Leroy, Great attitude! Glad you're home!

Sent by Marilyn | 7:59 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Welcome home, Leroy! Glad you are on your feet, with whatever it takes.

May the familiar sights & sounds around you accelerate the healing, inside and out!

Thinking of you and yours, with admiration, empathy, and gratitude.

LSF

Sent by LSFisher | 8:01 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Welcome home, Leroy! It's not about the walker - it's about how you perceive it. I'm guessing that your father saw the walker as a sign that he would grow progressively weaker with age. For you, it's a tool to help you grow progressively stronger. Use it while you need it, then lose it!

Sent by Leslie C | 8:04 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I hope that you have a good day today. It's strange in the cancer world how important that becomes. Yesterday, I had a bad day. Today, I'm having a good day.

Use your walker or any other tool they give you to make a good day.

All our love and prayers.

Sent by Carol M | 8:06 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Sounds like progress and what wonderful news! Best message in days. Now - you will get better by leaps and bounds.
Yes, walkers are great aids to independence while your own strength returns. You will also build up your muscle strength in the arms and shoulders which atrophy while lying in bed for long periods.
Now that this month is almost over and we have you back with us, Welcome Home Leroy!

Sent by J C R | 8:10 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Amen........Leroy - you have lots of things to do and whatever tools get you there.....
I'm sure that being home will help you to heal in a very significant way......and I know you are not alone with Laurie and others that are right there to help and support you - but I sure hope you can feel all the love and energy from all of us and it is helping to strengthen and heal you......
Keep moving, keep going, keep healing.....

Sent by Ruth | 8:11 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Decorate the damn thing. Give it some humor. I know you have it in you.

Your attitude is spot on.

Hugs,

Lori

Congrats on being home!

Sent by Lori Levin | 8:15 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Do you realize just by being home, and writing what is one of your more comprehensive posts in quite a while - that dignity and normalcy are being restored in your life?

Sent by Elliot, Toronto | 8:18 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, you are DA MAN!

You realize that the walker is a means to ends, not the end itself. It doesn't define you, it doesn't describe you, and it doesn't diminish you in any way.

And the best part is realizing your interdependence with the world. We all need each other. I know the old saying, "Laugh, and the whole world laughs with you; cry, and you cry alone", but I think we only say that because we want someone (some-ones) to be there with us, no matter what. To admit that is a big thing for me, because, having been horrifically and severely abused growing up by my parents, the last thing I wanted was to trust anyone else.

I have come to learn over the years that the injustices of the past don't change the needs of the present.

Sent by Leonard from Alabama | 8:22 AM ET | 10-30-2007

So glad you are home! I really understand the feelings about "tools". Right before I went to Spain in September I developed a disc problem, actually something totally removed from cancer, just an ordinary back problem. However, it caused severe sciatica and it was painful to walk very far without stopping and sitting so I took a "seat cane." It made all the difference in airports, etc. I did have one bad experience when they would not allow it in the Prado and I was almost in tears. I had waited my whole life to be there and knew that without the seat cane I would be miserable. There was no flexibility and they would not allow my cane and wanted to give me one of their wooden canes (without a seat), which was of no help. Admitting we need help is difficult but actually we always need help whether it is of a physical or emotional nature.

Hang in there it looks like there is some good progress going on. Enjoy being home and taking those assisted steps.

Sent by Dona | 8:22 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Hi Leroy,
Hurray - you are home!!! Walker or not, it's great for u to be out of the hospital. I work with people with disabilities and am always amazed by others who say someone is "confined" to a wheelchair - actually that wheelchair is what helps them get out and do the things that everyone else does - not be confined. So, u know this walker is helping u temporarily until u have the strength and balance to go about without it. Having cancer helps u get over a lot of things that others would find embarassing. After surgery, chemo and 6 weeks of daily radiation for breast cancer I no longer care who I have to show my breast or scars to - just glad to have them and to be here!

Be well,

Lianne

Sent by Lianne Friedman | 8:25 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Good for you Leroy. You have been so strong through this whole horrible ordeal. You have the right attitude and I can only hope that if I ever face such adversity, I can have half the courage and pride that you have. Reading your blogs every day makes me stronger....Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Sent by Susan Issolah | 8:53 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Like Lance said, "It's not about the bike."
It's not about the walker, Leroy. It's about you, and what a great job you do at getting done your things that need to be done.

Godspeed.

Cindy Williams, Durham, NC

Sent by Cindy Williams | 8:55 AM ET | 10-30-2007

The walker is a step forward towards recovery! Put some headlights, a horn, turn signals and backup lights if it helps you navigate.

Attitude is what matters and you definitely have a great attitude as you accept the walker as a tool to help you heal.

As you can see each day, we are here to read the latest. We will remain by your side until you are the best you can be! You may only see a single set of footprints in the sand as you walk with your walker BUT rest assured that the prayers and good thoughts of many are walking with you each step of the way,trying to lift your spirits and WILL you to good health.

Prayers and blessings as always.

Sent by Al Cato | 9:08 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Home for Halloween! Yea! Changes the costume plan I guess. No more "hospital patient", now we have "happily recuperating at home" man.

So glad you are home...

Sent by Robin LeTourneau | 9:09 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Your attitude thrills me. Being home, in the land of the "well", makes so much difference. The walker is bridge to your next level away from the hospital toward many of the things you love that still remain possible. At times I lived with crutches, then a cane, and finally left that behind. I was on oxygen 24/7 (a plastic tube trailing behind me at home). Then I got the portable one so I could venture out. Now, it does feel good to live without props...and I know you will, too, with time. But the attitude is the best tool of all. Hang onto that one.

Sent by Laura Buckley | 9:10 AM ET | 10-30-2007

So glad your'e home, Leroy and good approach to things.
Betsey

Sent by betsey kuzia | 9:10 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,
Welcome home. I am so happy that you have finally left the hospital. It is so much nicer to be in your own surroundings. I am not sure if it helps heal the body more quickly, but it certainly helps heal the soul. I am happy that the last thing you are going to worry about is your "Pride" concerning the walker situation. When my husband got ill most of my pride went "out the window" At this point in time, pride is anything that makes us believe in ourselves and recognize our accomplishments, and you my dear friend, have had numerous accomplishments to say the least.

May your day be filled with sunshine. Surround yourself with your books and other things you love. Cuddle up with Laurie............watch a good movie and please read all our posts and know how much we care about you.

Sent by sasha | 9:12 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy - So glad to hear that you are home. You've got the right attitude. Look at that walker as a tool to use to get the job done. The right tools typically make the job so much easier. I'm a race fan - specifically of drag racing. John Force, XIV time champion of the sport, was in a horrific crash a month or so ago. He was hospitialized and in true fashioin just wanted to get home - to the race track! This weekend the TV coverage showed him back at the track using a walker to get around. While it was likely a pain in the butt to use, he was there smiling because he was back on his home turf (the track) watching his team race. Hang in there Leroy! Be well!

Sent by Rocco | 9:15 AM ET | 10-30-2007

My mother didn't want my father to use a walker because it would make him "old." At the time he was in his 80's and died at 93. She (age 94)now uses one after strokes and is grateful that it helps her live on her own. I have RA and occasionally use a cane when I have a flare.
It isn't about age or disease, it's about using what helps us get through the day and keeps us moving forward.
You are an inspiration to all.

Sent by Elizabeth | 9:23 AM ET | 10-30-2007

dude, you had a vertebrae removed.

a vertebrae!

a walker? hell, i wouldn't get out of bed the rest of my life. you are the man.

Sent by bill blake | 9:23 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I'm so glad that you are back home, Leroy...and that you have an open, positive attitude about doing whatever you need to do to get strong again.

I was thinking about all of us and how we really do have each other to learn from. We are great examples for each other on how to get through this daunting disease.

How fortunate we are to be here now, at this time and place. We have each other and I am so grateful for that. Today is ours.

Sent by Laurel M. Jones | 9:30 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Yay for Leroy, at home! At least now you have a chance at getting a better night's sleep, and/or an uninterrupted afternoon snooze. About the occupational aids, you'll be done with them before you know it. "They" sent my mother home with several after her back surgery for spinal stenosis. - a walker, tools for putting on socks and reaching things on shelves, etc. She was in her early 70s, and the only item she uses now at 79 is the reaching tool. But then again, she's shrunk to only 4'11" over the years, and with 8' cupboards in her over-55 community, who wouldn't need a tool for reaching high items?

Sent by Sheara | 9:37 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Without the kind of attitude you have, it must be very difficult to accept changes that are nearly inevitable for anyone getting older, let alone those of us with "chronic" illness (that's what I like to call my stage iv renal cancer now).

Take good care of yourself, and keep using all of the tools available to you. You're outlook is inspiring.

love,
Wendy

Sent by Wendy Murphey | 9:37 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Wonderful news, miracles are happening!

Sent by Lucy Groh | 9:39 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I would put a horn or something cool on the walker. Hang in there, we are still here for you!

Sent by Sarah | 9:44 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Thank God for your acceptance and humility. I am glad you are grateful. May your healing be swift and may the pain just evaporate one day soon.

Sent by Alycia Keating | 9:49 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,

Long time lurker...first time poster. This morning I learned that a brother-in-law was diagnosed with cancer several months ago (and has kept it secret). Yesterday a close family friend revealed that he will need a biopsy. Cancer is everywhere. I am a 13-year-survivor myself. You say that the emails give you strength and encouragement. Well - it is about time that I told you how much strength and courage you give me - and everyone else who follows this blog. I'm sending gobs and gobs of good wishes and cheers to you today - and everyday.

Sent by Susan Kushner Benson | 9:52 AM ET | 10-30-2007

"The will to live is not a preference,. It is a mysterious impulse toward life, which is hidden in the heart of all living things. Buried deep in the unconscious,it shapes our instinctive behaviors, influencing our conscious choices and even our physiology. The will to live is unconditional. The wish to live, on the other hand, is highly particular. It has its reasons and even its terms. It is conscious and personal rather than cellular and universal. It is bounded by the attachments of our individual lives. But the will to live is larger than ourselves. We may find ways to collaborate with it, unblock it, and even strengthen it, but it is a force of nature, an intimate experience of the life force itself.
Perhaps we often do not recognize the power of the will to live because of the way we have learned to deal with our wounds. In a culture that sees woundedness as a weakness, many of us feel ashamed to be wounded and even hide our wounds. It is only natural that we try to put our wounds behind us and get on with the rest of our lives, but we do this only at a price. The power of the will to live is buried in the depths of any wound that we have survived, and we may need to revisit our wounds in order to know our strength. The secret to this may lie in how we look at our wounds. We need to look, not as victims but with a certain curiosity, as a witness to the hidden power in us to move past obstacles." Rachel Naomi Remen, MD
...food for thought today. Love to all from Sherri in Texas, BC dx 4-06

Sent by Sherri Eggleston | 9:52 AM ET | 10-30-2007

So glad you are able to walk so SOON! And write coherently too. Good for you, Leroy. There's no place like home. Best to Laurie too, as I know that caregivers are the unsung heroes.

Sent by Donna | 9:53 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I'm so glad you're home. A few tears of joy filled my eyes at the news. Being home, even with a walker, is still progress.

Sent by Joan F | 9:55 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
I know being home just makes you feel better!! By all means use the tools. Where would we be without tools in all aspects of our life? I think some tacky little pumpkin lights might be in order.

Sent by Kathie | 10:01 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Happy day for all of us...you are home. I see the walker as a form of transportation. It helps us get from here to there. So glad that you are able to "take the ride". Never had a doubt that you wouldn't.

Sent by Penny Coeur d'Alene, Idaho | 10:01 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy
Your pride is fine as is your strength! Think of the walker as the ruby slippers...there's no place like home! Blessings.

Sent by Miriam | 10:06 AM ET | 10-30-2007

My sister Amber (31) passed away this summer from melanoma. One of the hardest things for her was losing her independence, one step at a time....she was always the one who helped others, not who needed help, and the physical reminders (medical equipment) just seemed to rub it in sometimes. However, she was determined to not let her cancer define who she was, medical equipment included. She certainly did promote its usefulness to others who were also struggling and was very appreciative, but her number one priority every day was being Amber, beautiful wife and mother of three. It sounds like you are doing a great job of continuing to be Leroy (who just happens to have a handy walker right now....)

God bless,
Elizabeth
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ambereldridge

Sent by Elizabeth Morgan | 10:08 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy, I haven't written because I was visiting my daughters in NC. They wanted me to use a wheel chair at the airport because I get dizzy sometimes but I couldn't bring myself to ask for one. But the truth is we need to use whatever tools can get us through the day. I sympathize with the IV and the drains. When I had my surgery the drains drove me crazy. It's all part of getting back to normal and finding the strength to stay tough as you said. The strength is your ability to continue writing and put up with what the doctors want you to do which will get you back to your normal. Prayers for you as always. Enjoy your Halloween - I'm sure with your imagination that it will be special.

Sent by Vicki (FL) | 10:12 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
I'm so happy to hear you're home. I can only imagine how much it helps to lift your spirits to be around everything and everyone familiar and secure.
I was so touched by the humility in your blog this morning. I can't imagine the strength required to maintain the positive outlook you have.
Thank you for your willingness to share your journey with the rest of us.

Sent by Kathy Groh Canby | 10:17 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
It is very good to hear that your spirit is up, and yes, we often do need objects and people in our lives to help us. The walker can help you regain some strength and give you added security to be able to do the important things. The walker is not really who you are right now, but something to strengthen you. We are also here to strengthen you and hopefully lift you up a bit. The road to healing is lined with many tempting parking places and we will continue to help keep you on the road and out of the parking places. Love and many prayers coming to you.

Sent by Paula Swink | 10:24 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Way-to-go! You are such an inspiration to all of us.

Sent by Carolyn | 10:24 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Good Morning Leroy, Laurie and All,

And it is a GREAT morning! Such wonderful news that you are home, Leroy!
And the walker, heck, give it a name. Maybe something like Speed Dragon or Tin Lizzy, something silly like that. Seriously, I'm glad you have it, not only for you but also for Laurie. Now she doesn't have to worry so much about you falling. And us women are good at worrying about our men!

And Leroy, I want to thank you as well,
I had the opportunity to meet Vicki from Florida. We had a nice visit and will continue our friendship. And I have Internet friendships with Sheara and Sasha, as well. Friends are such an important part of life!

Laurie, I'm so happy for you that you have your man back home! Please give him a gentle hug from all of us.

To All, I'm so happy for all of us too.
Leroy has jumped all of his hurdles, walker and all. May we continue to do the same as we continue our journey
together through Cancer World!

God Bless!!

Eileen Pruyne
Charlotte, NC.

Sent by Eileen Pruyne | 10:26 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,

I figure if I live long enough, I will need a walker. Mine's going to be purple with headlights and an oogah horn. Also streamers. Go for it, big guy!

Sent by Diana Kitch | 10:27 AM ET | 10-30-2007

HOME...such a sweet word.

The spirit you demonstrate is truly wonderful, and matched only by those who come here to encourage through sharing their experience(s) and in support of your fight.

Peggy

Sent by Peggy Miles | 10:30 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I hope you get some really groovy, colorful tennis balls to put on the bottom of the walker....

Sent by Laurie | 10:32 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, wow you're home...what a wonderful thing! And you made it home before Halloween :-)

You're up walking! Walker or not, it's a good thing, getting around on your own two feet.

Sending lots of love your way...

Sent by Faun | 10:39 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Home Sweet Home--you've got to feel great about that! Congratulations on sleeping in your own bed and eating real food and recuperating in your favorite chair.

Sent by Pamela | 10:50 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,

First of all, I'm so glad to hear your home again! Even though you have to navigate your home using a walker, still it's better than navigating a hospital room and hospital corridors!

There is a word that you used in your blog of October 19th that I can't get a word out of my head, namely, "humility." I just don't see that it is apt. I look at what you've been through, what you've chosen to share with us, and I think "wow!" Wow, that your body, despite what it's been through, has the strength to keep on fighting. Wow, that your spirit also keeps on fighting. To me it's pretty darned amazing, pretty darned wonderful. Perhaps a higher power is responsible for your body's physical strength and your own mental strength, but I don't think that in any way lessens my own sense of awe. As a human being, I am proud of you.

Shosh

Sent by Shosh | 10:56 AM ET | 10-30-2007

It's just a tool, like a bigger hammer! Glad you are home, sending you thoughts of strength and healing.

Sent by Jenene K | 10:57 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Hi Leroy and Laurie,

There is no excuse not to eat all the candy you want tomorrow Good timing my dear sweet people. Happy Halloween....

I'm am so glad you are home with your love ones. I am with you both in mind, body and spirit.

Gail Hunsberger Rochester, NY

Sent by Gail Hunsberger Rochester,NY | 11:00 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
I am sure I speak for the un-named masses who will never write in... We are thinking of you and your family, surrounding you in a pool of light. Use the energy as you see best, for only you know where it is needed most.

I am glad you are out of the hospital. Good luck to you. Connie

Sent by Connie Jaeger | 11:02 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
I'm feeling so happy about the fact that you are at home! You'll be free of the walker in time, and for now just accept the help that it gives. Hope you left your pain at the hospital.

Sent by Laura | 11:09 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,
I am so glad you are home. Yes, walkers have a strange meaning, don't they? I was coming out of the doctor's office the other and met a man and woman coming in...my guess is they were daughter and father. He had a walker, but I laughed because he was holding it in front of him...not using it.
I fell off a kitchen stool some months ago and had to get a walker. I was glad it helped me get around but I hated it. It made me an official old person. It is now hidden in the back of the closet. I hope yours will be in a similar place soon.
Have a Spooky Halloween!!
Charlotte in Temecula

Sent by Charlotte Kewish | 11:09 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Hooray for you Leroy! My husband is also on a walker, and has the same attitude. It makes all the difference. I'm so glad you are home. My best to you and Laurie.

Sent by Barbara in OR | 11:17 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Late Good morning to you Leroy and I am glad you are home... Better food, better rest. A walker can be temporary, until you are stronger, more stable, more confident in maneuvering. You'll know when to give it up.

The best is, you are home!

Sent by Sue Chap | 11:28 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Use whatever tools they give you. Remember your strength and go forward. We all have to use tools to help us through this stuff. Our prayers are with you.
With care.

Sent by anne lumberger | 11:33 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I'm so glad you're home Leroy. My mom still will not use a walker even though her alternative is to not go and do like she used to. I don't understand that. As a 50 year old with cancer mets I believe I would use a walker, a scooter, anything to keep me getting around. I don't think pride would stop me from making the choice from being mobile or not. Still, I try not to judge. After all, I still have my 77 year old mom, a 5 year ovarian cancer survivor and a 2 week breast cancer survivor with me. I thank God for that. I thank God for you too Leroy.

Sent by kim Barbato | 11:41 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Wow Leroy, I didn't think you'd get home that quick! I'm sure to you it wasn't soon enough. So now incorporate that walker into your Halloween gag. Being home is great medicine for the soul. Now you will get better!

Sent by DiAnn | 11:43 AM ET | 10-30-2007

It's great to have you home again. Does this mean we get to dress up tomorrow night after all? With my compression wraps, I could be a mummy. You want to be Darth Vader and have you IV pole wrapped in colored paper for your light saber?

Sent by glenda | 11:46 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
I've been following your blog for a while, but this is my first post. I'm a 43 yr. old single mom of a 17 yr. old daughter and I have stage III colon cancer. I only hope that I will have the courage and strength to fight like you have. You are my inspiration. Even though I am a medical professional, I learn so much from your experiences. I want to thank you for sharing all you've been through. Knowledge is power!

Glad you're home, walker or not. Keep up your positive attitude and keep fighting.

Sent by Tanya Garced | 11:50 AM ET | 10-30-2007

I'm happy that you are back home again. Happy Haloween Leroy.

Sent by Ruth White | 11:51 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,
I'm so glad to hear you're home and feeling well enough to write a much longer blog this morning! Your comments about how your dad resisted using a walker reminded me of my mom. She wanted no part of a walker and never really accepted it! However, she did get to the point that she recognized her need for other kinds of help and was very grateful for it. For most of her life, she'd always had too much pride to ask for help, and all of her children inherited that tendency. But as she let some of that pride go, she became more open and laid back and loving to those around her. She actually laughed more and seemed to develop a wry sense of humor we'd never seen before. Witnessing that change in her was a lesson (her final gift) for us.

Sent by Doris | 11:59 AM ET | 10-30-2007

Dude, glad you're home! Again, the little girl from Kansas had it right - ain't no other place like it. You can customize your walker to suit your taste - my mother had a big picture of Dean Martin hanging from the front of her walker, along with a pouch that carried her "stuff" - comb, water bottle, Life Savers, tv remote, portable phone, glasses, current book she was reading, and other useful items of her daily life. Even when she was able to walk with a cane, she used a walker because, as she put it, "you can travel with a walker, but a cane's only good for whacking your kids!"

Sent by Joyce | 12:00 PM ET | 10-30-2007

yes, acceptance of tools, whether its meds, walkers, a person to help, machines etc... it does affect your image of control or well being, but every one needs help from time to time and yes, its a good thing that walkers exist. Along with all the other tools available, and hopefully you wont need it forever, its just a project you are working on now, it will be finished soon.
:)

Sent by Jenn | 12:07 PM ET | 10-30-2007

welcome home Leroy!!!!! use that walker! i bet you are happy to be home!

Sent by Giulietta | 12:16 PM ET | 10-30-2007

I suspect that the things that matter most in life we learn in our later years.

Sent by Jerry York | 12:44 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, How terrific you are finally home! And your attitude is wonderful as always. As for the dumb walker, a temporary tool is all it is. Have some fun with it. I had to attend my niece's wedding using mine. I wrapped the whole darn thing in beautiful satin ribbon that matched my dress...perhaps not quite your style, but you get the message! Oh and think about putting some of that gel handlebar tape on the handles. Walkers can be murder on the hands! Stay strong!

Sent by Karen K. | 12:45 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Hi Leroy,
I understand how you can hate the walker. Things like that always seemed to be for old, sick people - yikes - what does that mean I am???
I'm only 40 years old but I am still recovering from radical surgery for a high-grade sarcoma in my leg. I also hated the sight of my walker. So I decorated it with garlands of silk flowers. It looked a little hokey but it made me feel better. By putting my personal stamp on the ugly thing I felt just a little more in control and therefore just a little more okay with the whole situation. Actually, I think that applies not just to the walker but to the whole cancer thing in general.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your blog. When I received my diagnosis 2 months ago I started reading the previous entries. I laughed a little, cried a lot and felt so very much less alone. That helps more than anything. Keep holding on, Leroy, just a moment longer.

Sent by Elizabeth Jordan | 12:48 PM ET | 10-30-2007

you are amazing but don't be too hard on your dad. his walker was for a different reason and permanent. yours is temporary.and there IS a reason not to pig out on candy. your body is fighting for its life. don't feed it POISON.

Sent by ann wright | 12:48 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, They are indeed a necessary evil, but this too will pass. You are home, it is great to be home!! You have help there who loves you, and it's great to be home. Enjoy and get better quickly. Stan

Sent by Stan Wozniak | 1:12 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Only a short while ago, we were all concerned about the prospect of you having to use the "Handicapped Tags" and today all the talk is about your "Walker". Isn't this a strange world?
I am happy that you are alive, re-cuperating, and back home with your loved ones. The rest will fall into place.

Sent by J C R | 1:35 PM ET | 10-30-2007

What a great outlook you have! Instead of feeling defeated, you seem to feel grateful that walkers exist to help you live the way you want. More power to you!

Sent by Carolyn Benson | 1:40 PM ET | 10-30-2007

god watching over you leroi.

Sent by isabel collazo | 1:44 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Alright Leroy!!!! You're Up!!!!! You're mobile, somewhat. You're Home! You can still have that Halloween party. Let somebody else do all the work (NOT Laurie), and party like a Rock Star!!! I'm having one (a party) and my Mom is coming! She's out of the hospital too, and her cell counts are up enough for her to mix and mangle with all her grandkids!

Blessings to you All, as always! Happy Today!!!!!!!!

Sent by Connie E. | 2:02 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy !!!
WOW !!! HOME !!!! The BEST 4 letter word i know!! Alright, maybe not the best, but sure is close!! Welcome Home!
Take care and hold your head up when you use that walker---it's good for you!! xo dee

Sent by dee | 2:08 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Congrats on getting home! What a nice development!

Sent by Scott S. | 2:19 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, You are truly an inspiration! You do what you need to do to go forward. I agree. I totally agree and I??m glad you??re home.

Sent by Laurie de Gonz??lez | 2:33 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, I gotta admit I got down when you had to go through the surgery and aftermath. A person at work died, my cat died, and it's just that time of year. But reading the 63 comments today and the 100+ yesterday did a number on me. I hope they are doing it for you too. I love the idea of naming your walker (Ferrari?) and hanging horns and tacky plastic pumpkins on it. I'm hoping this is your best Halloween ever. Keep soaking in all this love from your community.

Sent by Ann | 2:37 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Way to go Leroy. Sounds like you are well on your way to recovery. Hang in there.....:) And by the way...HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO YOU AND LAURIE

Sent by Teresa in WV | 2:44 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Stickers, colored markers, hang them from the walker, let everyone decorate the darn thing... I am so proud of your attitude. Its a tool, only that, and now you can move again. Keep smiling! Your tough and that gives you fight! God's Peace...

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 3:04 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy: Sending strength, prayers, and hugs... you hang in there buddy. Hope you get to enjoy Halloween a bit tomorrow....

Sent by Krupali Tejura MD | 3:10 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Attaboy, Leroy! Keep that positive attitude. Thank God for people that make walkers, and CT machines, and chemo drugs.

Actually, thinking about this a bit, I rely on tools to help me walk as well. They are called "shoes". So really, all of us, whether we realize it or not, are dependent on each other and on so many things to make our lives eaiser.

Keep walking, Leroy. At some point, the walker can go in the closet or garage.

Sent by Art Ritter | 3:14 PM ET | 10-30-2007

welcome home, Leroy!

Hey, that reminds me; I need to talk a walk, too!

Sent by Teri Thomas | 3:15 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
So glad you are home! Your grace under tough circumstances is a wonder and an inspiration. Feel free to complain once in awhile. We can take it!

Sent by Ginny D. | 3:52 PM ET | 10-30-2007

I've not written before but feel compelled, after keeping up with your blog for quite some time, to say something - I am lucky enough not to have had to fight cancer yet for myself. But I have been through times like this with close friends and it is extremely tough for all. These are indeed the times that try men's souls. We are all fortified by your strength and determination to make whatever sense of this you can and then pass it on as sustenance for others. Your courage is extraordinary, your faith an amazement, and your generosity of spirit a gift and a grace for all. THANK YOU, Leroy - God bless you and grant you strength to start each day with refreshed determination; relief from physical pain and spiritual suffering; and comfortable, peaceful nights during which you can rest in sleep and in the support of countless souls like me who will uphold you in prayer. We are all with you in spirit!

Sent by CaroleD | 3:59 PM ET | 10-30-2007

I'vr gone feom walker to wheelchair (due to a sterid that causes weakness in my upper leg and arm muscles) so now I am workining on weaning off the drug so I can go from wheelchair to walker. I didnt want anyone to see me using walker. Hell I'm going to get a bike horn and install it on it!!!! I'm with you. I can handle the assistance - I want my "independemce back" and my legs working! My biggest dilemma is finding a comfortable position in a worn out hospital bed. Ah....just a solid 5 to 6 hurs sleep would be wonderful!!! kay

Sent by Kay | 4:11 PM ET | 10-30-2007

We're all so glad to hear that you are home and that you have a walker available to help you! To be upright again is a great sign of progress. From the writing you've done in the last week or so, it's clear nothing has affected your mind, your writing, and nothing has affected all of us who read your words from sending you our affection and thoughts.

Sent by Linda Benson | 4:30 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Hooray for Leroy!!! Home with a walker is better than in the hospital without.
The walker is a means to an end...Leroy out and about living his life!

Sent by Marcy in NJ | 4:31 PM ET | 10-30-2007

When my husband was in the hospital recovering from having his lung removed, the kids came to visit & decided to decorate his walker. They made streamers out of newspaper & taped them to the handles like on a bike. They then took his picture with their cell phones. My husband could do nothing but laugh at all of it. I guess if you don't laugh you will have to cry so decorate it & laugh. So happy you are home, enjoy!! Kathy

Sent by Kathy | 4:40 PM ET | 10-30-2007

thank god you are home at last.we are praying for you and laurie.

Sent by yohannes | 4:54 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Hooray! You're home and you're getting about --walker or not, that is good news.

In the last year or so, I have come to the realization that the best my swallowing may ever get is I can eat things with the consistency of babyfood. I onc thought I would never buy actual babyfood, though, because that would be too depressing. Lately, I have overcome my pride and buy babyfood veggies every time I go shopping. I can hate it, or I can use it (or use it but hate it--which seems stupid). Using it without all the sturm and drang seems the far more practical way to handle things.

Sent by N.R. | 5:15 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,
Glad to hear that you're home again.
I would like to share some good news with you and the whole gang. I hope it lightens your heart for a moment.
Yesterday, my wife, Sherri (NSCLC w/ brain mets, dx 11/05), was declared NED. We're almost afraid to believe it. Almost. After two years of surgery, chemo, radiation, etc.,whose effects you all know too well, she got a clean scan. NED. We know what it means and also what it doesn't mean and are grateful for this unexpected turn of events.
Through it all she has soldiered on with courage, determination and spirit; resisting, compensating and adapting as her circumstances changed.
She's a bit frayed around the edges and threadbare in a few places from the various treatments, but always manages to get up, dust herself off and move forward with her head up, chin out and eyes on the horizon.
Can you tell that she's my hero and a great joy to me? I hope so and also hope that a bit of good news is appropriate to share with this forum.
I feel the growing strength in your writing and look forward to hearing the story of your current recuperation.
I wish for some good news, great or small, for all of you.

Sent by Gene Koeneman | 5:15 PM ET | 10-30-2007

The walker is a thing that gives you more independence right now - it allows you mobility without someone pushing you in a wheelchair. Accepting limitations is always hard. I'm still coming to terms with the fact I cannot drive because of my brain cancer. Most of the time I'm ok - but that quick trip to a store is now a well programmed process - made more difficult by living in the country.

Your attitude is good, and frankly - I'd put orange and black streamers on it with perhaps one of those bouncy dracula's on it for Halloween. And don't forget to attach your candy bag! ^_~

Sent by Linda | 5:25 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,

You blend honesty with dignity and hope with realism.

I hope the surgery and you continued recovery will bring you to another plateau where you will enjoy life and have a respite from this dreadful disease.

All my best,
Janet

Sent by janet nafissi | 5:40 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,

You can hang your clothes on the walker by your bed and transport all kinds of things with it. Then when you don't need it you can put it in the attic. It is an aide and a sort of friend. Glad you are home.
Best wishes for a speedy recovery.

Sent by Pat from NE PA | 6:09 PM ET | 10-30-2007

LEROY,
WELCOME HOME!!

Sent by Aurella | 6:46 PM ET | 10-30-2007

God bless you, Leroy! Have been reading your blog for awhile and am so glad to hear you are at home now. Prayers for you and Laurie for a fast recuperation.

Sent by Shirley | 6:48 PM ET | 10-30-2007

leroy, you are absolutely incredible and so positive and informative. as always my thoughts and prayers are with you. take care and g-d bless you.

jan

Sent by janice goldberg white | 7:47 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Your Home!!! Just in time for halloween. I remember when my Mom got her walker, she called it her cadalac. I had just finshed up my last radation treatment and after a long hual of chemo and surgies was looking for a little time to recop. My Mom was diganosed with lung cancer with mets to the brain. she only lasted 6 weeks, but she stayed with me and I cared for her till she passed. Funny I made it and she didn't. I think its sometimes just your time. Its just not your time Leroy, you have so much more to tell us. Hang in there, sening good karma your way.

Sent by ellie wingerson | 7:59 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy,

I am pumped that you are home. One step at time. Right now you need a little help to get around - no big deal. Every hour that goes by a little more will come back. Get your rest and heal. Pat

Sent by Pat | 8:58 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Hi, Leroy.

It's so great to hear that you are back home! Each recovery has its own unique qualities and challenges; I wish you and Laurie well through this one. Use what you need when you need to, to get through to the other side of healing and recovery.

You're both in my thoughts and prayers.

Erica

Sent by Erica | 9:14 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,
I just read all the wishes and congratulations that were sent to you today. What a welcome home party! What a wonderful feeling you should have for having inspired so many people who all took time out from their own problems to wish you a "Welcome Home". Welcome home to the Blog, Leroy.

Sent by Elaine | 9:27 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy, your walker reminds me of my grandfather, who called them creepers when he was in what he called "God's waiting room" (assisted living). He always added a little humor to make the medicine go down. Thanks for reminding me of him and bringing a smile to my day. Thanks for keeping up the blog too.

Sent by Lisa D. | 9:45 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Welcome home Leroy,
I've been reading your blog for a year now. My sister's cancer has paralleled yours in many ways. I'm a cancer nurse in Radiation Oncology. We care for all ages, all types of cancers with AMAZING survivals and such inspiring friends we try to help through this journey. I always wonder, and frequently ask, where my patients get their strength? What is your source, aside from all of your dear friends (and us out here)? You never mention your spiritual sources! (Clinical trials prove prayer helps!)
Know many many of us are praying for you and your caregivers. I promise to continue to pray for God to bless you with even more strength to recover from this difficult surgery and infection. And to give you hope and consolation!
Thank you for all the help you provide to so many of us!! Take your vitamins!! Drink your juice. Sit out in the sunshine. Go to the nearest beach!! Eat your vegetables! You get the drift.......
And yeah, make the walker fun! A friend painted mine, added a basket,(very handy for carrying your book, water bottle, etc.)And pad those handles and add those tennis balls.
We love ya', a friend, nurse, sister, and daughter of cancer survivors, Love to you from Tennessee,

Sent by Mona | 9:46 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Leroy
I was dx Dec. 06 w/colon cancer, had surgery & chemo Jan-Sept. 07 # weeks after I finished chemo on my 1st ct scan it was discovered my colon cancer has mets to ovaries & abdomen wall, I'm only 51 & no family history. I'm now at Md Anderson & hopefully will continue to fight like you!!! You give me strength, hope & courage!! Thank you for this blog & take care, keep up your courage, glad your home walker or no walker.
Sue

Sent by Sue | 9:55 PM ET | 10-30-2007

HANG IN THERE, LEROY !!! WE WILL HOLD YOU
TOGETHER WITH "LIST LOVE". KATHY KNIGHT,
Survivor of FIVE kinds of cancer, THIRTEEN
malignant tumors. since 1976.

P.S. You can see my picture at my brain tumor
survivor story:

P.P.S. My FIFTH kind of cancer, renal cell
carcinoma, caused a removal of my left kidney on
July 31, 2007. That one is not yet added to my
survivor story.

Sent by Kathy Knight | 11:49 PM ET | 10-30-2007

Dear Leroy,

Welcome home ! Glad to hear that you are seeing the walker as a positive. Sounds like your spirit is upbeat and that is joyful news..

love & peace
susan california

Sent by susan d | 11:55 PM ET | 10-30-2007

How fabulous to be home in time for one of your fave holidays, Leroy! Way to heal! And hurrah for your appreciation of your assistive technology. It can be very liberating when needed, and I'm glad you are approaching your walker in that spirit. I look forward to seeing what your tumor costume will look like whenever you get around to designing it. As for getting around and healing with the drains and pumps, my dad's advice might apply: "Go slo and go some mo'" (his version of slow and steady wins the race, I think!)

Sent by Sarah | 3:58 PM ET | 10-31-2007

I hate my walker! I love my walker! I have to use my walker due to spinal stinosis. It gets in my way, it's cumbersome; I run into things, including people; it's difficult to get in the car; it separates me from getting close to people I love; and it's generally a pain in the butt. BUT
it allows me to remain a part of normal activity. I can "stand" in line at the post office because my walker has a seat where I can sit. It allows me to walk distances that I would never be able to navigate with just a cane. It relieves a great deal of pain just by being there for me to hang onto. So you can see that I have a love/hate relationship with the contraption. But I think it's mostly "love." I had to get past my pride, of course, to start using it; but as you know, we do what we gotta do. Here's hoping you start to love your walker, and that it is a brief romance.

Sent by Marilyn Trujillo | 7:59 PM ET | 10-31-2007

Hi Leroy,
I had the great privilege of taking my mother's walker back when she did not need it any more. We celebrated...and you will too! The "Silver Cruiser" served its purpose and was a great help along the recovery road.

Sent by bethann | 1:49 PM ET | 11-01-2007

my mom thought her walker was a tool for *continued* independence. dependent on the tool, of course, but big dang deal. can't go outside in the winter without boots, either. i know i don't worry much about dependence on boots. in other words: you have a walker? sounds to me like you can walk...

Sent by mary | 11:22 AM ET | 11-12-2007