Dear Laurie and Leroy, one small step at a time, literally and figuratively. Leroy's entire "blog family" is praying for both of you and sending all kinds of good vibes your way. I truly hope the vision setback corrects itself in time. That Leroy is walking the halls already is a good sign. Don't forget to make sure you hold those teeny tiny gowns they give him closed (LOL). Don't want to give the world a show.

Please keep us all posted.

Warmest best wishes,

Karen Cop - NY

Sent by karen cop -New York | 1:26 PM ET | 10-08-2007

sending lots and lots of healing for your mind, body and spirit Leroy!

Jenn from Maine

Sent by Jenn | 1:26 PM ET | 10-08-2007

I was very sad to hear about the vision problems. Keep the faith that it could get better. The doctors don't know everything. Didn't they say you'd be dead by now? I'm sure you're doing some second guessing about having the surgery. I'm keeping my finger's crossed that once you are healed, the pain will be gone. It's no good to live with constant pain, and it is LIFE we're talking about, the most important thing. Everything else takes a backseat. I'm send some good vibes your way.

Sent by Marcia | 1:30 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy, I hope you can focus on the sucessful spinal surgery and not on the vision loss. As you said, you really had no choice and the good outcome with your spine is the most critical. I hope the concern shown at this site is of some comfort to you as you face this challenge.
Laurie, all my best to you.

Sent by Gene Koeneman | 1:47 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Hi Laurie, Leroy et al.

Sorry to hear about the stroke.. it often seems as if the doctors really don't know what will happen.. so hopefully, Leroy will be the one whose vision improves..You are in my thoughts..

Sent by Yvette | 1:50 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Leroy, Laurie, and friends at NPR:

My heart really goes out to you, Leroy, and those who love you, including all of us. I can't even imagine what you might be feeling Leroy - even though I can often put myself in your shoes as my family struggles with cancer, and the ups and downs of it, mentally and physically. I CAN imagine that you are tired, literally bone tired, in pain, and worried about your vision, and just tired of being in the hospital, as good as it is, and as well as I am sure you are being treated. I imagine you're wondering how much more of this fighting you can take and when it's going to stop being worth it. PLEASE don't be too hard on yourself. You have been through HELL - that's the only word for it. I often wonder if my comments on here come off too flippant, or like an arrogant jerk. I don't mean to be. Just trying to look at as many positives as I can to keep from curling up in a fetal ball myself. I can tell you, with all honesty and sincerity that I am pulling for you as much as I am my own Mother. You may find that weird, but it's true. I want to see you and her and everyone else on here WIN. I'm SICK of hearing about people dying with cancer! I want you to beat back this monster forever, for yourself, and everyone you have inspired and motivated to "not give up" with your strength and courage. God, I need that! It's only natural to be down sometimes after what you have gone through. Please just remember that there are SO MANY people praying for you, sending you positive energy, worrying about you, crying with you, and wishing you only the absolute best! You've touched all our lives now, and as many have said so often - we're all on this journey together now. Please take strength from the love of so many. Heal and rest - my prayers for you will never end.

God Bless you and your loved ones, and everyone else here trapped in what seems to be a never-ending hell.

Sent by Connie E. | 2:02 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie,
Thanks for the update. I will continue to keep you both in my prayers.

Sent by Karen | 2:19 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Hello Laurie.. thank you for the update. This has been such a long, harsh road for you both. As you know, you and Leroy are in the thoughts and prayers of so many people. Oh, how I wish we could do more. Bless you both.

Sent by Sharon | 2:32 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you for the update Laurie-it means so much to all of us out here. Stay strong Leroy! Many, many thoughts and prayers are heading your way.

Sent by Merin | 2:35 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy & Laurie,
Keep fighting! I know it is easy for us to say but don't let it get you. Your in our prayers. Believe!!!
God Bless you guys!

Sent by Aurella | 2:37 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie, Again thanks so much for the update. You two are constantly on my mind. I continue to do the only thing that I know to do and that is pray for strength and healing for you both.
Sincerely,
Tanya

Sent by Tanya | 2:37 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie and Leroy,
I know Leroy is tough, but so is the situation.
Laurie, tell him this is not a downhill slide, it's an uphill battle.
And to remember for kites to soar and airplanes to fly, they have to buck the wind. So sometime when we think things are going against us, it's not the end but the beginning.
My prayers are with you both.

Sent by Joan F | 2:55 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thanks for the update - Halloween's coming so with those staples he can go as Frankenstein .... sort of .... Peace to you both.

Sent by Jen | 2:57 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you, Laurie, for taking the time to update us on the Big Guy- I check the site all the time, hoping for news!
Leroy, you keep on truckin' and walkin' those halls,'til time takes you though this tunnel and back into the light. We're all cheering you on, so follow the huge swell of all these voices- it's your Fan Club. :-))

Sent by LSF | 3:00 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you Laurie for keeping us posted. Leroy, you are The (Bionic) Man! Keep chugging up and down that hallway (brings back those chugging moments I had to do so many times last year). It is good news that that the surgery has gone well.

Sent by Dorothy, Los Angeles | 3:20 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you Laurie for the update. The prayers will always continue for you, Leroy and your families and extended families. The energy that we "will" to you all can hopefully stoke the furnace of Leroy's spirit and push away the darkness and despair.

Cancer does kick you when you are down and the most vulnerable. That is why the prayers and good thoughts are raised in your names each and every day. Many of us have also walked this path and some are in a similar situation as Leroy's. Prayer is powerful. When all seems lost and the burden is so heavy, ask for God's mercy, grace and healing power. God is there, always.

I am sad to hear about Leroy's struggle and his feelings of despair. Please convey to him that "his army of bloggers" would each gladly take a portion of his burden and walk with him on his journey until he is healed and restored. It is with faith and humility that I believe that Leroy will be returned to us all.

Blessings and prayers as always.

Sent by Al Cato | 3:25 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
Stay strong. The first news is usually the worst and then it gets better, especially with a stroke.
My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

Sent by Mary Lynne Bailey | 3:25 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie - Thank you for taking the time for an update. More powerful and positive vibes are heading eastward!

Just have a couple thoughts I wanted to share. This past winter, my mother had a stroke which affected her field of vision in her right eye and it resolved itself within weeks. I realize the specifics of effects of the stroke differ from Leroy's but never say never! Also, if his vision isn't recovered, know that my daughters boyfriend has his license and he is legally blind in one of his two eyes due to a childhood illness and has no depth perception. It is doable!

Hugs to you both, and also a 'thanks' to Ted Koppel for sharing an update last week.

Brenda from Hoosier-land

Sent by Brenda M. White | 3:30 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie,

This is when the fight seems to be most unfair - so we have to fight back with all the mental powers we have - if all of us Leroy has touched put our positive vibes together as a shield I can just not believe the cancer can get through mentally or physically. Please tell him good luck with his fight and that he has an army of folks beside him! Keep positive!!

Sent by LJ | 3:41 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie....These things are always hard to take, but I think when the body is worn down and we are feeling weak, they hit us especially hard. What we can handle on a good day, because almost unbearable on these days.

Hopefully, as Leroy regains his strength and his pain lessens, his spirit will grow stronger as well, to handle this new challenge. In the meantime, I hope our thoughts and prayers help, in some small way, to lift him towards that day!! God bless!

Sent by betty obst | 3:43 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie,

As a spouse/caregiver I know exactly what you are feeling. It is not an easy road for us.

Circumstances change from moment to moment, and in our world changes can often be painful and most likely are with its many ups and downs and twists and turns.

I am not handling my husbands illness well; unfortunately I am a not emotionally strong, but I am trying really hard to take one day at a time.

I wish only the best for you and Leroy. The only thing I have to offer is my prayers. This blog has become my second family. May we all get through this together.

Please give that big guy a hug! God Bless us all.

Sent by sasha | 3:52 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you Laurie. Glad to hear that Leroy is up and walking. That must be a painful process. I remember when my husband had his spinal fusion long, long, ago, what a painful ordeal learning to walk again was. However, he did and that back has served him well for some fifty years now. Painful, yes, but it will work for Leroy. The eyes and stroke are a different thing for him to deal with. My stroke of six mos ago did the same type of damage to my eyes also.
As an Artist, it has been very difficult to cope with, but then loss of sight is difficult for anyone. BUT I am 77, Leroy is still young!
The big worry is to keep another stroke from happening and it could be even more devastating.
See, I tried to tell Leroy this in a few of my answers to his blog through these mos. There ARE setbacks that in their way, can be as hard to deal with as Cancer. Seems that we worry about one thing, and another misery hits us.
The worst thing for Leroy at present, will be dealing with his depression, which will hamper his ability to heal well.
You sound like such a great couple, just help him from letting depression overwhelmig him. My wonderful husband, (with six old screws in his back) has helped me so much!
Our love and best wishes to you both~

Sent by J C R | 3:55 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Leroy (and Laurie),
I've no wise words for you, like you have given me this past year, but I do want you both to know I think of you both several times a day, and wish you strength and inner peace. I am grateful for all the words and thoughts you have shared with your "computer family" and "Cancer World Family". It is a priviledge being a member. Wishing you inner light.

Sent by Dr. Lynn | 3:56 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Keep up the fight-you are an inspiration to all of the rest of us also battling this terrible disease.
Never lose the faith-

Sent by Dick Campbell | 4:07 PM ET | 10-08-2007

I am thinking of you both and wishing you well. I'm not sure what to say that won't seem to be more for myself and my own comfort than it is for you, because I'm always afraid these moments are about trying to exert power over something you can do nothing about. But your willingness to share a difficult time with others has helped me understand how much a determined, courageous person can decide to withstand without losing himself. You have managed to give of yourself at a time when many people (understandably) have the stamina only to look inward, and I have appreciated it.

I hope your recovery will be in every way at the high end of what seems possible...actually, I hope for better than that.

Sent by Linda | 4:20 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie and Leroy,

Many of us who are holding you so close in our thoughts have also spent time in the darker places within us, dealing with the myriad ways cancer makes its demands. It's really tough, and hard to accept - and it's hard to believe we'll ever feel otherwise at those times. But Leroy, you've been in hard places before, and you've always found your way out - I know you will again. Many many thanks for the profound difference you make.

Sent by jeh | 4:24 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
Hang in there. Both of you are an inspiration to us all. Lots of prayers and good vibes going your way....

Sent by D | 4:40 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie thanks so much for the update! I, like so many others, check each day to see if there is any new information. Also, like others I am hoping for the best. Taking your time to share news is wonderful as it also allows us to continue to share our positive energy with Leroy. Peace

Sent by Dona | 4:52 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie and Leroy,

As others have said, I check in a few times every day to check the news and read the posts. Imagine hundreds of us doing that every day. I once heard that for every person who sends a letter to the editor on an issue they care about there are at least ten people who want to but for some reason don't. I bet this blog is like that.

If you both close your eyes and focus on your breathing I bet you can feel the huge flow of positive energy coming your way. You may even feel a tingling sensation. Yup. That's us sending love and healing energy to you.

Thank you for sharing your world with us so that we may share ourselves with you.

Sent by Jocelyn | 4:52 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie & Leroy....

>>>---------> positive

Sent by Teri Thomas | 5:09 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you Laurie for the update. Even though I'm sure Leroy is getting the best of care at the hospital, I'm fairly certain that you both can't wait to go home...where the real healing can begin.

Keep walking those halls Leroy...

Hugs and kisses....

Sent by Faun, Orlando | 5:13 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Sending good thouughts your way. Prayers are with you and Leroy.

Sent by Anne lumberger | 5:16 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie,

Thank you for making the time to write a post for all of us. It is such good news that Leroy seems to be making excellent progress in his spinal recovery. I am sending good thoughts that the vision recovery will follow in its own good time.

Sent by Sheara | 5:16 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Darkness. There is something terrifying about sight loss. I remember my own mother's feelings of helplessness as she gradually lost her sight to macular degeneration. And for it to happen suddenly, with no time to prepare emotionally, is particularly challenging for you. It requires an enormous psychological adjustment - even for partial loss. We all send our caring and support and our feeble attempts at understanding what you are going through, Leroy. Just know you are not alone, and that many others have dealt with this frightening development and gone on to be comfortable with it. Have faith. It may even get better, but if not, at least you have movement, partial vision, another good eye and your famous spirit. And a legion of supporters.

Sent by Wendy | 5:18 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie - thanks for the update, we understand you don't like being in the spotlight but it means so much to us out here in blog land/cancer world to get updates. Leroy - you are doing great, us nurses always get the patients up and walking ASAP and you sure have met all expectations. We are all praying for a quick recovery so you can go home, try not to worry about what you can't control. Get those feelings out and your sense of humor will be back. You have so many people supporting you and loving you.

Sent by Vicki (FL) | 5:37 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Keep up the good work Leroy and Laurie thank god Leroy has you you truly are an angel! You are in my thoughts and prayers every day. My dad unfortunately just passed on from a 15 month fight of Lung Cancer and it is so very hard for me right now but during the past 15 months you have inspired me so much and will continue to inspire me along with the whole group here. I may not have cancer but I watched helplessly for 15 months and just because my dad is gone I am not I too am in the fight after this beast in his honor and all of you here. It is my fight now while my father is finally at peace. So let's stay united and keep fighting for those before, those now and those to unfortunately come. So some day it isn't so bad and can be controlled with not so much agony. Thanks to all and Leroy keep up the great work you are an inspiration to us all!!! Cori Swanson

Sent by Cori Swanson | 5:50 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Lotsof positive vibes and prayers coming your way from Seattle.
All the Very Very Best Wishes.

Sent by Chandana | 5:57 PM ET | 10-08-2007

HEAL, MY MAN, HEAL

Sent by MARY JO ALBERT | 5:58 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie,

Thank you very much for taking time from yourself and Leroy to give us an update. The success from the operation is good. Of course, the doctors will not know the definitive outcome for the vision, because we know so little on how the brain repairs itself.

I will hold you both in my prayers, and please (one caregiver to another) take care of yourself, be kind to yourself.

Sent by Susan Chap | 6:13 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy,

I have never posted before but wanted to tell you to hang on! I am a breast cancer survivior, out of treatment for 3 months and just went to the Susan B. Komen Race for the Cure this past sunday. I was AMAZED at all the women STILL HERE! Especially the ones that are 20+ year surviviors which is quite a feat with what they had to fix you with back then compared to now. You are a constant inspiration to me when I get down and I think of you everyday. Don't lose the faith, you can do this. My best to you and all your loved ones.

Sent by Cindee | 6:16 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie - thanks for the update. We'll keep the thoughts and prayers coming. I've been in the Catskills in NY the last 3+ days visiting my sister who is dealing with breast cancer, and without internet access was not up to date on all that is going on with Leroy. that is a lot to deal with. Don't give up hope for visual return.

Sent by Art Ritter | 6:18 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie and Leroy,

Just keep taking one small bite at a time. One small step; one inch if that is all you can muster.

I just shared your story with an oncology social worker at Swedish Cancer Institute in Seattle. We are with you.

Thank you so much for keeping us updated.

Sent by Laurel M. Jones | 6:47 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie,

Sending you both all the positive vibes I can muster up.

Take good care.

Peace,

Kim Blankenship

Sent by Kim Blankenship | 7:00 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie and Leroy, you both are in my thoughts. Keep positive and know that miracles happen all the time if you believe. And a splash of pixie dust for Halloween.

Sent by Pat Zalewski | 7:09 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Ditto ! Ditto! Ditto! What they all said...and connie e...you do not come off as flippant, only concerned. Laurie, thank you for keeping us in the loop, we all love you both.!!!

Sent by liz zimmerman | 7:20 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Oh Leroy and Laurie, Please accept all the positive vibes, thoughts, cyber hugs and kisses, advice, and concern as sincere attempts to just let you know we miss you and want you well, mentally, spiritually and physically. It sounds like you are doing everything you can at this moment in time to accomplish just that. Mary Jo says it best: Heal, man heal!!! JMoyer

Sent by JLmoyer | 7:26 PM ET | 10-08-2007

To Laurie: Take care of yourself so you can take care of him. I know the feeling.
To Leroy: Hang in there and don't let cancer steal your spirit.
To Sasha: Just want to incourage you to stay strong--My husband lost his battle with lung cancer 6 months ago but he often said he could handle anything if I could be tough for him. I don't have to be tough anymore--I miss him more every day, after spending 37 years together. But guess what--he is still with me each and every day.
Jane

Sent by Jane Garrett | 8:05 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie and Leroy
Thank you for the updates. Take care and remember that we all are in your corner.

Sent by Earlene | 8:20 PM ET | 10-08-2007

This summer I watched my close friend take and pass a driving test after three brain surgeries (stage IV melanoma) and loss of peripheral vision in one eye and feeling in one hand. The body's ability to compensate is amazing. I am sure it is hard to stay positive, but please try to remember that what does not seem possible may be... This may mean compensating for changes and it may mean actual healing. Please try to stay strong and positive even in these most trying of circumstances. I know it's too much to ask of you - but it's worth it. My very best wishes.

Sent by Laura | 8:25 PM ET | 10-08-2007

All my prayers to you and Laurie. Never give up, keep up the fight.

Many have talked about Live as if it is your last day, life is so precious, life can turn on a dime, fight the downward slide, slippery slope, lost footing. Saturday I had all this happen when I foolishly went into unguarded heavy surf here in FLA and was sucked out and under giant waves. I was pushed under and could not get back to shore and began to drown out there. For about 5 minutes I was at the mercy of the raging water crashing over my head and not letting me breathe-one of the worst panics I have ever had. I found out the hard way how your life can be snatched away and it can be your last day.

For the grace of God, my daughter who has been on the swim team and 3 burly surfers who risked their lives-I would not have been pulled out and lived. At one point, we were pulled even further out-like so many of you hearing bad news-it looked like we all would not make it. But He delivered me and the others back to shore. I had minor saltwater aspiration syndrome, but did not need medical help. I experienced what it is like to start dying, but be saved to learn what my wife Jodi went through on her last days and have new perspectives.

An "education" about how precious life is and to quit the petty worries, angers and fears and focus on today-live it to the fullest.

Steve Faulkner

Sent by Steve Faulkner | 8:33 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
From a southern girl, bless yall's hearts!! Believe me, we all know how difficult this time is and we all have to believe there are better days ahead for you both. Leroy, the halloween costume is already started just say the magic words. I know you have that great sense of humor in there still so go with it. Laurie, keep the faith that after this rough patch there will be some better days. God bless you both

Sent by kathie | 8:41 PM ET | 10-08-2007

I'm glad that the spinal surgery was successful and am hoping that this latest attack will be powerful enough to put the cancer back into remission.

I'm hoping that once you recover from surgery you'll be pain free and that the vision problem you are experiencing is temporary.

Sending healing thoughts your way....

Sent by Chris | 9:01 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Colorado sends it's love to you, Laurie, and to you Leroy. Different energy for each for different situations that are shared.

I'm a caretaker for my husband, partner, and best friend - and I know - oh, how I know the weight that settles on my shoulders some days.

Baby steps - when day by day is too much, then hour by hour, and when that is too much, minute by minute. I don't think I've ever had to take it down to a nano-second, but there have been days where it is was close.

Mental hugs, boxes of kleenex, and gallons of ice cream - no calories in mental treats - grin.

Sent by Connie Jaeger | 9:04 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie,
Thanks for the post. I've been thinking and worrying about both of you. My thoughts are with you and take good care!

Sent by Betsey | 9:07 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie and Leroy,

May God keep you strong in mind and body. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily. You will get through this. Take it a day, hour, a minute, a moment at a time.

Take Care,

Mary

Sent by Mary | 9:18 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Cannot believe that you're walking the halls already! What an accomplishment that is.

Sent by Donna | 9:23 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy,
From personal experience, I understand something about your despair. Try not to give into it. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, literally and figuratively, as long as humanly possible. Like you have often said, you really don't have any other choice.

Sent by Marilyn | 9:26 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie, you are both in my thoughts. If this was a perfect world there would be no cancer, or vision problems. I hope the vision clears. To life.
Rita

Sent by Rita | 9:34 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Blessings, blessings and more blessings are sent your way to you both....I choose to think positive thoughts, happy thoughts, to guide you on your way....

Sent by Karen | 9:39 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy and Laurie, May the thoughts and prayers of so many lift you in the dark hours. You have brought so much inspiration into the world. Possibly at some point you may find encouragement in Sen. John McCain's words on courage after his POW years and in more recent years battle with melanoma ( a message beyond politics). On a lighter note, I like Jen's comment about Halloween. Last Halloween I was having cancer surgery #3 and found humor in my "costume." Facing cancer requires examples of bravery, and may you feel this spirit in others and your own amazingly strong self, Big Man!
Karen Q.

Sent by Karen Q. | 10:16 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie, I've been there. Sometimes I've thought "This is unbearable. Then I'd think, hah - you don't get to say unbearable. You have to bear it." Watching someone you love in physical and mental anguish is torture. The only compensation is feeling that you can help a little. Thanks so much for keeping us posted.
Leroy, no matter what lousy things happen to your body, you'll remain a powerful man. You make a real difference and have a lot of grateful friends. I know that it must feel like the rug's been pulled out from under you again. I hope you'll get your bearings, like you have in tough fights before, and soon be having good days again.

Sent by Laura | 10:53 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Laurie, You are kind to take the time to bring us all into Leroy's world. Your details of what he is experiencing bring understanding of the thoughts we in turn must send to him, thoughts of healing, relief from pain and of calm and quiet in the midst of this storm.

Sent by Linda | 10:56 PM ET | 10-08-2007

I don't usually have time to read the comments left here, but decided to read through them today. Ya know - this ol' cancer world has some pretty special people in it. You can feel the strength of their collective prayers and I add my own to that. Healing prayers for Leroy and for Laurie, and for all of those on this blog who are struggling with this horrid disease or caring for someone who is. God bless you all.

Sent by Dianne in NV | 11:02 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie,
We are all worried about Leroy and pray he is getting better every day. I want to know how YOU are doing too. As a 1 1/2 year breast cancer survivor, I know what my husband went through. Are you ok?

Sent by debbie ross | 11:06 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Leroy, (and Laurie) Hang in there.

Sent by Beth | 11:10 PM ET | 10-08-2007

just a reminder that we're rooting and praying for you all

Sent by Barbara | 11:11 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thank you, Laurie, for the update.
I send my best to both of you.

Sent by Judith Newkirk | 11:14 PM ET | 10-08-2007

You're awesome. I think about you a lot. thanks so much for sharing your story and just for being you. we're rooting for you, always.

Sent by Alissa | 11:15 PM ET | 10-08-2007

My wife caught me with tears in my eyes as she was driving me home from the hospital today so I had to tell her that I had been thinking about Leroy and his stroke. We talked about all of the upbeat attitudes that we have read in the blog over the last several months and I am now convinced that Leroy will find a way to make these latest developments a POSITIVE in the fight against the cancer which is our common enemy. The vision problem will not keep our man Leroy down for long.
We are anxiously awaiting the RETURN of LEROY.

Sent by John Zizelmann | 11:17 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Dear Laurie and Leroy,
Thanks for the update. It must be such a relief and feel good to know the surgery was a success and you are on the road towards recovery and being able to go home soon. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.
In Peace,
Lynda from Seattle

Sent by Lynda | 11:47 PM ET | 10-08-2007

Thanks for the update Laurie. I wish you and Leroy peace and light.
Scarlett

Sent by Scarlett Harris | 12:17 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Lori and Leroy,

You are always in my prayers. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us and please take care of yourselves.

Sent by Amy | 12:24 AM ET | 10-09-2007

i just read a quote from Irene Nemirovsky's book Suite Francaise about occupied France that hit home.

"Important events - whether serious, happy, or unfortunate - do not change a man's soul, they merely bring it into relief, just as a strong gust of wind reveals the true shape of a tree when it blows off all its leaves. Such events highlight what is hidden in the shadows, they nudge the spirit towards a place where it can flourish.

Leroy, your spirit is a big, mighty oak and it is strong and flourishing. Take time to heal. Peace

Sent by cv | 12:49 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Hello leroy & laurie,
I was happy to see your post laurie. this site is the first place i seek when I turn on my computer. I need to know how my buddy leroy is doing. I was walking along the San Francisco embarcadero today, the sun was shining, the breeze was sending shivers through the bay and the bridge was basking in the light. when you feel well Leroy it would be wonderful for you to take this walk. It was an incredibly beautiful day and five years ago my doctor told me that I might not be here ! Today I was reminded that life is sweet.

I look forward to seeing you in San Francisco.

love and peace,
susan

Sent by susan d | 1:02 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie,

Sending you energy against darknesses literal and figurative. I know nothing said or done can make things okay, but I hope that time brings you to something more comfortable in every way. Still lighting candles for you with my best friend and partner; we're rooting for you with all we've got. Love and light from a fellow denizen of Cancer World.

Sent by Jess Neiweem | 1:12 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Hi Leroy and Laurie:

Earlier this past summer I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I am 63 years of age and a second year student in the Master's of Social Work Program at Eastern Washington University in Cheney, WA.

Your daily comments through the NPR web site was a tremendous source of courage to me. Now! I want you to know that I am thinking about you and yours during this time.

Be of good courage,
mattie

Sent by Mattie Joyce Hervey | 1:50 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie,
Thank you for the post. I think it's natural and maybe necessary for Leroy to let himself feel sad and angry and disappointed at this point. Jeez! But try and hang onto hope. Take care of each other. There are so many loving thoughts streaming your way!

Sent by Doris | 2:13 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Laurie,
Yes! Cancer hits hard on the spirit. We've all felt this. I can tell that you are both strong souls. Get lots of rest and know that the sun will come up and shine on you tomorrow. You are in good hands and there are so many people around you sending Love and Gratitude. Love,

Sent by Linda Mowbray | 2:54 AM ET | 10-09-2007

I don't like giving or getting advice. I do know what it feels like, without warning, to have my vision altered and diminished in an instant. (Damaged retinas.) It is a shocking experience to suddenly see the world in a different way, especially while recovering from major surgery. Leroy, you are appreciated for your generous spirit. I'm so sorry that this has happened.

Sent by E.H. | 3:49 AM ET | 10-09-2007

hi laurie thanks for the update my thought and prayers with you wishing leroy a speedy recovey.

Sent by yohannes | 5:11 AM ET | 10-09-2007

My heart is heavy for you right now through all of this. I have been told recently to "Pray, and let God worry.".
That is one of the hardest things to do, but I do pray for comfort and strength for the both of you.

Sent by Sandy | 5:52 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Thank you for the update, Laurie. It means a lot to hear how Leroy is doing. I know I've come to rely on his blog, and miss his commentary something fierce.

Sent by Teri | 6:26 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Thanks for the update. Best of luck with the tests and hoping with time, the eye problem will work out. Still sending very positive energy your way. Stay strong! We're all here for you guys! Take care.

Sent by Sandy Lathe | 6:35 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy ~
You are in my thoughts and prayers constantly! Take one minute at a time if you have to, but don't lose your focus. There will be moments when you feel like it isn't all worth it...but IT IS!!! We are all here for you for better or worse. One foot in front of the other. Our love, prayers, and support are with you and Laurie!

Sent by Maria | 7:32 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie...what everyone else said. There is so much positive energy being sent to you from the "blog family" I hope you can feel it.

I wish you both peace and strength.

Hugs,

Lori

Sent by Lori Levin | 7:39 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy:
If my wishing could make it so you'd now be considering entering the next Iron Man Competition in Hawaii. Barring that, let's see you beat your best time walking down the hall!
Love, Don

Sent by Don Winslow | 8:04 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie and all of us,

I have an appointment with my oncologist today.I am a bit nervous. That is nothing compared to what you two are enduring. But my thoughts and prayers are for you. And us. We are all in this together. Life and love are worth it!

Sent by Kathleen | 8:11 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie and Leroy,

It's hard to not be repetitive here (thanks for the update, we're pullin' for ya, hang in there...), but all these comments are heartfelt.

I've found myself coming to this sight, even when I know there won't be an update. You're part of my life, Leroy (and Laurie). I've been thinking of you, and now I suspect it's time to pull out the big guns (healing prayers) for you both.

It's easy for me to say, but don't worry about the vision thing Leroy. It will be what it will be. As my dear husband, the psychologist, is wont to tell me, "Don't ask why. Ask instead, 'Where is this taking me?'"

And not driving for a while is only somewhat terrible. Yes, it's a horrible loss of what I came to call our very first ticket of admittance into adulthood and independence: the driver's license. But not driving also helps us to exercise some much unused muscles, like learning to depend on the kindness of our friends, family and neighbors.

Love, caring and healing

Sent by jordis | 8:48 AM ET | 10-09-2007

leroy, get well soon. you are my hero. i think of you when i am having a tough time. you can do this.
neal

Sent by neal griffin | 8:48 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie, thank you for posting the update, we all appreciate any news on how Leroy is doing. Please tell him that we miss him and are rooting for him, praying for him, and wishing for a speedy recovery. Blessings to both of you.

Sent by Lisa D. | 8:59 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie...I think about you both every day, and continue to hold out a vision of your healing, and regaining the life that you value and contribute to so mightily. I know that those of us in your blog family can't come to Hopkins and stand around your bed (for which Hopkins must be eternally grateful...there's a BUNCH of us!) and give you strength directly, but imagine us all there around you, because in spirit, we all are. Since we're spiritual beings having a human experience, that is a powerful thing.

Sent by Nancy K. Clark | 9:17 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy,
I have read your blog for a little over a year now, and have always enjoyed your thought-provoking, humorous, and upbeat entries. I wish you the best of luck as you face this recovery process.

Sent by Elissa | 9:26 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie,
I am pulling for you. I know it is hard to muster the fighting spirit (especially after a week at JHH)but I know you have it in you. You have imparted so much courage and fight in all of us. Take care, be strong and know that millions care about you...nancy

Sent by Nancy Fink | 9:31 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Hi Laurie - Strokes are bad, but often get better and all the tests in the world aren't going to give you a definitive answer as to what the outcome will be. My wife works with stroke victims for a living and she is usually surprised at how well they fare after the initial diagnosis.
I can imagine this is a punch in the stomach when you least need it, but whatareyougonnado? You guys have been thru so much. My thoughts are with you and Leroy.
Anyone want some good news?? My wife starts her LAST ROUND OF CHEMO ON WEDNESDAY!!! Tell that to Leroy and I hope it cheers him up a bit!!!

Sent by Tim | 9:37 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy, If love were a cure, you would live to 150. Sending a little "treatment" your way.

Sent by Penny Coeur d'Alene, Idaho | 9:56 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Laurie & Leroy - thinking and praying for you both - each step! Love, La Monica Family

Sent by La Monica | 9:56 AM ET | 10-09-2007

baby steps...I know that sounds strange to a man who is 6' 5" but it has been your inspiring baby steps that have given many of us courage and strength in helping us to get over each hurdle. Today it will be steps down the hall and maybe tomorrow or the next day you will turn the corner. I know in your heart that you want to turn that corner Leroy, so go for it. Imagine that all of us who get inspired by your thoughts are holding a rope pulling you around that corner. It's our turn. So allow us to help you turn that corner with Laurie one step at a time. As we encounter more obstacles, our expectations need to be modified, but I know you have it in you to fight this battle.

Sent by Jill | 9:57 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Keep on walking, Leroy! Our positive thoughts, healing prayers, and good vibes are with you.

Sondra

Sent by Sondra Scott | 10:00 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy,
I have been reading your post for over a year now (my brother has cancer), but have never written, in part because I know that I am an outsider, and in part because I am not yet comfortable with this form of exchange. Writers should be read, but I am not certain readers should write and force the writer to read. But I do want to say that what you are doing with your blog is terribly important and valuable. And I want to wish you the strength to deal with what you are going through, and to your loved ones as well.

Sent by Nina | 10:04 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie - you are both in our prayers always. Keep your chins up and try to laugh. It really does help!!

Sent by Linda | 10:06 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie & Leroy:
Thank you so much for taking time to keep us updated. Leroy you're a gem to all of us. We are fighting with you. You are a dear friend and I am praying fervently for you, for a quick recovery and especially now for your vision. We have a God in heaven who loves you and has a plan and a purpose for you even in all this. Look at how much you have encouraged and helped those who are going through cancer like yourself. And for all the caretakers who relish your insight into the thoughts and concerns of a cancer patient. Thank you again for being transparent to us and allowing us to peek behind the veil and walk with you through this journey. You are loved!

Sent by Debbie Eaton | 10:10 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy,
How does it feel to have all this love coming back at you from so many of your grateful friends and admirers? It's no accident that so many care so deeply during this particularly trying time for you.
Linda captured it best for me when she observed that you've given so much of yourself to others at a time when most people only have the stamina to look inward and she so appreciated that about you. Well me, too, pal!
When you're ready, we wait eagerly for the return of your courageous and unselfish leadership. In the meantime, we are eager to surround you with a warm and fuzzy blanket of love, grace and healing.
Fondly, Anita

Sent by Anita Solomon | 10:10 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie,
First thing I do every morning is read your blog. I've been doing ths for . . for a long, long time. I read the blog, and I take strength and inspiration from it. At last I am unselfishly taking the time and making the effort to join the community that benefits from you sharing your experience and your spirit with us, to join the healing circle that extends their appreciation and their best wishes and their love to the two of you through this ordeal. All I know to say is that I am there, listening and caring.

D.

Sent by D. | 10:13 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
You, both of you, can do it if anyone can. Please stay strong and you have so much proof of all the love and good thoughts coming your way with every step you take. We are there for you!

Pat Doyle

Sent by Pat Doyle | 10:13 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Laurie and Leroy,

Baby steps. And then bigger ones and with all the right therapy Leroy will get there. Spinal surgery is huge and he needs to cut himself a lot of slack and know that it takes time to heal. Of course he is a veteran at this and I know I am not saying anything he doesn't know already. So to help with that I am sending huge amounts of healing thoughts, prayers and good wishes.

Lianne Friedman

Sent by Lianne Friedman | 10:13 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy- You are a lucky man to have lived a full and meaningful life you are proud of. In spite of all your suffering and fear, I hope you can remember to be thankful for all the blessings you have received, even as you fight to get back to "normal" once again. This kind of thinking helps me to stay strong and not bitter.

Sent by Diane | 10:15 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie, Hang in there. Know you are loved by God and all of us. Love is a very powerful med.

Sent by sarah | 10:16 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie, Surgery is hard, really hard. Sounds like this one will take a while to recover from. I hope well wishes from the caretakers and patients here can cheer him up just a bit for now. We have all looked forward to that little part of the day, here, where we can fully acknowledge that we are not alone in our physical and emotional journey. Wishing you both some peace today, some distraction from all of this.Thanks for keeping us updated.

Sent by NancyGM | 10:18 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy,

In a recent update, Ted Koppel mentioned swearing. I'd like to commend the positive power of profanity. I'm a person who grew up in a home where profanity was not heard. For much of my life I found it offensive when I heard others use it. But a colleague helped me see its positive power. Sometimes just uttering the words makes you feel better, and at times it even causes me to laugh at myself. I still cringe when I hear it being directed at other people. But when it is a reflection of utter frustration and pain, aimed at ones circumstances, I find it has a healing quality. I consider it a sort of prayer to G-d, expressing the fullness of my frustration and human condition, for which I believe G-d cares. When I read of your vision problem, I uttered an expletive on your behalf. I hope it helps!

Shalom, Jon

Sent by Jon Manchester | 10:25 AM ET | 10-09-2007

A quick note to remind you that you and Laurie are both in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to hearing from you, Leroy; knowing you, that won't be too far off.

Take good care of yourselves,
Wendy

Sent by Wendy Murphey | 10:29 AM ET | 10-09-2007

so much love. all good things. get well soon.

Sent by ejd | 10:36 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Sending prayers and love your way Leroy and Laurie.

Sent by MJ | 10:47 AM ET | 10-09-2007

It's not fair that a guy who has had to endure so much, may have to learn to adapt to another change.........but, YOU'RE STILL HERE......and have so many people that are anxious to share your continued journey with you - all the highs and lows..........Keep working hard to get well, Leroy - there's happier moments ahead for you, I'm sure!
In the meantime, lots of prayers and positive energy coming your way.....all shall be well............

Sent by Ruth Chermok | 10:48 AM ET | 10-09-2007

It's incredible to hear that you are walking the halls. You've had setbacks before and managed through them. You will again, because you have the fortitude. All my best wishes to both of you. Continue to get well.

Sent by Claire | 10:48 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy & Lori,

It's delightful to read the kinderness,& devotion that you Lori have for each other. A beautiful place to live each day.

You two are blessed .

Most Sincerely,

Jerome Magid

Sent by Jerome Magid | 10:48 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie and Leroy, My heart goes out to both of you. It is way to early to determine the outcome of the vision loss. After my major surgery, I was told that this is as good as it gets and it threw me into a deep depression. That was eight months ago and I am doing much better than anyone thought, actually very well. You both are in my prayers, hang in there, I know it's tough.

Sent by Ruth White | 10:59 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie,
I have been following your blog for almost a year now. I have been battling cancer myself for 3 years and my oncologist has told me that my disease is "terminal". My question to you is this: Where is God is all of this? I cannot imagine battling cancer without Him. And "good thoughts" and "positive vibes" can't hold a candle to the power of prayer. I have personally experienced many blessings and miracles during this challenging journey, and I have so many Prayer Warriors supporting me that it overwhelms me. Please address where you are with faith in your blog. You've truly addressed everything else!

Sending you prayers,
Barbara

Sent by Barbara | 11:01 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy - - I hope that you can feel the strength of all of us holding you up as you walk down the hospital corridor (for some reason, i am suddenly reminded of my first post-surgery corridor walk after major abdominal surgery at the hospital where I then worked - - as my husband was holding me up, and i was taking very tentative steps, one of the doctors with whom i had recently done some work stopped me in the hallway to talk about business!! I wanted to say to him "hel-lo!!! don't you see i am in a bathrobe and slippers and connected to an IV pole??? I am a PATIENT today and am "off duty!").

Hopefully you won't have anyone pestering you as you walk!

Thank you, Laurie, for taking the time to keep us all posted. Hugs to both of you.

Suzanne in Houston

Sent by Suzanne | 11:04 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie,

Thank you so much for taking the time to post Leroy's news. I am trying to imagine each of your perspectives, yours and Leroy's. I'm sure that each "episode" (as I call them in my life) is so draining for you, and I know it must be hard to watch and be the caregiver. I have almost always been the patient, but I do try to imagine my husband's experience...and I'm not sure I would trade places with him. Thank you for taking care of Leroy and for taking the time from that job to update us.

Leroy, I do know the role of patient too well, and I am sorry you're "it" right now. When you're in the hospital, it is all you can focus on. Things seem so tough there, even though people are generally kind. It's hard to put your brain in any world beyond your room or your hall or however far you can go. I do hope you'll get some pain relief over time and that that will help you recover mentally. It is often the mental part that's so hard. As for the vision piece, I wish you all the best, and I hope that improves over time too. It did seem like you had to do the surgery, so at least I hope you're not second guessing that decision. Please know that there are so many of us out here following your journey and wishing you all the best.

Leslie from Boston

Sent by Leslie | 11:13 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy,

Have been out of town following my daughter's soccer team while they travel. Knew the surgery would be a success. Had every faith in you and your doctors. I know that your vision is troubling you, and I am sorry to hear that. If the peripheral vision doesn't return, think about hiring a driver. I've always wanted one. All the freedom without the hassle. Anyway, it's a thought.

Stay strong. Soon you will be home and that, alone, will make you feel better. Sleeping in your own bed does wonders for the soul.

Keeping you in my thoughts and good wishes,

Mo

Sent by Mo Spikes | 11:14 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Positive vibes coming your way from the south via I-26 all the way to I-81. Don't let the Big C. get you down -- either of you -- then "it" wins. (My husband's thinking.) Breathe deeply and lean on us. We care about you and each other. Sasha, this is for you too. I read 90% of the responses and send us all good vibes -- and a beautiful fall day. It is one in the mountains of Western North Carolina.

Sent by Deborah of Asheville, NC | 11:30 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie,

I sent an earlier post, but I'm not sure it got through. Another thank you to you, Laurie, for keeping us updated. Leroy, if your depression can be helped by meds, I hope you get them. Sincere caring to you both.

Sent by Diana Kitch | 11:34 AM ET | 10-09-2007

Hey Leroy,
You have come way to far to let this get you down. It might be a minor setback but you are the type of person to bounce back. Not only for yourself but for all of us in blogland. All of us out here have nothing but good vibes and thoughts and prayers for you and Laurie. Please take good care of yourself and one day at a time. Love and Hugs

Sent by Teresa in WV | 11:49 AM ET | 10-09-2007

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your courage in the past has given me courage to keep going. Please know that many, many of us are sending you the best positive energy we can.

Sent by Roxane | 11:49 AM ET | 10-09-2007

I don't often post, but I ALWAYS read. Soooo...the doc's say your vision may not come back? Are these the same ones that said you were a gonner MONTHS ago? I say tell them to kiss your butt and go out and prove them wrong! I love to prove doc's wrong...keeps them humble :) Hang in there. Find something to laugh at every day.

You and your family are all in my prayers.

Deb C

Sent by Deb C | 12:02 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie,
Thank you for the update. It is so important that he has you there with him. You continue to stay strong as well for him and for you!

Leroy,
I think and pray for you each and everyday. Even without hearing from you on the blog it is amazing what an inspiration you continue to be. You have a very special "gift". Keep hanging in there and I am so happy to hear you are walking the hallways ;)

Love,
Cristina

Sent by Cristina Gonzalez | 12:20 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Dear Leroy and Laurie,

We have all taken the time to send you all our positive energy, please take a moment to close your eyes and bask in the love and healing energy flowing your way from all around.

Add a good comedy to this energy and the blues will disappear, if only for a couple of hours.

Terri

Sent by Terri (Seattle) | 12:27 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Sending many, many good thoughts your way.

Sent by Carline | 12:33 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy-what an ispiration you are to all of us. I have chronic vision problems after head and neck cancer/surgery/radiation and it is the one thing that bothers me most. It's the reading! My favorite activity limited. But I listen to a lot of music, read whenever I can, "baby" my eye and just like you-just keep on keepin on. Thanks for sharing these most private things - it really helps all of us feel like we are not alone.

Sent by Mary | 12:39 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy, Laurie and all, I am reminded of the poem "Footprints in the Sand" we are not alone in our struggles, it is those tough times that the Lord carries us through. When I read all these messages, I see Angels among us! We all try to help! Bless you and may you feel the love and hear the prayers we all send your way! Thank you so much for the updates...

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 12:45 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Let's hope for the best. It's certainly good news you are up and about. We're pulling for you.

Sent by Scott S. | 1:34 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy and Laurie
We are all standing with you and sending thought of healing and peace. Stay close to each other and and hug lots when the fear rages. When my fear gets going, I offer it up to God, stick my fingers in my ears and lalalalala.
Usually I can laugh it away when I realize just how silly I must look. At 6'5" you could give lots of folks a laugh and forget the fear for a moment.
You continue to be an incredible inspiration in my own fight.
Thank you both and best blessings.

Sent by Paula Swink | 2:03 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Peaceful thoughts today and everyday.

Sent by Rochelle | 2:47 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie and Leroy,

Thanks for the update. You're in our thoughts, as always.

Sent by Erica and Joel Harvill | 3:03 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie, I know that I speak for many of us when I say that our hearts go out to you; and that you are in our prayers. It wasn't too long ago that the blog was all about how hard it is on the caretakers. Please stay strong and brave. We're here with you.

Sent by Marilyn Trujillo | 5:17 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Laurie and Leroy,
I hope that you can both feel the thousands of hands that are holding yours. as always, keeping both of you in my thoughts and prayers. Belinda

Sent by Belinda | 8:33 PM ET | 10-09-2007

Leroy I just wanted to let you know I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I started reading your blog months ago,you have been a huge inspiration to me. I have stage 4 Lung cancer that has spread to the lymph nodes and pancreas. It had previously attacked the brain and spine, but with some chemo and radiation we were able to clear the brain and the spine, now we focus on the rest.
Take care of yourself. I'll keep praying.

Sent by Molly Jones | 6:54 PM ET | 10-19-2007

Leroy,
This radio relationship is strange, isn't it? I would not know you, nor you I, if we passed on the street. Yet, so many days you have spoken to me in my car. I hear your voice as I read these. Now, for the first time I can speak back to you. Strange how we touch each other's lives through these invisible portles, yet we touch none the less. My thought and wishes are redundent. So many invisible, but real friends, deeply care about you. I want you back in my car, I miss you. Be healed and even better than before. I prayed for healing and joy for you before I typed, and will do so again when I send.

Sent by Deanna Hewell | 10:00 AM ET | 10-20-2007