent by Donna | 10:28 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi Leroy,

Wow, recovery is not fun, but you know you are on your way. Now is the time to rent all those DVD's of every comedy you love and have a laughfest of healing. Also, I personally love and used Tony Kornheiser's books during my worst moments and they definitely made me smile. Even if reading is difficult now get someone to read to u. I think of you everyday, tell my friends about you and send prayers and good thoughts your way.

Hang in there Leroy,

Lianne

Sent by Lianne Friedman | 10:32 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Hang in there! You mean a great deal to all of us.

Sent by Susan | 10:39 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,
Again, welcome home dear friend. I think you find it very therapeutic when you engross yourself in helping others cope with their problems. You have offered us comfort and assistance in countless ways. Who would have thought you would have been posting this soon, and for this I thank you.

I wish only the best for you; maybe another trip to Hawaii in the very near future, God willing. You are all about sweetness, sunshine and smiles. Hang in their big guy, you are too precious to lose.

As always, prayers to you and Laurie

Sent by sasha | 10:42 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I am so happy to "hear your voice" again! Everyone is pulling for your speedy recovery.

Sent by Rachel | 10:45 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Real difficulties can be overcome; it is only the imaginary ones that are unconquerable. Theodore Vail
God bless and keep you as you deal with the exhausting pain - may it be less and less each day. God bless and keep you as you deal with the unknown vision issues. Your fight is not lost on those of us who are walking beside you on the monster cancer's path.
I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer. Psalm 17:6 NIV

Sent by Barbara O'Neill | 10:51 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Joy at your homecoming will be matched by the miracle of being pain-free. It's on it's way.
Glad you're back to the blog. We think of you daily.
I'm on the side of the docs who say your vision will return.

Sent by Ceese Stickles | 10:54 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy: So glad you are out of the hospital. As an avid reader like you, and a person who has also experienced severe back pain and vision problems, I have discovered audio books. You can lie back, close your eyes and be drawn into a theatre of the mind. Most public libraries deliver unabridged books right over the internet. They are also great for those times when you wake up in the middle of the night with pain or worries. It is very therapeutic to plug into someone else's voice in the darkness. May your physical AND emotional recovery be swift!

Sent by Karen | 10:58 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, you continue to be an inspiration. I have followed your blog from the beginning and I look forward to each day's posting. Hang in there. We need you.

Sent by John McCrillis | 11:01 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Good Morning Leroy,
It was wonderful to hear from you so soon. Just take your time and heal. We are all here for you. Enjoy those little things right now.....sitting around and watching TV, having a nice cool drink, sending out for fast food, renting a movie, being with Laurie. Hang in there my friend.

Sent by Teresa in WV | 11:06 AM ET | 10-11-2007

I'm glad you're home again. I believe your eyesight will come back. The brain is amazing and has a huge ability to recover and compensate. Hang tough.

Sent by Marcia | 11:14 AM ET | 10-11-2007

You are such a trooper, Leroy. The thing i hated most about cancer and its treatment was the pain, and the fear of the pain. I have no good words of advice for you, but am amazed and grateful that you are writing (or dictating, as the case may be) one week after surgery. I hope you have lots of good pain medicine - - be sure to take it!! Better living through chemistry, as they say...

Has anyone heard from STEPHANIE DORNBROOK? i haven't seen a posting from her in a while, and i am concerned.

Be well, Leroy.
Suzanne in Houston

Sent by Suzanne | 11:17 AM ET | 10-11-2007

It makes my day to read your words on the screen again! We've been following your story as always. This time has been a real "bear," but what you say about the pain being a little less when you come home rings true. When my husband came home from his cancer surgery, that move back to personal space made a difference.

Sent by Sally & Tom | 11:17 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, so glad you are back! Your voice was truly missed. I hope you can find small pleasures in each day.
Lisa D.

Sent by Lisa D. | 11:21 AM ET | 10-11-2007

It is amazing how someone most of us have never met can make such a profound difference in our day to day lives. We laugh with you, cry with you, miss you when you're gone, and rejoice when you come home. Sounds like family...the family of humanity related in some way by our own mortality and this hellish disease. Leroy, you are a part of us all now, as we are of you. I wish there was more we could do to speed your healing but, since your words are what brought us all together, our words will be the balm we offer....to you and Laurie, both. May you both feel our thoughts and love.

Sent by Sandi Li | 11:31 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

Oh dear - both eyes! I had thought it was only the left. Pain makes everyone grumpy - so you don't need to be an angel. As for patience, it's pretty hard to have when so much hangs in the balance. I am thinking of you throughout each day.

Sent by Diana Kitch | 11:31 AM ET | 10-11-2007

You are part of my prayers every morning...I only hope that you know how much your voice and ability to communicate mean to the literally thousands of people out there doing battle with cancer...I pray that your pain will ease, your vision will improve and your life, which has so much meaning to others, will continue.

God Bless,

Tim Broussard

Sent by Tim Broussard | 11:39 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Sending warm hugs your way and praying for less pain, more strength. If you have to be down and out recuperating for awhile, might as well have ice cream!!

Sent by Karen | 11:39 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

I'm so glad you are home and recovering. Thank you so much for keeping us posted on your recovery. I know it's hard but it's good to hear that you are back home. I wish I could say something to make you feel better but just know that there are people like me who read your blog every day and are pulling for you.

Peace,

Linda in Riverside, CA

Sent by Linda Scott | 11:48 AM ET | 10-11-2007

"So was I once myself a swinger of birches.
And so I dream of going back to be.
It's when I'm weary of considerations,
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig's having lashed across it open.
I'd like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth's the right place for love:
I don't know where it's likely to go better.
I'd like to go by climbing a birch tree,
And climb black branches up a snow-white trunk
Toward heaven, till the tree could bear no more,
But dipped its top and set me down again.
That would be good both going and coming back.
One could do worse than be a swinger of birches."
- Excerpt from "Birches" by Robert Frost

Sent by Jen | 11:49 AM ET | 10-11-2007

So, how tired are you of hearing the pain will lessen which each passing moment. But the good thing is, it's true. Please know that I'm behind you, telling that pain to give it a rest and let you go forward.

I'm sorry you have to adjust to a change, be it temporary or not. Knowing you, Leroy, it will be either temporary, or you will find a way to equalize things again. You seem to me to be a great equalizer (do you remember that show?)

Take good care, feel free to complain as much as you want, but try to look for those little signs that things really are getting better.

love,
Wendy

Sent by Wendy Murphey | 11:49 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Hang in there, Leroy! I'm so glad the postings are giving you strength. It's a pleasure to return just a bit of what you give us. I continue to send all good vibes I can your way. Take care, Jan

Sent by Jan | 11:59 AM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

Glad you are home and healing.

You have hit it on the head about the pain---you cannot get away from it and it SEEMS like it will never end. It is a crazymaking thing. You cannot get away from it, you think it will never end. You cannot do your usual activities that help you forget such things. IT SUCKS!

But...know that it will improve. Maybe it will be slow, but it will improve. Same with your sight. That just sucks big stinking rotten eggs, but it will hopefully improve a bit over time.

Know that we are all pulling for you and that we are sending our best.

Your blog got me thru my rounds of chemo. I'm here to help pull you through this.

Sent by Kalev | 12:04 PM ET | 10-11-2007

So glad you're home. Sorry to hear about so much discomfort, but try and hang in there. Hoping your eyesight will improve. We're all willing it. I sure do understand about not being a patient patient! Take care

Sent by Sandy Lathe | 12:05 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear LEroy,
It feels so good to have you back with us! As so many others here have said, I have come to think of you as a friend -- or actually, more like a member of our family. Every day, I bring my husband and others up to date on "the latest news about Leroy."I hate that you are in such constant pain, though. Please don't try to cut back on the painkiller medications too soon.As for worry and impatience, well, they are perfectly normal and you have every right to feel that way, of course. But I also know that we can never know what the future holds...so I wish you the peace of living one day at a time.

Sent by Doris | 12:05 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, There's not too much that I can add, beyond all of the many posts above. If there was a Vegas line on your healing, and if I were a betting woman, I'd put my money on you beating the odds to recover more quickly than the surgeons expect. We're all sending you healing love.

Sent by Sheara | 12:08 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
I am coming up on my fourth month since my last cancer surgery. I am just now weening myself off the Morphine. I was up to 900 mg per day and am now back to 150 mg, however still in pain. My points are 1. Take your pain medicine(we do need the help at times) 2. Don't rush the recovery (I like you want to get on with my life but it takes time) 3. Constant Pain can be a drag (don't take it out on your loved ones or caregiver). I am very concerned about your sight and hope it returns. To lose a little bit of your freedom (driving) would be a lot for me to bear at this time also. I am sending my best wishes and prayers that your recovery goes faster than expected and your sight returns to an acceptable level. Take care my friend and live.

Sent by Don Cornwell | 12:19 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Good morning, my mother(78) has lung cancer stage four, but gets up 3 times a week and goes to the Y to exercise, my youger son has been hospitalized in a state mental health facility for two and a half years and is in the midst of a "break" but he's going to college, working and hoping to play football next year at his school. I get up every day (for nearly 30 years)and come to the Dept of Human Services and am reminded by someone that all in all my life is a walk in the park. Thank you for being my walk in the park reminder today. Feel better, you have my prayers.

Sent by Dianna Austin | 12:20 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Thank you so much for taking the time and energy to dictate the blog. I'm so sorry you are suffering with so much pain. The vision thing sucks too!!
Take good care of yourself.
Peace and Light,
Scarlett

Sent by Scarlett Harris | 12:27 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Great to know you're home and up to dictating, hope you heal quickly, and got everything crossed that your eyes sort themselves out.

Sent by Lisa | 12:33 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Sounds dreadful (the pain). Hang in there. I hope the little steps of your recovery soon begin to morph into noticeable changes in decreased pain and increased strength and mobility. Be gentle with yourself, it's amazing what you've endured so well.

Sent by Marcia | 12:36 PM ET | 10-11-2007

I never knew how healing home could be until I began my cancer journey nine years ago. So glad you're back in your sanctuary, Larry. Your eyesight loss has been particularly poignant for me. I lost much of the sight in my right eye this summer following radiation for breast cancer metastasis to the right eye socket. Who would've thunk it? Nearly three months later, I'm finally learning some coping strategies that are working. There are great resources out there to help folks with impaired vision. I hope with all my heart that your vision returns to normal; if not, I hope that you'll receive all the help you need to accomodate a vision change. "It's always something," huh? Some days one can laugh at that remark, other days it's all too painfully true. Thinking of you and wishing you the very best.

Sent by Shonda Cortez | 12:36 PM ET | 10-11-2007

You have my best wishes and thanks. Wishes for your recovery and thanks for giving voice to what you and so many others - like my wife who do not or cannot express their inner tribulations - are going through.

Sent by Mark Levine | 12:43 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi Leroy, You remain in my prayers, now for complete recovery of your sight and for rest during this painful time. You are remarkable. Kim

Sent by Kim Barbato | 12:43 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
It is so good to have you back. I pray you find good things to fill the hours until you are your old self again...maybe books on tape or great old movies. Take care!
Charlotte in Temecula

Sent by Charlotte Kewish | 12:52 PM ET | 10-11-2007

I found myself holding my breath while opening my email account this past week anxiously waiting for updates on you. So glad you're home where the real healing takes place and praying the vision will clear for you. You're in my thoughts.

Sent by Patricia | 1:00 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

so glad you're home. It's pretty hard to feel better in a hospital. Please know that whatever happens with your vision, you will always have many gifts no to mention the many who care about and support you through your journey. Hang in there.

Patty

Sent by patty | 1:00 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy (and Laurie), So good to hear "directly" from you today. I think about you everyday when I groom my horses. Its my quiet time in the day and with every brush and stoke I am sending up positive energy for your health and happiness.

Sent by Laurie Volk | 1:03 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
So very sorry about the eye sight, but keep faith and your vision will get better. I pray every night for you and Laurie I ask God to heal you. He has giving you such a gift with your writing. You have really help so many people. I pray for a cure. I pray for my husband who is only 46 years old and is now looking into a clinical study for stage 4 colon cancer. We went to the doctors today and to see so many people there hurt my heart. They need to find a cure. Please try not to get down with the pain. I know that is hard but know we are all pulling for you. When the pain gets bad try and think about us here pulling for you. You are a life line for so many. Rest our friend and God Bless you and Laurie.

Sent by Aurella | 1:16 PM ET | 10-11-2007

I am hoping and praying for a good recovery for you. I think you are very courageous for sharing this with everyone.
The only gift that I can give you are the words...this too shall pass.

Sent by Marsha Goldberg | 1:22 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, I hope that you are recuperating a little more each day. As much as we all are rooting for a quick comeback and the return of your vision, remember too that this is a community who knows what it's like to feel like sh** thanks to this disease, and knows how important it is to allow yourself to feel that way. I remember Dana Reeves saying something to the effect that Chris always allowed himself to really feel pain or sorrow. It is only when you get to the bottom of the pool that you can push off.
You have been an inspiration to us all because of your strength, and because of the honest way that you have let us into your life and your experience, which so closely mirrors our own.
Wishing you all the very best!

Sent by Sarah Bunnell, Kansas | 1:30 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Congratulations! Home is always better than the hospital, and it means you are recovering well.

Good luck to you. May the pain lessen to insignificance quickly.

Sent by Scott S. | 1:43 PM ET | 10-11-2007

YOU are the source of strength and inspiration! I was delighted to read you are home and wish you comfort, peace, and pain-free days.

Sent by Sydney Lantz | 1:55 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Peace and healing be with you Leroy (and with you all). Someone I respect said to focus only on the good in life to experience more happiness and satisfaction. I hope this thought or something helps you get through this hard time. Love to all.

Sent by Nichole in FL | 1:55 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, thanks for taking the time and effort to dictate to Maeve (boy, isnt' that a switch, the writer dictating to the editor???) I am sure that she is very eager to help you in any way she can, and like us, there is not a whole lot she can do to ease your current pain.

We can surely send you the messages each day that you find so uplifting, and we are thrilled to do so.

I can understand the frustration with your eyes, and will continue to pray that they will return to their pre-surgery condition - or better.

In the meantime, though we are all impatient patients, and can be such good advice givers, know that we appreciate your frustration and are praying that you will be able to follow the doctor's orders to the tee - so that they achieve the incredible outcome they expected and you are soon pain free!!!

Hugs

Cindy Sivula

Sent by Cindy Sivula | 1:56 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Oh my god, Leroy, I am almost without words. You are mighty big in my prayers.
Keep believing.What you truly pray for will happen.

Sent by Peter | 2:20 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, The cancer makes its presence known in ways we cannot predict. The stroke was not something the Doctor's would anticipate, but is a possible side effect of surgery that long. I hope your sight returns, be patient, after all, what choice is there? It is good to have you back, even though you are dictating. How is your Editor's shorthand? Maintain your sense of humor, it is your strength, and will help you through. Having been born in Calif. also, I know what the loss of driving means. Hang in there buddy. All the best, Stan

Sent by Stan Wozniak | 2:30 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy-

You are an inspiration to all, God Bless you and those you love~

Sent by Patty Jessop | 2:31 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
Like everyone else here, I'm so very glad that you're back together at home again. It was a long week for you in the hospital, I know.
I have no words of wisdom to offer, and besides, I think that you're plenty wise as it is. You are doing what any person who has been through physical hardship does...resting and healing. I'm glad to know that our words were helpful to you both. I believe that thoughts are things, with real consequence in the world, and to the extent that the intentions of all of us were for your highest good, perhaps we helped to get you home a little sooner. Who knows? It's nice to contemplate.
As for Stephanie Dornbrook, she sent me an e-mail earlier this week asking how I've been doing, but didn't mention how she has been. I'm awaiting her reply to my asking how SHE is doing.

Sent by Nancy K. Clark | 2:34 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Your postings make a wonderful read. And who knows, you might get used to dictating your thoughts to a typist. Sounds luxurious to relax while someone else does the work! I can picture you now on your next Hawaii beach trip with a mai-tai in one hand and gesturing as you make a point with the other. Keep thinking about that next beach trip, Leroy!

Sent by Martha | 2:41 PM ET | 10-11-2007

It's so great to hear you are home Leroy. Now you can heal. I pray every day for your complete recovery.
Warm hugs,
Robin Turman
CT.

Sent by Robin T | 2:52 PM ET | 10-11-2007

It's great to hear you are home. I wish you the best on your healing journey.

Sent by Lisa Kotora | 3:00 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,
No words of wisdom, just thoughts and prayers. May you draw strength from the many that come your way.

Connie Brown

Sent by Constance Brown | 3:13 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy -

Somehow, I hadn't been getting my regular emails with your blog, but I got today's! So I rushed on to the site to catch up. Wow what a whirlwind you have been on! Yet somehow, you keep that spirit of yours. Sometimes, it only shows a little and others more and then others a whole bunch. I thing Iknow, is I consider it a privelege to be sharing this journey with you and to simply say as you posted in one blog once (that is posted on my bulletin board at work and I look at it every day). Me too! My cancers have been different, my road a little different, but me too Leroy. My thoughts and all my prayers are with you, continue to heal, stay strong and remember you are NOT alone. Me too Leroy, me too!

Sent by Andi | 3:18 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, The vision will be back and you'll be up and around very soon. Put it in your head and dont waver from it. Surely there has to be something to this mind-over-matter stuff, right? Just put it in your head and don't let go of it. Expect not a darn thing less, and that's it, period.

Pulling for you every step of the way.

Sent by joanne | 3:19 PM ET | 10-11-2007

thanks for checking in Leroy. we miss your voice and are happy you are home. take care!

Sent by cv | 3:35 PM ET | 10-11-2007

My thoughts, my prayers, and sent your way; I know how powerful prayer can be. Thank you for sharing your life, lighting up a little corner of the world, sending out HOPE to many.

Sent by Doris | 3:56 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi Leroy,
Happy for you to be home. You should have a tv sitcom about living with cancer and being the bionic man you have come so far through all of this. (smile) I pray you feel better soon. God bless you for sharing your pain and tribulations with us. I appreciate it very much.....you certainly are a survivor. What the heck does a couragous battle with cancer mean to you? It doesn't make any sence to me.....Take care!!!!!

Sent by Dee | 4:02 PM ET | 10-11-2007

As a retired pediatric allergist, I thought I knew patience and how time was needed for improvement. However, since developing rheumatoid arthritis one year ago, I have learned that allergy is more like the hare while rheumatology is like the tortise! I am finding that my sense of patience is too fast for the disease to improve even with the medications! I can imagine that cancer teaches one the similar lesson- we cannot control how slow everything is moving!

Sent by Barbara Gobrail | 4:04 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy...home! That's terrific! And thanks, Maeve (and Laurie, and Ted K. and everyone else) for letting us know--sometimes the not-knowing is the hardest.
You wrote: "I have lost about one-third of the vision in each eye. Some doctors say it will come back, it will just take time. Others say it may not. There's no way to know. Nothing to do but wait."
Nothing to do but heal, Leroy...and exercise your mind and your eyes. After my first intracerebral hemorrhage (nope, the docs still don't know *why* it happened) I was told that any gains I made in coping skills and PT would level out after about 12-18 months. My brain apparently didn't read the book. I kept working at the little things, my counselor insisted I keep sharp with my coping skills. I had two additional strokes during my first chemo which set me back a bit--but I continue to work coping skills all the time. Seven years out from the first stroke, and 3 years out from the second, I'm not anyone you'd pick out in a crowd as a stroke survivor. Don't underestimate your brain, Leroy--even my neuro docs admitted that medicine knows only so much about the human brain's capacity for renewal and recovery. Apparently, we only actively use a pretty small percentage of our available brain cells--and after a brain attack, some of the brain cells that have been sitting on the sidelines get called up to the majors to take over for the damaged brain cells. Luckily, most of us have a pretty deep bench. ;-)

As for messages being the source of hope and inspiration--kiddo, you get what you give.

Thinking strong thoughts for you...

Sent by Pat Steer | 4:13 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy - it's great to have you back. And thanks to Maeve, Laurie, and Ted Koppel for keeping us up to date with your recovery. It's tough to be patient and frustrating to not be able to jump right back to where you were a few weeks ago, but give it some time. You continue to be an inspiration to all of us out in Cancer World. The example you set helps the rest of us "tough it out" as we face our treatment.

Sent by Bob Maimone | 4:29 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, we are thrilled you are home. Time to rest and heal, prayers and blessings are being sent your way. You are truly an inspiration to many of us....thank you!

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 4:30 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hey Leroy -
So good to have you back. I will keep you in my prayers. And, I know with your positive attitude, you will get your vision back. I'm sure of it!

Sent by Marcy in NJ | 4:38 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Great to see you writing a little more each day!!
Lots of prayers and positive vibes coming your way from Seattle.

Sent by Chandana | 4:46 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy,

You have done so much for so many of us who are all fighting the same scary monster. I feel like I am not alone. Thank you Leroy. I think of you everyday and send you positive energy.

Sent by Pat | 5:16 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Thanks for taking time during these down times of you not feeling so hot to think of the blog and most of all keep us posted. I find it amazing that having never met more than half of us (and I am taking a guess at this), that you are so connected to us AS WE ARE TO YOU!!!! Unbelievable to me how life has its miracles. You help me each and everyday to give me inspiration and at times even get through my day. And so now when YOU need it most I (we) are here for you every day blogging it up for you!

Stay strong, as I have said this dozens of times, and continue to get better each and everyday!

Thank you Maeve for writing this section out ;)

Leroy STAY strong my friend!

Love,

Sent by Critina Gonzalez | 5:17 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Just think tomorrow the pain will be a little less, and the next day and the next. Please hang in there. My thoughts and best wishes. Take Care.

Sent by Kat Carlson | 5:20 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Oh Leroy, what wonderful news that you are home! I've been on the road for three days and stopped at the office to check your website for news and am SO thankful. Will focus prayers and wishes and energy for your continued healing and for the easing of your pain, and the restoration of your vision. Do what is right for you right now; only write or dictate entries if you feel like it. Your well-being is what matters to us! With gentle celebration and care!

Sent by Sarah | 5:33 PM ET | 10-11-2007

I hope your pain lessens and that you are able to walk a little farther each day. I wish that there were a way that we could podcast our good wishes for your healing so you won't strain your eyes reading these hundreds of posts, You'd have your very own loud, raucous cheering section. Thank you again for your words. Welcome home.
Cherylene

Sent by Cherylene Lee | 5:38 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,

Hang in there-we all are following your progress and pray for a successful outcome from your surgery and this terrible disease.
I was diagosed with stage 4 lung cancer and just finished my third round of chemo. Learning to live with your mortality in question makes you appreciate what a horrendous disease that we battle with and not on an even playing field.
Keep the faith.

Sent by Dick Campbell | 5:53 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy and Laurie,

I'm so glad you have finally made it home and hope that you start to rest and recover quickly from this point forward. Give yourself time to rejuvenate! Sending up prayers for you!

Sent by Suzanne Lindley | 6:07 PM ET | 10-11-2007

You may be down, but your not out. Glad your home, thankfully are memories of pain are short, you forget the other operations and the pain that comes with them. You will conquer this vision thing, cancer teaches us that we can conquer almost anything. Sending you a big bear hug

Sent by Rita | 6:11 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
Sending you hopes for a speedy recovery, EXPECTO PATRONUM!

Sent by ~C | 6:34 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Glad to see you're home--I hope you feel better soon! Your blog inspires me daily to try and live with as much courage as you have.

Sent by Laura | 6:38 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi Leroy,

Thank God your surgery is behind you. I hope your body heals quickly and that every day you feel just a little bit better than the day before.

I've read your blog for quite sometime but never written in it. You have been so amazingly generous and committed to sharing your story with us. Thank you so much for that.

About a year ago, a friend was diagnosed with inoperable cancer and during the first heady weeks of processing it all, I mentioned your blog and thought it might help him to cope. We never talked of it again. He is now down to his final days, and last week I went to visit him to say goodbye. One of the last things he said was how grateful he was to have found your blog...that it had given him comfort during the past year.

I just want you to know that you have touched many, many people, more than you will ever know. You are an extraordinary person and there are probably thousands of us thinking of you and praying for you.

Sent by Diane Watson | 6:44 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hi Leroy,

I am so glad to hear your surgery went well. God Bless you! I've been following your blog for some time, though I've never written. I was diagnosed with lung cancer in March and had the tumor removed by surgery. I'm cancer free as of now. :-) One day I was looking for material to read on the web, and found your blog -- signed up to receive through my e-mail. I am so glad I did, because I derive courage, from your courage. And I know others do, as well. Your strength gives me strength. And for whatever good my words may be, I like to tell you to hang in there, keep on being strong, and keep up the faith.

Thank you!!! :-)

Sent by Carmen Ruggero | 6:57 PM ET | 10-11-2007

One of the best of the many wonderful things my mother has taught me by repeating it until I hear it even without her is: "Be gentle with yourself." Treat yourself kindly and with understanding, just the way you'd treat others. Don't worry about how patient you are or what KIND of patient you are -- I always think of Audrey Hepburn in "Wait Until Dark" teasing her husband about his wanting her to be "World's Champion Blind Lady." I hope you don't feel pressured by all this attention to be World's Champion Cancer Guy, because all you have to do is get well as well as you can, because that's what we all want for you.

Take care, be well, and we'll all cross our fingers that the vision comes back, even knowing that if it doesn't, you'll find your way.

Sent by Linda | 7:17 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Still praying for you! Glad to see you are home. Rest and heal!

Sent by Julie | 7:24 PM ET | 10-11-2007

"My candle burns at both ends.
It will not last the night.
But ah my friends...and oh my foes,
it casts a lovely light".
Edna St. Vincent Millay "The Fig"

I love to reflect on this poem when I think that my future is in my hands...we only have this moment and God holds the rest.
Praying for you Leroy with love...
Peace, comfort, rest be yours.

Sent by bethann | 8:01 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy, As those of us that have had cancer know, life is never the same. It is just different. Although I pray that your vision returns completely I will also pray that if it doesn't, you will face this "difference" just as you have faced every new challenge. I am rooting for you!

Sent by Jane | 8:12 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Laurie and Leroy,
Home is truly where the heart is!!! Know that I'm holding you both in my heart and in my prayers.
Wishing you love and peace!
Jude

Sent by Judith Tynan | 8:26 PM ET | 10-11-2007

If indeed all the comments are a source of support, then count me in as well, though when the comments get so numerous, it is hard not to feel lost in the shuffle and/or redundant. It is so good to hear from you again! Joyce

Sent by Joyce Smith | 8:42 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy
your presence in the lives of so many has sustained them - has given so much hope - and we all return that to you. In gratitude and with prayers...be well.
Vicki

Sent by Vicki - michigan | 9:00 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy:
I think of you every day, and send my prayers up for you. You know the drill...it can always be worse. I am hoping that once the pain from the surgery dissipates, you will be able to handle the eye thing. and after all, it is not as though you have a choice. The thing with cancer world is that our boundaries keep moving...yet, we adjust. I am hopig this is a temporary turn for you and that you will remain stable and pain free for a long time.
Lots of love from the steamy tropics of St. Thomas,
Julie

Sent by Julie E | 9:35 PM ET | 10-11-2007

One day at a time. I gained strength from reading Dale Carnegie's "How To Stop Worrying And Start Living". Living each day in day tight compartments helped me with the insanity of cancer. My thoughts are with you.

Sent by Sue McPeek | 9:40 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Even though it exposes the chin, keep your head up Leroy...it's the only way to travel through life...apt to miss too much beauty and grace otherwise!

I know to some extent how you feel though. After my third craniotomy, not only do I have vision problems, but my mental clarity and capabilities are surely diminished. The worst part is realizing it!! So goes it.

Obviously, cancer does force course "adjustments"...I think it's ok though...we were all doing it prior to diagnosis anyway, but may not have realized the importance of the adjustments...I am now. Many wishes for a quick, succesful recovery are always with you and Laurie...
Yours,
john

Sent by John Young | 9:45 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Pain is such a *beep!* It's like an unwelcome, whiny houseguest, refusing to leave or to leave you alone. Outlast it, Leroy. Stick around so long that the pain gets bored and leaves. I have total faith that you can and will show the pain the door. Until then, hang in there when you can, holler when you have to. We're here for anything.

Sent by Jess Neiweem | 9:47 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
Boy, the waiting and patience part is so tough. Not being able to see into the future and know that a medical situation is only temporary really calls on reserves of hope and faith, or at the least faith that you can adjust and handle the challenges. I wish you the fullest reserves, and a body that has more healing potential than you know.

Sent by Beth S. | 9:52 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Dear Leroy, I just finished watching the documentary "Living With Cancer". I had recorded it on my DVR back in May and had never taken the time to watch it until this evening, now that Cancer has hit really close to home. My younger brother Gary (38) was just diagnosed with Metastatic Cancer. This has hit all of our family very hard, especially his wife and their 3 young boys. Since learning that he has cancer, I have been reading a lot and trying to be as positive as I can when talking to him. (We live 600 miles apart, so we correspond through email and phone calls.) I found this documentary to be a great source of encouragement and wanted to let you know how much I appreciate your honesty. I also wanted to let you know that you have made a difference in this world! That was one of the comments you made on the documentary, will I have made a difference? Because of you many, many people are encouraged to live each day to the fullest, I hope you know how important that is. I pray for a full recovery from your surgery and also that full vision will return for each eye. You are an amazing man!! Love and prayers to you and Laurie.

Sent by Lana | 9:56 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Thanks so much for taking the time to dictate an update. Your journey means much and I'm praying that your vision is restored. Thanks to your partner for taking dictation, prayers for her as well.

Sent by Suzan Christensen | 10:04 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hey Leroy, Been following you for around half a year. I love seeing your blogs waiting for me in my mailbox. No great words of wisdom for you today.

Just want to say that my husband (who has pancreatic cancer) and I pray for you many times a week. For you and your friends and family.

Please just remember that God is with you. Now and always. You are adored and loved by him, He doesn't mind it when people lean on him.

I think most of thoses people around you are ok with being a leaning post.

God Bless Leroy. Please take care of yourself!

Hugs, Toni

Sent by Toni T | 10:07 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Hope- can't live without it. Glad to see you write this word, Leroy. Best wishes for a little healing every day.

Sent by Marilyn | 10:25 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Watch,Wait,Worry,Win....

Sent by Sleepless in Seattle | 10:31 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy.....I'm so relieved to hear that your surgery went so well. Just know that whether your vision returns to normal...or not, you WILL handle it. God gives you the grace and strength to deal with these things, as you're going through them, not when you're worrying about them. My love and prayers go out to you.

Sent by Heather | 10:45 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
Like all of those who have written today, I ache to lessen your pain and return your vision to full. Feel the healing force of all of our combined love flowing over you. You have touched my life in ways you can never know. Breathe in, breathe out, feel the pain leave and the love pour in.

Sent by Laura | 10:54 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy,
Take those meds. Don't suffer any more than necessary. This too shall pass. You are our "miracle" man.
God Bless you
Mary Scruggs
Cypress, TX

Sent by Mary Scruggs | 11:11 PM ET | 10-11-2007

I have been reading your pieces for months and months. You're an inspiration -- intestinal fortitude personified. As a staunch agnostic, I've found myself bargaining on your behalf: "OK, if you ARE there, God, please, please intercede on behalf of Leroy." Your writing creates a strong human connection. Please know that you matter a great deal to very many folks. As much as an agnostic can pray, I'm praying for you. That the pain will abate, that being home at last will give you new vigor, that you'll be able to refrain from being churlish to those you love and who love you -- I pray you good healing.

Sent by Victoria Ferreira | 11:23 PM ET | 10-11-2007

Leroy, You are a source of strength for so many of us. It's the little that we can do to repay you for your thoughts over the past year + of the blog.

Thanks for bringing this wonderful community of caring individuals together.

Sent by Marie | 12:22 AM ET | 10-12-2007

Fran Drescher wrote in her book---there's nothing better than fresh sheets, fresh pajamas, and fresh air---so I hope you are enjoying your beautiful home-bought yourself some new PJs :) and enjoying your healing-pain free. Some times I feel like my pillow and bed are my best friend. Hope you are hopping soon. Love,

Sent by Linda | 12:33 AM ET | 10-12-2007

I'm so glad you're home Leroy. You are an inspiration to all of us that have cancer. Take Care and may the pain subside quickly.

Sent by Roxi | 4:01 AM ET | 10-12-2007

It's all been said very well. Just adding my own voice to the chorus. I appreciate having the web site and have been wishing you well for a long time. That continues. Thanks for sharing this journey. Dale

Sent by Dale | 5:42 AM ET | 10-12-2007

Dear Leroy,

It's so good to have you back and blogging again. I'm so sorry for your pain and loss of vision. You are a strong person and I know you will find a way through this.
I remember reading Christopher Reeve's book "Still me." That book made a real impression on me. His message was that no matter what he had to endure and adapt to physically he was still the same person inside - his illness couldn't touch that. I think that is the same with you. Your great spirit is the same and will see you through this. It has to because we all need you. You can't get rid of us - we're all here to support you and to support each other.
I hope and pray that your vision will return and that your pain will cease. I hope every day is a better day for you.

Take care,
Marianne

Sent by Marianne Malinowski | 5:57 AM ET | 10-12-2007

So glad that you are home and that the surgery was a success. You are in our prayers for healing and improvement in your vision. Rest and take care of yourself.

Sent by Jen | 7:00 AM ET | 10-12-2007

Dear Leroy,
When cancer causes such personal loss, our basic body functions being diminished, it just sucks. It really does. It always seems so much harder than having cancer, this loss of an ability. People have always told me they think I am "so optimistic" about having had metastatic cancer these last seven years. And generally I feel very very fortunate to be ALIVE and have the life I have. But the one thing that gets me down and terribly sad is when I have physical, seemingly permanent, loss of ability. It's so hard to get past that.
The foot neuropathy from various chemo drugs has caused such walking problems that, combined with muscle loss walking is getting harder and harder. If I don't give in and get a cane soon I'm afraid I'll fall and sustain some serious injury. ("I'm too young for a cane !" screams my ego.)
I used to be a daily walker and always felt super healthy because of that, as well as enjoying it for it's own sake because I'm an "outdoor person."

Then this fall I found out I have chemo related cateracts in both eyes. It makes me sad and angry.

But what often happens to me is that when I am feeling lowest I see someone my age in a wheelchair or like happened a couple of weeks ago, I watch someone walk with what looked like alot of pain, their upper body almost parallel to the ground, and then feel a big mental sigh : "at least I can walk upright and with not too much pain."

Anyway, it's just not easy adjusting to loss. I do think it can be done though.

Best regards, Nancy

Sent by Nancy O | 6:00 PM ET | 10-13-2007

leroy, you know that when you are home you will feel soooo much better. the food will be better, the environment will be better, and, more important YOU will be better. good that you only have a few more days. more than anything i think all of us hope and pray that you are comfortable. that the narcotics are doing what they are doing. i am sure you have heard about visualization.
and getting back to being home, if you feel like napping, you will be able to without interruption.
we are all rooting from all over, thoughts, prayers, good vibes. sooo good YOU could write today.

Sent by bernie madden, cape cod | 9:47 AM ET | 10-24-2007

Hey buddy--sending loads of love and good wishes for a speedy recovery from BOTH surgeries--be well, stay positive, keep fighting. Always look forward to what you write.....Kathy

Sent by Kathy Gaffney | 5:06 PM ET | 10-24-2007