Leroy

Leroy Sievers

On the eve of the Iraq war in 2003, Leroy prepares to leave for his embed joined by Alex and Francie Bruckner. photo credit: NPR hide caption

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Dear friends:

I'm so sorry to bring you this news. Leroy passed away last night. It happened very quickly.

You will hear from Laurie later. In the meantime, please let me tell you something all of you already know, how much this blog and all your comments have meant to Leroy. He felt all the affection and good wishes and strength you sent him every day. He told us that of the many things he had accomplished, he was proudest of My Cancer. The connection he felt with all of you made such a difference in his life.

I feel so privileged to have had a chance to work with Leroy and call him a friend. All of us here do. We will miss him so much, just as you will.

If you'd like to, please leave your thoughts, remembrances, anything you want to write here. I know Laurie will read them. I know you will keep her and Leroy in your thoughts and prayers today.

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NO....!!!!! I want you back! Oh, if not, Leroy please feel us all carrying your spirit into the ether. I miss you profounding already. Thank you Leroy. You have made such a difference in my life.
Love,
Cathy R.

Sent by Cathy R. | 8:18 AM | 8-16-2008

as husband of a survivor, Leroy's blog and NPR appearances brought a lot of solace. I'm so sorry about your loss but glad he's at peace.

Sent by W. David Stephenson | 8:20 AM | 8-16-2008

I woke up this morning and came straight here. I think all of us here have been virtually bedside lately, and would have been in reality had it not posed such an enormous imposition. I miss him hugely. What Leroy thought of was a cancer blog. What he created was so much more. How can we honor him? How can we honor Laurie? It's very hard to think about, though I knew it was coming. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing your thoughts with us. I'm sure you will be foremost in my thoughts for many days to come. To the rest of Leroy's community, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. Many times, they've gotten me over a hump or lessened a burden by showing how many carried it with me. I feel so sad, and know that as the day goes on, and as I check back in, many of you will have things to say that will temper my sadness. Love to all, Ellen

Sent by Ellen Royer in NC | 8:24 AM | 8-16-2008

No words can convey my sorrow for your loss.

Sent by Trish Whittaker | 8:24 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart is broken. Please know that your grief is shared by many. I'm so sorry.

Sent by Stacy Fox | 8:25 AM | 8-16-2008

Rest in peace Leroy! Thank you for sharing with us your fight against cancer and helping us better understand the realities of cancer. You are an inspiration to 12 million cancer survivors.

Sent by Brian Dowd | 8:32 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart,soul and gut feels so empty? Leroy demonstated what a cancer warrior is, I'm thankful for his typed words of courage that propel me through my battle.

Sent by John Allen | 8:36 AM | 8-16-2008

I found this blog due to my sister's diagnosis. You will never know the impact it has had on me.
I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by Lisa | 8:38 AM | 8-16-2008

Deepest condolences. We've all lost a friend.

Sent by Susan | 8:40 AM | 8-16-2008

My breath is just...gone. I suppose somewhere in the back of my mind I knew this day would come, but...Leroy was only two years older than I, I know we remember many of the same things of growing up in the sixties. Laurie, I wrote yesterday that we are all with you and Leroy in the midst of the storm. That is still true, we are still here. Please feel our love, compassion and draw from our strength.

Charles

Sent by Charles Willingham | 8:42 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so glad that the escalation seems to have come so quickly and all the stages you two particularly did not want to have thrust upon you were with you only fleetingly: hospital bed, hospice, very strong pain medicine. I literally gasped when I just now went to the website, intending to read more of yesterday's messages. Tears sprang into my eyes, but really, relief washed over me immediately after that. I am so glad for Leroy that he did not have to linger long once everything had escalated in the last few days. I will miss his unique voice and presence in my daily life but I know he is strong, vigorous and full of peace in another realm. Laurie, I hope your loving family members and friends can help hold you up and nurture and care for you as you go through these next days. I feel strongly that Leroy will be helping you every step, too.

Love and prayers to you.

Sent by Katie | 8:46 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh God. I am so, so sad. Prayers.

Sent by bettye | 8:46 AM | 8-16-2008

Just like the other readers, I come here first thing everyday. This saddens me so. Thank you for being there for me helping me to get thru my cancer. I shall miss you greatly.

Sent by Patsy | 8:46 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad and sorry for your loss, Laurie. This blog has helped me soooo
much in my battle and fight with cancer.
I thank you both from the bottom of my
heart.
God Bless You and LeRoy,
Kathy

Sent by Kathy Hoerle | 8:47 AM | 8-16-2008

Goodnight sweet prince. And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest. Hamlet

Take him and cut him out in little stars, And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night,
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
Romeo & Juliet

Sent by TC in Rhode Island | 8:49 AM | 8-16-2008

I have been here every day gaining strength from every word. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time of sorrow.

Sent by Carole | 8:53 AM | 8-16-2008

There are lots of voices in the world today clamoring for attention. LeRoy's was one I sought out every day, and I'm still not sure why. I think it was his honesty.

I'll miss him. My condolences to those left behind.

Sent by Barry | 8:55 AM | 8-16-2008

My children's grandfather died yesterday of cancer as well. We will miss him. And I will miss reading Leroy's words, his honest sharing. I know that no one will miss him as much as you, Laurie. My heartfelt love and blessings with you as you navigate this deep sadness.

Sent by Linda Heintz | 8:57 AM | 8-16-2008

He is traveling up the path on a bright, sunny, day and we wish him "Godspeed" Dear Friend May you walk with your old steps and pain free. We all knew this was coming but it is still hard to accept and yet, I am so glad to hear that he went peacefully carried on all the love and devotion he has inspired in this world.

Sent by J C R | 8:57 AM | 8-16-2008

The blog has meant so much to me. Thank you

Sent by Dale Budslick | 9:01 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's courage in sharing his journey will stay with his readers, and in that way his spirit will live.

Sent by Jessica | 9:06 AM | 8-16-2008

When he shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.

I wish all Leroy's friends and family peace.

Sent by tom | 9:07 AM | 8-16-2008

I have no words..............

Rest in peace Leroy

You have left a legacy here..............

Sent by Ron Bye (NH) | 9:08 AM | 8-16-2008

May God bless Laurie and Leroy. I will miss Leroy's voice in this blog as will so many others. Leroy provided me and my husband with so much understanding companionship in the fight with cancer before and after we lost a loved one to the disease.

Sent by Amy | 9:11 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and Friends and Family of Leroy,

Celebrate the joy; grieve the loss; find peace in love. You walk with friends, family and life and that will continue to lift your spirits.

Wishing you all healing and love.

Sent by Elaine | 9:14 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad and crying for a man that I have never met. I feel I lost my good friend. I followed this blog from the very beginning and I will miss Leroy so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you today Laurie.

Sent by Doreen | 9:14 AM | 8-16-2008

What a loss for all of us who knew him through his words and for those, like Laurie and Ted, who shared his life.

One can only hope to face one's future with the humor and humanity Leroy brought to us each day.

Peggy

Sent by Peggy | 9:16 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I find myself sitting at my computer crying as I read this news. I had not written often to this page because I felt I wsa, for the time being, not directly IN the cancer batle and left the space for others who needed this connection more. But, I followed this colum EVERY day since it began, hjoping and praying for the best for you two. I kow the feeling of a life being irrevoably cahnced by cancer... my 7 year old got it when we least expected such a thing. Now, cured of cancer he is experiencing aftershocks of the chemo to his kidneys, which are predicted to fail within two years. Every day his health, safety, vulnerability is on my mind. I woke up this morning thinking "even though this path is hard, what would it be without him. What if he were not with me?" I never imagined that today would be the day that Leroy would leave you. I knew, as I lay in bed, that Jordan would never leave me, even if he is not to make it...that my life would always be defined by his and his struggle. His struggle has made me mroe aware, more conscious, more grateful for all that does surround us in this life. So, in every single second, he is with me, as Leroy will surely be with you...allowing you the special privledge of total awareness of the gift that is this life. I will truly miss Leory and you as part of my life...and I wish you well,

Sent by Jeanne Fleming | 9:16 AM | 8-16-2008

How can you ever be prepared to hear this news and let go of such a special person? Leroy meant so much to me and to everyone on this blog. I felt I knew him - he seemed like a friend. My condolences to Laurie and to everyone close to him. He will be greatly missed but not forgotten. He has given us a part of him that we will carry on. We have to keep strong in fighting cancer - Leroy would want us all to do that. He set an excellent example for all of us.

Sent by Marianne | 9:17 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so very sad.

I have relived moments of my life and experience watching two people I love die from cancer.

Thank you for sharing these most personal insights. I'm sure you have no idea how much you've helped so many of us.

Sent by Patti | 9:17 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

I'm so glad Leroy passed as quickly as my Pat. From other postings I've learned that his passing could have been so long and sadly drawn out.

Now you'll have to start the rest of your journey armed with the wonderful memories of Leroy. Please know that we life giver survivors are on that path with you and if you need us, we'll be here waiting.

God bless, Leroy. What a difference you've made in this world!

Sent by Kathy Barney from Michigan | 9:18 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh...I am so sorry. I knew that his time was short, but he was such a fighter I did not think it would happen so soon after calling in hospice.

Having worked with hospice before, I do know that many times bringing in hospice makes it possible for one to finally let go.

I will miss his words and am grateful to have had a chance to follow his journey.

My thoughts are with you Laurie.

Sent by Elizabeth Harper | 9:18 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry. He needed a rest. Thank you for the compassion you have given me through your struggle to help me through mine. Peace for you and Leroy. Marilyn Cowles

Sent by Marilyn Cowles | 9:18 AM | 8-16-2008

My deepest condolences to Laurie and Leroy's friends and family. I have followed this blog since its inception, and it has been a source of strength and comfort to me.

Leroy articulated so many of the hopes, fears and challenges that go along with cancer treatment. This project will be a resource in years to come both for people who are going through cancer treatment and for the people who love them.

Laurie, I hope that you will continue to share your thoughts as you go through the mourning process. Your insight is much appreciated. I hope you know how many of us out here are grieving for and with you today.

Sent by pam | 9:19 AM | 8-16-2008

I found this blog when my wife was diagnosed with cancer. I have continued to read it daily since her recovery. Leroy was a man who shared so much with all of his. He let us into his life, and we are all the better for it. Leroy, I will miss you greatly. I appreciate al you did for everyone staring cancer in the face. May your next adventure be as fulfilling as the one you had on earth. God bless you Leroy.

Sent by Jeff | 9:21 AM | 8-16-2008

Since my father passed away 2 yrs ago with cancer and going thru chemo and cancer with my best friend last year this blog has been a place of comfort. In the days I didn't know how to feel, Leroy, Laurie and all of you helped to keep me grounded. Thank you for that and with a deep sadness I say goodnight Leroy, sleep well.

Sent by Teresa in WV | 9:24 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. My husband died 10 months ago and I miss him everyday. But each and every day I came here to read Leroy's words and send him good thoughts and prayers. I will miss him so much. His humor, his perspective, his intelligence. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Sent by Patty | 9:24 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh dear Lord, what a shock. Of course not completely unexpected, but it just caught me off-guard...
Leroy has been a tremendous inspiration to all of us; this blog was an exercise in strength & courage that few of us could match. My deepest sympathy, dear Laurie, as well as the rest of the family & friends.

Sent by Val | 9:26 AM | 8-16-2008

Thank you, Leroy and Laurie, for all you have given us. We will miss you both, but we will hold on to you dearly. My deepest condolences to you, Laurie.

Sent by Denise | 9:26 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad to hear this news; however, I felt exactly like Katie described when I read the blog this morning. Thank you, Leroy, for the precious gift you have given those of us who walk this cancer journey. And thank you, too, Laurie, for sharing your wonderful man with us. May God bless you and give you strength during these difficult days.

Sent by Dianne in Nevada | 9:28 AM | 8-16-2008

You will never know how many people you and Leroy touched. His courage and honesty gave strength to so many of us who were fighting our own battles. Laurie, you will be in my prayers.

Sent by Barbara | 9:29 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy touched many people through this wonderful blog. May his memory be for a blessing, and may you be comforted among all the mourners.

Sent by Amy | 9:30 AM | 8-16-2008

When I read Laurie's post, I sort of felt Leroy was transitioning from this world to wherever we travel next. As I checked my mail and found news of his death, my heart saddened and opened in appreciation of my comrade in this cancer fight.

How I will miss him; but that is selfish. How so many will miss Leroy and how so many of us benefited from his strength, wisdom, humor, and guts.

I wish Laurie and his family and friends peace.

In Healing,
Deborah

Sent by Deborah Kanter | 9:30 AM | 8-16-2008

Cancer took my first wife eighteen years ago. Life does go on but it is never the same. I am saddened by the loss of Leroy's singular human voice, but glad for the lasting effect of his profoundly moving words and everyday courage.

Sent by John | 9:32 AM | 8-16-2008

What is there to say...I'm so sorry. And I'm so thankful for Leroy and the family he brought together through this blog. My prayers and thoughts go out to Laurie and Leroy's family, friends and everyone who loved him. That includes all of us.

Sent by Jen McGeorge - Boston | 9:33 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy was a special person - his laughter and spirit will be remembered. I am glad to have known him. Good Luck Laurie - We are all thinking of you.

Sent by LJ | 9:33 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy inspired me everyday, and I expect he will the rest of my time on this planet. Thank you, Leroy and Laurie for sharing your life experience. I love you and will miss you. Lynne

Sent by Lynne Simonfy | 9:36 AM | 8-16-2008

After reading Leroy's blog so often, I think this may well be what he finally wanted. One regret I have. He never experienced hospice care. My wife and I worked as volunteers in a hospice in Harrisonburg, Virginia, in the late 1980s, and we were so rewareded in caring for the families and their dying loved ones, and in seeing how wonderfully the hospice nurses attended their patients. God bless you, Leroy, and may He give you, Laurie, some measure of strength for your equally long trial.

Sent by Don Gaines | 9:38 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, my deepest sympathies to you. I am coping with my mom's cancer battle, which is so frightening, but I cannot even begin to fathom the loss of a partner. Leroy was a little lifeline for me every day and I will miss his take on cancer -- and life. I hope you're belly-laughing where ever you are, Leroy.

Sent by Marylee | 9:39 AM | 8-16-2008

Be at peace now Leroy.
My sympathy to Laurie and to all who mourn this larger-than-life wonderful man. Thank you for allowing us to walk this path with you.
Be At Peace now Leroy.

Sent by Sandy Fisher | 9:40 AM | 8-16-2008

Our lives will never be the same again...that day we 'met' Leroy Sievers. Leroy entered our lives and we became his Army of Advocates. Our days began with his words of wit and wisdom. Today we cry but smile at the legacy he left us. God Speed on the next journey.

Sent by Jo-Ellen De Luca | 9:41 AM | 8-16-2008

Such terribly sad news. Our thoughts are with Laurie and all of Leroy's family. His many friends and colleagues marvelled at his energy, passion and enormous talent. And his bravery and insights in the face of his greatest challenge.

Sent by Jon | 9:41 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry...I feel like I have lost a dear friend. Laurie, I think you are incredible and you had a lot to do with him living longer. I haven't got the words......

Sent by Becky | 9:42 AM | 8-16-2008

How devastating for all of us - especially those who had Leroy as part of their REAL lives, as those of us who knew him only "virtually". He was a huge part of our days - always a place where we visited first every morning. Thanks for making all of us better understand and tolerate our journeys through this disease. And how to live better lives in any case.

Sent by maryz | 9:42 AM | 8-16-2008

My days will not be the same without his wit. I will continue to think of you Laurie. Being the patient is the easier job. I can't imagine being in your shoes.

Sent by Lisa | 9:44 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart is so broken. I am so very sorry for your loss. I have a malignant brain tumor and have lost many friends, and I just read this email, and I feel so very sad. I keep wondering how many pieces my heart can be broken into. I will miss all of his emails. I will miss him. You have my deepest sympathy and love, Marguerite Sciuk

Sent by Marguerite Sciuk | 9:45 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie - I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy's blog has been a source of inspiration for me. I feel numb, like I've lost a dear friend. I hope you find strength in knowing how you and Leroy touched our lives. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Diane | 9:47 AM | 8-16-2008

What a shock! And what a trooper he was!!!! Keeping up this blog with us right until the end! I will miss him and the daily, written, connection with an incredible, giving, loving man.

My heart goes out to you, Laurie. You meant the world to him, and helped him live his life to the fullest, right up to the end. It was clear you felt the same way about him. What an incredible couple!

Hugs and love to you, Laurie, and all the rest of his family. In Twelve Step Recovery we talk about family, and family of choice. They are equally important.

In grief,
Sydney in NC

Both you and Leroy will always be in my heart.

Sent by Sydney in NC | 9:48 AM | 8-16-2008

My deepest condolences. Thank you for sharing your life with us on this blog.

Sent by Luba | 9:48 AM | 8-16-2008

What a terrible loss. Laurie, I'm sorry, you'll miss him so much. It's amazing to me how, I think, no one can ever really be prepared for a loss of this magnitude- even when someone is ill, death comes as a shock for those who love him, and a kind of mystery.... Or that's how it is for me, anyway.
Leroy's big heart lives on, and will continue to live on, through the many people he touched.

Sent by Barbara K | 9:49 AM | 8-16-2008

I've been following LeRoy's blog since watching his TV special with Ted Koppel. Before Ted's special I never knew of LeRoy. I, too, am a cancer survivor and when I found out he had this blog I signed right up. Only another cancer survivor can understand and know what we go through on a daily basis. I will miss LeRoy....for his candor, his insight and for his understanding of a disease that only those of us who have/had it can understand.
For LeRoy himself though, I am so thankful his struggle is over and he is now at peace with God.
For you Lori, I ask God's Peace and presence to be felt by you.
Love and Peace,
Mary Jo

Sent by Mary Jo Cyr | 9:49 AM | 8-16-2008

I was expecting this, but it's still a shock.

Laurie, my dear, I am so sorry.

Leroy, it's comforting to know that someone's gone before - I'll be seeing you...with a real dog, Spanky, I hope.

Sent by Jessica | 9:50 AM | 8-16-2008

If only the blogs could continue from Heaven ...and there would be no more pain and suffering.It would just a healthy and happy Leroy telling us how it is ...up there.

I am going to miss Leroy and his daily accounts so much. However, I am relieved that his terrible suffering is over and it did not go on any longer than need be. Would that he not had this horrid disease at all!

God bless him and you Laurie.

Sent by Elizabeth | 9:51 AM | 8-16-2008

So many people found courage, hope and inspiration reading Leroy's My Cancer. Someday, I would like to be notified that MY CANCER is in book form for purchase. I would like to have it available not if, but when, cancer strikes me or those I love again. Leroy has been like an invisible friend as I drew strength from him so many times over. Even when my sister-in-law passed away in June, I continued staying connected to Leroy to keep his special perspective in my mind. You will be missed.

Sent by Marleen Salo | 9:52 AM | 8-16-2008

What can i say...when i read the news i felt physically ill and very sad, although i am glad he doesn't suffer any longer. Rest in peace.

Sent by Janine Martini | 9:53 AM | 8-16-2008

As many have said before me, I will miss Leroy so very much. I shed tears for him and you, but really, found relief as I prayed to God for giving us such a friend as him. I am glad that Leroy did not have to linger long once everything had escalated from the hospital bed to hospice. Also Lauri my thought and prayers go out for you today and in the days to come. Thanks for sharing Leroy with us.

Sent by Lois | 9:54 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart stopped beating when I read the news -- it was like losing my father all over again. That the shock would become less somehow? I'm struck by the strength of emotion I'm feeling and reading from others -- the strength of a bond built over the Internet. What an amazing legacy for Leroy to have left behind. And Laurie, words cannot express how much we love and feel for you -- you are in ALL of our hearts. Thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us...

Sent by Tammy Reasoner, Cincinnati, OH | 9:55 AM | 8-16-2008

Two days ago, when I met with my oncologist, I said, "Leroy's not doing so well right now. They've called in hospice." We've talked before about Leroy and the blog, and how important it is. Since my diagnosis, I have felt that anytime I heard or read of someone's death from cancer, it was if another warrior had been taken down, that my on-going battle was diminished. Today, my battle is not diminished, but, perhaps I am. What a loss for Laurie, for Leroy's friends, and for the community he built. He will be missed.
My condolences, Laurie.
"May light perpetual shine upon him."

Sent by Dianne Ericson | 9:55 AM | 8-16-2008

Just tears today...lots of tears. Hugs to you, Laurie.

Sent by Linnea | 9:57 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and family..you have touched thousands of us with Leroys blog. You will never know how Leroys words helped us threw the 28 months my husband had cancer and it has been a daily space I must turn to since he died last Sept. Intimate contact with the cancer world makes you family. Laurie my heart reaches out to you, the grief, loss & loneliness you must go threw on this your next journey. Whatever your faith hold it close...I have carried this saying with me for the last year "We must remember to make their LIFE more important than their death".. To Our Hero's in life.
God bless you in the hours, days and months ahead and know that we are all in this together and you are held close in our hearts.

Sent by raven | 9:58 AM | 8-16-2008

I was so shocked to hear the news. I am so sad. I will send prayers of comfort and peace!

Sent by Rebecca from Minnesota | 9:59 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's blog helps me to understand my father's journey in Cancer World and the strength it required to live there, not just for him but for all of us.

I hope I have strength like Leroy if ever I should visit Cancer World again.

Thank you, Leroy. May God bless you and keep you.

With deepest sympathy,
-Rob

Sent by Rob Williams | 9:59 AM | 8-16-2008

It is a beautiful and blinding Saturday morning, as the Josh Groban song says, as I watch it unfold from my husband's hospital room window. In spite of all we have been through in the past week, landing in the hospital due to an acute pain episode brought on by the continued metastasis of his stage 4 melanoma, it is a day of hope and I'm walking around his room singing, because he is better than he was when we got here, and I think we will be able to go home soon. Then I read the Leroy's blog, as I do and have each morning for a while now, and I am plummeted into sadness, shock, disbelief, crying for a man I never knew, his wife whom I also never knew, but whose words have meant so much to us as they walked the same road my husband and I are walking. He has lost his battle and I am filled with dread, I cannot help but wonder how long until my husband loses his, how unexpectedly it may be when it comes, which is a strange thought as his diagnosis was over 2 yrs ago, but nevertheless it would be. I keep thinking one thing, that Leroy fought the good fight, just like my husband is doing, refusing to give in to the cancer that wants to take over, continuing to combat it with whatever weapon he may have left, giving us all hope. And I think....yes, even in the loss, there is still hope. Thank you, Leroy and Laurie, and everyone everywhere who walks this road. By sharing your words with us, you shared your indominable spirit, you shared the most basic element that life must contain to be worthwhile, to be fought for to be maintained. It is the greatest gift one person can give another. Hope.

Sent by Tina Thomas Batchelor | 9:59 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie & Leroy-

I can honestly say, I hate the cancer world. Since I was diagnosed three years ago, I have watched more amazing people be taken, than I ever imagined back in my "regular" life.

Laurie, the pain you feel must seem unbearable. I know this because here I sit in Wisconsin crying for the loss of someone I never even met. The loss for me and the others on this blog means so much more than the news reporting the death of another well known talent. Leroy not only had the courage to stand and fight against cancer, he had the strength of character to share that battle with the rest of the world.

When I think of Leroy an old Coca-Cola slogan comes to mind: He's (It's) The Real Thing!

How light and smiley you must feel right now, Leroy! Thank you!!
Kathy Bero

Sent by Kathy Bero | 9:59 AM | 8-16-2008

So sorry to hear. I have been following. May he rest in peace.

Sent by Dan | 10:00 AM | 8-16-2008

To paraphrase Ronald Reagan's comments in honor of the Challenger astronauts:

Leroy honored us by the manner in which he lived his life. We will never forget him, nor the last time we saw him...as he prepared for his journey...and then
he slipped the surly bonds of earth to touch the face of God.

Sent by Tom Escott | 10:00 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie:

My prayers and sympathy. I am very thankful for the opportunity to walk a little way along the road with Leroy as we battle cancer. I for one will miss his inspiring observations. My sincere thanks to you and Leroy for sharing such personal moments during the past two years.

Sent by Kate | 10:00 AM | 8-16-2008

We have all lost a most wonderful caring "best friend". Everyday, without fail, this is the email I have to read. Because I, too, am a Cancer Surviver (bilateral breast cancer 2 1/1 years ago and thyroid cancer). Leroy showed everyone how to live. Because he lived life to the fullest, everyday. My heart, too, is broken into a million pieces. Even though we never personally met, I consider Leroy (and Laurie) my friend. Because he cared. About people. All over the world. Please do a book, his blog, please, please, please. I need his continued words of humor and inspiration. He spoke for millions. Laurie, I cannot even fathom the huge loss you are suffering. My thoughts and prayers are with you now and in the future.

Sent by Sandi Packard | 10:01 AM | 8-16-2008

leroy showed such strength and passion for life. I will keep him in my thoughts and prayer. from a fellow cancer victim. thank you for sharing leroys life with us when he had bad days.

Sent by carolyn pangraze | 10:02 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad. I just loved Leory's candor and courage, and most of all is willingness to share so much with us.
Laurie, my thoughts and prayers are with you. What a rock you have been.
Blessinga and peace, Nancy

Sent by Nancy Elzinga | 10:02 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie - I am so very sorry. I too wondered yesterday if, after finally getting enough pain medicine, he might slip away quietly. But I too gasped when I read Maeve's posting.

I will be much in prayer for you over the next days, and I'll often think of my "virtual friend Leroy". God Bless You Laurie,

Sent by KELLY in Indiana | 10:02 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's blog has been my connection to another cancer victim's thoughts and feelings for the past year as I was going through my own processes. I have felt a connection never imagined and now great loss. His suffering is over, now Laurie will need our combined prayers. Laurie - you are in my prayers!

Sent by Tracey | 10:04 AM | 8-16-2008

What can I say? As most of his friends that blog for and about him are feeling, I have cried upon reading the news but deep down inside I am happy that he is now pain free. We're sad to lose him on earth, but am relieved to know he no longer has to fight the fight like so many of us. God bless you Laurie and his family. His blog has truly inspired countless people, more than you will ever know.

Sent by Jane Kaminske | 10:05 AM | 8-16-2008

My husband "brought" me to your blog when we began our journey toward recovery and remission. You gave us both the strength and courage to carry on, to face our fears, and to live each day as if it was our last one together. You will forever live on in my heart . . . thank you for sharing your lives with us.

Sent by Marilyn | 10:05 AM | 8-16-2008

Very sad news today...

Leroy will be remembered as the voice of Cancer for millions of survivors!

Sent by Dave | 10:05 AM | 8-16-2008

Goodbye, dear brave Leroy -

Your generosity os spirit, your humor, and your all-embracing friendship will not disappear. I am strengthened and encouraged in my cancer journey because of you.
To Laurie - My deepest sympathies on your loss. Take time to take care of you.
Love,
Kathy

Sent by Kathleen Shapiro | 10:05 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I will dearly miss his spirit. Peace be with you.

Sent by Steve Horn | 10:07 AM | 8-16-2008

Thank you Leroy for helping me to meet via
your blog all the wonderful people who have commented daily about your circumstances. I don't have cancer but I volunteer with cancer patients at an Infusion center and at a Hospice. Cancer patients have become my raison d'etre so to speak, as they face their battles with such bravery every day.If there is anything I can do to help them, I am there. Your blog in turn helped me to understand more fully what they are going through even tho they may not express it as well as you did. Thank you Leroy for being there for all these people, for sharing your thoughts and fears so that others may learn from it and benefit in some way. Thank you for putting others before yourself with each and every update. It was a job well done and you deserve the rest and peace of a soldier, who will never fade away in anyone's mind.

Elizabeth

Sent by Elizabeth | 10:07 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy had a gift for reaching out to and conecting with others. Leroy was our gift. I will miss him...

Sent by Nancy | 10:09 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am crying having just read this morning's post.
I am one of the very many readers of Leroy's blog who added very few comments on the blog. But I have cancer and Leroy voiced what I was feeling and could not always say. He was my friend and I miss him very much. Please know that I am thinking of you and your loss.

Sent by Harriold | 10:11 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie -- I have read My Cancer from the beginning but never posted. In addition to the amazing fact that Leroy kept up this blog up almost every day, he was such a gifted, insightful writer. I think he would appreciate the following, which hospice gave us when my mom died 4 years ago (I hope it comforts you and others as it did me):

A ship sails and I stand watching till she fades on the horizon, and someone says, "she is gone".
Gone where?
Gone from my sight, that is all; she is just as large as when I saw her...
The diminished size and total loss of sight is in me, not in her, and just at the moment when someone says "she is gone", there are others who are watching her coming, and other voices take up a glad shout, "there she comes!"...

Sent by Jane D. | 10:12 AM | 8-16-2008

This blog is Leroy's monument--far grander than anything carved in marble or granite.

Sent by Shirley Petersen | 10:13 AM | 8-16-2008

I'm just so sorry.

Sent by Brandy | 10:13 AM | 8-16-2008

My second time checking the mail today. I was so worried. All our sympathy on your loss and yes, ours too. He gave so much to us and will be greatly missed.

Sent by Karen | 10:14 AM | 8-16-2008

Words cannot express our loss.......

Sent by Linda Bongardino | 10:14 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am so, so sorry for your loss, and for the loss of all of us who treasured Leroy's words every day. What a wonderful, wonderful man who truly left the world a better place. Peace.

Sent by Denise Bennett | 10:15 AM | 8-16-2008

The gentle giant sleeps, May God Bless you Leroy. Two hearts now beat as one, Laurie, May God comfort and give you strength.

Margaret

Sent by Margaret Fowler | 10:15 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy had spoken of passing the torch of his blog and the natural progression would be to you-to speak to your experiences during his illness, to the grief and to your own going on without him. I know you would have a great support system among us.

Leroy, be at peace. When I think of your selflessness in sharing this last journey I think of you in Gibran's writings in the Prophet:

"Brief were my days among you, and briefer still the words I have spoken.
But should my voice fade in your ears, and my love vanish in your memory, then I will come again,
And with a richer heart and lips more yielding to the spirit will I speak.
Yea, I shall return with the tide,
And though death may hide me, and the greater silence enfold me, yet again will I seek your understanding.
And not in vain will I seek.
If aught I have said is truth, that truth shall reveal itself in a clearer voice, and in words more kin to your thoughts.
I go with the wind, people of Orphalese, but not down into emptiness;
And if this day is not a fulfillment of your needs and my love, then let it be a promise till another day. Know therefore, that from the greater silence I shall return.

The mist that drifts away at dawn, leaving but dew in the fields, shall rise and gather into a cloud and then fall down in rain.

Wise men have come to you to give you of their wisdom. I came to take of your wisdom:
And behold I have found that which is greater than wisdom.
It is a flame spirit in you ever gathering more of itself,
While you, heedless of its expansion, bewail the withering of your days.
It is life in quest of life in bodies that fear the grave.
There are no graves here.

The stream has reached the sea, and once more the great mother holds her son against her breast.
Fare you well, people of Orphalese.
This day has ended.
It is closing upon us even as the water-lily upon its own tomorrow.
What was given us here we shall keep,
And if it suffices not, then again must we come together and together stretch our hands unto the giver.
Forget not that I shall come back to you.
A little while, and my longing shall gather dust and foam for another body.
A little while, a moment of rest upon the wind, and another woman shall bear me.
Farewell to you and the youth I have spent with you.
It was but yesterday we met in a dream.
You have sung to me in my aloneness, and I of your longings have built a tower in the sky.
But now our sleep has fled and our dream is over, and it is no longer dawn.
The noontide is upon us and our half waking has turned to fuller day, and we must part.
If in the twilight of memory we should meet once more, we shall speak again together and you shall sing to me a deeper song.
And if our hands should meet in another dream, we shall build another tower in the sky."

Fare you well, Leroy.

Sent by Syndi Holmes | 10:16 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy touched so many people and provided a source of inspiration and hope. His strength, courage, honesty and wit provided a sense of calm and sensibility to those living with cancer and to those caregivers. Laurie, may you take strength in and cherish the memories of your life with Leroy.

Sent by Marian Hyder | 10:18 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, May knowing the enormity of Leroy's gifts to others provide you with some light at this dark time. His words, courage and the lives he touched will continue to shine. Warmly, LJ

Sent by LJ | 10:18 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

My heart goes out to you and your family at this time of grief. I lost my father to cancer in 2005 and so I understand a tiny bit. I've been checking the blog every day, sometimes twice, anticipating the inevitable but hoping it would be very far away. That inevitable has come and the loss is emmense. Leroy was such an inspiration and motivation for all those dealing with cancer in one way or another. Thanks to this blog, his voice and spirit can continue on touching peoples lives. Bittersweet is this time. Such loss and emptyness makes it very bitter indeed, yet sweet because he will no longer suffer or feel the pain. God be with you and give you strength through this time.

Sent by Melisa | 10:18 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Each morning I would read the blog. Today is the one year anniversary of my father's death and I was shocked and saddend to hear it will also be the date of Leroy's. Please try to remain strong and know you are not alone.

Sent by April | 10:19 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh Leroy, how I miss you.
You've been such a remarkable voice for me and so many others. I don't know how many times I've peppered my conversations with, "Well, my friend Leroy says..."
Laurie, I don't know if there's comfort in knowing how many of us ache with you today. But there's an army of us out here standing beside you. Thanks for allowing us to share your most remarkable partner.
Maeve, thank you for sharing the fact that the blog meant so much to Leroy. It's meant everything to me.
With great sadness,
Anita

Sent by Anita Solomon | 10:19 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy tried to compassionately prepare us through his thoughtful writings:
'So from me to all of you, here's one last secret wave.' I responded with 'peace-out' but the reality of his passing is painful, & will remain so especially for his loved ones.
Laurie, Leroy was so fortunate to have you as a loving companion/partner/care-giver-- be well & live as he would want you to-- eventually in joy again, & to the fullest.
Thanks to all, live well, & in peace

Sent by J Ron | 10:20 AM | 8-16-2008

Good bye Leroy, until we meet again. You will be missed immensely. You brought a spotlight to cancer that few have been able to do. And it was a light that helped light the way for the rest of us on this "cancer road".
Dear Laurie and families -- our hearts & prayers are with you. Even though it was not totally unexpected, it still is never easy to accept. Leroy will stay alive with you & all of us in our memories. Our condolances to you are deeply felt. We've never met, yet I feel like I've known you & Leroy for a long time. Peace be with you Leroy! And peace with you Laurie!
Tom

Sent by Tom May | 10:20 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry to hear this sad news today. I hope there is no more suffering for Leroy, he endured so much and shared it with us so generously on each step of his journey. I too feel like I lost a friend.
May your memories give you some comfort. rely on your friends and family to carry you through this difficult time.
God Bless you all,

Sent by Kathy Elftmann | 10:20 AM | 8-16-2008

We have all lost a dear friend, one I never met but who helped me understand my cancer as much as any doctor or priest could. what a gift he gave us all. God bless you, LeRoy and you, too, Laurie.

Sent by Meg Kissinger | 10:22 AM | 8-16-2008

I am a stage four colorectal cancer victim just as Leroy. Everyday I read his thoughts and he had become a person leading the way for people like us. We know what is coming and it's a little scary so when a great man like Leroy shares what he is going through it brings a level of comfort to the rest of us. I don't want to sound bad in anyway but I am relieved for Leroy. He is no longer in pain and is no longer feeling the fear that gripes us all as we move toward the end. Leroy, you were a champion. Thanks for showing the rest of us in the same situation how to live.

Sent by Tony Knott | 10:23 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

Thoughout this entire journey it has been clear that Leroy was a mensch. Your love for each other came through, loud and clear and that is another gift you have given us. . .Thank You!

To open your lives to the entire world and let us share the blessings you are to each other is a wonderful gift to us all who joined this on line community.

I will continue to hold you and Leroy in the Light that holds us all.

Sent by Free Polazzo | 10:26 AM | 8-16-2008

...my immediate flood of tears flows into our community ocean of sorrow...I just didn't expect it...yet. Thank you Leroy for the most excellent gift of all --YOU.

No Coward Soul Is Mine
No trembler in the world's storm- troubled spheres.
I see Heavens glories shine,
And faith shines equal, arming me from fear. --Emily Bronte

Love & Light to you Laurie.
xxoo

Sent by Vi | 10:27 AM | 8-16-2008

If it is impossible for I, who have never met Leroy, to imagine the world without his presence and voice, I can't imagine how it is for you, Laurie. He is a hero for his unselfish giving of his thoughts. What a loss for everyone. I will miss him, especially in the mornings when I first would read him.
Marcia

Sent by Marcia Greer | 10:27 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Thank you for sharing Leroy and your journey together with us. He has been a voice and a hero for all. I will miss his talent and his positive contributions. Those of us who have come to know and love the both of you through this blog will keep him in our hearts and souls forever.
Peace and rest for the both of you.
Sincerely,
Cindy

Sent by Cindy | 10:28 AM | 8-16-2008

Unlike others, I wasn't strong enough to check here every day, checking only about once a week while holding my breath. And here it is. So many thanks to Leroy and Laurie for sharing their personal journey. I hope Laurie can somehow manage to continue to share with us how to go on "after". As with others...thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Sandy Shaner | 10:29 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie and Friends,
I suspect we have all "sensed" what was coming. The reports have been shorter, the flow becoming disrupted by The Beast's impact on Leroy's and Laurie's lives. Still, I am in shock. My foundation has been rocked at the core. I've been following Leroy's blog nearly since the start. Since then I went through my own relapse and subsequent radiation treatment. Leroy Sievers' blog has been my primary treatment, though. My virtual, support community. Laurie, we are all so very sad and with you now, as we have been in the past. Thank you for all you have done that has helped Leroy continue this critically valuable work. In so doing, you have not only helped him, but us as well. Your loss is profoundly shared by all of us.

Godspeed Leroy, you are free!

Sent by Dan E. | 10:29 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by MH | 10:30 AM | 8-16-2008

Words can never describe how important Leroy and his blog were to all of us these past months. We have lost a great friend, and he will be missed by all of us.

Sent by Carl Volkmann | 10:31 AM | 8-16-2008

I LOVE YOU

Sent by Elizabeth Sebastian | 10:31 AM | 8-16-2008

I am nearly speechless. Leroy's blog has meant so much to so many of us - lucky survivors like me, people going through treatment, significant others of those with cancer. It is unimaginable that we will no longer read his words each day. We will miss him, and we are fortunate that our lives got to intersect with his for this all too short a time.

Laurie, please accept my sorrowful condolences. I promise you that I will write Leroy's name again on my next Team in Training Marathon shirt.

Peace be with you, brave Leroy, and also with you, Laurie. Art

Sent by Art Ritter | 10:31 AM | 8-16-2008

I never look at the blog on the weekend, but today I came in from my garden and just had that feeling. I am so sorry, but what a wonderful inspiring life! What a mensch. What a living thing he created with this blog and all its contributors. Thank you Leroy. Thank you Laurie. Love still coming. Wendy

Sent by wendy | 10:32 AM | 8-16-2008

Some of us die, and fade away. Leroy will never be forgotten. He has given voice to all cancer patients, and an understanding of the need to conquer the beast.
Charity is considered the greatest deed by all religions. Leroy has given us all the greatest gift. He shared his life, love and pain with all of us.
His memory is with all of us.

Sent by Robert Brower | 10:34 AM | 8-16-2008

Some of us die, and fade away. Leroy will never be forgotten. He has given voice to all cancer patients, and an understanding of the need to conquer the beast.
Charity is considered the greatest deed by all religions. Leroy has given us all the greatest gift. He shared his life, love and pain with all of us.
His memory is with all of us.

Sent by Robert Brower | 10:35 AM | 8-16-2008

And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest - John Dunne

Prayers and love to you, Laurie.. You were a keeper for Leroy...

He is at peace and as he said Friday, HE WILL BE BACK MONDAY.. He will ALWAYS be with us..

But I am SO SAD....

Sent by Patsy Elmore in Knoxville, TN | 10:35 AM | 8-16-2008

As the tears drip down my face with sadness for Laurie, I also feel that sense of relief that comes at the end of this long struggle. I have been there, watching my husband disappear into this illness. Now, 9 years after his death, I know that my love remains within me as Laurie's love for Leroy will remain with in her. You have both been strong and vulnerable and giving...to each other, to us in sharing all of this. Thank you for this time we've been able to be part of your lives. I have come to appreciate Leroy as a writer and a human being in a manner rarely possible with 'a reporter', and with Laurie for her sharing this very public journey. If there were something i could do to lessen your pain,Laurie, I would do it. But the next stage is your journey alone. My advise is to remember to take care of yourself, at all levels, to ask for what you want and need, to take the time you need, to allow the wound to scab over at it's own pace...and to let any of us know if we can help. Many thanks and much love to you both. in sorrow,

Sent by Cynthia/hgpig | 10:36 AM | 8-16-2008

I can't seem to stop crying. Leroy has touched my life and I thank him for that.

Laurie, I am terribly sorry for your loss.

Sent by Amy | 10:37 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

Our prayers and thoughts are with you and rest of your family. I am extremely sorry that I missed his blog all this while, when there was terminal cancer in my family as well. It would have definetly helped me and my family, bear this dreaded disease better.
Please remain strong and we are with you.

Sent by Bob A | 10:37 AM | 8-16-2008

Dearest Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. Words cannot describe how heart broken I am. May God Bless you and your family at this time.

Sent by Roxi | 10:39 AM | 8-16-2008

Chills running through me. Though we never met in person, he revealed himself in ways most friends never do. We will miss him; his humor, his honesty, his stubborness, his tenacity - and I cannot fathom how deep the loss you and your family and friends is this morning. Thank you seems so trivial and empty - we all were touched by this bear of a man. We will draw on his courage and words for a long time. Deepest sympathy. Wishing you strength in the days ahead, Lauri.

Sent by kathryn | 10:39 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh.... this hurts us all so very much. We have to remember that he is at this very moment, being greeted by all of his loved ones, both family and friends and by any and everyone that he wishes to be greeted by. We also know that we WILL also greet him again. There is no doubt. Trust and believe, Laurie, trust and believe.

Sent by Sandra | 10:40 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy,
May you rest in peace. I will miss you. Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Liz | 10:42 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I am so sorry. Leroy has touched many lives here and many of us have survived because of this site. Leroy's fight, his courage and bravery and the people on this blog have all been a part of the healing and survival that goes on here.
I pray you find comfort with your family and friends. His memory will live on forever in our hearts.
I am so sorry...

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 10:42 AM | 8-16-2008

Peace to you, Laurie. And to all here. Leroy will be missed....

Sent by Julie | 10:42 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh, Laurie,
My heart goes out to you.
May Leroy's spirit FLY! May you find solace in the energy of Love pouring out to you.

Sent by Sondra from MT | 10:42 AM | 8-16-2008

Peace to Leroy and his family. His spirit, courage, and strength will be with so many of us. We who struggle with this devastating disease will never forget. My prayers are with you.

Sent by sylvia | 10:42 AM | 8-16-2008

I sadly felt this day was getting closer but was surprised when it got here so fast. Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. When I looked at photos of Leroy I felt I could see a very gentle soul. I will miss hearing from him every day.
Charlotte in Rural Ridge, PA

Sent by Charlotte Kewish | 10:43 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart is broken! The tears are falling freely and will for quite some time. Leroy changed my life. LeRoy could explain when I couldn't find the words. I hope that this blog becomes part of every cancer patient's documents the day they hear their diagnosis. I will miss him.

Sent by Kathy B | 10:44 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry. Leroy and you have meant so much to so many of us, helping us to face cancer with humor and sadness at the same time. I send you my love and prayers... all I have to give you.

Sent by Nancy Abbott | 10:44 AM | 8-16-2008

May your sorrow be eased by those sweet sweet memories.

Thank you so much for this blog that helped so many, and for keeping it up until the end, that was extra generous.

Things that Leroy said and wrote will be with me always. He deserves a gold medal and so do you Laurie.

I will think of you and your family and wish you peace today and every day.

Sent by Sarah | 10:46 AM | 8-16-2008

I just woke up and turned on ABC News. The first item I saw was a reference to Leroy. I was shocked at the news. Even though things were discussed recently that gave me a clue that the battle had intensified, I was prepared for, and expecting, weeks if not months more of posts.

My heartfelt condolences to Leroy, Laurie and his family. The hole left at his passing is huge, raw, and terribly painful.

I am heartsick with this news. I never met Leroy but I felt I knew him, and I wish I could have shaken his hand in real life. Now, I can only add my tears to the others shed upon hearing the news.

With time, routines appear again, life 'goes on', but it really doesn't. Leroy will never leave his family and friend's life. Eventually it is true that the good memories are the ones that remain. It's also true that thoughts of our missing loved one will intrude at the oddest times. These thoughts will bring back a little of the pain, but more happiness as we recall how much our loved on meant to us, and how they were a part of our life, and how much they will forever be with us.

Peace to Leroy's loved ones. I am truly sorry this happened. He didn't deserve this. None of us does.

Godspeed on your next journey, Leroy.

Sent by Scott S. | 10:47 AM | 8-16-2008

I read, cried, and laughed each day, but never wrote.
Love and prayers,

Sent by Janet | 10:47 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I can't imagine your pain.. My eyes are filled with tears for a man I never even met. I am so sad for you.

Sent by Robin L. Fairfax VA | 10:47 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss of this wonderful man. And so grateful that he didn't suffer longer.

Sent by Nancy | 10:48 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

It's evening "across the pond" and so I lift a glass of pretty good wine to Leroy - with thanks for his remarkable life - as I send up prayers for comfort for you and Leroy's closer, "hands-on" circle. He - and you ALL - have made such a difference in this often harsh world!

Blessings and Peace!

Sent by Peg in Estonia | 10:49 AM | 8-16-2008

as my tears of sadness flow freely down my lap i believe that leroy is sitting tall and proud and pain free above us all.I will forever hold this blog, these people and you and leroy in my heart for all the joy , smiles and friendship and understanding that i have gained in the past 2 years through my journey of this bastard called cancer. leroy made it all "doable" in his script of witt , charm, honesty and integrity. i thank you both from the bottom of my heart.
marianne dalton
cancer survivor

Sent by marianne dalton | 10:49 AM | 8-16-2008

I came here as soon as I woke up, too. Laurie, after my husband died of cancer, my mother said to me that "a new life is waiting for you". I was hurt by that and did not believe it, but it did come true. You will be in my thoughts for a long time to come. Love, Mary Ann

Sent by Mary Ann Gray | 10:49 AM | 8-16-2008

I have been inconsolable this morning. Last night my friend Leroy Sievers lost his battle with cancer. I never met Leroy. He never even knew my name. But every day for a year, I read his funny, thoughtful and insightful 'My Cancer' blog posts. He was my friend during my mother's final days with cancer. He was my friend in the days following her death. It takes great personal courage to put on paper one's innermost thoughts and feelings. He was a role model for me in this and so many other ways. I will miss him so much but am happy for him that he is at peace.

Sent by Josephine McMullen | 10:51 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I don't have any words except that I am very sorry. Knowing the day is near does not make it any easier. You are obviously a strong person but it must be taking all of your energy to move through this day. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Godspeed Leroy.

Sent by Kathie | 10:51 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
No words can be said to explain to you how sorry I am that Leroy has gone on to rest from his battle. He gave me so much strenght and hope when I have felt on days that I had none. I first saw Leroy on the show he did with Ted Koppel, and immediately signed up for the blog. This man, this HERO was saying and doing the same battle I am going through and bringing a real face to a cancer patient. I will miss him so much, and I know you will miss him more. I too am stage IV and each day find myself with frustrations and each time I read a blog, I could look at the battle with a sense of strenght. I knew if Leroy kept his sense of humor, I could keep mine.
I wish I could hug you and take away your pain. Please know that I am so grateful that you shared Leroy with us and let us get to know the strongest man ever. I wish you peace today and always. I wish I could do more than sit here and write.
Again thank you for allowing us into your life and giving us hope.

Sent by Miriam | 10:53 AM | 8-16-2008

May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you.
May the Lord lift his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

Sent by Travis | 10:53 AM | 8-16-2008

we were just talking about Leroy around the bonfire last night, what an awesome piece of his self/life he dedicated to all us unknown people. I went to bed praying for him. Iam going to miss Leroy and his army. Love Sarah j.

Sent by sjc | 10:53 AM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry. I hope Leroy's death was peaceful. I've read the blog since the beginning when my sister in law was diagnosed with melanoma. She passed away last year. It really helped me alot.
God Bless

Sent by Cheryl | 10:54 AM | 8-16-2008

My daughter was diagnosed w/ stage IV colorectal cancer 2 1/2 years ago (like Leroy) and we started reading his blog daily...She passed away July 22 and her last words were "cancer has been a blessing in many ways" it allowed us all to love and not count the costs and to interact in many lives...Leroy's blog paved the way for us all to reach out and support others on this journey in the cancer world..His words and thoughts live on forever...but we left behind will miss him as we miss our dear daughter also....Peace..

Sent by earline brown | 10:54 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry Laurie, he is at peace know! Peace be with you and of Leroy's friends.
My his spirit continue in our lives.
Marelly

Sent by Marelly | 10:57 AM | 8-16-2008

My heart sank when I read the news. I was so surprised at how fast it happened. I secretly wished for a miracle. This blog has helped me and so many others who have cancer or a loved one with cancer. His honesty was very refreshing and the community of people that he brought together is what makes me in awe. I give my love to his family during this sad time. May he rest in peace.

Sent by Michelle Toratani | 10:58 AM | 8-16-2008

A beautiful new star will twinkle for us in the skies now. Leroy, and Laurie too, thank you for sharing this road with all of us and for allowing us to walk beside you. And thanks to NPR for putting it all out there. These meditations and conversations have so very much enriched my, our, lives. I will never forget and always cherish. Thank You!

Sent by Valeska | 10:59 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie
Thankyou and Leroy so very much for all that you have shared and given to me, my family and so many.....peace be with you both xo

Sent by janet | 11:01 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy was on my mind this morning before I even checked my email to learn this sad news. My deepest sympathy to Laurie and everyone who love him. His courage and humor and willingness to share his life with and without cancer has helped more than anyone could know. May the Good Lord shine a light on you and yours.

Sent by Jennifer | 11:01 AM | 8-16-2008

How sad I was to hear about Leroy's death. Like so many others, he gave me such strength and solace day in and day out as I battled my cancer. What a gift so selflessly given, especially on the days when Leroy wanted nothing more than to be as far away from "cancer world" as he could be. I am so grateful and so sad. My prayers are with you, Laurie and I thank you, too, for being such a meaningful part of this wonderful legacy. We have lost a hero.

Sent by Jan | 11:02 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that we are all keeping you in our prayers and send you much love.
Peace to you.

Sent by Laura | 11:02 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear my thoughts are with you today. Leroy has made all of us cancer survivors more strong in many ways. We will miss hium dearly

Sent by luisa | 11:02 AM | 8-16-2008

I am also crying for a man that i have never met,as a terminal cancer patient, thank you Laurie and Leroy for this blog.
Leroy's spirit and courage has showed me to go on fighting..My deepest sympathies to your family.I really loved this man.

Marc.M.

Sent by Marc | 11:03 AM | 8-16-2008

I have to admit that I didn't expect this entry today. I thought we had more time with Leroy. I have truly felt as though I was on this journey with him. The ups...the downs.

Today, I am saddened.

Laurie, you have my prayers. I pray that you will find comfort in these messages from everyone. God bless you.

Jamie

Sent by Jamie | 11:04 AM | 8-16-2008

As I step from the light that I know, into the darkness that I don't, faith tells me that one of two things will happen: Either I will step onto solid ground, or I will be taught how to fly.

Sent by Michael | 11:05 AM | 8-16-2008

I don't know how I stumbled upon this blog over a year ago. I don't have cancer; neither does anyone in my family. I don't comment often or read the comments often. Yet Leroy's words are the first thing I read every morning. I read every comment today. My God what an incredible resource Leroy has been to so many suffering people. I am awestruck by the love. It is in every word. The comments are so beautiful, raw and honest. This morning as I am delving further into the life of Leroy, I am so touched by his belief that this blog has been his life's greatest accomplishment. I also read a comment from Elizabeth Edwards that the blog allows other cancer patients and family and friends to express themselves freely. What a gift he has given and left behind.

I am so, so sorry for everyone's loss. He will not be forgotten.

Sent by Madeline | 11:05 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh Laurie, my heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing him, and for your own wonderful posts. He will be so missed.

Sent by Laine | 11:08 AM | 8-16-2008

I think I'll have a mai tai today and drink to Leroy's memory. He'll be sorely missed.

Sent by BEG in MA | 11:10 AM | 8-16-2008

Im so sorry. I lost a wife to Cancer. Laurie I cannot say "I know how you feel" Even though I and others have traveled a similar road, no one knows how you feel, but you will hear that phrase often. Leroy is at peace. Your life will, in the future start a new normalcy. It will take time and it will hurt and for that I am very truly sorry.
Dan

Sent by Daniel Friend | 11:10 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear hear this. This morning, when I got up, I was thinking about Leroy. I have no idea why. A short time latter got on the computer and read to sad news. I have follow this blog for almost two years being a cancer patient. Many of times he has cheered me up. My condolence to Laurie and his family. Peace be with you all.

Sent by Roger C | 11:10 AM | 8-16-2008

This blog and accompanying comments should be collected into a book and published for inspiration to those stricken with cancer for generations to come. Leroy was a hero. Laurie still is one. God bless.
--Liz Cratty

Sent by Liz Cratty | 11:10 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie and family and friends - Peace. God's grace.

Sent by jk | 11:11 AM | 8-16-2008

We all are thankful for Leroy giving voice to all of us. He is gone but not forgotten. His greatest gift to all of us, was sharing his love, life and pain.

Sent by Robert Brower | 11:12 AM | 8-16-2008

There hasn't been a day I haven't read Leroy's blog. I have too much experience with the "beast." May God bring peace to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family. God bless.

Sent by A.J. | 11:13 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh god, Laurie, I am SO sorry.

I can only say we're all poorer for the loss, and like Kathy B said, we caregiver-survivors are here for you.

Like I said yesterday, this grief is yours. This burden doesn't have to be.

Much love

Sent by Bruce | 11:14 AM | 8-16-2008

I posted earlier today but I found I just can't put this loss out of my mind or stop the tears. I went to the main My Cancer page and clicked on that first link in today's message "Leroy passed away last night" to read a wonderful tribute by Shomial Ahmad. Take the time to read it - and click on each of the links included in the remembrance. Leroy's June 2005 article in the LA Times magazine about his experience in Rwanda is sobering, but shares more of what kind of man he was. Thank you, NPR, and mostly thanks to Laurie for sharing this wonderful man with us.

Sent by Dianne in Nevada | 11:14 AM | 8-16-2008

I send my deepest condolences to Laurie and the families. My husband Phil and I read Leroy's blog from the beginning, and I have continued to draw strength and solace from it following his death last year from colon cancer. Leroy had a profound impact on countless lives, through his intelligence, candor, humor, and courage - all of which shone through his writing. He made possible a dialog amongst thousands of people, in which no aspect of cancer was shied away from, and from reading the posts, I felt that many who came here were able to share thoughts that they had not been able to express elsewhere. I know that Leroy's life was so much more than this blog, but nevertheless it stands as a shining achievement and gift to all of us. I will miss him.

Sent by Mary | 11:17 AM | 8-16-2008

I will truly miss him. As a physician in a specialty which provided so much of the care Leroy received, I implore whoever it might be to publish his blogs in book form. It would be an invaluable resource to cancer patients, their family members and friends. It would be just one more part of his outstanding legacy.

Sent by James Davis III | 11:17 AM | 8-16-2008

My prayers are with Laurie and all of Leroy's many friends who will miss his earthly presence. Leroy is with Spanky --safe from his stalker, having WON the battle of living the best life possible with what he was given.

Sent by vateresa | 11:17 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's words are one of the first I read every morning. His word's have been an anchor to each day I live with a chronic illness and daily pain. I will miss him so much. Thank you, Leroy, for making this a better world.

Sent by Diane | 11:17 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my husband to Cancer last November and he loved to read Leroy's blog. His writings helped us through many difficult days

Sent by Lucy Bernhardt | 11:17 AM | 8-16-2008

So very sorry! The first thing i did was to check this site and I too feel like I have lost a friend.

Sent by karen | 11:18 AM | 8-16-2008

The heavans are crying....SBH

Sent by Susan H | 11:19 AM | 8-16-2008

"A boy and his dog." Simple, complex, fitting. I imagine you running around Heaven seeking out that next hot story, Leroy! Thank you for this blog and all you've shared. Though I will miss you, I am glad your suffering on this Earth is over and that you have begun a painless life in the next world. Prepare the way for we are coming.

Laurie, May the joy of Leroy fill your heart and soul forever! He lives in all of us! Peace and prayers.

Sent by Imani | 11:21 AM | 8-16-2008

Let Leroy's spirit lift us all. Let us rejoice in the gift he gave to all of us. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Laurie.

Sent by ABolles | 11:22 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy made such a difference on earth, as I am sure he will in heaven. He will be missed terribly by so many. My deepest sympathies and tears to you, Laurie.

Sent by Priscilla | 11:22 AM | 8-16-2008

No matter how much you anticipate it, this news was still a surprise. I don't even know why I checked this morning because it's Saturday. Thank you Leroy for sharing your journey with us. Even 10 years after my Mom's death you gave me a glimpse into so many things she was feeling at that time and not able to express and for that I will be forever grateful. My deepest sympathies to Laurie and all who loved you.

Sent by S A | 11:23 AM | 8-16-2008

I was so sorry to read of Leroy's passing; his thoughts and honesty have really helped me to grow in my relationships with others. Laurie, may you have great comfort during this exceptionally sad time.

"I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills;from whence cometh my help?
My help cometh even from the Lord,
who hath made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved,
and he that keepeth thee will not sleep.
Behold, he that keepeth Israel
shall neigher slumber nor sleep.
The Lord himself is thy keeper,
the Lord is they defence upon thy right hand; s that the sun shall not burn thee by day, neither the moon by night.
The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil;yea, it is even he that shall keep thy soul.
The Lord shall preserve the going out, and thy coming in, from this time forth for evermore."

Peace to you,
Martha in FL

Sent by Martha in FL | 11:25 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Leroy,
You have shown us the path that each one of us can take if we are struck by cancer. (1) Fight as hard as you can with every tool available. (2) Appreciate the simple things - extra cheese does make that sandwich taste better. (3) Embrace the love from your family and friends. (4) Find humor in little things. Thank you for your gift.
I will miss you.
Susan

Sent by Susan | 11:25 AM | 8-16-2008

After cancer took Joe I was wrecked. A neighbor man stopped me one day and said Now you will have to quiet yourself. A few days later the neighbor died from a heart attack. I believe he lived long enough to give me the gift of those kind words. Leroy gave you the most intimate gift by aharing this journey with you.

Laurie, in the days and weeks ahead you will have to quiet yourself. The experience leaves you wondering what happened to you and your lives.

Anything I can do for you I will do.

Sent by Irene | 11:26 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh no. That is too fast, too sudden. Laurie, and Leroy's family, colleagues and friends, my heart is with you all. He was bigger than life, and he is bigger than death. I feel I have come to know him as a friend. Love to all,
Alycia

Sent by Alycia Keating | 11:26 AM | 8-16-2008

Oh lord.....Leroy, may you enjoy all heaven has in store for you.I might have given in to my enemy of bladder cancer, had it not been for you, and Laurie. I am empty right now. But, I pray for you even more.
Oh Laurie, may God help fill your void.

Sent by Peter in Colorado | 11:27 AM | 8-16-2008

Peace and love to you, my dear friend.

Sent by Diane | 11:29 AM | 8-16-2008

In the past several years, I've lost my dad, my mom, my brother, my favorite brother-in-law, and grandmother to this horrible disease. I never met Leroy but through his blog, he became family. I'm really saddened to have to add him so soon to the ever-growing list of my family members now gone. My prayers are with you.

Sent by Peg | 11:32 AM | 8-16-2008

Our deepest sympathies for your loss. Our hearts go out to you. You are both brave, amazing people.

Sent by Jodi and family | 11:32 AM | 8-16-2008

Each life is a miracle that changes the world and leaves it a better place than it was before. Leroy has done this for all of us and will forever be remembered.

Life is like a roller coaster. Yesterday I was so thankful to get the results of my scans showing that my lymphoma was in remission and today I am saddened to read today's blog.
Prayers and condolences to Laurie and Leroy's family.

Sent by Shirley in Wisconsin | 11:32 AM | 8-16-2008

I didn't expect the tears to well up, just as I didn't expect the news that Leroy had passed would pop onto the computer screen this morning. But life in cancer world often does not conform to what is expected.

So to Leroy, to Laurie and everyone else associated with this blog: thank you for providing us with this daily gift for the past couple years. Thank you for helping us examine our own thoughts and feelings. Thank you for your honesty, your compassion and your sense of commitment.

Leroy will be missed, but most certainly not forgotten.

Sent by Scott | 11:33 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, Although I've never meet Leroy, I feel like I lost a friend. I've gotten to know him through this blog and attempted to send messages of support and healing. Thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us. He has inspired me through some rough times and not a day went by that you both were not in my thoughts and prayers.In Peace, Lynda

Sent by Lynda | 11:34 AM | 8-16-2008

It saddens me very much to hear about Leroy's death. I've been following Leroy's "My Caner" blog from the beginning. And I've made several comments because I can relate to so much of what he has gone through with his cancer.

It's hard for me to keep my composure hearing about his death as I feel like I almost knew him as a friend with his daily comments. I'll miss him until the day I meet my maker. So much has happened in the past three months with so many good and some famous people who have passed away from this mutation of cells called cancer. Until we meet in Heaven.

Sent by Kris Worrall | 11:36 AM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss, Laurie.

The one thing Leroy kept talking about was the loss of independence, the loss of control. That seemed to be his biggest fear. I am glad, for him, he was able to live his life, mostly on his terms, until the end.

I am heartbroken. His life has been such an important part of my life living with and after cancer.

I am so very sorry.

Sent by Robin Smith | 11:36 AM | 8-16-2008

I will remember you.

Sent by Nancy | 11:37 AM | 8-16-2008

NOOOOOOOOOOOooooooo...

To grieve so profoundly for one whose hand I've never held, whose cheek I've never bussed, whose eyes have never looked into mine could not should not bring so much pain.

To weep so violently for Laurie that my stomach churns and my mouth aches.

To have shared just a little with two souls so generous takes my breath away.

For each of us - many who have lost someone or are losing someone - I cry.

...and I wait for the pain in my chest and the ocean of tears to bring peace.

peace to you Laurie, peace to all the volunteers in Leroy's army.

Sent by eaf | 11:39 AM | 8-16-2008

Bless you, Laurie. While I never responded to this blog I listened and watched and was boosted by the fact that one of us cancer folks had the guts and wit to write himself through to where he probably knew he would go. Please be good to yourself over the next weeks and take solace in having been part of a remarkable couple.

Sent by Mary Sue in Newark, NJ | 11:39 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy has been elevated into another team and we all suffer from his absence. We are fuller of this team because of his ability to bring us together. I embrace each of you as we continue our trip and especially want Laurie to know we are also with her. Thank you, Leroy, for your worldly life. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing him. God Bless each one.

Sent by Lucy Groh of Alaska | 11:40 AM | 8-16-2008

Now the tears come. I am glad we could all be there so strongly for Larry until his final moments. He was truly valiant, and gave me such a good example of how to live without self-pity.

Thank you to everyone on here too. You provided new insight into the world of cancer, and lots of voices about how to deal with the unimaginable.

Graham from Sag Harbor, thank you for your kindness.

Joyce from Florida, thanks for using Dude as your salutation, too.

Laurie, even saying "there are no words" sounds trite. Know that there are hundreds of us reaching out to you with love, helping to bear you up in this time of grief. Our hands of light touch you and hold you.

Loving thoughts to all my compadres on this blog. I will miss your insights.

Peggy C.

Sent by Peggy Carey | 11:40 AM | 8-16-2008

I gasped when I read the news. I've only commented once before, but I've looked forward to reading every day.

To Laurie and all who loved Leroy: thank you for sharing him with us, this crowd of strangers to whom he gave so much. May you find peace.

Sent by Katherine | 11:40 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, My heart aches for you and the emptiness you must be feeling. The ripples of inspiration and hope are endless the ones that you and Leroy sent countless. Feel them from heaven and let wonderful memories bring you comfort in the days to come. Surrounding you with prayers of peace and love.

Sent by Suzanne Lindley | 11:40 AM | 8-16-2008

I felt a need to reread and reread Leroy's last blog words.

"A boy and his dog."

It seems so fitting.

Sent by Robin Smith | 11:41 AM | 8-16-2008

I'm devastated. My deepest deepest condolences to Leroy's family and friends

Sent by Dorothy - Los Angeles | 11:43 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I know you know it, but it makes us all feel better to say...how sorry we are to lose Leroy, and how much we admire and support you as you have supported him and us. Leroy has left a wonderful legacy in this blog, and we all thank him. Cancer is often a "secret" that others do not want to talk about. I often think it is feared more than death itself. It has a scary mystique, which it has partially earned, but it is a burden to those who are diagnosed and those who loved the diagnosed. Leroy helped to dispel some of that. He made it okay to talk about, at least here in this community. I heard about this community shortly after I was diagnosed (breast cancer) 3 years ago, but it took me a year and a half to get up the nerve to show up here. I knew that I would be letting someone (who knew it would be multiple people) into my heart who might die of the thing I had been diagnosed with. I'm so glad I did it. I can't imagine your day today, Laurie, but I know it is hard and that many other tough days will follow. Please know that we will keep you in our hearts and thoughts.

Sent by Leslie | 11:44 AM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, as a Stage IV fighter, you always expressed what I was feeling.

Laurie, you are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing Leroy with us.

Rhonda

Sent by Rhonda | 11:44 AM | 8-16-2008

I will miss, so much, reading this blog everyday. It was truly eye-opening and comforting for me, as it was for so many others. My thoughts and prayers are with Leroy and his family.

Sent by Sara | 11:45 AM | 8-16-2008

I cried this morning. My deepest, deepest respect and sympathy to you and your family.

Sent by Mary L. Kelly | 11:47 AM | 8-16-2008

You will always be in our heart Leroy. Laurie, we love you.

Danette, Brian and Blake Berry
Alexandria, VA

Sent by Danette | 11:49 AM | 8-16-2008

Sorry to hear about his passing. I followed it everyday since I saw the documentary on tv. It was my first e-mail each morning that I would read. I will miss his jovial humor. Being a cancer patient survivor I admired his strength and determination. But the beast would not let up. He passed away not knowing how many friends he had.

Sent by Marion Amescua | 11:50 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
We share you loss of Leroy just as we
shared his daily thoughts of his life
"LIVING WITH CANCER"&"MY CANCER".We will
keep both of you in our daily prayers.
God Bless.
Dan and Katie, With Ballons from Frederick, Md.

Sent by Dan McAleer | 11:52 AM | 8-16-2008

My deepest condolences. You will not be forgotten, Leroy.

Sent by Jeff | 11:52 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie you are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart has gone out to you and Leroy since I started reading this blog after the TV show..........right now I just remember the pleasure from the other day of a boy and his dog. Thank you for taking such good care of Leroy.

Sent by Mary Egan Dufault | 11:53 AM | 8-16-2008

I write with tears streaming down my face. What an extraordinary gift this blog has been. What an incredible life and death Leroy shared with all of us. Thank you, Leroy. God be with you.

Sent by Susajn Fleming | 11:53 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I mourn with you. Thank you for sharing your lives with us.

with heartfelt sympathy,

Sent by Kristin | 11:53 AM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
It's not fair! Just when Leroy was finally made comfortable he was called home.
The depth of your grief is beyond measure. You will survive this terrible loss but you will never be the same. One day you will be amazed to find that you actually laughed. That will be the beginning of your own healing.
What a brave warrior he is. I refuse to say "was" because, although his soul has left this earth, his spirit remains as evidenced by the outpouring of grief coming from our community. I'm sure that there are literally thousands of individuals who read and were touched and changed by his words, and yet never contributed to the blog.
As soon as I saw the unusual Saturday post in my inbox, I knew. My heart is broken. "Why?" is a question with no answer.
I hate this disease!
Sue, a fellow warrior

Sent by Sue Mersic | 11:54 AM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Please accept my sincere condolences.
Leroy's death diminishes all of us. He was a very good man.
I will keep you in my prayers.

Sent by Helen McGurl Gesiotto | 11:57 AM | 8-16-2008

I logged on this morning and saw that there was anew blog. I immediately feared the worst.

And it was.

I shall miss the warmth and humour of a man I never met but who was there with me during my cancer. He was a mensch.

Sleep well Leroy

Simon

http://cancerblogamoi.blogspot.com/2008/08/leroy-sievers.html

Sent by Simon James | 11:57 AM | 8-16-2008

To all sorrowful hearts joined together here today ... especially you, dear Laurie~

"Whenever death occurs, whenever a life form dissolves, God, the formless and unmanifested, shines through the opening left by the dissolving form. That is why the most sacred thing in life is death. That is why the peace of God can come to you through the contemplation and acceptance of death."

May this be so ...

With love and heartache,

Kim Forester

Sent by Kim Forester | 11:59 AM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sad. It's amazing that someone I have never met has touched my life so much. Thank you for this blog. Rest in Peace Leroy. I hope you and the real Spanky are having a romp around.

Sent by Beth | 12:01 PM | 8-16-2008

You have touched me for the past 2 years. Thank you for helping me and so many. You will be missed! from my family and from the bootom of our hearts you are truly loved here. we will carry on your messages of courage and strength and you will not be forgotten. Simply thank you.

Sent by Mark Murphy | 12:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Oh God No!!!! I feel as though a part of me has been taken away. May you be at peace and pain-free and know what a difference you have made to so many lives. Laurie, God bless you and give you strength. We are all here for you.

Par

Sent by Pat Doyle | 12:07 PM | 8-16-2008

Dearest family of Leroy,

Our hearts are all broken,
no words can be spoken
to take away your pain.
Only divine intervention will do.
Please, God, make it so.

Sent by kathy | 12:08 PM | 8-16-2008

We all mourn Leroy's absence today. We are richer in spirit and soul for his generous and humorous sharing of your lives with everyone. He will be greatly missed and seemed to not even know how many lives you both have touched and inspired.

God bless you and give you strength and peace.

Sent by pam in WI | 12:09 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I sensed the end was near, but it is still such a shock when it actually occurs. I feel like I have hole in my heart. Leroy was so special to us. I feel at a loss even though I did not know him personally. My deepest, deepest sympathy to you. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.
Janie

Sent by Janie | 12:10 PM | 8-16-2008

I don't know why I checked the blog today, but when I read that Leroy was gone my heart broke. I cannot cry because if I start I fear I will not be able to stop & I have to be strong for my husband who is still fighting with the beast. I will cry for you later Leroy, just know my heart is crying on the inside today for you & Laurie. Thank you for giving me a place where I could say what was on my mind & where you so often said things for me. I will miss you!!

Sent by Kathy | 12:11 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear this sad news. My prayers are with you Laurie as you continue on with your life. My husband passed away in 2006 of cancer and I was battling breast cancer at the same time. Noone can know how difficult this is to go through. I just I had met the two of you in real life. Thanks for the blog. And Laurie, don't feel you have to reply to everyone. Don't overdo. Do what you want to do.

Sent by Carol Harrnacker | 12:13 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you for everything, LeRoy. And thank you for showing us that it is entirely possible to make it to the end of our journey with our dignity, sense of humor and strength of will fully intact.

Sent by Angela B. | 12:13 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart is heavy right now. I will miss hearing from both of you. You two have become a part of my life. I am so thankful that he passed away quickly without too much extra suffering. He is at peace now, no more pain, and able to do all the things he used to do. God bless you Laurie - your courage was remarkable! Sue Sheehan, Bothell, Wa

Sent by sue sheehan | 12:14 PM | 8-16-2008

Godspeed Brave Warrior, may you be forever sipping Mai Tai's on the beach in Maui. Laurie, I wish you peace of mind and heart, and my heartfelt sympathy for your profound loss. As I write this with tears in my eyes, I feel like I lost a dear friend. Thank you for sharing this very personal experience with all of us.

Sent by Elaine Murphy | 12:14 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am sorry for your loss, but I really want to thank Leroy and you for the blog. I have read every single post and the comments since the very beginning. I also have listened to Leroy's commentory.
Most of the time, I cry.
I do not have cancer, but I have tremenous debts that I could hardly pay off in my entire life. It is like being unable to breathe when I think of my debts or when I get the phone calls from the banks. However, Leroy's words, courage, and sense of humor helped me to carry on when I was in my darkest hours. The comments also helped me see my awkward situation in different ways.
I managed to survive my circumstances with the reveal of wisdom,humanitarianism,and vulnerability in your blog.
I believe that we also suffer a great loss of a sincere friend, role model and mentor.
In the years to come, I will always remember Leroy and you.

Sent by Lichun Chen (Taiwan) | 12:15 PM | 8-16-2008

I have so much respect for what Leroy accomplished, not just in "Cancer World", but in his entire life. All of my love and respect to Laurie, and the other people in his life. I wish I could give a big group hug to everyone who, like me, is incredibly saddened today. Godspeed, Leroy. You touched a lot of people, and that is an incredible legacy.

Sent by e | 12:16 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy is an inspiration and an educator, a friend and a brother.

Sent by Dave Barbeau | 12:16 PM | 8-16-2008

So very sorry for your...our...loss.

Sent by Jeff | 12:16 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's blog has been my companion during my husbands illness with metastatic melanoma and his subsequent death. Laurie, my heart goes out to you as caregiver. Being the caregiver for a cancer patient is one of the hardest jobs in the world and also perhaps one of the most rewarding. It has been a little over a month since my husband died and I still have trouble believing that he is gone. I keep thinking that any day he will walk in the door and say "I'm home."

Sent by June from CA | 12:17 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry, Laurie, and am so sad. I am another daily reader who never posted, but who absorbed and learned from every day's post.

Thank you, thank you --from the bottom of my heart.

Libby

Sent by Libby Gallaher | 12:21 PM | 8-16-2008

My deepest condolences to the family/friend/bloggers. Leroy came into my life through my wife, Eunice, who was sufferibg with melanoma. She followed the blog daily, when possible, and shared her thoughts with me and the blog. She lost her battle in November 2006, but she would want me, and would have been one of the first if she could, to share my condolence and prayers with Leroy's family/friends/bloggers. Leroy you will be missed, but you enriched the world and the lives of some many. I want to thank you for my late wife, Eunice, you meant so much to her! God bless.

Sent by Chet Bunnell | 12:21 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so very sorry for your loss Laurie, and the world's loss! My prayers are with you and your families.

I have read this blog for sometime looking for support in dealing with my wonderful boyfriends prostate cancer and wanting so much to hear about your thoughts and struggles as a caregiver and one who loves someone dealing with this. Your posting lately have given me hope and strength. When you are able and willing I hope we all hear more from you to help those of us deal with "The Beast" from the sidelines. I found it hard to find the type of information from others as I have found from you through your posting.

Leroy will always be remembered, and your memories of him will sustain you through the difficult days ahead. Thank you for all you have both given to the world!

Sent by Nancy | 12:23 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss! I read Leroy's blog religiously as my husband fought and lost his battle with the beast four months ago. Leroy's spirit and his willingness to share his journey was an inspiration to me. I will miss him and his postings.

Sent by Terri B | 12:24 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy was a true inspiration -- in how he courageously battled this horrible disease, in his career as a respected journalist and in his unwavering love of his family. He will be deeply missed by all, including all of us who eagerly read his daily blog.

My condolences to Laurie and the entire Sievers family.

Sent by Howard | 12:26 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy was amazing throughout his battle. No matter what he was feeling, he was always so insightful, encouraging, confident, and even humorous. He inspired me to talk about my experiences to others more.
We will all miss Leroy terribly and express our sorrow for the loss to others. Yet, at the same time, we all know Leroy is much happier now. While the cancer may have taken his body, ultimately he won the war because he will live for eternity without any more pain.
Thank you for everything, Leroy!

Sent by Andy from IN | 12:28 PM | 8-16-2008

This day, we have lost a good friend... one who shared his strength, wisdom and humor with all of us. You will be missed.

Sent by bev | 12:29 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy had helped me deal with my own colon cancer these last 20 months. He will be missed and remembered.

Sent by brady richardson | 12:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
Thank you.

Sharing your lives with all of on this journey, such a gift.
When I saw the e-mail alert I felt like I had gotten the wind knocked out of me. I am so sorry you ever had to say good bye to Leroy.

Overwhelming sadness.

A couple of weeks ago I drew a heart in the sand and wrote in it: "Leroy & Laurie". I shall send you the picture. The tide has taken the words and gathered them into the ocean. Your magnificent love, like the ocean, stretches beyond the horizon and into depths unknown.

Leroy, I am stronger for having walked along side you on this journey through cancer. Thank you friend, I miss you already.

With love,
Debra Altschiller

Sent by Debra in New Hampshire | 12:31 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad.. it is strange to sit and weep for a man I have never met.. but I have been reading this blog first thing every morning for year and half since I was diagnosed with cancer...

it is going to b strange not to read Leroy's daily blogs..
Laurie.. i am so sorry for your loss...sending you lots of virtual hugs and support..
Yvette

Sent by Yvette | 12:31 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you, Leroy. We will miss you.

Sent by Diane M | 12:34 PM | 8-16-2008

I almost didn't look here at NPR page, thinking "it's Saturday, his blog will be back Monday." All day long I had the weepies and met my husband in the kitchen and said to him "Don't ever leave me." He said "I'll stick around as long as I can..." In reading Leroy's biography I realized how much he saw with the keen observing journalist's eye, what events and sadness in the world he wrote about long before I first saw him on TV over a year ago. He truly lived a full life...Here is a poem that I have turned to again and again. Life truly is "The Great Minimum." We can never fully live it; there is too much to experience, but our slice of the pie can be so rich. THE GREAT MINIMUM, G.K. Chesterton: It is something to have wept as we have wept,
It is something to have done as we have done,
It is something to have watched when all men slept,
And seen the stars which never see the sun.

It is something to have smelt the mystic rose,
Although it break and leave the thorny rods,
It is something to have hungered once as those
Must hunger who have ate the bread of gods.

To have seen you and your unforgotten face,
Brave as a blast of trumpets for the fray,
Pure as white lilies in a watery space,
It were something, though you went from me today.

To have known the things that from the weak are furled,
Perilous ancient passions, strange and high;
It is something to be wiser than the world,
It is something to be older than the sky.

In a time of sceptic moths and cynic rusts,
And fatted lives that of their sweetness tire,
In a world of flying loves and fading lusts,
It is something to be sure of a desire.

Lo, blessed are our ears for they have heard;
Yea, blessed are our eyes for they have seen:
Let thunder break on man and beast and bird
And the lightning. It is something to have been." Sally in Spokane

Sent by Sally in Spokane | 12:35 PM | 8-16-2008

Godspeed Leroy. You will be missed and remembered for your gifts.

Laurie - this wasn't about cancer you know. Cancer was the tool that was used so that Leroy could share his joy of life with others, teach others how to live more fully in the moment - for that's all we have.

You got the best gift of all - sharing your life with such a special man. What a journey! Relish those times in the midst of your grief.

My heart aches for you.

Sent by Anita Apodaca | 12:35 PM | 8-16-2008

dear laurie, i too feel really sad at reading that leroy has gone. just yesterday i was thinking that it would be a great gift if you would continue writing this blog. so many have lost loved ones and your expressions of feelings could be incredibly useful if you are so inclined. i too have stage 4 cancer and leroy inspired me to write my own blog about the experience. i'm grateful that i had the chance to meet leroy through his writing. i wish you the best that can be now, and always. wavesworld.typepad.com

Sent by wave | 12:35 PM | 8-16-2008

Even though I never met Leroy, I am grieving as if my brother just died. I will miss him so much and will never forget him. His blog made a huge impact on my life, gave me courage, made me laugh and feel that I was no longer alone. The word "noble" is rarely used any more, but it seems to fit Leroy. I'm glad his suffering has ended. I like to imagine he has moved on to other grand adventures now, driving his jeep and giving us all "the wave" goodbye, his booming laugh restored -- and will someday be reunited with Laurie and other loved ones. Laurie, I know he felt lucky to have you in his life. Please know that we are all thinking of you now, holding you in our hearts, hoping you will find peace.

'Dirge Without Music'

I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground.
So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind:
Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely. Crowned
With lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned.
Lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
Be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
A formula, a phrase remains,--but the best is lost.
The answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love, --
They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world.
Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave,
Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. But I do not approve. And I am not resigned.

-- Edna St. Vincent Millay

Sent by Doris | 12:36 PM | 8-16-2008

You are a great man. I am proud to have worked for you and to have known you.

Sent by Joe L | 12:36 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear this. I have followed this blog for a long time. Never posted before but I really feel like I've lost a friend. Laurie, I hope you can feel the love and embrace of hundreds of people like me who feel they know you.

Sent by Elaine | 12:40 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm sorry for you, Laurie and all who knew and loved Leroy in the real world. What a profound loss for you all. Still, I am grieving, too. My husband walked in this room just now to find me in tears. "That blogger I read every day? Leroy? He died Friday," I said and he held me in his arms and told me how sorry he was. Isn't that odd and wonderful at the same time? Surely, no one will be mourned by as many strangers as Leroy Seivers will be.

Sent by carolyn briggs | 12:43 PM | 8-16-2008

I discovered Leroy's blog a couple of years ago when I was researching cancer for a novel I was writing. I've followed it ever since.

Over the last couple of weeks, I've been bracing for this message. It's still a terrible shock.

I'm so sorry. And, thank you for sharing your journey with us.

Sent by Carrie V. | 12:44 PM | 8-16-2008

I want you all to know how lucky I feel for having known Larry, Laurie and this world wide support system. Faced with terminal cancer, I too am trying my best to fight the good fight. This blog has made me laugh, cry and rejoice in small thing. I feel Larry was scooped up in God loving arms and takin home. He was a true inspiation and most of all human like all of us, addressing all the good, the bad and ugly that comes with cancer.
God Bless you, Laurie
Love, Katie

Sent by Katie B | 12:44 PM | 8-16-2008

What can I say that hasn't already been said? His courage, determination and wit will be greatly missed. Love and prayers go out to all who's lives he touched in person or through this blog.

Sent by Dave Jenkins | 12:44 PM | 8-16-2008

Tears are running down my face for Leroy and Laurie. Very, very sorry. It's a shock, even though I knew it was coming.

Sent by Jill | 12:45 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm going to miss the big guy a lot. I'm deeply sad and will mourn the loss of a great man. He was a gift to anyone who came to discover him here. I would have loved to meet him. Thank you Leroy, rest in peace.

Sent by GD | 12:45 PM | 8-16-2008

Nothing can make the pain go away, but I will pray that your grief will be lessened somewhat by the combined love and gratitude of this group. God bless you, Laurie. Leroy, you were one of a kind.

Sent by Karen Laven | 12:48 PM | 8-16-2008

It wasn't too many years ago that people didn't even say the word "cancer" out loud. Leroy's amazing candor and courage blew the doors open and provided an example and a vehicle for so many people to talk openly with their families and loved ones. What a gift! I sent many people with cancer and their families to Leroy's blog. Most of those people never had the great good fortune of knowing Leroy, but felt a kinship nonetheless.
I did know him, and I'm very sorry he's gone. His work has helped so many.

Sent by Brent | 12:48 PM | 8-16-2008

A co-worker was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer in 2004 and we became email friends. She sent me several notes from Leroy because we both admire such good writing. I believe the Lord used this exchange to prepare me for my own struggle when I was diagnosed with cancer in late 2006. I was already a frequent reader of the blog before but began to read daily, first thing in the morning, after that. Leroy, Laurie and the community of us were and is the only place I felt safe to discuss awful things. When we thought I had brain mets for two months, the only people I told were here on the blog. When we feared bone mets, these wonderful 'strangers' were the only ones I told. When I grieved my brother's passing before I could get there (he died of cancer while I was receiving radiation), it was on these pages that I poured my tears and loss. Some of my notes were never posted, some were, but the relationship we formed here, in Cancer World, on this blog, has enormous value to me. If, when we die, our worth is told by the lives we have touched in a positive, caring supportive way, by the hole we leave in others, by the good we have done in the world, then Leroy's worth is without measure. I am sorry to have lost him but oh so blessed that he lived and died here on these pages with so much joy, humor, integrity, passion and grace. Laurie, Ted, Maeve, and all the members, he has shown us how to move on to the next world. Thanks to all of you but first and foremost, thank you Leroy.

Sent by glenda | 12:49 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. I am also sorry for all of us who have been touched by this blog. I was diagnosed in July 2005 with colon cancer with mets to liver and later to both lungs. I have shared Leroy's path as I went through chemo, surgery, radiofrequency ablation, etc. I am now almost out of options so the last few weeks have been very important to me. Touching base everyday, sometimes from other countries, has allowed me to have company on my journey. Leroy's humor and view of the world I know has inspired all of us.

To my fellow bloggers I only hope you will celebrate Leroy's life even though it leaves an empty whole in ours. Peace

Sent by Dona | 12:49 PM | 8-16-2008

I, like many others, felt the need to check here this morning. Thank you Leroy, for sharing your gift with us. I hope that you know how deeply you will be missed and how great an impact you have had on so many. Words cannot do justice right now. God Bless You, both Leroy and Laurie.

Sent by Becky | 12:50 PM | 8-16-2008

There are no words. Only tears now. Leroy was such a strong person.

Sent by Larrie | 12:50 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you so much for everything, Laurie. For sharing this with all of us, and for allowing us to sit with you, as much as we could.

Sent by Linda | 12:51 PM | 8-16-2008

So sad. I am not a religious person but this poem has always been a comfort to me in times of grief.

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. Lord you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The Lord replied, my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

Sent by Jeanne | 12:53 PM | 8-16-2008

Dearest Laurie and Leroy's family,

My heart breaks for all of you and all of us.

I have posted the lyrics from an artist from Norway called Bjoern Eidsvaag called Eg Ser (I see). (My translation, so please excuse me if the English isn't quite right). Please allow me to post the ending as well.

I see that you are tired
but I cannot take these steps for you,
you must take them yourself
But I will walk with you
I will walk with you

I see that you're in pain
but I cannot cry these tears for you
You must cry, yourself
But I will cry with you
I will cry with you

I see you want to give up
But I cannot live your life for you
You must live your own life
But I will live it with you
I will live it with you

I see that you are scared
But I cannot die for you
You must taste him yourself
But I will make death life for you
I have made death life for you.

***

My deepest sympathy,

Liz L
Bridgewater, NJ

Sent by Liz L. | 12:53 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I was so very sad to read the news this morning. As a 2 year survivor of breast cancer, I know that Leroy's posts are of tremendous value to anyone facing this disease and the effects it has on us and on those around us. You, as well, have been a wonderful role model through very difficult times. I send you my heartfelt thanks, along with my condlolences. I hope you know you have a world of people who share your sadness and admire your courage and support of Leroy.

Sent by Andrea Maga | 12:53 PM | 8-16-2008

I started reading the blog at a friend's insistence shortly after my diagnosis. Once I started reading it, I went back and read years I had missed. Leroy and you were able to put to words all of those experiences of the heart during the battle. I feel the loss of a friend even without meeting him because he was so able to touch on our human experience. Please know that I keep you in my heart

Sent by Tess | 12:55 PM | 8-16-2008

I watched Leroy and Ted Koppel on TV and then started following his blog. I am so sorry and I will miss him. God bless you all during this time.

Sent by Ellen | 12:56 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie-
Thank you for letting all of us share this journey with you and Leroy. If it helps you to continue to share with the group, please do so. It's amazing how Leroy brought people together from all locations and all walks of life; joined by cancer.

Thinking of you and sending warm thoughts and big hugs your way.

Sent by Leslie | 12:56 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy is now in God's arms and is out of pain and is full of love in Heaven. I am so sorry for you Laurie and all of his friends and family...what a wonderful, kind man he was. I also have CC and read his daily blogs and learned so much from him. He gave me comfort...and strength to carry on....he will always be in my life as soeone that gave so much! He was so brave. I will never forget him..Sue

Sent by sue | 12:57 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and family,
So many words, from so many souls touched by the privilege of knowing Leroy through his blog and his journey...truly he has been a hero to thousands who are struggling with cancer and their loved ones. My family, too, has been touched by the pain that I know is indescribable, but what an honor that Leroy has left such shining sparks of himself in so many people - not many of us leave the world with that...
I pray for your peace in the days to come and thank you from the depths of my heart for the gifts you have shared with us all.
Bless you. from Vicki (Clarkston, Nichigan)

Sent by Vicki Wilke | 12:58 PM | 8-16-2008

As soon as I saw there was an NPR e-mail on a Saturday, I think I knew but prayed it wasn't so. I literally had to catch my breath at the news. I have been following Leroy on this journey since he started keeping his journal. This is my first comment. He has deeply touched me and had an impact on me and I am in tears. All I can think is no, no,no, no, bring him back. His journal was one of courage, dignity and how to live with a dreadful illness. I offer my deepest condolences to his family during this very sad time. I will miss him.

Sent by JoAnn from Minnesota | 1:04 PM | 8-16-2008

I hope you understand when I tell you that checking the blog had become one of the highlights of my day.

Though not a surprise, Leroy's passing is still a shock. His blog and other words will live on and continue to be a comfort to myself and others. I hope that one day the blog may be available in book form.

Laurie, thank you for sharing your everything with us.

Sent by Lynn | 1:04 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
Words can not express my saddness at learning this news. I have chills running down my spine. So sudden and yet so expected in some ways. What a great loss for you, your family, and all of us in cancer world. I feel like a bright light in this sometimes dark world has been darkened. God bless you. May his love for you and your memories of him sustain you in the days and weeks ahead. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. May he rest is the peace that can not be taken away. Janet

Sent by Janet | 1:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Such a good life Leroy lived. And to have Laurie with him all the way - a blessed life too.

Sent by Kay Crosson | 1:06 PM | 8-16-2008

I woke up today and thought, it's Saturday, but I wonder if.... and then I saw the news. I am so saddened. I know that Leroy was a pillar of strength to me and to thousands of others. He will be missed... and remembered by so many of us who were never fortunate to meet him in person, but who have been so touched by his openness and honesty. Thank you, Leroy. You will live on in what you have given to all of us.

My heart goes out to Laurie and the rest of those closest to Leroy. May your love of Leroy sustain you through your grief.

Sent by Colleen in Milwaukee | 1:07 PM | 8-16-2008

Words fail at times like these but I know love doesn't. I pray you are surrounded by those who love you and Leroy, arms that will hug you and hold you in your grief and sadness. Laurie, I am so very sad for you in your loss.
Lydia Stone

Sent by Lydia Stone | 1:10 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and all of us,

He gave us a great gift- many in fact. I am so sorry for our loss, yet strangely at peace, that he no longer suffers in Cancer World. It is my firm hope and belief that he has entered the world of the Eternal Now where there is only joy , peace, and life without end. Until we meet again dear friend...

Sent by Kathleen | 1:11 PM | 8-16-2008

It's a shock. I'm so sorry. Love and prayers for you Laurie.

Sent by Lisa Burt | 1:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Godspeed, Leroy. You were loved here and always will be.
Thank you for sharing him, Laurie. You will remain in our prayers.

Sent by Laura | 1:12 PM | 8-16-2008

I gasped and then cried when I read this news today. I found this blog when my father was diagnosed with lung cancer. His battle with cancer continues. I shared it with him in hope of helping him find strength and encouragement and it did. My father and I shared many Leroy stories and had many Leroy discussions. I am so sorry for your loss Laurie. Leroy was an incrediable person.

Sent by E. Wells | 1:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I didn't expect him to pass, his spirit is strong and it seems impossible that he is no longer with us. I believe this must be part of what you are feeling as well. Leroy's passing has effected me profoundly.

I began reading his blog after my diagnosis with breast cancer 18 months ago. I have never written as I felt I had little to contribute. This is probably not the case. Leroy has become a part of my life and I am tearful, sad and grief stricken by his passing. Such a spirit, such a will to live, such determination....it has been a gift me.

I am holding you in my thoughts, and want you to know that I believe your deep and abiding love for Leroy will sustain you in your sorrow. Leroy lives on in the minds and hearts of the many people he touched.

From a 'silent' friend who has to come to know you and Leroy from the generosity of spirit you have both been so willing to share in this blog. I will miss Leroy and my daily reading to be part of your lives and the reality of the struggle with cancer.
Peggy

Sent by Peggy Flanagan | 1:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy helped me cope with my own cancer, made it a little less scary and made me feel a little less alone. That he did this for thousands of others as well just shows the grandeur of his heart.

Sent by Megan | 1:13 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

Something made me open the blog on a Saturday. I knew his time was short. Even so, I was shocked and wanted to say, "No! Not yet!" There is never enough time with someone you love. At the same time, I felt relief that he wasn't hurting anymore. He talked about his pain and I always just assumed it was about twice the intensity he reported.

Now it is survivor time. He had difficulty getting out of this world and you are going to have difficulty staying in it. Be strong and ride the waves of grief. It's going to be OK.

Blessings.

Sent by Diana Kitch | 1:14 PM | 8-16-2008

Oh my. Laurie, I am so very sad for your loss and the loss in the community of this blog. LeRoy was part of my family. I struggled at times, especially of late, with reading the postings because of the pain and struggle that I knew that you and he were facing.

I am a five year cancer survivor. LeRoy's postings told a real time story of anyone who has a chronic disease. He told it with love, openness, hope, recognition and, most of all, humor. I thank you and LeRoy for sharing your journey.

I am sad and will miss him, but I know that he is pain free and in a better place. Peace.

Sent by Jeff Wickland | 1:19 PM | 8-16-2008

Please know your husband and friend touched people inside NPR as well as outside. He was a role model, and a picture of courage, and so are you.

Sent by Raul Moreno | 1:19 PM | 8-16-2008

This is the first time I've commented. I'm a regular NPR listener, and while driving to work one day in September 2006, I heard Leroy's pod cast. I was very interested because my dad had been diagnosed with Lung Cancer that month. Nine months later, my dad passed away, but I kept reading Leroy's posts. The past few months have sounded so familiar. I'm reliving it again. My thoughts and prayers are with Laurie and all who are affected by Leroy's death. I was blessed at how openly he shared his journey. It was therapy for me since my dad really didn't want to talk about himself. Peace and wholeness to each of you.

God speed.

Sent by Chris | 1:20 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, you were the truest warrior, who showed all the rest of us in cancer world how to boldly march on.

Sent by Dale W | 1:21 PM | 8-16-2008

ved...Leroy would be back on Monday. I thought the "thunderstom" would indeed pass....Laurie, My sincere condolances to you...and Leroy, I give the "secret Jeep wave" to you in heaven, and thank you for sharing and giving so much to us all. You are missed...???

Sent by Laura | 1:23 PM | 8-16-2008

My deepest regards to Laurie and the rest of his devoted friends and readers...
Peace,
Sandra Yudilevich

Sent by Sandra Yudilevich | 1:24 PM | 8-16-2008

As with so many others, I am saddened to hear this news, yet so very grateful for Leroy and his willingness to open up his life - and his death - as he has done. His forthright reflections have been a source of strength and courage to me (also a cancer survivor) and to many others. Truly, the radio commentaries and this blog are a great gift and a fulfillment of his journalistic vocation. In a mysterious and beautiful way, the storyteller has become the story.

"For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens." - 2 Corinthians 5:1

Sent by Carl | 1:24 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, My deepest and most sincere condolences to you. I feel so close to you and Leroy, I guess I knew it was inevitable but I thought we had a little more time. My heart is breaking at his loss. I know you know he inspired us all. Personally,I consider him my leader. It may sound silly but I feel safer and less alone as I approach the inevitable because of his example. He was brave, funny, thoughtful, sincere. I will miss him so much. I pray that you feel comfort in your memories and in knowing how much he meant to all of us here in cancer land. It will always be the beast to me. He gave it a good fight. God bless you. Kim

Sent by kim | 1:24 PM | 8-16-2008

I stood at the kitchen counter this morning, looking at the screen of my laptop, and wept for the loss if Leroy - for Laurie, for the family, for the thousands of us who woke up each morning looking forward to seeing his words and feeling the kindness and wisdom of his presence.

God Speed dear friend -
from a friend you never met, my love
tom portante, oakland california

Sent by tom portante | 1:30 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss, but he have always felt so close to Leroy; HE was one of us, he wrote about his cancer fbut for so many of us he wa writing about us too. There will be no words that could bring peace to you, but one sure thing is true NOW he is in a better world, with no pain, no suffering; just looking down on us..May He rest in peace forever and ever, and may you find serenity within yourself and us which in a way we were his friends with n faces to him...Love & prayers always..ileana,Miami, Florida

Sent by ileana arriola | 1:33 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so thankful to have been a part of Leroy's journey all this time. While I was not a frequent poster, I was a daily reader and certainly held Leroy and Laurie in my heart, and prayers. Thank you so much for the sharing. It was a true blessing to me.

Sent by Judith Novak | 1:43 PM | 8-16-2008

After logging more fearful late night hospital hours last night with my mother who is going her second round with pancreatic cancer- I have to voice my admiration for a family with the awesome strength to share honestly thier fears and vulnerabilties with the world in this way. My heart to you and yours today.

Sent by Lindsey | 1:43 PM | 8-16-2008

I feel like a piece of me is missing. So sorry for the loss of such a remarkable man.

Sent by LisaAnniePants | 1:45 PM | 8-16-2008

Like so many of us who had never met Leroy face-to-face, he became part of our family through his words. To me, he was my cool uncle, the one who inspired me to add more stamps to my passport. But now, he was the seemingly invincible man, defying the odds of his initial diagnosis and enjoying the extra moments of life that had been bequeathed unto him. I looked forward to the blog e-mails every morning and will truly miss his insights.

Sent by Sydney | 1:46 PM | 8-16-2008

I am another who has read Leroy's blog frequently, but almost never posted a comment. My husband is in a fierce battle with lymphoma, even following a stem cell transplant. I anticipate being in your position within the next year, Laurie, and I thank both you and Leroy for sharing your inner selves with us. It means so much to know that one is not alone.
My heart is breaking for you right now, Laurie. I am so, so sorry. Please take strength in the knowledge that you are in my thoughts daily.

Sent by Betsy | 1:48 PM | 8-16-2008

How strange; I was wondering just this morning what it would be like when I read that Leroy had died, and then I clicked on this blog and read that he had. I'm so very sorry for your loss, Laurie. I am dealing with Stage IV sarcoma cancer and have looked to Leroy's blog for his honesty and simplicity in writing about these final days and weeks. He will be missed, and I will be thinking of you and sending prayers and good wishes.

Sent by Emilie Lemmons | 1:50 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and all who loved Leroy,

Words are hard to come by when grief is present. My love and prayers go out to you. I will miss Leroy's writings. I wish I had known him. I'm so glad he is pain free at last.

Sent by Judy in NVa. | 1:50 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family - my condolences. I am grateful to that he shared his journey with the thousands of us who read his blog. May your memories bring the sunlight into your world.

I too want to give you the Aaronic blessing:

May the Lord bless you and keep you,
May the Lord make his face shine upon you
May the Lord lift up His countenance upon you and give you peace.

Sent by Sue Hoppe | 1:53 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's blog helped me deal with my sister's cancer diagnosis last summer, and then her death three months later. He helped me understand so much. I will miss Leroy. Lots of big hugs to Laurie.

Sent by Anonymous | 1:54 PM | 8-16-2008

Even though I have no direct cancer connection, this blog was the first thing I read every morning. I feel like I have lost a friend.

Sent by Kelly Grounds | 1:55 PM | 8-16-2008

We have lost yet another amazing soul.

Sent by Misty | 1:55 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you Leroy for sharing your insights into the meaning of life. You made a difference in our lives and we are grateful. We will miss your wisdom and courage. We are sad that you have left our world and relieved that you are no longer in pain. Until our spirits meet again - peace.

Sent by Brian R | 1:56 PM | 8-16-2008

My thoughts and prayers to you...Leroy will be missed by so many. He will always be a part of us...even if we didn't know him personally. Sending you many wishes of comfort at this time.

Sent by Fatima Silva | 1:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I feel like I lost a feisty and fascinating friend. A superb journalist up to the very last moment, Leroy may have discovered his most important work in crafting his My Cancer blog and inspiring the formation of a supportive and eloquent community. In his own creative way, he was still a war correspondent but, this time, operating on the home front.

My sincere sympathy goes out to Laurie and to all of us feeling a profound loss.

Sent by Leslie Bjorncrantz | 1:57 PM | 8-16-2008

I, too, came straight to Leroy's blog each and every day. His honesty, strength, and concern for all of us were more powerful than he knew. Shocked, my heart broke as I read today's post. I will miss him terribly, but will remember him always. To Laurie, you're in my thoughts and prayers...

Sent by Ruth | 1:57 PM | 8-16-2008

It has been three months since my husband died. We followed Leroy's blog for over a year. I have found the blog encouraging, helpful, painful and honest even in the past three months. Now, someone else must step forward and encourage those of us who must continue the journey!

God bless Leroy!

Sent by Barbara Gobrail | 1:59 PM | 8-16-2008

GodSpeed,Leroy
Thank you for teaching me how to live life and just not pass thru it.I will keep the lessons well and continue to pass them on.
peace be with you LeRoy and Laurie
valerie

Sent by valerie foley | 2:03 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you for everything. I am french and my 54 old dad has lung cancer since a year. This blog helped me so much.
Merci.

Sent by anne | 2:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie and all, we are both so sorry to hear of your profound loss of Leroy. We have followed him (and you) since my husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer & stage IV lung cancer 3 years ago. The blog has meant so much to him especially, and reading it was first on his list every morning. Our deep sympathy to you. We all will miss him.

Sent by Kathy | 2:07 PM | 8-16-2008

My wife and I found out shr had cancer just about the time Leroys special was on TV. We followed Leroys battle from day one. It helped my wife Kathy to know that she was not alone in her fight, other people, through Leroy were out there going through the same fight and had the same fears she had. We will miss reading Leroys words every day, our thouhjts and prayers are with Leroy and his family, including his extended family (everyone that read his blog or that are going through the fight).

Sent by Terrell W in Bay City Tx | 2:12 PM | 8-16-2008

No more pain Leroy. It is Laurie that has to find herself again and I'm saddened by your pain. I feel honored to have known Leroy (he used to eat lunch where I worked) and know the happiness he and Ted always created when they came for lunch! Leroy will always be with us and his blog was of great help to all of us. Just smile when you think of Leroy he deserves that from us. But he will be missed terribly.

Sent by Pat | 2:14 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss and know that your heart must be broken. Every morning as I read Leroy's blog I would say prayer for you both. My thoughts and prayers are with you now and for the future.

Sent by Ilene Whittaker | 2:17 PM | 8-16-2008

I will miss him.

Sent by Helen Flint | 2:18 PM | 8-16-2008

It has happened. You tried to prepare everyone, but it hurts no less. Laurie, you have the strength of us all trying to hold you up. Thanks you for sharing him and this experience with us. Always a friend.

Sent by Rockland Refugee | 2:20 PM | 8-16-2008

There are people who through some simple action reach out and change the world. Leroy is one of those people. Leroy has touched so many people's lives through this blog. I know he had a pre-cancer career and, yet, in this simple daily expression of what all of us have thought and felt he gave voice to the joy and sorrow, strength and pain, love and longing in us all. He will always be remembered. Laurie, grieve any way you find works for you...remember it will come in waves..but, take comfort in knowing Leroy's sprirt lives on in the way he changed his world. Our hearts are all hurting with yours.

Sent by Sandra Li | 2:24 PM | 8-16-2008

I think it's important that Leroy be remembered for what a great man he was and not for his disease. Please share with everyone his accomplishments and observations, not just as someone with cancer, but as someone who was truly gifted. Warm, funny, caring and involved people seem hard to come by these days. I'm sorry to see another one go.

Sent by Stephanie | 2:30 PM | 8-16-2008

So sorry for your loss-and our loss. You have all meant so much to me and I value the daily blog and insights.Thank you for your time and the giving of you Leroy and Laurie

Sent by Fern Malowitz | 2:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Blessings, Leroy - and great thanks for all you've done for the cancer community -and to educate everyone else. Go well.

Laurie- please accept my love and support along with everyyone else's.

Thank you also Maeve and NPR for the support you've provided Leroy, Laurie and all of us.

Vaya con Dips

John Shippee

Sent by John Shippee | 2:32 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, My most sincese condolences to you on your loss. Leroy is now in a place that is more beautiful than we can ever imagine. May he rest in eternal peace free from all pain and suffering.

Sent by Alexander Lindsay | 2:41 PM | 8-16-2008

Some time, man or woman, traveler,
afterwards, when I am not alive,
look here, look for me here
between the stone and the ocean,
in the light storming
in the foam.
Look here, look for me here,
for here is where I shall come, saying nothing,
no voice, no mouth, pure,
here I shall be again the movement
of the water, of
the wild heart,
here I shall be both lost and found
here I shall be perhaps both stone and silence.
Pablo Neruda Las Piedras de Chile,1961

Sent by TC by the Ocean in RI | 2:41 PM | 8-16-2008

With an unimaginable lump in my throat I have read the last post and am trying to make sense of it all. What a huge presence Leroy has been, in his career, with his family and friends, and on this little screen which connected so many of us, in sadness and in joy, as we walked our roads together. I never met you, Leroy, but you were a giant to me and the loss is immense. We have thanked you all along the way, for your honesty and courage and the indomitable spirit which was yours to the end and which uplifted and reinforced us all. Thanks to God, you are now finally getting your respite from pain, and from the grim realities of the fight you have been waging each day for so long. God bless and keep you, and Laurie as well - and may you both know the peace you both so richly deserve. We are forever indebted to you both - and forever changed. With great respect and love, Carole Duckett

Sent by CaroleD | 2:41 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, my deepest condolences! We loved Leroy and he played a part in all of our lives as we walked our own individual paths impacted by "the beast" that destroys life, even if it is our own cells gone awry. At my Dad's diagnosis of terminal cancer, Leroy's mother was dying. When Dad was in his last days and went under Hospice care, you and Leroy were deciding whether or not to go under Hospice care. Dad died two weeks ago today. Leroy began spiraling downward at that same time. Leroy was a daily part of my experience with losing my Dad to cancer, and his and your words helped to prepare me and sustain me, and reminded me that "we are not on this path alone." I shared many of the writings with my Mom, including your very descriptive writing yesterday, Laurie. Mom said, and I ditto,
"That is Sad News...:-( .but like Dad, Leroy, won't Suffer anymore!!! He isn't far behind Dad!!! Hope You meet Frank in Heaven, Leroy!!! 2 Good Men are Gone........"

Sent by Linda Lee | 2:43 PM | 8-16-2008

Through Leroy's posts, I've come to see him as a friend. It is with a very heavy heart that I must say good-by to my friend. His posts have helped me immeasurably to deal with my own cancer. His grace, his fight and his candor and honesty has been a bright spot in my day. I wish you a new world of peace and health, my friend. To Laurie and Leroy's other special people, my deepest condolences. I know his loss will be hard to bear. He was a prince among men. You are lucky to have known him. Be at peace Leroy. Thank you for sharing your journey.

Sent by Leanne Barnett | 2:45 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am deeply sorry. Yet I'm relieved he didn't suffer long. He had suffered enough pain these last months. I used to think "How does he keep writing while in pain?" He gifted us with his words, even when he didn't want to think about cancer.
You too, Laurie, helped make this blog possible. How did you write so beautifully when your fear and pain were like mountains to climb. Thank you, dear heart. You now go forward without your man, but never truly alone.
You will continue to be in our prayers

Kate from California

Sent by Kate | 2:48 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I am another daily reader who has never before posted.
I am writing to express my grief for Leroy's passing, but most of all to send a message to you.
I am astounded at how often life's purpose seems to be generosity -- of time, words, attention, spirit, love, and vulnerability.
Both you and Leroy were all of those things to us, thousands of people you have never met. Somewhere out here in the virtual world is a true community that is more "real" than the ones some of us know in our own lives.
Here there has been truth and consolation sprinkled with a bit of resentment and anger and lots of humor.
As I travel this path with my partner who is struggling with brain cancer, I have been especially moved by the mostly-unspoken story of you, Laurie. Here is where I want to remind you that bravery is not required, nor is what some call "strength." I think that you and Leroy have both learned through the deeply loving journey you have been on that what is most required is to remain open to love.
There is plenty of love here for you now, and arms of peace ready to wrap you up.

I cannot thank you enough for all you both have shared with me. But I will try, in my remembrances of you both each day.

As the author Annie Lamott has said, there are only two prayers in the world: "Help me, Help me, Help me" and "Thank you, Thank you, Thank you."

"Thank you."

Sent by Andrea | 2:48 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy and Laurie, God holds you both in his hands. Thank you for sharing your lives, experiences, courage, fears and humor with us all.

Sent by Nancy Kowalski | 2:49 PM | 8-16-2008

If you would like, you can donate $5 to Leroy's star at www.standup2cancer.org Just click on the Constellation at the bottom of page and search his star by his name. No other info needed till you donate. Ignore the state of Colo that I put on there. We love you Leroy! DiAnn

Sent by Diann | 2:51 PM | 8-16-2008

i just went on hospice care and now with this news, it makes me wonder just how long i have and probably all of us out here. I feel guilty of thinking of myself at this moment as I sob and want to cry out loud and feel such sadness for you Laurie and all of his loved ones by there at home and out here in cyberland. It should be raining because when it rains angels seem to be crying. Everytime I hear rain or chimes I shall be reminded of Leroy. Please accept my condolences and gratitude for sharing your Leroy with all of us, Laurie.....
In sadness,
Linda

Sent by Linda Warner | 2:54 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so so sorry for your loss of your wonderful husband.

I have been reading and posting comments on this blog. It provided me much much comfort and support when I was caring for my sister who passed away from cancer on August 2, 2007.

Words cannot express how sad I am for you. I hope the love of your family and friends will be a comfort for you.

You are in my thoughts

Karen

Sent by Karen | 2:56 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy,

This friendship was built on the "words" that I would read every day...sadly...at this time, I am unable to find any words to say...

I am speechless,and saddened by the loss that will be felt today, and forever...

Thank you Leroy...for your words...your strength...your friendship.

May God Bless your family at this difficult time.

Sent by Jane | 2:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I knew this day was coming but not this quickly. Laurie, you need to do what is best for you now. Be selfish.

Sent by trisha zuckerman | 2:57 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am forever changed by the depth of Leroy and this blog. I will forever take his words with me,his compassion and as well as empathy for all of us in the cancer community.

Sent by Kerry in Michigan | 2:58 PM | 8-16-2008

My surprise to discover a Leroy mail on a Saturday turned into sadness when I read the news. Leroy, I first discovered your beautiful way with words in the daily emails from Nightline and now your voice is silent, it is surely going to be missed. My prayers go out to Laurie and the rest of your family and friends. God bless you Leroy, Chris Shoop

Sent by Chris | 3:01 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie-

Leroy was a big man, leaving a big void. It was a privilege to have worked with him for several years, and to have seen his humor, his wit, and his passion for the craft from this perspective. Why is all I can think of right now Leroy in that ridiculous cow costume at one of your Halloween parties?!

Sent by Jon Ebinger | 3:02 PM | 8-16-2008

I will miss Leroy. He was my guide in this journey with a fatal illness. I have been greatful for every minute left to me in this life, because of his sharing.
On the other hand I am so relieved that he is missing the next phases of this illiness. Enough is enough. I'm outa here! I am going on two years since the detection of my very rare breast tumor. My breast was removed and I had a few treatments of Chemo.
I have saved all Leroy's emails and will continue to read them till I know them by heart. Love and Blessings to his family.

Sent by Peg Heglund | 3:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Thanks for letting us get to know Leroy. My wife Carole began reading "My Cancer" in the spring of 2007 as she recovered from the ravages of major surgery brought on by ovarian cancer. Carole relished reading Leroy's blog even as her cancer returned last winter. She cheered when he did, and she suffered when he suffered. Alas, Carole died in January of this year.
My daughter Rachel and I continued to read Leroy's blog, because it always triggered fond memories of a great wife and a loving mother.
Our thoughts to Laurie.
Dave and Rachel Mills
Monument, Colorado

Sent by Dave and Rachel Mills | 3:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,my heart goes out to you. You and Leroy have been such a blessing to so many people. Thank you for having the courage to share your intimate thoughts with us. And now the news of Leroy's death comes unexpectedly, just as did my best friend's who I introduced to this blog. I knew it was coming, but it seemed so unexpected. May you find peace and comfort in the days ahead. Sue

Sent by Sue Feemster | 3:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm writing this through tears...

Sent by Mike Cohen | 3:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry this has happened. I have no idea what to say. This special came out the same time my mom found out about her cancer. It has been a life line to her, my dad and myself. To hear the struggles Leroy and so many others are going through has helped more than anyone will ever know. He is an amazing man and someone you feel you know even if you have never met. Godspeed and please watch over all of us. I hope we can meet somewhere again on the internet, as support and help through this horrible journey. I know my dad, mom and myself will miss him terribly. It feels like apart of our family is gone, blood relation doesn't matter. God bless.

Sent by Gina B | 3:08 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Precious Laurie and Leroy,

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Sent by Shannon Parsons | 3:10 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy,Laurie and to all of Leroy's family & Friends.

Thank you for sharing this journey with us- I'm a little blown away right now, I thought after he was so indecisive about hospice that he had thought that he had allot more fight or at least enough time to possibly resent hospice. and now this. Of curse Laurie we weren't there, yesterdays post was ominous.. I'm hope he went without pain. I know he went loved , by his family , fdriuends and all of us.
Right now all I want you to know is we mourn for Leroy today. My wife and I both . Tis im not just some nameless person who's words I read or some journalist who interests me. This is a guy who I cared about.

when my wife called me from doing yard work and told me Leroy passed. The day stopped.

Thank you for sharing this experience with us Laurie and thanks for not resenting Leroy letting us all into what has to be a tine when you wouldn't be called selfish to want to keep every second of your time and let the nameless Internet people go. Insterad you allowed us to share this journey.

It has done good, we have learned about living wella nd dying well and I hope when my time comes I'll face it with the same heroism that Leroy did and I hope when that time comes my wife will be able to handle it like you did Laurie.

I'm sorry , I'll miss him. Do whatever it is you feel like doing. There's no hard and fast rules about mourning, it's ok to laugh, ok to cry, ok to get out of the house and go have a Sunday and just as ok to sit.

Mark

Sent by Mark Blei | 3:15 PM | 8-16-2008

In the words of an old Negro spiritual:
"Free at last. Free at last. Thank God
Almighty free at last."
Cathy

Sent by cathy itri | 3:18 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy was one of the finest journalists and kindest men I have ever known.
He also made a wonderful pizza back in the Berkeley days.
Laurie-- Guy, Annie and I send you all of our love.
In sadness,
Carla

Sent by Carla Robbins | 3:20 PM | 8-16-2008

Im so saddened to have just read the post. Being a 2x lymphoma surivor I want you to know how much inspiration I received from Leroy. All the things he said were honest and only someone who went through cancer or know someone who did can relate to it. All our hidden feelings, Leroy expressed. I am truly sorry for your loss Laurie, we all lost a very true friend.
Leroy rest in peace..love you and will miss you my friend.

Sent by Mary Beth Alpisa | 3:21 PM | 8-16-2008

I am saddened beyond words...

Sent by Donna Rae | 3:22 PM | 8-16-2008

My husband and I were saddened to read the e-mail this morning; we have been following Leroy's story since he began sharing it. This blog was such a huge blessing to all of us, and to Laurie, and to him. It has helped us to realize that we are a community and the community will continue to live and we will all take so much with us as we continue with our own lives, no matter how long we live or how and when we die. My first husband died 15 1/2 years ago when he was 46 and I was 35. Very soon after he died, I realized that there were worse things than death, even though I missed him terribly and grieved so deeply. One of my most poignant, yet simple, realizations was that life was going to go on, whether I liked it or not. For Laurie, or any of us who grieve a loved one, there is nothing that can really bypass the pain of grief. The passage of time, the love and support of friends and family, the love that we carry forward, the memories that we will always have -- those help us to get up and make it through another day. I remember one day when I realized that I didn't spend quite as much time totally focused on my loss, on my grief. I wrote one time in an article that I was worried that I'd never get over losing him while at the same time worried that I WOULD. What we really do is to learn to live without those we love, yet we always carry them with us - and their impact, their footprints, are always there. No one can take that from any of us. And that is how we go on living and learning and loving - because that person was such a part of our lives, of us. What is so important to us when we lose one we love is that they are not forgotten. Laurie, you must know that Leroy will not be forgotten; there is a community here that is larger than any of us can really imagine and he will live on...and he will be missed.

Sent by Jan Richardson, Olympia, WA | 3:22 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie & Leroy - Please know that both of you are in our thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathies.

Sent by Sabina from Potomac | 3:30 PM | 8-16-2008

My sincerest condolences on the loss of Leroy Sievers. He helped many people in many ways cope with what cancer means to them. Whether you had cancer, were a cancer survivor or had a family member with cancer it did not matter. He helped everyone to see how cancer affects so many people and helped many deal with the feelings they had when they heard those scary words " You have cancer". Thank you so much for the support he gave so many as he was dealing with "the beast" himself. He will be sadly missed but also thought of fondly and often.

Sent by Lynn Wilsing | 3:30 PM | 8-16-2008

there are no words to express our sadness and our love and prayers to you Laurie.
Thank you both for enriching our lives. I do feel a better more compassionate person. You raised the bar on humanity to a staggering height.

Sent by pam Solomon | 3:31 PM | 8-16-2008

I have been reading Leroy's blog for a few years now. I do not have cancer, but I work in a hospital making appointments for many people who have cancer. Reading Leroy's blog has given me a deep compassion for people in their fight against cancer. I have learned so much from him, and I will be forever grateful to him for sharing his journey. I will pass on these lessons in my daily dealings with others. I bless his spirit and yours Laurie.

Sent by Leslie Rowan | 3:37 PM | 8-16-2008

bye leroy. thank you for your life.
laurie....be still. soon you will be living with mostly the good memories. what a wonderful life you have had w/leroy.

Sent by catherine | 3:37 PM | 8-16-2008

I'll miss Leroy. His writings kept me checking my perspective. Thank you for allowing me to read this and become a little less afraid of dying, and of the low blows that life sometimes deals. I'll miss the voice and the words.

Take care, Laurie. This teacher will miss visiting the blog.

Sent by Kim | 3:45 PM | 8-16-2008

Some people come into our lives and swiftly go, others stay and leave footprints in our hearts and we are never, ever the same.

Our deepest sympathies, Laurie. Mary Gail and Gordon Swenson

Sent by Mary Gail and Gordon | 3:47 PM | 8-16-2008

So the day finally came when he can run on the beaches of Maui with Spanky, when he can drive that Jeep and have the special wave to all other Jeep drivers, when he can laugh, think of Cookies & Cream ice cream, wear his favorite Hawaiian shirt and sip ice cold Mai Tais.

When we cry for the loss of a loved one, it is us we cry for. It is about how we will miss them, and the void left in our lives. So instead of feeling sorry, we need to celebrate his life, his accomplishments, his refusal to give in without a formidable fight. Let's be happy that we were fortunate that he was part of our lives every day.

Laurie, may you always remember him with a smile.

Best wishes, and hope that we will hear from you again.

Sent by david | 3:48 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart goes out to Leroy's family and friends. I wasn't a regular reader, but being a cancer survivor myself, I would check in every so often to see Leroy's experiences and thoughts while fighting the disease. He will be missed most by his closest, but I want you to know how much he touched yet another survivor.

Sent by Tricia Bovell | 3:48 PM | 8-16-2008

I felt as if I was the one in the back row, listening, but seldom seen. As a cancer survivor myself, I got hooked into Leroy's blog over a year ago, and I found myself unable to turn away from Leroy's thoughts, which were many time my own thoughts. Cancer is not my whole life, but it is that small percentage that I cannot deny, nor will I forget.

Laurie, you will be in my thoughts as you learn to live without Leroy in the flesh. There is no doubt in my mind, however, that he has deeply imbedded himself in your soul, and you will never be completely without him.

Sent by Susan Lustig McPeek | 3:50 PM | 8-16-2008

My husband died 4 weeks ago from colon cancer. A dear friend sent this to me and I'd like to share it with you, Laurie and everyone.
IMMORTALITY
DO NOT STAND BY GRAVE AND WEEP,
I AM NOT THERE, I DO NOT SLEEP,
I AM A THOUSAND WINDS THAT BLOW,
I AM THE DIAMOND GLINTS ON SNOW,
I AM THE SUNLIGHT ON RIPENED GRAIN,
I AM THE GENTLE AUTUMN RAIN,
WHEN YOU AWAKE IN THE MORNINGS HUSH,
I AM THE SWIFT UPLIFTING RUSH
OF QUIET BIRDS IN CIRCLING FLIGHT,
I AM THE SOFT STAR-SHINE AT NIGHT,
DO NOT STAND BY MY GRAVE AND CRY,
I AM NOT THERE, I DIDN'T DIE.

Sent by P am Lever | 3:55 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, what a gift you gave us and I'll never forget your love. Laurie, please know that you are in my prayers and are being held close to my heart. I wish you Peace and Love in the days ahead and will remember Leroy with joy always.
Jude

Sent by judith Tynan | 3:55 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you for sharing...I don't know what I would have done without this blog since my diagnosis of colon cancer. My heart goes out to you Laurie.

Sent by Sheila | 3:57 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am sad to hear the news. I read Leroy's blog almost from the begining. I have stage 4 breast cancer. He made many of my days easier. I hope you will get peace from all these writers today. He was well loved by many people he never met. I am praying for you. Martha

Sent by Martha Berryhill | 4:00 PM | 8-16-2008

Prayers to you Laurie....peace.

Sent by suebee | 4:01 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurei,
I don't have the words to express the deep sadness and loss I feel at Leroy's passing. You and Leroy shared so much with us all. I don't have cancer, but have other difficulties in my life that are at times so overwhelming. I found strength in Leroy's and your words that helped me meet life's challenges,day by day. God bless you.

Sent by Nancy Weaver | 4:01 PM | 8-16-2008

I found Leroy and his voice by happenstance but he hooked me in from the first time I read his words. Laurie, I wish peace for you and the blessings due someone who escorts her partner to his death. Leroy captured the feelings of so many of us who walk this path; few have written or spoken so eloquently and authentically. He was a good man.

Sent by Beth Bradford | 4:02 PM | 8-16-2008

I sit here crying after what I thought was a hard day, but in the world of cancer, I did not have a hard day. The people with cancer and those who love and care for them have hard days every day that I simply can't imagine. I'm sitting at work and my husband texted me and asked me to call home. When I called he said "I have something sad to tell you" and I just listened and he said one word "Leroy" and I just knew. For a man I've never met or talked to, losing Leroy feels like losing someone I actually knew. His loved ones must feel a profound loss right now and words can't express how sorry I am for them, but also for those touched by cancer who were touched by Leroy every single day. Laurie, you are amazing and inspiring and I wish you much strength on the road ahead.

Sent by roni | 4:08 PM | 8-16-2008

Like many others, I came here hoping to find no news. I am so filled with sorrow to read of Leroy's death.

Thank you, Leroy, for your life, love and example.

Sent by Susan C | 4:08 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I was not expecting this post this morning, every monday through friday I check my email everyday for the latest post. Leroy will be missed by all of us, but we all know by you the most. You both have been in all of our thoughts and prayers for a while now, more so now. I know I cannot begin to explain the difference that this blog has made for me. It has given me most of all peace with this disease that has been a part of my life now for 9 years. Thank you Laurie and Leroy for sharing and including us in your journey. Leroy my friend rest in peace. Laurie may you find peace with this in time.

Sent by Cheryl Martin | 4:09 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy shared the best of himself with us.....his spirit will live on.

Sent by Kim | 4:18 PM | 8-16-2008

I have no idea where to begin. I am heartbroken for you, Laurie. A part of you was taken with him, but a part of him remains here with you.

I have followed this blog for many months after hearing about it on NPR. I have never posted a comment, but have read many. One of Leroy's gifts to us was this blog and all that has sprung forth from it - fearlessly sharing so many details, standing with so many who have and are dealing with cancer, and also giving those of us who have people in our lives who have or have had cancer. Your and Leroy's candor have provided the kind of insight that have helped and will help countless others in ways I probably can't imagine but that you no doubt can.

There will be time to address it, but I feel the same as one of the others who hope that the blog and what it has inspired among this community will eventually be shared with the world. I know that inevitably someday I will be searching to read the blog again, wishing I had the words of wisdom, determination, and compassion that you two have provided, at a time of your choosing, should you ever decide to do so.

But what is important now is that we all send you our hearts, that we keep Leroy and those of you who have walked this walk with Leroy in our prayers, and hope that you all move forward with continued courage and determination as you go through this difficult time. God be with you.

Sent by Kathy | 4:20 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie - I sent a poem today, but I wanted to say more. If there is a heaven (and I am not sure) I see it as a garden party where all people end up. I hope that Leroy finds my brother and my Mom. He will/would find them interesting and my mother will feed him well.

I know your pain, Laurie. I grieve for you. The pain you feel will ease in time but never completely fade. It is part of love. Remember how fortunate you were to have each other.

Also to NPR: Thank you for all the efforts in maintaining this blog. We are grateful.

Liz L.

Sent by Liz L. | 4:24 PM | 8-16-2008

Funeral Blues

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone, Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone, Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come. Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead. Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves. He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now; put out every one, Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun, Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods; For nothing now can ever come to any good. W.H. Auden

Rest In Peace

Sent by Jacqueline | 4:24 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you, Leroy, and thank you, Laurie, for taking us all along on your journey. I prayed for you and for us all in my long sessions under the radiation machine - and they were prayers of gratitude and celebration, as well as intercession.

Sent by Genevieve | 4:29 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry!!! But, Laurie - now Leroy doesn't have cancer any more!!! I hope the first things they gave him in Heaven were a Hawaiian shirt and a Jeep!!! Back to normal!!!
Much love to both of you!!!

Sent by Mary | 4:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Leroy had a way with words describing every facet of the cancer world with such transparency. I would read his entry and just nod my head in agreement, he wrote from his heart.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, I pray you sense His presence in the midst of your most difficult loss. He will never leave you or forsake you.

In Sympathy,

Linda from Kirkland, WA

Sent by Linda Hughes | 4:35 PM | 8-16-2008

As a daily reader, I am deeply saddened by the loss of this wonderful man who articulated what so many of us feel who live with cancer. He will be sorely missed.

Sent by Katy Gerritt | 4:38 PM | 8-16-2008

My condolences. You've been an inspiration.

Sent by Dawn | 4:39 PM | 8-16-2008

I have followed this blog since the very beginning. Leroy was like my friend telling me about his ongoing health issues. Today I miss my friend. And I know I'll miss him very much in the days ahead.

Sent by John in Pensacola | 4:40 PM | 8-16-2008

I read the blog every day. Every day since my own cancer diagnosis. Leroy has touched my heart permanently. I will miss him dearly. Godspeed, Leroy. And many blessings to you, Laurie.

Sent by Stefanie Hamilton | 4:42 PM | 8-16-2008

I started reading (or hearing Leroy's words) last summer when my husband had had surgery for stage four colon cancer. Leroy's words seemed somehow to take the edge off of my anger at cancer, so that I wouldn't be angry at my husband. (I had, lost my first husband to cancer).

I read the posts, but one might say not faithfully--I refuse to think of faith and cancer in the same breath.

A quick death does not sound nice. But I think perhaps it is better than the waiting, and knowing, that it will indeed happen.

Leroy's posts made me think, made me feel, and made me hope that this death would not be in vain. That this death will raise money to fight colon cancer.

Fondly

Tommy in Pinehurst NC

Sent by Tommy McDonell | 4:43 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy had a right to be proud of these writings. He brought insight and strength to many people. The world needs more people like him; he will be missed.

Sent by Jimmy | 4:43 PM | 8-16-2008

My condolences to Laurie and Leroy's family. a true hero is gone today.

Sent by KH | 4:45 PM | 8-16-2008

What an amazing tribute to the man who built a living, breathing community out of nothing more than words...today there are no adequate words, just tears and raw emotion.

Peace to you, Laurie, and to all of us out here in Cancer World.

Sent by Linda | 4:47 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart goes out to Leroy's friends and family. The only solace is to know what an impact he has had on the lives of his readers. I am so sorry, Laurie.

Sent by Laura Lieberman | 4:48 PM | 8-16-2008

Can't find the right words-I will miss Leroy's postings very much. He has been so helpful. Sending love and prayers to you, Laurie. I will miss him very much.

Sent by Jen | 4:51 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie; family and friends; along with so many others, I am sending my sincere condolences and most heartfelt prayers for peace for you during Leroy's passing. I am deeply saddened and shocked;it was too sudden. Being that it was sent on Saturday; I "knew" that the news had been sent. I cried aloud to my husband who looked at me in near unbelief as I read the email this morning through my sobs and tears. Crying over someone that I had not met; that is not entirely true, we did meet in this wonderful cyberworld and he was a marvelous person. He fought a brave fight and I am very proud of him. I am so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing your lives with us. Laurie, you will remain in my prayers. Please let us know how we can ever do anything for you in Leroy's memory. He was our friend. We loved him and we love you!
With most sincere sympathy,

Sent by Denise from Ohio | 4:53 PM | 8-16-2008

The man was truly a giant. His passing leaves a permanent Leroy-sized hole in the world. May we all, especially his family, be even half as strong as he was.

Sent by David Saltman | 4:55 PM | 8-16-2008

I feel as though I have lost a valued friend. Leroy has been in my prayers for a long time. Now my thoughts and prayers are with his wife---thank you for sharing him with us, Laurie.

Sent by Toni Moore | 4:55 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you Leroy for sharing your struggle with us. When I began reading this blog I had such a fear of death. I would panic at the thought. I have no reason to think my death is near, but I couldn't bare to think about the reality of death. Leroy had such grace and honesty about the topic. He was so matter of fact and comforting. I couldn't believe that anyone had the courage to talk about such a painful topic and could even make me smile while reading! My day will not be the same without Leroy's words each morning. I am glad to know that Leroy is no longer in pain and has found peace. Laurie, I am so sorry for you loss of this amazing, amazing person. I hope time will help heal your pain. I can't begin to even imagine.

Sent by Catherine Pate | 4:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I never thought this day would come. I'm so sorry. Cindy Lentine

Sent by Cindy | 5:00 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

So sorry to hear of Leroy's passing. May you take comfort in the fact that he was loved by so many.

In his memory, a donation has been made to Doctors Without Borders.

Our prayers are with you at this time.

Sent by Marie in Minneapolis | 5:00 PM | 8-16-2008

Deepest sympathies, Laurie. Leroy's death so quickly, just a day after posting his daily message, caught me off-guard. I had no idea the end was so close, and I sincerely hope that he went peacefully and without pain.

Please let us know when/if you establish a memorial fund in his honor, so that your friends here can show their respect.

Sent by Nancy Glass, MD | 5:05 PM | 8-16-2008

He could not have known what enormous impact his Blog would have. For our family - it has helped us to understand what my brother is experiencing - not with chemo or radiation - but in his heart and soul as he battles this awful disease. Laurie, it was obvious how he adored you and the life you made together. I wish you strength and peace in the days to come.

Sent by Rachel | 5:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie: As a fan of Nightline, I was introduced to Leroy when I subscribed to the Nightline e-mails and he would tell us and comment on the evening programs that Ted Koppel hosted. I loved reading his posts and loved Ted Koppel as well and did miss him when he left.
It was on an e-mail that Ted wrote about Leroy, his cancer diagnosis and the My Cancer site. I have read this blog each day and so admired Leroy's attitude and tenacity at handling and fighting each and every curve that the disease threw at him.
He has been an inspiration to all who stayed with him on this journey that he did not sign up for. I send my heartfelt sympathy to you and your family

Sent by Ethel C | 5:15 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family - I only meet you all through the Ted Koppel special and through the daily blog. My deepest sympathies for your loss. I know that there are tons of here that send you the same thoughts... what a loss. I will miss jumping onto email every morning to see the blog. I will continue living with cancer for Leroy and everyone else that does so too! I am sure Leroy is smiling at us today! Sending us all a big hearty laugh.

Sent by Andi | 5:20 PM | 8-16-2008

Reading todays post took my breath away. My thoughts and prayers go to Laurie and ...gosh...this is so terrible. Leroy will be so missed and we will all feel lost by not seeing him here each day.

Sent by Rose | 5:22 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss - I had just found Leroy's blog when I myself was searching for some hope and some strength to deal with my cancer - this saddens me and breaks my heart. I hope you can one day see the silver lining that he is in God's hands now - no pain, no regrets - I pray for you and your family - my deepest sympathy -

Sent by Karen Peyser | 5:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie - I am still in shock - all of us. I can't believe it and am numb like so many other people who loved him. Words cannot say how sad we are. Our hearts go out to you now - our prayers are with you and Leroy and your families. Teri, Jay, John Gabriel, Anna & Laura.

Sent by Teresa LaMonica | 5:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, I recently found your husband's blog and found great comfort and hope in it. I lost my husband to cancer almost a year ago. It's not easy, especially when that person is such a phenomenal, talented, loving person, but please just hold onto all thse good memories and know the love of so many people will help support you. Rest in peace Leroy.

Sent by Deborah Muller | 5:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, thank you so much for your candor and your strength. Laurie, thank you so much for taking such wonderful care of Leroy and for sharing your struggle with all of us. Leroy isn't gone, he will be right there beside you for the rest of your life. I will pray daily for you to find peace and comfort and for you to feel Leroy's presence.

Sent by Dori | 5:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, if your voice has now been silenced, I hope you went knowing that your words surely live on in all of us who think of you as a friend. Thank you (and thanks to you, too, Laurie) for sharing your ups and downs and for helping me see better how to LIVE. Laurie, my thoughts and prayers will be for your comfort and peace in the days ahead.

Sent by Melissa | 5:33 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry, Laurie. My thoughs have been and will always be with you. Thank you so much for sharing Leroy with us. What a gift. I desperately, selfishly want Leroy back. He was us only much, much better. What will we do without him?

Sent by G | 5:35 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and family,
Thank you for sharing Leroy's battle with us, and thank you for being there for him. There was no better journalist, and from everything I've read here, no better colleague, friend and husband.

Journalism is a calling, and Leroy served it in a noble fashion. But he also served his readers just as much through his words about his fight with cancer as he did by working at ABC, CBS and Discovery. It is sometimes hard to know if your life has had an impact. You need never worry that Leroy's did.

Sincerely Yours,

Sent by Micheline Maynard | 5:35 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sad. I've been reading this blog almost since the beginning, ever since my oncologist told me about it in 2006. He knew it would be healing for and that it was! Thank you Leroy for all you've done for me and the rest of us in the cancer world.
I send my love and prayers to Laurie and friends and family.
debbie r

Sent by Debbie R | 5:35 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart goes out to Laurie and all the folks on the blog. I've been a member of this family since it first started. It's helped me in so many ways to adjust and adapt to the Cancer World. A place none of us want to be. Leroy was always so open and honest in confronting his disease. A disease which took him from us but never conquered him.

Sent by Chris | 5:42 PM | 8-16-2008

You are in my prayers, Laurie. I know that you are proud of the legacy this great man left. Heaven just got a little better.

Sent by Marilyn Trujillo | 5:43 PM | 8-16-2008

Thanks, Leroy...you have been a gift and you will be missed.

Judy

Sent by Judy R | 5:46 PM | 8-16-2008

I feel lost. I've been coming here almost since the beginning, and Leroy's battle with cancer paralleled my husband, Curt's. We both read the blog, and watched Leroy's television special.

Curt died in April of this year, after a similar cancer "explosion." Still I came here every morning. I came for Leroy's writing, I came to check up on him, and I came hoping he'd beat the beast. I identified with the reluctance to go the hospice route; we went through the same thing. Somehow, you always hope for some of us, hospice doesn't mean that.

Damn it this sucks. I feel for you, Laurie

Sent by Teri | 5:50 PM | 8-16-2008

I take comfort in the fact that Leroy was able to share his journey with us right up to the very end. I hope that when I reach that point in my journey, that I will be as graceful as Leroy appeared to be.

Sent by Ruth | 5:51 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, like everyone else I am so saddened by Leroy's passing. He was a good man taken way too soon; but God must have needed a journalist in heaven. This blog has meant so much to so many people. May you find comfort and peace in knowing that he is no longer suffering or in pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sondra Scott

Sent by Sondra Scott | 5:52 PM | 8-16-2008

The world is a better place because Leroy was with us.

May he rest in peace.

Sent by John | 5:54 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, words can't express the sorrow I feel. I told my husband that my friend died today. I never met Leroy but he was my friend. Everyone in my family dies from cancer. I always say "when I get cancer" not "if".... It's only a matter of time.. When it happens I hope I am as brave as Leroy was.... He will always be in my prayers.....

Sent by Elaine Miller | 5:55 PM | 8-16-2008

".. A boy and his dog." Leroy's last post was comforting. He seemed at peace and happy.

May Leroy's family feel and be comforted by the outpouring of love and prayers.

Such a loss, but what a life! What a man!

Sent by Susan Baker | 5:58 PM | 8-16-2008

Oh No! Oh,how I cry and trenble even as I write this. I thought Leroy would life forever being the strength and inspiration to so many; not just cancer patients,but to all who struggle with anything in Life.
Laurie,we all admire your love,courage and mostly your compassion and tendersness.
I grieve but I am a much better person to have known the both of you through this blog. Take care and live your life more fully,day by day.

Sent by Sam Alessi | 6:02 PM | 8-16-2008

I have read all these wonderful tributes to a most extraordinary man, yet I still cannot believe he is gone from this world.

God holds him in his arms and he is free of pain and suffering...but really? Is he really gone from us? May God hold Laurie and all his friends and family lovingly in His hands and give them (and us) comfort on this great loss to humanity. Godspeed, Leroy! Mornings will never be the same without you. Peace in the Lord. And a little hug to "Spanky" whom I am sure is keeping you company. :-)

Sent by Imani | 6:03 PM | 8-16-2008

In addition to the comment I posted upstream, I've written a tribute to Leroy on my own blog, "A Pastor's Cancer Diary":

http://www.cewilton.blogspot.com

Sent by Carl Wilton | 6:06 PM | 8-16-2008

all i can say is wow-what special people each of u are!! bless u all !

Sent by a sister of a cancer survivor-massachusetts | 6:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry dear Laurie for your loss! Leroy now you are at peace!. Thank you both for sharing your life and thoughts with us.
Peace be with you Laurie.
Marelly

Sent by Marelly Young | 6:10 PM | 8-16-2008

I've rarely commented, but I've read Leroy's blog every day for almost two years. Today I clicked on "My Cancer" in my Google Reader, just as I've done daily for so long and I was shocked -- absolutely shocked -- to read that Leroy had died. I assumed, based on my own journey with my mom's cancer and her death, that he had at least a few weeks left.

I get the feeling that the pain was becoming intolerable, so in that regard I'm glad he went quickly. But I will be in a fog for a few days now because... well, because I miss a man -- a friend -- I never met.

Carol
Seattle, WA

Sent by Carol | 6:10 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I read the blog daily after hearing Leroy on NPR. The daily thoughts, insights have become a part of my life. I am certain that you are exhausted physically and emotionally. It is hard to watch someone suffer with no reprieve. My deepest sympathy to you. We all will miss Leroy's wisdom.

Sent by Claire | 6:12 PM | 8-16-2008

My deepest sympathy, Laurie. I wish I had words to say how much Leroy and you have touched my heart. I pray God will continue to give you strength and comfort.

Sent by Lorrain Cook | 6:14 PM | 8-16-2008

We have all lost a dear friend who has become a big part of our lives. Thanks to God and all who made it possible for us to spend the past year or two with Leroy.

Sent by David Mochel | 6:14 PM | 8-16-2008

I have no idea why I just clicked in here. I never stop in on the weekends.

Dear Leroy,
You left without saying good-bye and that's o.k. I understand. We all understand. Getting to know you over the past months has been an absolute pleasure. Thank you for allowing me to read and post on your blog. Weekday mornings won't be the same without you. See you on the other side.

Dear Laurie,
Words can't express how sad I feel for you. I hope the end came with peace and comfort. Thank you for sharing your part in Leroy's life with all of us. I've learned so much from both of you.

Love,
Sue

Sent by Sue in Rochester, NY | 6:21 PM | 8-16-2008

Hi Laurie -

May the light of your god surround you,
The love of your god enfold you,
The power of your god protect you, and
The presence of your god watch over you.

And Laurie, listen. When alone or with others, listen. Notice when you feel as if someone is trying to get your attention. Someone you don't see, only feel. Leroy's love for you isn't gone. Listen, notice, and lean into it when you feel it. It helps.

Peace
Tally

Sent by Tally | 6:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I join the hundreds of people who send you their heartfelt sympathy. As a cancer survivor, I took great solace in Leroy's writing. He was so able to capture the thoughts and feelings that have been part of my experience and for that, I am grateful.
Thank you and I wish you peace.

Sent by judith | 6:27 PM | 8-16-2008

I hate August. In my family it seems to be the dying month. Now Leroy too has gone in August. I am so sorry. I thought we might have had a couple more weeks with him.
Peace to all here who are battling this despicable disease, and peace to Leroy and his family.

Sent by fay from az | 6:27 PM | 8-16-2008

What a shock and loss to hear of Leroy's death. He spoke for all of us who deal with cancer. He did it so elequently and often, hilariously. I, too, hoped he had more time with us.

He certainly cut a huge swath in his lifetime - leaving an indelible mark on so many lives.

Never met him but nonetheless, missing him greatly already.

Peace be with you and all his family and friends, Laurie.

Sent by Sara in MD | 6:27 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy Sievers is one of my everyday heroes.

I do not recall the first time I heard him speak about his cancer. I may have heard him on NPR in my Mother's kitchen years ago, but I cannot be sure. That was pre-my-own-cancer so if I did hear him then, it is a fuzzy "oh yeah, I think I remember that guy" kind of memory. I do know I watched the Ted Koppel interview because by that time, I was facing my own cancer battle. However, it was not until I joined the world of ipods that I finally tuned into Leroy Sievers.

When I got my ipod, I immediately searched out PBS and NPR podcasts, found and downloaded episodes of "My Cancer", among other favorites. It was then I learned of the daily email, so I subscribed to that too.

Leroy's words made me feel connected, sometimes in a way that blew my mind -- he was voicing my own words. It then occurred to me he was simply voicing the thoughts we all have at some point when we think about, either voluntarily or forcibly because we are dealing with a life threatening illness, our own mortality and life. For me, he was one of my daily validations of our connectedness to one another. Strangers leaving lasting impressions on strangers in ways we might not ever realize. He was a daily reminder that honesty, sincerity and integrity are profoundly simple concepts.

My every day hero, I will miss your words.

Thank you for sharing of yourself and your family. I am grateful you put this blog out here for us all. You voiced for us our humanity, our empathy and our grace. This is part of your legacy.

Mahalo nui loa. Aloha 'oe.

Sent by Claire Schultz | 6:28 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy has died. That great big man with a voice that could curl itself around you like fingers and comfort you is gone. Our blessing is that we felt that comfort. Our pain is for those like Laurie closest to him and for Leroy himself, who had so much more life in him than he was allowed. We put aside our private pains today, and we think about the gift that he was, and the gift that he will continue to be. I for one will always hear the timber in his voice as the soothing promise that we can face whatever comes if we remind ourselves not to be so afraid that it falls short of perfect.
In my last short words to him, I read the lyrics to something Leonard Cohen wrote, something someone sent to me when I discovered my cancer had never left.

Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in.

To the light that was and is Leroy.

Sent by Elizabeth Edwards | 6:29 PM | 8-16-2008

Much love to you, Laurie, and to Leroy, too. Thank you both for sharing your life with us.

Sent by Kristi | 6:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
My heartfelt prayers are with you and your family. I hope you undersand what Leroy meant to all of us who read this blog.
I first saw Leroy on Ted Koppel's special. I am a survivor who lost both of my parents to cancer. I was very scared when I was diagnosed. I found strength and courage to go through my own battle in Leroy's words, as I am sure did so many others. I will miss his wit, his humor and his compassion for others.
I hope you do publish a book. You cannot imagine how many people could be helped by his inspiring words.

God be with you Laurie. Leroy will be truly missed.

Sent by Karen | 6:34 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you.

Sent by Janis | 6:36 PM | 8-16-2008

"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive---
to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love." ~~Marcus Aurelius

Leroy battled the beast that is cancer but his words and daily musings transcended cancer & illness. He taught us to appreciate and savor all the big and little things in life that most of us take forgranted. His intelligence, candor, humility, humanity, sense of humor, love of life and his generosity of spirit were always obvious. Leroy's gift/talent for writing was put to its greatest and most meaningful use in his My Cancer blog. He touched so, so many lives and believe me, there are hundreds of us who never posted but were regular readers of his daily entries as well as the inspiring and honest "comments" from his supporters, fans & friends. Please know that we will all miss Leroy beyond what words can ever express but know also that he will NEVER be forgotten.

Hugs and heartfelt sympathy to Lauri and the rest of Leroy's family and closest friends. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. The pain is gut wrenching but it is truly a testament to the depth of your love for him and his love for you. Yes, celebrate his life but it is okay and even important to grieve deeply, cry and feel the full range of emotions. The journey through grief is uniquely personal & while no amount of words can begin to fill the incredible loss you're experiencing, please know that we will walk with you through the darkness. Love IS forever.

A special thank you to NPR for giving Leroy, Lauri, Ted and all of us a place to be open & honest with and supportive of each other. The power of presence and bearing witness to a fellow human being's trials & tribulations is what truly matters in the end. Leroy's blog and the community that he formed here will be his lasting legacy

Again, from Marcus Aurelius, "That which dies does not drop out of the world. Here it remains and changes and is resolved into the elements, which go to form the universe and yourself."

Peace and love from Nancy in Wisconsin

Sent by Nancy | 6:37 PM | 8-16-2008

I have been reading this blog ever since my husband died in May of 2006. It helped to know that so many others are in this battle and that we are not alone. Leroy gave me someone else to cheer on. I am so deeply saddened by his passing; you have my deepest and most sincere sympathy.

Sent by Harriet Gordon | 6:41 PM | 8-16-2008

I never checked the website on the weekends, but today I felt compelled to do so. My heart skipped a beat with the sad, sad news.

Leroy, yours was a life so worth living. Thank you for sharing so much with all of us. You are a GIANT. You made the world a better place.

Mr. Koppel, I just read your tribute to Leroy. I love the picture of the two of you walking on the canal. Leroy's smile is bright enough to shine right off the page and I can hear his laugh. My condolences to you on losing your wonderful friend.

Laurie, I have walked the path of losing my husband. Please wrap yourself in the warm blanket of love that comes from all of us that have come to love you and Leroy so much. Gentleness to you, my dear. Holding you tightly in my tears and in my heart.

MJR

Sent by MJR | 6:44 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I guess I have been what you call a "lurker" on Leroys blog. I dont have cancer but over a year ago I heard Leroy on NPR talking about his cancer. I then found his blog and have read his postings almost every day. He never even knew I existed and yet he gave me an incredible insight into living by sharing his dying. We never met and yet I am crying as I type this. He was a incredible human being. My heartfelt condolences go out to you and all your family. Thank you for sharing him so intimately with all of us.

Laura

Sent by Laura Aldag | 6:53 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
Leroy will be sorely missed. He was a huge presence in all of our lives at Nightline when we were all youngsters! I can't help smile when I think of the fantastic Halloween parties you guys would put on and the surprise costume Leroy would strut out in (I remember a cow and Janet Reno)....my thoughts are with you at this very sad time.

Sent by Dana | 7:03 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart is with you today Laurie, my husband will feel your pain in just a few short days, this has been my morning light. Today that light went out. I will see him very very soon and will send him a special hug from you all, especially Laurie. From Mary in Montana ( but a better place soon)

Sent by mary fitzpatrick | 7:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I just heard the news on ABC and I found myself saying "Oh no!" out loud to the tv. I often found myself on the weekend looking forward to Monday so I could read your most recent post. I only hope some measure of comfort is found for you, Laurie, in knowing we all share your grief.

Sent by Erin Vaughn | 7:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry for your loss.His words meant so much to me, i started as a hospice nurse last year and he taught me how to listen to my patients and hear their unspoken and spoken words.God bless you all.

Sent by Jean Kennedy | 7:07 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry Laurie. I wish there were words to express what this blog has done for me and what Leroy's words did for me daily. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time. Peace be to you -Leroy - and know that you were loved by many. Thank you both for sharing your courage with so many of us.

Sent by Deb from Michigan | 7:09 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy has brought so much hope and understanding to those of us who have survived and those battling. He has also help those around us understand a little better what we deal with everyday. The world is better place because Leroy walked the earth, how blessed we have been to know him. My deepest sympathy Laurie you have lost the love of your life.

Sent by lyn | 7:09 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

I am so very sorry for your loss. Leroy changed the lives of so many.I am not a cancer survivor, I happened upon the blog just after it started and I feel like I know him. Like a dear friend. I haven't missed a day of his blog. I hope you find peace in the words posted here by all who love both you and Leroy.God bless you both.
You are in my heart and in my prayers,

Daphne

Sent by Daphne Fletcher | 7:11 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy, you could never have known how much you will be missed. But you are still here with us--in our memories. If you are in Heaven today, please find Leon and tell him how much I love and miss him.
Laurie, thank you so much for sharing your big guy with all of us. Know that you did all you could do, and always remember how much Leroy loved you.
Jane

Sent by Jane | 7:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy's blog about his cancer struggle helped me so many times over the last two years while I helped my son through his cancer. I'm so sorry Leory is gone from this earth, he will be missed. God bless you and give you strength...

Sent by Sherry | 7:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Ram Dass says that people die the way they live.....and so Leroy, you leave big, big footprints on this earth. For all the tremendous assignments you had throughout your career, your courage and openness in sharing your cancer journey has touched and inspired the most. God speed fellow traveler.

Sent by Sandi | 7:15 PM | 8-16-2008

What would we do without NPR, both on the air and on the Internet?! Leroy's life & death and thinking about Laurie's grief reminded me of 3 very eloquent essays from the This I Believe archives. Reading them again has helped me with the overwhelming sadness that I've been experiencing ever since I read about Leroy's passing. Perhaps they will comfort others, too.

The Power of Presence by Debbie Hall http://thisibelieve.org/dsp_ShowEssay.php?uid=6647&keywords=power%20of%20presence&lastname=Hall&firstname=Debbie%20&yval=0&start=0

The Hardest Work You Will Ever Do by Mary Cook
http://thisibelieve.org/dsp_ShowEssay.php?uid=616&lastname=cook%20&firstname=mary&yval=0&start=0

Live Your Life So That You Will Have No Regrets by Nancy Yucius
http://thisibelieve.org/dsp_ShowEssay.php?uid=4155&lastname=Yucius%20&firstname=Nancy&yval=0&start=0

Sent by Nancy in Wisconsin | 7:17 PM | 8-16-2008

I am in shock. Laurie, my prayers are with you.

Christine
Cincinnati, Ohio

Sent by Christine | 7:18 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie

I am deeply saddened by your loss and truly pray that you will heal and be at peace with the fond memories that you have. I hope there was no pain and that it was peaceful passing for Leroy.

Maeve, thank you for sharing what I am certain was difficult news.

To all who have participated, shared, read, encouraged, laughed, cried, and prayed this has been an experience that will never be replaced, forgotten, and will be greatly missed.

Cesare Pavese said "We do not remember days... We remember moments."

This is a wonderful community, and I thank each and everyone of you.

Sent by Sue Chap | 7:19 PM | 8-16-2008

I felt like I knew Leroy and that he knew me. I read his blog every day for the last year and a half, since my own colon cancer diagnosis. I felt like he spoke for me, so much more eloquently than I ever could. I will miss him.

Sent by Joanne Bergamini | 7:22 PM | 8-16-2008

When I saw an NPR email in my inbox, my heart sank to my feet. There are never NPR emails on Saturday. It had to be only one thing... God finally called Leroy Sievers home to rest.

To Leroy Sievers,

I know you're still around, Leroy. That energy and intelligence that animated your now broken and still body still lives on. I get the feeling you'll be reading these over someone's shoulder. They won't be able to see you or feel you, but you'll be there getting used to your new existence.

I'll miss you Leroy Sievers. You and your blog came into my life when I needed to understand what my cancer life was all about. With each day's post you helped me find my way better than any counselor that I could find.

A death like yours brings mixed feelings. Relief for you that you aren't in pain any more, but great sorrow at the loss of your soul and spirit's light that came so strongly through your fingers as you wrote the daily posts even in such pain.

When I leave this existence, Leroy Sievers, I hope to actually meet you someday and thank you in person for helping me find my answers.

To Laurie Singer,

I saw the CBS News 5:30 pm CDT show and they mentioned Leroy's death before the end of the show. He seemed to be quite a man of many layers.

All I can say is that I'll be among those that stay until you or NPR decide to close and archive the blog. If you need support, you know we will be here.

Know that you were a major part of Leroy's strength to the very end and he loved you and you loved him. Those facts were so clear each time he mentioned you and the times you wrote.

You are in our prayers. We grieve with thee.

Sincerely,
Bobbie in West Texas

Sent by Bobbie Hollis | 7:24 PM | 8-16-2008

The world will never be the same again with out you Leroy....

Sent by Joan Beth Smith | 7:26 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, May you receive grace for each moment...and strength and comfort. We don't know how you feel, but we want you to know that you are loved. What a community Leroy has nurtured, and what an impact he had on so many lives. You will probably never know the full extent of the influence of this blog, but be assured that we will be holding you in our hearts and thoughts. Thank you for your honesty and being vulnerable, and the way that Leroy has given permission to the rest of us to share our thoughts, struggles, and journeys with each other and our families!

Sent by rj in Hudsonville, MI | 7:27 PM | 8-16-2008

I will miss Leroy so much. I never had the chance to meet him, and still the tears came today. Thank you, Laurie and Leroy for sharing your life with us. I will say a special prayer for peace for you tonight.

Sent by Nancy Kelly | 7:30 PM | 8-16-2008

I only heard Leroy sporadically, but in his words, I found hope and humanity. My husband is a cancer survivor, but when I describe it, I say "we" are cancer survivors. Those who haven't been there don't understand immediately.
I hope that Leroy's blog will be published; there are so many who haven't heard his words; and I, who heard some, would love to have them to read over and over...when the monster comes again.

Sent by Carolyne in Tennessee | 7:31 PM | 8-16-2008

I listen to Wisconsin Public Radio. I remember hearing part of an incredible story about Leroy Sievers and what he was doing. It was amazing to me how he could do this. I meant to look at his blog but, healthy me, never did. I recently was diagnosed with cancer. I heard about his death today on the news and his interview came back. I just reviewed his blog. Leroy is still helping people, like me.

Sent by Diane | 7:31 PM | 8-16-2008

Who can't be touched by such a kind and decent human, and the profound loss we all feel. I know the fear of living with a loved one with a dark side. My wife was my nurse in the VA for 10 months, when I returned injured from Vietnam. She nursed me physically and mentally, back to where I wanted to live again. She's endured 4th stage cancer and a PE. The worst part is, I was laid off and my Cobra has run out. The local VA closed after Katrina, but that would be of no help to her. So, everyday I live in a state of mortal fear. Two college educated people in their 50's and there's no work. Though, she did work for 30 years and probably can't now. I would gladly take any job, if it was offered with a group plan. I once was the GM of a large company, that went belly up after 100 years. We were denied individual insurance by everyone, because of preexisting conditions. I truly feel very sorry for anyone in our spot. Especially, after emptying our 401k after she got sick the last time. I ask everyone who's reading this blog, please remember what I'm writing on election day. In the real world, you could end up in my shoes and really feeling helpless! My wife is the finest person I've ever known, and this world is a better place because of her. My thoughts and prayers are with Leroy Sievers family.

Sent by Sean L. | 7:32 PM | 8-16-2008

I just heard the news on ABC before I read my email today. What can I say, except thank you for sharing your lives with all of us, caregivers and fighters alike.
My prayers are with you and your family.
take care,
Belinda

Sent by Belinda Rankins | 7:32 PM | 8-16-2008

So much courage. I'm so sorry for this profound loss.

Sent by R Craig | 7:34 PM | 8-16-2008

I promised I wasn't going to cry. I've failed.
Laurie, my thoughts are with you.
You were truly blessed to have each other.
It seems I've been following Leroy unintentionally for years, and have followed this blog from the beginning, though never posted.
I was raised in the same area as Leroy. He and his friends hung out on the next beach down from where we hung out. I went to Berkeley a few years after he did.
Became a Nightline junkie and got to know Leroy through his daily emails about the show. Through my work in human rights observation, our paths have crossed more than once. I have an almost identical photo of myself at Petra to the one Leroy shared (only I was on a camel and not a donkey). I was in that square in Bethlehem when the Nightline crew was filming the scene at the Church of the Nativity in 2002.
Everyone already knows this, but I need to say it too. He was a great guy. Rest well, Leroy, and, Laurie, look after yourself.

Sent by Lanie - Newport Beach, California | 7:36 PM | 8-16-2008

I had no internet access yesterday,it's 7 pm and i just found out the news. Leroy whereever you are, you can hear us and feel us as we try to pull you back to us. I'll never forget you. Laurie, please write us when you can
from Sherri in Texas

Sent by Sherri Eggleston | 7:36 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie:

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your husband's openness in facing what most of us shrink from even discussing was inspiring. I loved his sense of humor: he must have been a delight in person.

My thoughts are with you, and others who loved Leroy.

Sent by Ella | 7:38 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy - I will miss you. I will miss the daily email I have been receiving for about a year and a half that I started to get just as I was getting ready for a stem cell transplant to treat my lymphoma. Your words, as well as the words of others I met at the Wellness Community, gave me so much strength right when I needed them. For that I will be forever grateful. Thank you so much for all you did for all of us. I hope that through this tool, this blog, that we helped you just as much. You did a great thing for all of us, for me. It took a bit of courage and stamina at a time when those were in limited supply. I thank you and I will miss you.

For Laurie and your staff who were so present for you - I know this is a hard time and will pray for peace for all of you. I know it's not easy to go on, but please do as I know that's what Leroy would want. Take care...

Sent by Suzanne McDermott | 7:39 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

Leroy's strength was such that even thought I never met him, I feel today like I have lost a good and true friend. My heart aches for him, I will miss him terribly. My loss is great, but Laurie, your loss is so much more, and my deepest sympathy goes out to you. May you somehow find peace, and remember how many friends on this blog hold you in their hearts.

Sadly,
Karen K.

Sent by Karen K. | 7:45 PM | 8-16-2008

Although I used to hear Leroy's NPR commentaries, I was really first introduced to him on the Living With Cancer documentary. I signed up to have his blog posts emailed to me and I haven't gone a day since without looking forward to the next blog post. Leroy has become an important part of my life and I will miss him terribly. Laurie, thank you for sharing this wonderful man with us. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sent by Jana Miller | 7:47 PM | 8-16-2008

I have had cancer and the disease has taken many I have loved. Your ability to share your cancer journey has been a great gift to all of us who have been in "cancerland" either as patient or loved one. I am deeply saddened by Leroy's death and Laurie's loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Patricia Hogan

Sent by Patricia Hogan | 7:47 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart is broken. I came to this blog in November of '06 to learn how I could help a friend that had just been diagnosed with lung cancer. What I learned was that - and oh, so much more. Rest in Peace dear man. My prayers and thoughts are with you, Laurie. A hug to everyone on this sad, sad day.

Sent by Madeline | 7:48 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie-
Leroy passing is a loss for all his readers-friends, but we still cannot imagine your grief. I will pray for you.

Sent by Sherri Beadles | 7:50 PM | 8-16-2008

May his soul rest in peace. Thank you Leroy for inspiring me. My prayers will be with you and your Laurie.

Sent by Pat Corcoran | 7:54 PM | 8-16-2008

Mentally, I lay a black wreath on this beloved blog in memory of Leory Sievers, a most remarkable man. Many thanks to all the beautiful posts today. Laurie, I am so sorry. "Those who live in the Lord never see each other for the last time." (German Proverb)

Sent by N. Holmes | 8:00 PM | 8-16-2008

Like many before me have said, I am so very sorry for the loss of Leroy. His thoughts articulated the journey through cancer as it is for so many others on that same path. Even though we all knew this day would come, his passing surprised me and I find myself in tears. Leroy's spirit will live on within all those he touched - his family, close friends and all of us brought in through his blog. Namaste Leroy.

Sent by Heidi | 8:04 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, my heart goes out to you. I'm a daily reader, but I've never posted. I found Leroy's blog one day a couple of years ago. I was just surfing--looking for something interesting to read. Unlike many of the 'regulars' here I have no family members with cancer and to date, I'm pretty healthy myself. But I kept coming back because I just liked Leroy. His sense of humor, honesty, openness. He sounded like someone I would love conversing with. I felt we had an ongoing one-way chat via the blog. I admire so much that he faced a terrifying beast head-on yet dealt realistically with the inevitable end. I became wrapped up in his story and in the stories of many others in the My Cancer community.
Thank you all of you, thank you Leroy, and Laurie I truly wish you the best.

Sent by Dana Harris | 8:06 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, please accept my deepest sympathy. Although I have never met Leroy, I feel as I have lost "family".
I looked forward every morning to the email in my inbox from Leroy. He has been a part of my life for the last 2 years. As a cancer survivor, and with a sister going through her second round of chemo, I felt like Leroy was my personal spokesman. His daily blogs have meant so much to me.

I hope that he has made arrangements to publish a book of the compilations of the blogs. I think it is important to bring his wisdom, wit, optimism, and love to the rest of the world who have not followed his blog. I feel it would be a very valuable publication! My only regret would be that I would not be able to meet him and get an autographed copy when he made his book tour. The profits from such a book could continue to raise funds for cancer research. Another blow that Leroy's courage could strike against cancer, even after his death....

I sit hear writing to you with tears in my eyes and love in my heart for both you and Leroy. The role loved one and care-giver plays is an incredibly important and difficult role. Your courage and love shows thru all that Leroy did. Bless you for all you did and meant to Leroy!

Sent by Sid Frede | 8:16 PM | 8-16-2008

When I was going through chemo, Leroy was my talisman: if he was OK, I was OK. His emails gave me strength and the courage to carry on.

Thank you Leroy, wherever you are. You were, and are, an inspiration for me. I will never forget you.

Sent by Ron Trunk -- Takoma Park, MD | 8:17 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie you never ever loose those you LOVE. Leroy will always be with you. Thank you both for making my stage IV journey a little easier,the tears won't stop. Peace & Love

Sent by Aliyah | 8:19 PM | 8-16-2008

I checked on a Saturday because I was afraid ... and there it was. Oh, Laurie, my heart aches for you. If our earthly deeds have built us a dwelling over there, what a mansion Leroy is enjoying now - someday we will all give him a hug and tell him how much we appreciated his enormous warmth and great heart that was brave enough to share its fears so that the rest of us could feel uplifted. Love to each and everyone of this "family"; we are joined together in both sorrow and relief, that he is at peace on the other shore, waiting ... Love to all, Carlie

Sent by Carlie Nikolai | 8:20 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am shocked by reading the blog today.. We have all suffered such a loss. He was truly an amazing man and I wish you peace in the days ahead...My deepest sympathies, Prayers and Peace Always...

Sent by Julie | 8:21 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Thank you for sharing the journey that you and Leroy have shared. The journal of your day to day fight has been inspired and intelligent. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

Sent by Dee | 8:23 PM | 8-16-2008

Soy periodista y lucho contra un c??ncer de colon desde 2004. Creo que esto bastar?? para explicar c??mo he sentido la muerte de Leroy. Lo siento de verdad.

Sent by Julio Alonso | 8:23 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I just read the blog. I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy's words were always such a comfort to me. You both are in our prayers. He will not be forgotten.

Sent by barbara j | 8:27 PM | 8-16-2008

I hope you're in heaven driving your Jeep around giving everyone the secret Jeep wave. Beep Beep. Thank you for being our friend. As a recent cancer survivor - currently struggling with how to survive - you remind me to focus on the things that are good and not always to be the patient.
Much love from your cancer sister - amy

Sent by amy in portland | 8:27 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and Leroy - We are all better for knowing you. Thank you for sharing your life with us. We will miss you.
Please know that hundreds of prayers are coming to you.

Sent by jane | 8:29 PM | 8-16-2008

Like so many others, I'm heartbroken and crying. I'm a relative newcomer to the blog, but read it everyday as one of my morning rituals. As a cancer patient, it gave me hope at the same time I wondered to myself if this would be my road eventually as well. I will miss the humor, affection and defiant strength that Leroy shared with us all. I was not ready to let him go and am so taken aback and breathless by how suddenly he is just...gone. Laurie, please know how much Leroy's and your words have meant to those of us traveling Cancer Road. We are profoundly grateful and will never forget. My deepest consolations.

Sent by Chris Gauger | 8:40 PM | 8-16-2008

I weep with you.

Sent by Jan | 8:40 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so so sad, and crying for a man I never met...He was a cancer warrior!
Laurie you will be in my prayers

Sent by Karen | 8:42 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie:
I'm deeply sorry. Leroy taught me by example to notice the good moments in every day. I will miss Leroy very much. Blessings in a sorrowful time, Barb

Sent by Barb | 8:43 PM | 8-16-2008

I just heard about Leroy's transition and was deeply moved. I read his blog as my sister battled breast cancer. I know his sharing helped me and my sister. Blessings and peace to you and your family.

Sent by Karen P | 8:44 PM | 8-16-2008

Just this morning, my four year old sat on my lap while we waited at a car dealership. He quietly said "Mommy, your neck looks old. I'm going to miss you when you die." And then I read about Leroy...

Sent by Susan Pienta -- Flemington, NJ | 8:44 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I knew it was coming, but never thought so soon. This blog has been such a comfort to so many. Leroy's gift of expressing things we all have felt and thought were so true, real and clearly written; it made us all know we were not in this alone. I am saddened but relieved that he won't suffer anymore. Laurie, take care of yourself now and know you did everything right to make Leroy's last days as good as possible. Thank you for sharing him and taking such good care of him. God Bless you, your family and friends.
Kandy

Sent by Kandy Falvey | 8:55 PM | 8-16-2008

My heartfelt condolences to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family.

I never check this blog on the weekend, but after this week's turn of events, I felt compelled to look today. This is an incredible legacy for Leroy to leave us with. What courage, strength and openness he shared with all of us. I know he didn't want to 'say goodbye' but he knew it was time. What a fighter. What a brave man. What a lesson he taught us.

Sent by Kenny | 8:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I miss you already, Leroy. Mornings coffee without your blog to read will never be the same. Rest well.

Sent by Mary | 8:57 PM | 8-16-2008

I am home early from an anual,much anticipated camping trip to the beautiful Adirondack Mtns. I am home early because I had unkind words with my brother and because it put me completely out of sorts. I am home because I know life is short and I did not want to upset the rest of the group with my sadness.....and I am now home and have learned that our beloved Leroy is finally at peace, his spirit flying free and his body now without limits. It feels as if I have lost a family member. Thank you , Leroy for being with me (as you all were) during my Dad's passing last summer. I pray that we can honor your spirit by continuing to talk opening about cancer, and that we lift Laurie up and help shoulder her grief. Thank you friend.

Sent by Karen | 8:57 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, I am sending you my love and my deepest sympathy. I have been reading Leroy's blog since I watched the program about him, but have seldom commented. I have learned so much about this journey through Leroy's writings, and the writings of all the people who shared in the journey. I have a loved one who had colon cancer surgery several years ago. So far he's doing well. Although I hope I do not need the lessons I have learned by following Leroy's journey, they are in my heart and in my mind just in case. Leroy must have been comforted to know how many people he helped and inspired with his writing, and I'm sure, helped and inspired him in return. What more could one ask of a life well lived. I hope you are comforted as well, Laurie, because you have contributed so much. He was too young and I am sad. Thank you for everything. -- Bobbie, Alexandria, VA

Sent by Bobbie | 8:58 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

My deepest condolences. I posted on the blog occasionally, but read it just about every morning. Athough everything, including life on this earth, is ephemeral,short, and often impersonal, there are special people who connect with the collective spirit of the many, while here in this life. You and Leroy have done that, and we all are better for it.

Dave in Colorado

Sent by Dave | 9:07 PM | 8-16-2008

It was inevitable, but now I read these words with shock and sadness. I will miss being inspired, smiling, and marveling at your daily words. Goodbye, big guy.

Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. May you find the strength to bear this great loss.

Sent by durgesh | 9:15 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you Leroy and Laurie,
I have been following this blog ever since my mother was diagnosed with cancer, ~2 years ago. It is the first email that I read in the morning and I will truly miss his words, strengths and finally the struggles. I know the day will come when my mom will also move on and I thank you both for preparing me for that day. Thank you and bless you both.

Sent by Sam Lee | 9:19 PM | 8-16-2008

I never posted here before but read every day. I am stunned and so very sorry.

Sent by Deanna from AL | 9:19 PM | 8-16-2008

Though we knew the day would come soon, it was still a shock...You are Love, Leroy and will be sorely missed...Many loving thoughts are being sent to you, Laurie, and all of Leroy's friends & loved ones...Leroy's body may no longer be with us, but his indomitable spirit is eternal...Until we meet again Leroy...I will miss your blog greatly..Love Always and Always Love,

Sent by sheron - Denver | 9:29 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie and Leroy,

Words cannot express how much this blog meant to me. Thank you.

Sent by Ali | 9:30 PM | 8-16-2008

Our love, thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Laurie. Through Leroy the world has learned so much more about cancer. He was able to put into words what so many of us couldn't. We are all hurting now for we have lost our much loved and respected brother. Leroy would want us to continue to fight this incidious disease with the same dignity, tenacity and humour that he did. We wont let you down Leroy.
With much love
Lyn
Australia

Sent by Lyn Smith | 9:35 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
I have been gone for a few days and out of touch. One of the first things I checked electronically was this blog and somehow I knew what I would find.

I am so, so sorry. Please accept my deepest condolences. Leroy expanded and transformed the cancer conversation by bringing it out of the closet and onto the web. What a tremendous contribution and legacy he has left behind.

Laurie, I was prematurely widowed 2 yrs. ago by cancer. All I can say is that you will never stop missing Leroy but you, too, will somehow find a way to go on. You have to, for him and for yourself. Take the time to mourn. The only way out is to go through it. Do not rush anything. Take good care of yourself but lean on family and friends. Eat, drink and sleep. Be kind to yourself.

All the best. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sent by Marilyn | 9:39 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I just read the blog, and I am so sorry for your loss. I had wished that the blog would never end, but Leroy helped me realize that all good things come to an end.
I know in my heart that I am a better man because of this wonderful blog Thanks to Leroy I feel like I can now begin to heal after the death of my precious wife Marina.
I will forever be grateful to Leroy for exposing and sharing his wonderful life with us all.
Thank you Laurie, thank you for being there for the big guy when he really needed you. Till death do us part almost sounds wonderful, in that you have fulfilled your wedding vows to the TEE, and how honorable that must feel.

May the Lord richly bless, may the Lord bring you peace, May the Lord look down lovingly upon you.

Sent by Donato Salazar Jr. | 9:41 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie-

I'm so sorry that you have lost Leroy. Thank you for sharing your story with so many people. I hope his death was peaceful. I also hope that you don't feel guilty if, in your great grief and sense of loss, you are also relieved that your greatest fears about the last stage of his life were not realized.

Please let me recommend to you a book that continues to help me as I mourn my amazing wife, who died of breast cancer in November, 2006: "Healing After Loss", by Martha Whitmore Hickman. I wish I knew how to send you a copy.

Sent by Ken Norton | 9:46 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you. For sharing. For showing. For reminding us how vulnerable we all are and how we need to live it to the very very end. Each day. Fully.

Sent by Kevin Morrison | 9:50 PM | 8-16-2008

It's a very sad day. Leroy will long be remembered as a very brave and courageous man. Wish I could have known him. God bless you Laurie, you have been his guardian angel.

Sent by Laurie B | 9:50 PM | 8-16-2008

Me again. Leroy's death has brought a wave of memories of my sister's death from lung cancer. I realize that with both of them, I refused to believe they would die, as if giving in to that belief, even if it was belief in the inevitable, would be an act of disloyalty.

The grace that Leroy and Laurie have dispensed to all of us is a rare and beautiful thing in this universe. Treaure it.

Peggy C.

Sent by Peggy Carey | 9:51 PM | 8-16-2008

I am a long time reader but first time writer. My first thing to do every morning is to read Leroy's blog. I have just gone on inhome hospice two weeks ago.I myself, like Leroy have a Jeep to get rid of, which made an even stronger connection with Leroy when he talked about it. I will miss him terribly. God bless him and Laura.

Sent by Leonard VEITH | 9:52 PM | 8-16-2008

He is in a better place.

We-------we are poorer for his passing, but we will never forget him.

Sent by David Larsen | 9:54 PM | 8-16-2008

It's been clear it was coming but I wish it could have not happened.

Laurie, my heart goes out to you.

Sent by Laura | 9:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. Reading and watching Leroy deal with the cancer and its effect on him and his family has been something I will not forget.
Please accept my best wishes for you.

Sent by Buddy Hernandez | 10:08 PM | 8-16-2008

My heart is aching and I can't stop crying. Peace be with you Leory and thank you. I will never forget you.

Laurie - I'm so sorry for your loss. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Susan | 10:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart, until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God."

Leroy - If i get to heaven... I'm sure I'll find you there.

Sent by Tim | 10:15 PM | 8-16-2008

God bless the living....

Leroy is at peace no doubt....

Sent by jd | 10:16 PM | 8-16-2008

Another star enters the heavens of our hearts. Let us remember the light that Leroy and this blog shown on our disease and our ability to rise above it. It is now up to each of us to continue the good that Leroy started.

Laurie, another journey now begins. This one is not easy either. Know that Leroy will always be with you, and do not look back except to remember the good times.

Sent by ldp | 10:16 PM | 8-16-2008

Leroy,
Your gift to us was courage. A correspondent from the trenches until the end, you kept us informed, laughing, talking to each other, sharing fear and grief, fighting for clarity and time. You made a space for so many of us in your life, it's hard to imagine what we will do without your voice. You generous man, you will be missed.
Laurie, our prayers are with you as you live in this changed world.

Sent by Ceese Stickles | 10:22 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, words cannot express my deepest sorrow for your loss. I don't usually check NPR on the weekend, but I was compelled to check today. Leroy will be greatly missed.

Hugs and kisses...

Sent by Faun | 10:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Like so many others, I have read the My cancer blog daily without ever leaving a comment. Today's news was both shocking and unexpected - I was looking forward to the storm passing and a new post from you on Monday.

Thank you Leroy.

Sent by Josh | 10:26 PM | 8-16-2008

May Leroy live on in light eternal. To Laurie and to Leroy's close friends and family, prayers, blessings and wishes for comfort.

Sent by Constance Brown | 10:27 PM | 8-16-2008

To think that I just found this blog via the death notice on a media website, and to think that after reading merely 5 posts, I feel as sad as if I had lost a family member. It truly speaks to Leroy's character, courage, and compassion, even through these difficult times. Laurie, the growl of the storm is simply the preface to the lulling song of the Lord, with whom Leroy now rests, in peace, without pain, while we mourn the loss, yet celebrate the life and accomplishments of his fruitful years. My deepest sympathies.

Mike

Sent by Mike N. | 10:28 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie: I was checking to read yesterdays comments again. (as I do most nights when I can't sleep) I'm so very sorry. I don't know how I will survive this struggle without this blog and comments. I hope Leroy knew how important he was to the cancer world. Thank you all Diana Maloy

Sent by diana from kc | 10:29 PM | 8-16-2008

I am just so sad... I can't stop crying. I feel blessed to have found Leroy's blog way back when. He made me laugh through my tough times. I wish I could have known him "in person" although it sort of feels like I did since I heard from him every day. He was a clearly a force and the sadness I feel for someone I never met, yet was a VIP in my life, shows how powerful his words were. He was heroic in his fight and although it's comforting that he isn't suffering anymore, it doesn't make it easier for anyone to endure the pain of losing him . Laurie is a lucky woman to have shared her life with such a great man. Thankfully, she will have a huge support system including everyone who comes here looking for Leroy. I will miss him. With profound sadness and deep appreciation, kris

Sent by Kris Johnson | 10:31 PM | 8-16-2008

I found this blog when my brother was diagnosed with cancer 1-1/2 or so years ago. He watched Leroy and Ted on the special and called me to say that was what his life was like from day to day. My brother was taken from us in March of this year, at age 52. I felt blessed because I was with him as he took his last breath. Laurie, I want to thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us. I faithfully read every day, even made copies and sent them to my brother who was not strong enough to sit at a computer. He laughed with Leroy, and cried with him too. Please know that Leroy is free from pain, and is now dancing with the angels. Please keep in touch with us, and know that you are never alone...my deepest sympathy and prayers...

Sent by Cathy Oliva | 10:36 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie, family and fellow army members: I am so sorry for your loss, our loss.

Although we knew the time was near, I almost can't believe it's true. It seems so sudden and so unfair.

I was introduced to Leroy via the documentary I happened across while watching TV one evening. I felt compelled to find out more about this man and the blog. I've been a faithful reader every day since. I am very thankful to have found Leroy's blog and am grateful to Leroy (and Laurie) for each post. Leroy was an amazing human being; truly a Godsend to so many.
I will forever be a proud member of Leroy's Army!

Laurie, if there's anything we can do, just tell us. You will be in my thoughts often.

I offer my deepest respect and condolences to you today and always.

Sent with love...
Rhonda H

Sent by Rhonda Howard | 10:37 PM | 8-16-2008

I'm so sorry Laurie. I watched Leroy's posts as my husband was fighting brain cancer. My husband died on August 3rd...it is so difficult. I feel for you and all the other women that have lost their spouse too early. I wish you the best. I would hug you if I were near...I know what you are feeling too well. Take care. Barb

Sent by Barb Bieschke | 10:38 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
You must know how much your words have helped me. I did not expect to need to hear your words or Leroy's. I did not know I would learn to care for you both. My brother-in-law died of non-hodgkins in January 08 (fought it for 10 years. My husband is experiencing congestive heart failure and wasting. Leroy's honesty and guts came through so many times. As a caregiver who is finding strength one day, one minute some days, I am so thankful to you. This journey and it is a big journey has so many gifts I didn't expect. My life will never be the same because of my journey with my husband. My thanks seems inadequate, but, please KNOW that you AND Leroy have helped me and M. face our fear, the lonely pain, and the love. We know
we are not alone. Even today, while reading the expressions of thanksgiving and sorrow over Leroy's death, I could picture Leroy looking over my shoulder as I wrote. Laurie, enough about us, take care of you, rest, and let the love come to you. I will miss Leroy and I am so sorry for the loss in your life. Blessings, peace and love. Diane

Sent by Diane | 10:43 PM | 8-16-2008

I found this site 18 months ago after my diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. I so needed to read about Leroy, his Laurie and all the other special contributors to this site. It gave me strength and knowledge. It helped me to feel like I was not alone. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. My heart feels like it has a hole in it that will never be filled. The world is a different place than it was yesterday. I know Leroy is in a painfree place but I grief for myself and the others left behind to fight the beast. Leroy, I picture you on a sunny wram beach, drink in hand and encouraging all of us to keep going. You will be missed.

Sent by Linda from WI | 10:43 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,

Where are all these people coming from??? A while back I said to Leroy that there had to be hundreds, thousands of people he touched but never heard back from. Well, here it is. What an incredible legacy. Hold tight to that.

Hugs and prayers.

Sent by Kathy Barney from Michigan | 10:44 PM | 8-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Thank you for sharing your husband and your life with us. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in the days and years to come. I will make a luminary bag in memory of Leroy at my relay event next weekend. I am sending you much love and strength to get through the upcoming days, weeks and years without him.

Sent by Kim Schmidt | 11:02 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie - I am so, so sorry. Peace be with you.
-Pam

Sent by Pam | 11:02 PM | 8-16-2008

Thank you, Leroy, for saying all of the things my father, a construction worker who died of colon cancer 28 years ago(at 53, no less),couldn't. I will miss your writing. Laurie, you are in my prayers. I wish I could do more.

Sent by Sandy Hale | 11:03 PM | 8-16-2008

What an amazing man Leroy was, and Laurie, what an amazing woman you are for opening your life to us through such a difficult time. Thank you, thank you so much. Deepest condolences and prayers.

Sent by Jen | 11:04 PM | 8-16-2008

What a testamony--500+ e-mails. You all touched so many lives. When this all started I printed his messages for my husband who had terminal prostate cancer. They really helped him. It was a different type of cancer but still relating to some one else that was going through it helped him. Now they are both in a better place and I hope they will meet. In the mean time Laurie, you have my deepest sympathy. I can only suggest that you get plenty of rest and let people help you. Let your family and friends carry you for awhile. God bless you and thank you for sharing your journey with us. Love, Linda

Sent by Linda Graffius | 11:04 PM | 8-16-2008

laurie, thank you for sharing such a man. we were blessed to have him in our live and hearts. my best to you and my prayers.
XOXOX jody salem

Sent by jody Salem | 11:07 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie,
My heart is broken. I am so sorry for your loss. His blog was a wonderful source of strength for me. He was an amazing man. What impressed me the most was his ability to find reason to be thankful, even near the end of his life on earth. I know he was thankful for you.
Eileen P
Stage 3B

Sent by Eileen Peacock | 11:09 PM | 8-16-2008

I keep deleting what I am writing because nothing comes out right. For once, my Irish stage IV melanoma self is left speechless...
Laurie, my heart goes out to you in your grief and pain tonight. We all loved Leroy so very, very much.

Sent by NancyGM | 11:12 PM | 8-16-2008

Dearest Laurie,
I am so saddened to learn of the death of your beloved Leroy. I feel a bit intrusive feeling such sorrow for a man I have never met or spoken to, but I think that speaks to Leroy's gift of generosity, honesty, and willingness to share his life with all of us, while living with the cancer. He gave so much of himself to all of us and I'm not sure how I'm going to start the day without him. I send you my deepest condolences. Rest in Peace Leroy.
Anne Marie Sweeney

Sent by Anne Marie Sweeney | 11:15 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so incredibly saddened to hear of Leroy's passing. His blog has had an incredible impact on me and I read it daily without fail. My deepest condolences.

Sent by Jennifer Seuring | 11:16 PM | 8-16-2008

I first heard Leroy on NPR a couple of years ago, and have been checking his blog ever since. Sometimes the news was good, and I thought he was going to win the battle. In the past few weeks, it has been heartbreaking to read Leroy's sadness about losing his sense of normalcy--switching to a hospital bed, selling his jeep, deciding to allow hospice into his home.

I never checked the blog on weekends, since Leroy only blogged on weekdays. But I checked it today. I just had a feeling that he may have left us.

I almost feel a little foolish, mourning as I am for a man I never met. But he really touched me, that first time I heard him on the radio. This was a man who loved his life, and who lived it well. I just wish he had 30 more years of it.

My condolences to Laurie, the rest of his family, and to all the loyal readers of this blog who became Leroy's friends.

Sent by Alison Jones | 11:24 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so sorry. I read Leroy's comments every day and always felt recognition with what he was feeling and going through. His courage, humor and generosity give us all an example of how to live. Thank you Leroy and Laurie.

Sent by Lynn Giudici | 11:24 PM | 8-16-2008

I am saddened at the news of Leroy's passing; my thoughts and prayers are with Laurie and all the friends and family of Leroy.
I'd like to think Leroy is up in heaven with a smile on his face- waiting for us all. Kimberly

Sent by Kimberly | 11:25 PM | 8-16-2008

I never met Leroy. I never spoke to him. I never exchanged an email with him.

I will miss him.

Sent by Wyn Jones | 11:25 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I started listening to and reading the blog when I was diagnosed with cancer in the summer of 2006. He has been an inspiration to me. I actually cried tonight for a person I've never met but have grown to love. Thank you for sharing Leroy.

Sent by Larry Brown | 11:27 PM | 8-16-2008

as a brain tumor survivor on Chemo I have drawn strength from Leroy's blog. Laurie you are in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for taking care of Leroy.

Sent by Marlene Smith | 11:29 PM | 8-16-2008

I miss you already. Godspeed big guy.

Sent by Gene Koeneman | 11:33 PM | 8-16-2008

I read every day. So much that I read gave me insite into what my family member with cancer endured. thank you Laurie for helping to make this possible. I will miss him.

Sent by laura | 11:38 PM | 8-16-2008

I am so very grateful to Leroy for sharing his journey, and know I am the better for his generosity.

You, Laurie, have so eloquently shared your love, loss, pain - you are very brave. Now as you go on I will hold you in my heart. Oh, Laurie - I'm so sorry.

Sent by Eve | 11:39 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I'm so sorry.

The first thing I did each morning after turning on my pc was to check Leroy's blog. Though I never met him, I admired his courage and honesty in dealing with a disease that touches almost everyone's life in some way.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. How fortunate Leroy was to have you - and you, him.

Sent by Kathy Groh Canby | 11:51 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. Leroy will be missed. I like many others cried for a man I never met. He touched the lives of so many and we feel truly blessed that he created this cancer blog "community". We related to his and your experiences and realized we were not alone. God Bless you!

Sent by Dana Dalton | 11:56 PM | 8-16-2008

I read the blog every day, after I was a little late to work one day and first heard Leroy's My Cancer broadcast. I never posted a comment; I kind of felt there was nothing I could add, I guess. I was preparing for a stem cell transplant for multiple myeloma at the time and didn't feel like a survivor or even particularly threatened. Leroy just awed me. His words and spirit have sustained me these many months. The world is richer for his having been here and poorer now because he is gone. I am thankful for him and send my sympathy to all who knew and loved him.

Sent by Mary Young | 11:59 PM | 8-16-2008

Laurie:

My thoughts and prayers are with you. For us living with "the Beast" Leroy gave such hope and strength. My his giving spirit and the love of your friends, including we online ones, bring you strength in this time.

BEN

Sent by Ben Timmons | 12:06 AM | 8-17-2008

Too young, too soon. You were so brave.
My deepest sympathies to Leroy's friends loved ones.

Sent by Smason | 12:07 AM | 8-17-2008

To Leroy's family: One thing I have wondered over the years is how doctors respond when asked: how long do I have? Our son died in August of 2003 of cancer. He was 22. He lived for 8 months after his diagnosis. When the end was near (we didn't know how near), he asked the doctors: how long do I have? They responded, with some hesitancy, probably 4-6 weeks. He lasted 5 days, like Leroy, who, it seems, was expecting a little more time (is that true, Leroy)? And I have wondered, was that a gift in disguise? Did my boy go to sleep, thinking he would wake up again to see us once more? If that is the case, perhaps he wasn't as frightened as he might have been....going to sleep thinking he had another day, or week, or month. I can only pray that was the case....that he wasn't frightened...that he thought his time was not yet over, and he was merely closing his eyes to sleep for the moment.

I have followed you, Leroy, since your diagnosis. I haven't written. But I have been with you and your family. My heart is with you all. To Leroy's family: we have all lost a gem in Leroy.

Sent by Caryl Cox | 12:09 AM | 8-17-2008

oh sweetie. my husband & i raise a glass to you both. to leroy's life. to you and your enormous strength. to the remarkable people who comment here. to finding a cure so the future might be spared this particular load of cr@p. we are almost impossibly sad.

with tears in my eyes. please don't be a stranger.

Sent by mary | 12:10 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie, friends, and family of Leroy,
Such a deep deep ache, but I know he's sailing out to the far horizon, embracing a wonderous adventure - what a blessing he's given by sharing hopes, fears and his great big heart. We're here such a short time - may we fellow adventurers be inspired by Leroy's openness to benefit others along the way!
In gratitude - Laurie, we hold you in heart and prayers,

Sent by Susan, from Colorado | 12:12 AM | 8-17-2008

One of Leroy's closest friends and fellow journalists once told me that if it came to it, he would follow Leroy into hell. I doubt he's down there. Hell's loss.

Sent by Nihar Patel | 12:17 AM | 8-17-2008

Hey, Leroy, I told you there were lurkers who waited to read your words and never posted. Until today.e Your family is much bigger than you ever imagined.

Love to you, Laurie.

Sent by Elizabeth Edwards | 12:18 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

I am so very sorry for your loss. Leroy will be missed by so many. He was an inspiration to me and I shall never forget him. Love to you.
Pat D.

Sent by Pat | 12:24 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

I'm sorry for your devastating loss. In August 2007, when Leroy was already deep into his diagnosis and treatments, and I was a regular listener of NPR and reader of the blog, my Mom, Polly Singer, at the age of 62, just three months into a well-deserved and much-enjoyed retirement, was diagnosed with lung cancer that had metastasized to her brain. I put as many of Leroy's podcasts as would fit on a CD, which she took and listened to during her eight-hour chemotherapies. Her "official" review was "I like his voice".

Six chemotherapies and many radiations later, her tests in December showed the cancer was no longer active. We believed we had left cancer behind in 2007, and 2008 was going to be Mom's year of recovery. However, February 20 she was rushed to the hospital, delirious and unable to walk. She had a spinal tap and a couple of days later came the devastating diagnosis -- cancer cells in her brain fluid and spinal fluid. Nearly nobody survives it. The doctors immediately discharged her and recommended we start hospice care.

When the sedatives wore off from the ambulance ride home, Mom said she knew what it meant that "they" were here (hospice workers), but she wasn't ready to go. She was going to fight it. She was going to walk again. She was going to be a medical miracle. But it wasn't meant to be. The cancer took over and Mom passed away April 2, 2008. She just missed her 63rd birthday on April 15.

Sometimes it's difficult for me that she never gave up. I think maybe if she had given in and given up it would have been easier to let her go. But then I realize if she had, she wouldn't have been the amazing, strong, faithful woman I knew who believed in herself and everyone else. Similar characteristics came across in Leroy's writing. I hope you find comfort in all the ways you have access to Leroy's recorded life, as I bet you, too, "like his voice."

Thanks to you both for continuing to share your journey, especially in the most difficult times. It would be understandable if at any point you had cut us off and decided to travel this road in private. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May you find some peace in the agonizing journey of grieving ahead of you, and gain strength from the large community created by living the fight so publicly.

Best Wishes

Sent by Sharon Singer | 12:36 AM | 8-17-2008

I share with Leroy the conviction that sharing this experience makes us all stronger. Many people are struck dumb when facing another's disease--uncomfortable, frightened, uncertain. Leroy helped thousands understand that we need to share and bring the light of day to this dreadful disease. With thanks and wishes for peace to Laurie and all of Leroy's loved ones.

Sent by Cathy Sigmon | 12:44 AM | 8-17-2008

It's Saturday night here in Northern California and I just got home from my job as an ER nurse. My heart, compassion and best wishes go out to you Laurie and your family . . . and others. I have not posted here before but followed from afar, listening, hoping, enjoying. Thank you Laurie for sharing and teaching us so much, for Leroy being such a great human being, for being a man's man in the best and most truest sense, for remaining a journalist and human being every second of every day of a great life. Well lived, he will not be forgotten and very missed. I wish there was more we could do. Aloha Leroy, safe journey.

Sent by David McCullough | 1:03 AM | 8-17-2008

I felt that pit of sadness you get when you hear sad news when I read that Leroy passed away. My thoughts and prayers are with his friends and family.

Sent by Sarah | 1:14 AM | 8-17-2008

This is just so sad. Tears can only express the truth that my heart acres from my own grief and for yours Laurie. I came to love this big guy, you and all who inhabited Cancer World. It's unbelievable Leroy could capture my heart so...The words I've written in the past seem hollow now. I will miss this sweet, sweet man so much and his nearly daily presence in my life along with everyone else. I am at a loss for words. It has been a tough week. I lost a good buddy, tragically Monday night, when my friend Jane Chalef accidently fell from a 2nd story balcony inside her house in the dark. She landed on her head and died a short while after. She was 62 years old. So I had hoped to look to Leroy and your strength, Laurie, to ease my pain. But like Leroy sais' these things just happen in life. Life is so precious. Cancer is just what happened to him. He got to have your 'life-giving' Laurie and for that I'm sure he will be eternally grateful. And we will always be Leroy's Army. The "Beast" never wins because the love we have developed for Leroy, you and each other will never die but live on in our hearts forever. With Love Graham from Sag Harbor.

Sent by Graham G. Hawks | 1:17 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie my prayers are with you. May you Rest In Peace Leroy. It's been a hard fought journey. His blog was full of trials and tribulations. God Bless Laurie my prayers are with you.

Sent by Jose | 1:30 AM | 8-17-2008

My thoughts and wishes to Leroy family.

Sent by Sri | 1:31 AM | 8-17-2008

We will miss Leroy. I loved his frank insights, his fearless (and fearful) questions, and his wry, wry wit.

Laurie, so sorry for your loss. I hope you feel "held" by the community's presence during this time.

Sent by Jen | 1:42 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie: I am so so sorry. Although you must have been preparing for this I can imagine that is still so very hard.
And to my Imaginary Virtual Friend: Thank you for a life well lived. You gave me so much... and I will be forever grateful. May you rest in peace and drink Mai Tais.
with love and a deep heart
francesca in zurich Switzerland

Sent by Francesca | 1:43 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy touched so many more lives than you can imagine. I first 'met' Leroy through the Discovery Channel and Ted Koppel. I watched it with my Mom. She loved anything that might 'educate' her on what was yet to come. We lost Mom on June 19th, 2007 to Liver Mets that had originated as Ocular Melanoma.

I continued to follow Leroy's journey most days, though I only commented once. Tonight I am sad. Sad for you, Laurie, and the rest of the family. Sad for Leroy's friends, coworkers, colleagues. And for us.

This beast has claimed yet another brave warrior. You fought a good battle, Leroy. You will be missed...

Hugs and LOVE.......

Sent by Cheryl E | 1:46 AM | 8-17-2008

Like many of the people writing today, Leroy's messages have been part of my day for more than two years... soon after the beginning of the My Cancer blog. I've never posted, partly because of some shyness, and partly because I don't have cancer... (although like so many people have been touched by it through my family and friends.) Today though I want to write because I feel such sense of loss, and because I think adding another voice to the swelling number of messages is one small tribute I can offer to Leroy.

Laurie, you and he have given a wonderful gift with the blog. It's been my privilege
to hear your voices every day. I live in Tokyo, so I read the blog every evening, and like so many others came to feel you were my friends. I was pulling for you through all the ups and downs I knew about.

NPR is my homepage, and I saw the news by chance soon after it was posted. Actually I couldn't believe it. I sensed from your posting on Friday that something had changed, but I still expected (like so many others I think) that we'd hear from Leroy again on Monday. His Thursday blog was as clear as always.

Blessings to you ... there is a whole world of support out here behind you.

Sent by Kathy in Tokyo | 1:58 AM | 8-17-2008

What a void has been left with Leroy's passing. I feel such a profound sadness and the tears just keep falling. I know Leroy is already covering a big story in Heaven as only he can do it.

To Laurie: we hold you dear in our hearts and Leroy's army thanks you for taking such wonderful care of our friend.

To Leroy: enjoy your new, cancer-free life, dear one.

Sent by Bonnie | 2:00 AM | 8-17-2008

My deepest condolences to Leroy's loved ones.

For every one voice here, there are ten or a hundred or more who he touched who will never speak up. You will never fully understand the incredibly positive effect he has had on so many people.

Sent by Nancy | 2:04 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry. Your miss will be great.

Thanks to both you and Leroy for sharing your journey with us. I am sorry it is one that you had to make. A journey that I recently made.

Sent by dorothy in oregon | 2:04 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

Leroy was so blessed to have you. I hope it comforts you to know that you did everything humanly possible for him.

He will live on in all our hearts.

Fondly, Linda Mc

Sent by Linda | 2:05 AM | 8-17-2008

bah! hes just getting ahead thats all. we all meet together again
but in the meantime we will miss ye

Sent by ac | 2:16 AM | 8-17-2008

My deepest condolences to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family. I want to let you know how much we appreciated Leroy's sharing his stories about his cancer. Several of my friends developed cancer over the past couple of years, and blogs such as Leroy's helped them realize they weren't alone.

Sent by Charles Bingham | 2:26 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
I cannot let go of him. A candle is burning in my window to give him light. Please do not stop this community, we need eachother.

Sent by elizabeth | 2:30 AM | 8-17-2008

You will never know how much you helped me. I have been following the blog for over 18 months, I think. When I was diagnosed, my partner could not be supportive. Your saga and the stories that others wrote have sustained me, given me the strength and the examples to believe that most people are supportive and caring.
My love and appreciation goes out to all of you. I am saddened that Leroy has lost his battle with cancer, but in a real way his struggle has helped many to be able to fight, teaching by example, and giving me and many others the strength to fight one more day.

The world is less because of his passing; it has been made a better place because he was here. And Laurie has lost so much, given so much, loved so much that she has also made the world a better place.
Thank you and love to you, Laurie.
Monday without a note from one of you will be more difficult for me, but, I know I will continue to fight because of the gift from Leroy, Laurie and all of you.
Again, love and thanks

Sent by Ann | 2:31 AM | 8-17-2008

Why should I be so stunned? This road we are on has only one destination. I held my friend's hand on Fri past as liver cancer took him. That was real. My experience with Leroy has been so unique, so personal deep down inside of me that this feels very surreal. It will take time for me to sort this out.....not that he has died, but that he is not here anymore. I don't even know what I believe about an afterlife anymore, but I firmly believe that good people will somehow, somewhere be rewarded. Leroy was the best of men.

Sent by James Wallman | 2:41 AM | 8-17-2008

No, no, no, I don't want this news to be real. A bright light has gone out.

Sent by Jocelyn | 3:18 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy - January 10, 2008 journal entry -
"When it does (the cancer taking his life), I hope that someone looks at my cancer and says, "Well, maybe you won, but he sure beat the crap out of you before he went down."

Leroy 1 - cancer 0

You are MISSED!!!! Thank you for letting the world into your life Angel Leroy.

Sent by Derrick Rasaad Henderson's (5/8/76-9/9/05) Sister | 3:25 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you Leroy, Laurie and NPR for sharing this journey with us. You have changed my life for the better.

Sent by Michele in CA | 3:32 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

Firstly, let me express my heart-felt condolences. Words can feel so empty compared to what my soul feels for you at this moment. Even though your support group surrounds you, this is a very lonely time. I know how difficult this is. This is something I know first hand. You are in my thoughts.

Leroy helped me through the most difficult part of my life...dealing with the passing of a significant other. Melody passed away October 20, 2006. Melody's family was non-existent during her illness but they were very existent when it came to taking all her stuff away from me. Since her will was in her computer and not legally binding, they gave me nothing to remember her by, and had no contact with me. One of her sisters did, however, leave me a voice message two days after her passing saying that she would see me behind bars if I did anything to her bank accounts. I was an emotional wreck. I would go to work in the morning, come home, cook dinner in a lonely apartment, open a bottle of wine, and play XBOX till midnight. Wake up the next morning and do it again.
And even though I had a strong support group (friends and family), I was still very alone in my grieving. It was 2 months after Melody died that I stumbled across Leroy' blog in a very inebriated state of mind and in a very angry time in my life.

If you've read any of my posts to the blog, I've always said that going through this with Leroy via this medium, was great for me because of how it helped me. You see, I was never able to deal with my true emotions while Melody was alive. I always had to be the rock! If I broke down, she'd break down. So I did some of my breakdowns with my friends and in the car driving, but never really dealt with them. I would read what Leroy was feeling and writing, and remembering when Melody was in whatever stage Leroy was in, and remembered what I was feeling at that time, and then I dealt with those feelings and emotions. Leroy helped me heal. I am now whole again and my healing is now complete.

So, to "pay it forward", I would like to share something with you that might help.

I am a musician, soundman, and a studio engineer. Melody died at 5pm. I was holding her hand when she passed, she knew I was there and her last words to me were "I love you". I was at work, running sound for a rock bar and their bands by 8pm. I had been working there for quite sometime and the regulars and management knew of my plight with Melody. They also knew when I walked in that it was going to be a rough night for me.

The general manager, Tom, motioned me into his office and closed the door and hugged me for what seemed to be forever. He is not a very emotional chap but his brother died of cancer so he understood. He then told me that there was no way Melody would have survived as long as she did if wasn't for me. I was there to do everything, and her quality of life was as good as she could have with me as a "life giver".

Then he said something that would normally seem cold...but it wasn't. He said, "Michael...it's now over. You will soon have your life back that you selflessly gave to Melody." And even though, at that time, I didn't want my life back...I wanted Melody back, he was right.

So Laurie, it's over. The road ahead is difficult, but there is light and laughter at the end. You know Leroy loved you. You know he appreciated everything you did and all the sacrifices you made. He will remain in your soul forever AND YOU ARE WITH HIM, wherever he is.

Here's another little story that came from Melody. About 8 months after her diagnosis, Christmas 2005, we were sitting in the living room one night, drinking tea and talking about our deepest thoughts as we did often, when I told her that if she passed, I would miss her greatly. She looked at me "matter of factly" and said, "Well I'm not going to miss you". This puzzled me, but then she said, "You and I have shared so much life together that you are a permanent part of me! I have that part of you in my soul. When I die, I take my soul with me, therefore I will never be without you and I will never miss you. In the same manner, I am a part of you. You have my love for you inside your soul. I have given it to you and you have taken it. No one can take it from you, so when I die, I will always be with you."

Rest assured, he is with you. He is a part of you. And when you leave this earth, you will still have him with you.

If there is ANYTHING I can do, please feel free to email me.

Send positive thoughts your way...

Michael

Sent by Michael (Caregiver Survivor) Chicago | 3:51 AM | 8-17-2008

I feel terrible. In spite of his illness he kept on reporting, kept on helping. He touched so many, yet I feel terrible I could not give the same back to him. With each passing day he beat his diagnosis, again and again, as if he'd go on forever. Leroy, you did a wonderful thing, whether you know it or not. You and yours will be with me always.

Sent by Sarah M. | 3:56 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy, you will be greatly missed. Your courage, honesty, faith, and wonderful sense of humor have helped so many of us in Cancer World. You and Laurie are in my thoughts and prayers. Heaven will be a bit more irreverent and funny with Leroy there.

Sent by Holli | 4:22 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry. It is strange to feel such grief for someone I never met, but Leroy has obviously affected so many so deeply. Thank you for the gift of the blog and letting us be part of this last, sad journey.

Sent by Jeanmarie | 5:07 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy and Laurie,
Thanks so much for sharing this very private journey with us. You have both touched so many souls. I'm grieving now, for my loss--a friend I never met, and for Laurie's loss, more painful, I'm sure, than I can imagine. Prayers are being said for both of you and your family.

Sent by Carol | 6:16 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sent by Lori West | 6:30 AM | 8-17-2008

In my case, neither I - nor any family members or friends - have cancer or have ever battled cancer in the past. Yet, I enjoyed Leroy's blog immensely. The blog entries were beautifully written. I religously read them every day. I have never commented before, but I felt obligated to let Leroy's colleagues and, especially, his wife, Laurie, know that they were in my thoughts and prayers. Leroy, you will be missed.

Sent by Laura Rupp | 6:41 AM | 8-17-2008

i'm from another country, i found this blog in march this year when i learned that my father had canceer, he died in may, like leroy said life will never be the same, i'm still making sense of the things and changes and profound sadness and loss cancer forced on us, i admire leroy for his courage, my condolences to his family

Sent by sally27 | 6:52 AM | 8-17-2008

Ever since Leroy was on the TV show I have read his bog daily. When my husband died last week I became too preoccupied to check it.,..until this morning when I read that Leroy too had died. My sadness has intensified. I feel I've lost another dear friend and cancer fighter. My heart goes out to you Laurie, and to your friends and family. We've all lost an elequent voice for everyone fighting cancer. He will never be forgotten. My thoughts and heart are with you.

Sent by Pat Syvertsen | 6:58 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you to the person or person who kept posting these through the day yesterday. You are all part of this team of angels.

Sent by sarah | 7:47 AM | 8-17-2008

The tears of sadness and loss are for those of us who feel an emptiness knowing that LeRoy is not physically present on this earth. For him, we feel a joy that his spirit is soaring higher than ever before. Be at peace, dear man, who had,and will continue to have, such an impact on so many. Laurie, I hope you can feel the love and strength we are all sending you today and in the days to come. You have eloquently shared your heart with us...
Terry Gremel

Sent by Terry Gremel | 7:49 AM | 8-17-2008

This is so sad. I was touched daily by the blog and really felt a connection, a community. Prayers for Leroy, his friends and family left behind.

Sent by Karine | 7:52 AM | 8-17-2008

Everyone in the cancer community shares in the grief. Best wishes to Laurie and all of Leroy's family and friends.

Sent by robin from nj | 7:55 AM | 8-17-2008

Michael, (caregiver from Chicago)
That was beautiful...Melody was lucky to have you in her life. I know, I am dealing with similar issues.
Those people can never take away our memories and the love we shared. The other stuff is just that, stuff.

Laurie,
You and Leroy are so loved by so many here and you both touched so many lives. His life will live on in our hearts..
Here, you will never be alone, you can let the tears fall, we will always be with you. Again, I am so sorry.

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 7:58 AM | 8-17-2008

Place your fearful mind in the cradle of loving kindness - pema chodron

Sent by Julie Silver | 8:02 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you, Laurie, for sharing Leroy with us. His insight and honesty will be a light that will continue to lead all of us cruelly touched by cancer. We've all died a little today. May God grant you peace in the face of this final enemy. From friends in Japan.

Sent by Kevin & Yoko Blackburn | 8:28 AM | 8-17-2008

There is an Eskimo legend, I first read it when my mother died (1999) and thought about it again when my father died (April 2008).

"Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pour through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy."

I firmly believe after our mortal journey has ended, there is a better place waiting, peaceful, painfree, sunshine and an occasional soft rain shower.

In March 2009. I'll be back on Maui, I will raise my Mai Tai toward the ocean, and toast Leroy, Laurie, and all the many many members of the LA.

I do hope there will be published tome of this phenomenal text on living life and overcoming what we now as the "beast." The dedication of course to Leroy, Laurie.

Peace, restful peace.

Sent by Sue Chap | 8:50 AM | 8-17-2008

My deepest condolences to you Laurie and all who post and read here. Leroy and all of you have been an inspiration to me. You are my support group. I am stronger for having "met" all of you.

Rest in peace, Leroy

Sent by Mary Cannon | 8:55 AM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie and Leroy's blog family..I am so sorry for you loss. I wanted to share this pray I found in a book I read. I think it is well suited for the occasion and I believe Leroy would approve of the sentiment. It goes like this:
God, I ask only this. Grant me
gratitude for my fleeting gift.
Grief without bitterness,
sorrow without anger
the imagination to be happy again
the desire, the courage to go on.

Peace to you all
Terry

Sent by Terry Keegan | 9:03 AM | 8-17-2008

Something told me to check here today, even though it was the weekend. I have just lost a valuable companion in my fight against Cancer. I will miss him so. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Sent by Ian Gardiner-Smith | 9:06 AM | 8-17-2008

I write from Manila, halfway across the world, and news of Leroy's passing reverberates even here. He travelled the world, and brave, adventurous soul, took us through even its darkest spaces. Leroy --Thank You. He finally rests in our hearts.

Sent by Jean | 9:12 AM | 8-17-2008

For Leroy's devoted Laurie--I hope you can try to be strong now, like a river:
RIVERS
Rivers hardly ever run in a straight line
Rivers are willing to take 10,000 meanders
And deal with every one
And grow from every one
When they leave a meander
They are always more than when they entered it
When rivers meet an obstacle
They do not try to run over it
They merely go around
But they always get to the other side
Rivers accept things as they are
Conform to the shape they find the world in
Yet nothing changes things more than rivers
Rivers move even mountains into the sea
Rivers hardly ever are in a hurry
Yet, is there anything more likely to reach the point it set out for than a river? Blessings to you, Laurie, during this difficult time. You were and are a river to Leroy!

Sent by TC in RI | 9:14 AM | 8-17-2008

Oh, Leroy, the time has come. I'm pleased to hear it sounds like you died peacefully. Your posts gave voice to so many of us in the cancer world. My sister died in February and it was a comfort and an inspiration, like so many have said, to come here each day and know that we weren't alone.

We all knew it was getting close, that death was coming for you. Yet you showed us such courage and transparency in your life with cancer, I can't say thank you enough.

I will miss you.

Laurie, is it your turn to pick up where Leroy left off in this process? The grieving is something we could talk about. After my sister died, people forgot about it so quickly (or forgot to ask). You could help us bear witness to the process of saying goodbye and honoring the life of our loved ones.

Godspeed, Leroy.

Sent by LindaK | 9:16 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Leroy..a letter to heaven,
You made a difference in my life.
I have walked with you for over a year and half. Sometimes I smiled with you, sometimes I hurt with you. Always I prayed for you.
I can't think if a greater gift to leave behind - That people were helped, strengthened and comforted because you lived.
Love, Cathy
Dear Laurie, o
Our love and prayers are with you.
If we could, we would all be with you now to give you hugs and to stand with you in your time of grief. Please know that we are with you in spirit.
Leroy, was a good man.

Sent by Cathy | 9:22 AM | 8-17-2008

Outstanding. To me he stood out because he went to Rwanda and didn't immediately turn his back to fly back home. He stood out because he gave water to those suffering people. It wasn't about the water, it was about him looking into the eyes of those people and not turning his head to look away. He acknowledged their existence, their lives and showed them that he cared. He stood out because he spoke for those who didn't have a voice. It's incredible how someone can touch the lives of so many people he's never met. His writing about genocide in Africa is what makes me feel connected to him. He saw it. That is another club no one wants to be in. Right now I'm at my moms place because she is battling with cancer. Everytime I struggled to understand he pushed me in the right direction to take a look from a different perspective.

Thank you, Leroy. Thank you for letting us see the world through your eyes, for being open and letting us in while being the most vulnerable. Thank you for making me wonder and question and find the answers and thank you for the lessons you still keep teaching me. I've never posted on any message board or anything like that before because most things are not worth writing down. Written down words should mean something, they should be of substance. I started to write a comment a couple of times but never posted it. I was thinking about what to write. I wanted to write something meaningful, something that would make it better, somehow. Now I understand that it's not about the words, it's about to show that one cares. I do. To me you will always be outstanding.

Laurie, I'm on the other side of the world but his waves still reached me here - that's the kind of man we are talking about. There is nothing one can say to make it better. At least his pain is gone. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Sent by Lily | 9:24 AM | 8-17-2008

Take good care, Laurie. I wish you peace and understanding of the love surrounding you. Go with peace Leroy.

Sent by Amy | 9:26 AM | 8-17-2008

My prayers are with you Laurie and all that love Leroy. Our world will never be the same.

With love,

Sent by Lori | 9:29 AM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie and also Leroy's family,

I am indeed very sorry for your loss. Your grief is truly shared by so many.

Sent by Anneliese Strube | 9:32 AM | 8-17-2008

RIP our On-line friend. You have done countless things in your life to share your thoughts and pain with us all. You will long be respected for the bravery you have shown in the face of life. Your voice and comments on NPR will be sorely missed by me. I have spent a number of driveway moments enjoying your commentary, and that will be missed as well. Fast travels to your next stop.

Sent by Bill GIllis | 9:42 AM | 8-17-2008

I never visited his blog before today but I always looked forward to hearing his voice on my radio in the morning. His courage and steady voice, even when at the end you could tell he was losing his strength to talk inspired me and reminded me to cherish every second of my day and my life.

God Speed Leroy and peace be with you Laurie

Sent by M. Cook - Norwalk CT | 9:44 AM | 8-17-2008

What a profound service Leroy provided. He made our world better. I hope he rests in peace.

Sent by Miles | 9:46 AM | 8-17-2008

I am weeping this morning as I think of our loss - this wonderful, insightful, and sometimes witty man who helped us understand what it is to be a cancer patient. Thank you, Leroy, for having shared yourself with us. We are better for it.

Sent by penelope | 9:49 AM | 8-17-2008

My sincerest, and I do not mean this in a trite way, sadness for Laurie and all the family & friends of the beloved Leroy. Leroy is the bravest, most admirable soul on earth. He worked the life he loved, and died with honor and bravery. I am a cancer survivor (so far) and VERY few know I had cancer. I had treatment that I was able to hide. I refuse to be labeled (as people who have had cancer get labeled, gossiped and talked about forever). If I have a reoccurrence, I will not have treatment. Yet Leroy has given me permission, and the strength to go public if this happens again to me; as I die. Otherwise, I may not have been able to embrace the gift of the light taking me when it is my time if cancer strikes again. Only people who have had cancer can understand it this horrendous evil; no one. Loved and supportive ones can be there, and the few I allowed to be there, mostly friends (my spouse could not handle it), deserve a medal of honor. I certainly do not, and Leroy & Laurie do; the highest medal possible.

Sent by Anna | 9:51 AM | 8-17-2008

I am lucky in 2 ways: first, my ovarian cancer, diagnosed almost 12 ytrs ago, terrified me but did not kill me. Second: I found, along with all the rest of us, Leroy Sievers. Leroy, you added life to my life - I loved you, my heart is broken. You were the role model of all models for cancer patients, survivors, and, most importantly, for ordinary people - an exemplary example on how to live one's life. Love, Nina Hoffman (age 56, Charleston, SC)

Sent by Nina Hoffman | 9:51 AM | 8-17-2008

all my thoughts and warmth to you, Laurie and to Leroy -- thank you for your gift to us all.

Sent by laurie | 9:51 AM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathies on the passing of Leroy.
When I learned of his passing this AM and could barely take it in. Listening to him so bravely share his fight with this disease, I felt he would win. He has won in that I will never forget the sound of his voice. He made me laugh and he made me cry. As a Hospice Social Worker, I was so proud that he gave voice to those who really want to be thought of as a person, not a disease. Thank you, Leroy.

Sent by Beth in Charlotte,NC | 9:52 AM | 8-17-2008

My heart was crushed to hear of Leroy's passing this morning on NPR. I've read his blog often, and marveled at his honesty and courage. He will be with me always. My thoughts are with you, Laurie.

Sent by MJ Dulmage | 9:53 AM | 8-17-2008

A little over a year ago, I shed tears when my dad lost his battle with cancer. This morning, I shed tears when a man I never met lost his battle. Leroy was and will always be an inspiration to all cancer patients and the families and friends of those patients. You will be missed. May God bless you and Laurie and your friends.

Sent by Jim MacArthur | 9:54 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I'm sending the most supportive, comforting thoughts to you that I can. I'm just 6 weeks into the grieving process myself, having lost my dear father to cancer on July 5th. While nothing anyone says or does will lessen your grief, allowing other people to do things for you and hearing their words of support will at least let you know how much you are loved and cared for. That is something to treasure. Grief seems to be a strange journey; no amount of being "prepared" for it actually prepares you for it. I hope you manage to find the right balance of rest and activity & solitude and company, to help you through the next few weeks as you transition to your new reality. One step at a time.

Sent by Sarah Anderson | 9:55 AM | 8-17-2008

When someone you love becomes a memory,
that memory becomes a treasure!
LeRoy, may your soul rest in peace.

Sent by Maxine | 9:58 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sad to hear this... I have felt like I have come to know Leroy, and his family through this blog. I can't believe it happened so quickly. My sincerest sympathies go to his family and loved ones.

Sent by Giselle GJ | 9:58 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy gave us so many gifts: His superb writing and reporting, his cancer blog and the inspiration it brought to so many of us, his laughter, wit, and warmth. His good friendship, but most important, his loyalty. Leroy Sievers was a prince of a man, a truly remarkable human being,and we will miss him forever. Laurie, you know our hearts are broken. We will never,ever forget your man, Leroy.

Sent by Catherine Catalane-Bury | 10:00 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry about Leroy's passing. I have been engrossed with his bravery and empathy for others. He has been an inspiration to me and my deerest friend who has breast cancer.My deepest condolences to friends and family.
Beth, Maryland

Sent by Beth Isen | 10:00 AM | 8-17-2008

Oh Laurie, I am so sorry to hear the sad news - I hope you feel comfort from all the support of all of us who have been following Leroy's blog.

And I hope that someday you will have his blog published, so that in the future others will be able to also find the comfort and strength we all did from his words.

Sent by Polly | 10:01 AM | 8-17-2008

"Someone we loved, though now beyond our view
Lives on, unfailingly feeding our heart and mind and imagination.

The Lord give, but the Lord does not take away, and his presence is more real to us now then his absence.
Within us that love and that vision have been woven... Deep into the very texture of our lives, and will always be ours." Heartfelt Sympathy

Sent by Gladys Saslaw | 10:01 AM | 8-17-2008

I woke up this morning and felt your absence in this world, before I even heard the news that you were gone.

I felt your departure without being told, and I think in some way that the world feels the void your loss has now created.

Larry, we all truly appreciated your humor and courage, and and the help you've been to us all, teaching us how to live in this world with cancer (or without, for that matter) while keeping all your dignity and humanity intact, even beyond the very end.

I hope I can remember and follow your example every day in my own life. In your honor, it is my intent to at least try.

Thank you Larry and God bless you and your family and all the loved ones you leave behind and all the people around the world who, like me, you never met, but have truly touched.

Go now, to where where we all come from and where we all return and someday, we will continue our conversation there.

Sent by Laddie Odom | 10:06 AM | 8-17-2008

I have read this blog daily since "meeting" Leory during his documentary. I am so sad and sorry for you Laurie, for all of us. Leroy touched so many.
May he rest in peace and may you find comfort in his memory.

Sent by Alison | 10:07 AM | 8-17-2008

To Michael the Caregiver

I saved the words from your heart to heart you gave to Leroy not long ago. You, like Leroy, are one of those who can express in words when tough times leave others of us emotionally frozen. It's more care than eloquence that comes through.

Sent by Irene | 10:08 AM | 8-17-2008

I never knew Leroy IRL, but tears are streaming down my face nevertheless. My heart and prayers are with you Laurie. I will miss Leroy so much.

Sent by Kathy | 10:08 AM | 8-17-2008

After my diagnosis in July of 2007 I found Leroy's blog. He has helped to guide me through this tough time. I will miss him.

Sent by Terry | 10:08 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sad and sorry. I will miss Leroy's brave voice on the radio. I am grateful that he shared this experience with so many people. My hopes and prayers are with his family.

Sent by Denise Delgado | 10:10 AM | 8-17-2008

All of us with miss Leroy so much. He helped all the cancer endurers so much and will be dearly missed. My grandmother who has Salivary Gland Cancer checked this blog every day and was devastated by the loss. Both Laurie and Leroy will be in our prayers for the entire we and probably longer.

Sent by MacKenzie | 10:12 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie - no words can ever be the 'right ones' for you at this time. Please know there are many thoughts and prayers with you. Most of all please accept our humble thanks for sharing your husband, your life, with us during the most painful and vulnerable time. We will never forget - either of you.

Sent by Lydia Stech Yoder | 10:17 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry. Laurie, I also send comforting supportive thoughts.

Last year I found a card at the Jim Brandenburg gallery in Ely, MN that left me absolutely speechless. I have hesitated to share it here in the past-as there is such a variety of spiritual beliefs. I feel compelled to share it now and I hope it brings you comfort as it did for me.

Death is not extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because dawn has come! by Rabindranath Tagore

And finally, a Hallmark e-card:

Tenderly may time heal your sorrow
Gently may friends ease your pain
Softly may peace replace heartache
And may warmest memories remain

Sent by Alice May - Nebraska | 10:17 AM | 8-17-2008

Every day that Leroy fought on brought hope and made my problems seem trivial. Great sadness is tempered by knowing his was a life well-lived. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

Sent by Dan Buls | 10:19 AM | 8-17-2008

We know it well; "What Cancer Cannot Do. Cancer is so limited...It cannot cripple love. It cannot shatter hope. It cannot corrode faith. It cannot destroy peace. It cannot kill friendship. It cannot suppress memories. It cannot silence courage. It cannot invade the soul. It cannot steal eternal life. It cannot conquer the spirit."

Cancer may have taken Leroy's body, but it did not take his story. He and Laurie touched so many lives through their sharing. I am blessed by the gift of his words. We will miss him, but rejoice in his new-found adventure.

Sent by D.Brookshire | 10:21 AM | 8-17-2008

What was broken has been washed away. What remains is sparkling with the iridescence of love defined, courage lived, and peace cherished.

Sent by Ned Lemon | 10:25 AM | 8-17-2008

Laure, My husband, who is a cancer fighter and I felt so connected to you and Leroy during these past two years. It is with great sadness that we say good-bye to a man who has given so much of himself to so many others. We will truly miss him. Our heart goes out to you as a loving wife and an incredible partner in his fight for his life. Warmest regards,

Sent by Helen and Brad Nitkin | 10:25 AM | 8-17-2008

He touched many; a true gift. May his memory and words provide comfort and solace to those left behind in sorrow.

Sent by robin messing bogdanoff | 10:26 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sad to hear of Leroy's death. He's strength, humor, honestly brought me courage as I try to understand what my wife is going through as she confronts her cancer. I will miss Leroy's postings, but am happy he is a peace now.

Sent by Ed | 10:27 AM | 8-17-2008

A few days ago, Leroy wrote about having to sell his Jeep Wrangler, which he hadn't been able to drive for a year. He wrote about the 'Jeep wave,' about giving one last wave to other Jeep owners on the road.

Thursday, I parked next to a mud-splattered Jeep Wrangler at the gas station, and I thought of Leroy. It's just one way that his words made an impression, and spun a slender thread that ties us to each other.

Today, when I opened the blog feed email, I read the words I knew were coming, but didn't want to read -- "Leroy passed away last night. It happened very quickly."

Here's one last Jeep wave, Leroy, from the girl in the red Chevy S-10. I thought of you in that Jeep yesterday, and of the words that tie our lives together...and now I know why. Drive fast, drive hard, be who you are and who you want to be in the place beyond mortality, beyond cancer. You've earned it.

Laurie--I have a garden full of black-eyed susans that grow rampant and thrive despite sun, heat, drenching rain, and my often-inability to care for them. They grow on in spite of what I can do for them. Leroy's spirit is as resilient as those black-eyed susans, and I wish that same resiliency for you. Strong thoughts, Laurie--for all you have experienced, and for the beautiful person that you are. Thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us.

http://gaelenscafe.blogspot.com/

Sent by Pat Steer | 10:28 AM | 8-17-2008

This morning seems so dark. I know it will brighten up later, but I'm grieving for you Leroy. You carried the burden of so many people whose lives are touched by the disease.

Sent by John | 10:28 AM | 8-17-2008

Tears. For the passing of someone I never met but feel I have come to know. I have been away on vacation (combined with intense physical therapy following surgery) and away from the internet for over a week. The whole time I worried about Leroy and sent prayers for him and his loved ones as I thought of him every day. His blog was a daily touchstone in my life for the last two years. I will miss his courage, his humor, and his spirit. Words can't really express my sadness or how my heart goes out to his loved ones-especially Laurie--right now.

Sent by N.R. | 10:32 AM | 8-17-2008

Oh Leroy...You were the voice that had the perfect pitch, resonance, and grace. You have put a piece of your heart into each of us - whether we were a patient, caregiver, or friend. Whatever cancer world category they all have found peace with your insights. Peace + Love

Sent by Joy | 10:36 AM | 8-17-2008

What a gift of hope and reality has been given to us. I am 39 and start medical school tomorrow. This blog should be required reading for every medical student in the country as it shares the true world of cancer, stripped bare for all to see. It is a learning tool that will impact me for as long as I learn about and practice medicine. That is another powerful legacy for a life lost too soon. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this time.

Sent by Jane | 10:36 AM | 8-17-2008

These posts by Leroy and Laurie meant so much. I never commented because there were so many there but I read the posts as often as I could. I am so sorry that Laurie and Leroy will not be spending more time together.

Sent by Andrea | 10:37 AM | 8-17-2008

I expected one day to hear this sad news, but somehow I was still stunned that it came so suddenly. By all accounts Leroy was a remarkable man who lived a remarkable life. He touched many of us through his courage and honesty in facing his illness. He will not be forgotten.

Sent by Linda | 10:41 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry. My thoughts go out to Leroy Sievers' family and friends. He put a brave face on survival and was an inspiration to us all.

Sent by Mike Wiseman | 10:42 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy, you will be so very much missed. I've read your blog every day now for a such a long time and while I knew the day you would leave was coming soon, this is still a shock. You've meant a lot to me. Thank you for all you've given to all of us who never met you. May the road rise up to meet you.

Laurie, I'm so awfully sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

Sent by Elona | 10:42 AM | 8-17-2008

How can you miss someone so much........that you never even got to meet!! Some how we all know you Laurie, and Leroy so well - what a difference you've both made in so many lives!!
Some how I hope you can feel all of us wrapping around you in prayers and love, Laurie - can't imagine how you feel!! Can't imagine how much you miss him!!!
He is truly "larger than life" and his spirit will never end.........I'm so, so sorry.

Sent by Ruth Chermok | 10:44 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. We all lost a dear friend and warrior. It is going to be difficult without Leroy's Blog to keep me going. He is at peace now and I hope you Laurie can find the peace and comfort he shared with all of us. THANK YOU Leroy and Laurie for all you have done for so many. God Bless

Sent by Kristine Ruotsi | 10:45 AM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie, I, too, never posted before, but I have to express my gratitude to you and Leroy for sharing your lives and creating this astonishing community of care. With deepest sympathy and great admiration, Rachel

Sent by Rachel | 10:47 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you both for reminding us all of how to live in the face of death. Laurie, we are all sharing your grief (even if we can't know its depth). I will miss Leroy too. You've both helped me remember to live better and fight harder every day.

Sent by Laura Packer | 10:50 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

I am so sorry. Leroy has touched so many, many more than had ever posted to this blog. You have, too. Don't ever forget that. Know that in my heart his words will resound with love, laughter and grit.

The loss is profound, and felt by all who enter here.

Sent by Teri Thomas | 10:50 AM | 8-17-2008

Rest in peace, brave warrior. You will be missed, but your work and words will live on.
My condolences to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's close family and friends. Please let us know if there is anything concrete we can do for you.

Sent by Teresa Hartman | 10:52 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
i understand what you have been through these years. i want you to know that i prayed for Leroy's healing everyday and reading his blog has become a daily ritual for me. I will have to see how i live without his blog now. Last night on my first Point Sur Lighthouse Moonlight tour in Big Sur, i sent sent Leroy God's light, my love. Please be proud of the number of lives Leroy's blog changed and be assured that God heals your broken heart.

Sent by helen miao | 10:56 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you so much, Leroy, for all you did for all of us. We're much richer for having known you, and much poorer for having lost you.

Peace
jj

Sent by Joan Jones | 11:01 AM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathy Laurie to you and your family. I read your husbands blogs alot and he was such an inpiriation to me. I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and strength your way

Sent by Jen B from RedToeNail.com | 11:01 AM | 8-17-2008

My condolences Laurie on your loss of a very loving husband.

I like so many others were sadly surprised when I checked the blog yesterday for an update. Like you, I could see the storm clouds coming as I have lost several loved ones to Cancer, most recently a beloved aunt in March; at the same time that Leroy's mother passed.

I became aware of the battle you were both waging through the Ted Koppel program and have been a daily reader of the blog ever since. It has helped me so many times to understand and know what to say to my aunt, how to encourage her family, and ultimately to have something to come back to when all I wanted to do was cry after her death in March - for I had to cheer you and Leroy on and pray for another miracle - after all he was still so hopeful not just for himself but for all that read the blog.

I know that he is in a better place now, without pain and suffering and restored to full health. He is watching over all of us and looking forward to the day when you after a long life will be joined with him again.

Our prayers are focused on you now as we pray that you will find solace in what he and you have given to so many.

God speed Laurie... all of us have you in our hearts at this time.

Sent by CSivula | 11:01 AM | 8-17-2008

There have been times in the past two years I have followed Leroy's blog that I wanted to give him a hug. I wish I could hug Laurie now.

Rest in peace, Leroy. Laurie, thousands of us are with you in your loss.

Sent by Vicki Womack | 11:05 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
Thank you for sharing Leroy with us during such a deeply personal time. It was a huge gift to give so many strangers. As you can see, it was greatly appreciated.

I will miss him, as will all of us who read his blog, but our loss is tiny in the face of yours. I wish you peace and happy memories. They will come in time.

Thank you for all you gave to us.

Sent by K. Ives, Duluth MN | 11:12 AM | 8-17-2008

Rest in peace, Leroy! Thank you for everything... your blog, your courage, your interviews on NPR and for your journalism. I true warrior indeed.
- Roshan Paudel

Sent by Roshan Paudel | 11:12 AM | 8-17-2008

There are no words to truly express how much Leroy has given to this world. Except these: Oh, how he will be missed. Oh, how he will be remembered. To Laurie, bless you and know that you are in the prayers of so many of us who came to know and love you both through this blog.
Good-bye, dear Leroy, and rest easy.

Sent by Susan Crawford | 11:15 AM | 8-17-2008

I am heart broken. I read Leroy's blog daily. He said things in just the right way. I cried for someone I never met. My heart goes to the family. Leroy will be in our hearts forever.

Sent by Debbie | 11:15 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry to hear this. He helped me and my Mom so much! I will miss him!

Sent by Cory Holz | 11:21 AM | 8-17-2008

YOu have my thoughts and prayers....and many thanks for sharing your lives

Sent by Pauline Eck | 11:23 AM | 8-17-2008

On this beautiful summer morning, the news of Leroy's death has actually dimmed the brightness of the sun for me. But the example of his courage, persistence, and charm will be with me always. His voice will be missed.

Sent by Marcia | 11:24 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie -
I am so sorry for your loss. I know you will miss Leroy so much. I only knew him through this blog, but I will miss him too. You both will remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Teresa from Missouri | 11:31 AM | 8-17-2008

Leroy, your words gave me comfort and guidance during my journey with cancer. You have allowed us to walk with you through your many trials and tribulations. May the spirit and love that you shared with all of us be with your family and loved ones at this time.
Ride in peace Leroy,
Nancy

Sent by Nancy | 11:33 AM | 8-17-2008

Buckets and Buckets of tears...............May he rest in peace. Dear Laurie, my heart aches for you.

Sent by sasha | 11:40 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. As much as I appreciated all that Leroy said, I also treasured your words. Perhaps because I have, too often, been on your side of cancer. You are a caring person and a gifted writer, profound and touching in few and simple words. At some point I hope you will continue to write.

Sent by Reba | 11:40 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry, Laurie.

Sent by Tori | 11:41 AM | 8-17-2008

Your husband gives us colon cancer patients the courage to face our illness sometimes with tears and sometimes with laughter.Thank you for letting us share your life.

Sent by Gale Arp | 11:44 AM | 8-17-2008

There are no words to express the sorrow and not enough words to say thank you for this blog.

I'm glad Leroy got his big dog. It will be something to hug while you decompress. Take care. You have a huge family in the cancer world praying for you.

Sent by Marcine | 11:48 AM | 8-17-2008

Although I never met Leroy, his words have helped me better understand what my father is going through with his advanced cancer. He spoke with eloquence and honesty for the thousands who could not. I know we all will miss him terribly. Laurie, you are in our thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Cathryn | 11:50 AM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie Hirth -

Beautiful comments this morning.

Liz L

Sent by Liz L. | 11:51 AM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry to hear this news. He will be greatly missed.

Sent by Alice | 11:53 AM | 8-17-2008

We are the same age, Leroy and I. And we share the same last name, tho we never met .I love his blog, his courage and most of all his humor as he tried to just be Leroy . Not Leroy the cancer patient but Leroy the man, the husband, the father. We share the same last name but we arent related. I cried today because I lost a brother.

Sent by J. Bradley Sievers | 11:57 AM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, if you havent, i too recommend "the hardest work you will ever do" by Mary Cook from This I Beleive. My thought have been quietly with you this weekend even though we have not met. The nicest thing that i can think of, looking back on my Mom's death from cancer, is that i do not think of her as being sick 5 years later. I only remember her healthy self. Ironically, she only had a hospice bed for one night before she died. I also felt that Leroy was beginning to withdraw and start to move on. He will rest in peace and be young and healthy again.

Sent by Julie from Madison | 11:58 AM | 8-17-2008

Thank you, Leroy & Laurie, for sharing yourselves and your earthly pilgrimage with those in need- you have eased the road for so many. My hope is that Leroy has found peace and you eventually will be able to do the same, Laurie. Let others care for you now...

Sent by L in CT | 12:01 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy helped me to care for my mother, understand what she was experiencing and to process my own grief. He had such courage and tremendous ability to be transparent.

Sent by Nicole | 12:01 PM | 8-17-2008

I am absolutely shocked and devastated by this news. Maybe it was magical thinking on my part, but I just didn't expect this so soon. Leroy died ten months to the day that I lost my 57 y/o sister to Stage IV colon cancer. I guess that's why this blog resonated so deeply with me. I feel as though I've lost a family member even though I didn't know him. As for you Laurie, my empathy is profound. My heart aches for you. I am just so very, very, sorry. I guess the greatest gift any of us can leave upon our death is to know that we have made a contribution and a lasting impact upon the world. Know that you have both done that. Rest in peace, dear Leroy. You will be missed.

Sent by Donna Rubinetti in NJ | 12:04 PM | 8-17-2008

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen ratherto share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.~Henri Nouwen
Laurie..
A piece of all our hearts went with Leroy when He took his final breath...
My prayer for Leroy after reading your "Thunderstorm" posting..was that when the time came for his passing..the Lord would take him swiftly..to avoid any more pain.
How blessed you were to be his "Soul mate".Be strong..You have an extended family of support just a click away.

Sent by Allecia | 12:04 PM | 8-17-2008

Strange, barely two days after his passing, Leroy Sievers still touches people's lives and adds on NEW members to his "online" and radio community! I heard the sad news on NPR this morning and I suddenly remembered I had heard his "Death and I are not strangers" when it aired. That commentary touched me deeply because I lost my father to cancer in 1992 and a twenty-year-old nephew in 2003. For the first time, I opened the NPR/ "My Cancer" blog this morning and read/ listened to his other commentaries, grieving not only his loss but that I hadn't done this when he was still alive. A comforting thought through all this is: his spirit still lives on and that the "predator" will never take away the strength, courage, even humor that Leroy has inspired - and continue to inspire - in other people!

Sent by Jeanette Birondo-Goddard | 12:06 PM | 8-17-2008

Mr. Sievers made everything seem a bit more beautiful, and a lot less hurtful. May his legacy, spirit and grace carry on to all those who read his words. My most sincere condolences.

Sent by Kimberly | 12:07 PM | 8-17-2008

"Good night sweet prince. And flights of angels sing thee to thy death." The world is a lesser place without you and your voice Leroy. Thank you for all that you gave to this community. You will forever be remembered.
Laurie, may you find peace and comfort, may your
memories with Leroy bring a smile to your face.

Sent by Linda Newson | 12:09 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry for the loss of Leroy. He was an inspiration to most of us who visited the blog. His words, wit and wisdom will be severly missed. May God bless him and he find rest, comfort, and peace on his new journey.
Laurie, I will keep you in my prayers. Your unconditional love for leroy has truly humbled me. Thank God that he had you by his side throughout this journey. May God continue to bless you.

Sent by TCK | 12:10 PM | 8-17-2008

I'm so sorry Laurie for your loss. I started reading Leroy's blog last year before my father passed away from his battle with multiple myloma. Leroy showed me through his words what my father was going through. Words cannot even express how much this has meant to me, Thank you.

Sent by Stacia Moorehouse | 12:10 PM | 8-17-2008

My sincere condolences to Leroy's family for their loss. Listening to NPR this morning I learned of L's death and this blog.
I was diagnosed last Sept. with head and neck cancer. My girlfriend, Barb, took care of me until the day after thanksgiving when she was diagnosed with lung cancer (stage 4b).
she died on May 30th of this year. i did not go to the service. i was presented with the challenge of dealing with both our cancers and rising to the occasion of helping her and was found wanting.
She threw me out on the street in March (rightly so) and i lost not only her, but my family and support network as well.
I have read some of L's blogs and think,"i wish i had people 'I' could talk to". people who would speak to me even though my struggle with cancer was not "HEROIC". it was anything but.
I was "ok" with being diagnosed, i was "ok" with HER being diagnosed, but when it came to those months of watching her die by inches.......i stumbled....then i fell.....i betrayed her and her trust....i stole money from her to pay for extra pain killers..and lied about it. No, i was anything but heroic. Anything but "ok".
May 22 i was in preop awaiting surgery when a close friend called barb and asked if she'd speak to me...she agreed...much was said in five minutes but essentially i said i was sorry and would always love her and she said she forgave me and would always love me too.
She sais not to worry, if there was" another side", she'd find me.
Sorry i know i was supposed to be brief....it's just this is the only place i've had to say what's been on my mind. I really wish that if there is a god it would have taken me and let barb live. SHE REALLY WAS A MUCH BETTER PERSON AND DESERVED TO SURVIVE..........now that i've had a chance to say it, perhaps i can rectify the situation....
Thank you for listening. again, sorry for rambling. and sorry if this comes off as self-pity...it's realyy not....just reportage'...............

Sent by Christopher T. della Volpe | 12:12 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, please know that I too send my deepest condolences. Leroy was a friend that I had never met in person, but one that was truly important to me.

Sent by Natalie | 12:17 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so very sorry for your loss Laurie. It is difficult to except Leroy's passing and I am so sad. His blog has been so insightful and I am thankful to have had a connection with it. I will keep you and Leroy in my thoughts. I hope your memories will help you during this time. Peace and love

Sent by Susie R. from Ohio | 12:17 PM | 8-17-2008

To the Webmaster:
Just a personal note to thank you so much for working through the weekend to continually update the comments. They are a great source of comfort to me, as I hope they are to Laurie and all of you who worked with Leroy. To you too I extend my sympathies. We have all experienced a tremendous loss.

Sent by Harriet | 12:20 PM | 8-17-2008

I feel like I have lost a friend. Leroy helped me cope when my 33 year old step son had a brain tumor last year. His writing gave me great comfort. I had hoped so much he would recover

Sent by Marnie McClain | 12:23 PM | 8-17-2008

Give rest, O Lord, to the soul of thy departed servant, Leroy, and grant him peace in that place where there is no sorrow nor sadness, no sickness nor suffering, but everlasting life. Amen.

Sent by Linda Koshell | 12:24 PM | 8-17-2008

Even when you know that the end is coming it is still so shocking when it happens.
Laurie, you and Leroy were so kind and generous to share this experience with all of us. I has made a difference in my life. Please remember that we are all out here loving you and Leroy.

Sent by Janet | 12:30 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy and Laurie inspired me to transform one area of my garden yesterday and as I cleaned out the old invasives and made room for the new to thrive, I thought about Leroy's blog and how it always spoke right to me as a cancer survivor. It was not sappy like movies on this subject can be and it was not angry. His voice was so real and right on--thoughtful, humorous, annoyed, complex. What a comfort to this community.

I hope it gets a little easier for you each day Laurie and family.

Sent by sarah | 12:35 PM | 8-17-2008

We will all miss him. He helped us so much.

As we say in my church:
Eternal Memory!

Sent by Elizabeth from Brooklyn | 12:37 PM | 8-17-2008

As I write, my sister's life is inching away. She changed very little physically - everyone always said "You look so good" - it was hard to believe that her bones were one step away from dust. Your blog and commentary on NPR told exactly what it was like, both physically and mentally. My heart goes out to your family. Thank you for having the guts to share your Cancer World with the rest of us.

Sent by Kathy | 12:44 PM | 8-17-2008

Tears flowed this morning when I heard of Leroy's passing. I will miss reading his thoughts on my email each morning, even when those thoughts made my eyes mist a bit too much for such an early hour. But I know that the times that I smiled and felt comforted by his insights far outweighed the times tears came. Traveling through "cancer world" with my father has been profoundly confusing and I thank Leroy for his guidance to all of us who make the journey. It was a privledge to be a part of his world and his life in our own way. Thank you to Laurie for her insights and her strength and her love.

Sent by L. Anderson in Colorado | 12:46 PM | 8-17-2008

As soon as I woke this morning I thought of Leroy. I had not know that he had died. When I looked up the blog, I was saddened. But at the same time I felt him in death. I lost my sister 10 years ago this month. She was the same age as Leroy, and she too died of cancer. We are all one.

Sent by jill Sanford | 12:47 PM | 8-17-2008

Although I will miss Leroy's insightful words more than I can express, I am glad he is now at peace.

Laurie, you're in my thoughts and I wish I could say something to bring comfort during this difficult time.

Sent by Lori | 12:47 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie and Maeve -
There will be such a huge emptiness without Leroy; he gave so much to all of us. what a gift. we thank you all.

Sent by claire | 12:50 PM | 8-17-2008

What a great and generous man we have all lost! He was true mensch, someone whose character and kindness and ability to give of himself was truly amazing. Laurie, you have modeled the beauty of loyalty and love in your support of him. My thoughts and prayers go to you from me here in Oregon. Probably people from all the states and also abroad will weigh in with their sadness. That was his range, enormous and his impact, profound. I loved his rich bass/baritone voice, and missed hearing him when he could no longer record. I knew that spelled out the ravages of advancing cancer. Yet he had the grace and courage to keep sharing through words in this blog, his journey of truly living while dying. I'm glad he had the fascinating Beijing Olympics in these last few days to enjoy. Wherever he is now, I hope it's ringing with that deep belly his fortunate friends and colleagues heard when he was amused.

Sent by Patsy O'Shea | 12:52 PM | 8-17-2008

A poem "On the Death of the Beloved", by John O'Donohue for us all:
Though we need to weep your loss,
You dwell in that safe place in our hearts,
Where no storm or might or pain can reach you.

Your love was like the dawn
Brightening over our lives
Awakening beneath the dark
A further adventure of colour.

The sound of your voice
Found for us
A new music
That brightened everything.

Whatever you enfolded in your gaze
Quickened in the joy of its being;
You placed smiles like flowers
On the altar of the heart.
Your mind always sparkled
With wonder at things.

Though your days here were brief,
Your spirit was live, awake, complete.

We look towards each other no longer
From the old distance of our names;
Now you dwell inside the rhythm of breath, As close to us as we are to ourselves.

Though we cannot see you with outward eyes,
We know our soul's gaze is upon your face,
Smiling back at us from within everything
To which we bring our best refinement.

Let us not look for you only in memory,
Where we would grow lonely without you.
You would want us to find you in presence,
Beside us when beauty brightens,
When kindness glows
And music echoes eternal tones.

When orchids brighten the earth,
Darkets winter has turned to spring;
May this dark grief flower with hope
In every heart that loves you.

May you continue to inspire us:

To enter each day with a generous heart.
To serve the call of courage and love
Until we see your beautiful face again
In that land where there is no more separation,
Where all tears will be wiped from our mind,
And where we will never lose you again.

Sent by Nancy Murphy | 12:55 PM | 8-17-2008

Oh Laurie, Laurie,
My heart is breaking for you and for all of us out here who loved Leroy from afar. So many of us were keeping the vigil with you these last few hours. What a gift Leroy was to all of us sharing this incredibly hard journey--shining his light so the rest of us could maintain hope and recognize goodness, even in the darkest hour! What a valiant man! He ministered to all of us.
I'm so sad. I feel such a void. I will take comfort in the fact that there are so many others out there experiencing the same feelings about Leroy and you as I am right now. Leroy gave us that community. We are united in thought and prayer because of him.
And now Laurie, you must surround yourself with the love and support of others. Grieve and then grieve some more and you will find peace in your life and in Leroy's legacy. You will be alright.
There is so much love and caring flowing through these words and the words of others. May you find comfort tonight.
With heartfelt sympathy and love, Renee Bostany

Sent by Renee Bostany | 12:58 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Leroy and Laurie,

I'll start this like I always have, because Leroy, you're not really gone. I know your mortal life was taken, and in a way, I am grateful that your suffering is over. Your spirit, however, lives on. The affect you had on all of us and many others you never even knew of, will never fade. Laurie, it will be hardest now for you, and I know that there will never be a replacement for Leroy in your heart and life. He was and is special. But between the tears, realize that he really is not gone. The people he inspired, the love you shared, the memories you made will live on and I am sure you will be able to feel him, beside you. May God cradle you both in his loving arms. Leroy, you are loved, and will never be forgotten.

Sent by Connie | 1:07 PM | 8-17-2008

I just saw the news of Leroys' passing on the CBS Morning Show, shocking! I guess I didn't realize his passing was so close. I half expected to be "warned" of his passing soon. I am a cancer survivor and have gotten so much from this blog, from Leroys thoughtful honesty and from comments left.

Laurie....I send you white light of healing and comfort.

Leroy will be so missed.

Sent by jenngie | 1:09 PM | 8-17-2008

(((Laurie))) I am so sorry for your loss, you and your beloved husband have touched the lives of many in a great way! Thank you for sharing your journey, the hearts and prayers of so many are with you now.

Sent by JenP | 1:10 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie
I am so sorry for your loss.
Leroy made such a difference in so many lives. I so admired the courage he displayed in dealing with his cancer. I will miss reading his daily comments. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you, his family, his friends and his colleagues. Adios Leroy and vaya con Dios. Thank you so much for just being you.

Sent by joyce | 1:15 PM | 8-17-2008

There are no words. There never are.

Laurie, next week is the one year anniversary of my dad's passing. I couldn't fathom reaching this milepost last August. Your path will be your own, but our hearts to out to you, knowing what last year has been for us.

Leroy was the hero of this army, and we'll do our best to carry on and keep fighting. Prayers for peace for you in this time of turmoil...

Sent by cancer PT | 1:18 PM | 8-17-2008

You and Leroy remain in my prayers Laurie. Please accept my deepest sympathy on your loss. Though Leroy is in another place, one of peace, his words will live on here and continue to help everyone who has read them.

Sent by Helen Ferguson | 1:20 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie...I am so sorry. You loved Leroy so well and were a warrior beside him on this arduous journey. Your strength was every bit as powerful as was his during the battle, and I learned a lot from both of you...especially in these final weeks. I loved your posts...so fierce and honest, and would imagine that your writing will help you in the weeks and months ahead. I hope we will hear from you...oh so lonely in the world today without Leroy. Bon courage. Rebecca from Montana

Sent by Rebecca Bauder | 1:23 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie and all of Leroy's family - I'm sure I am not alone in feeling that I have lost a deeply loved friend and wise "brother" in Leroy. His life - so filled with wisdom, compassion, courage and great humor touched us all. I will be forever grateful that he and you gave so much of yourselves to this great cyber community. Sending love and comfort your way.

Sent by Peggy in MN | 1:23 PM | 8-17-2008

Last night as I was on the phone with a friend, I was multi-tasking as usual, when I saw the headline. For a moment the world stopped. I knew it was coming I just didn't know it was coming this FAST. I will miss Leroy's insight and good will - so amazing in the face of such adversity. Laurie, my well wishes and white light surround you as you navigate the coming difficult days.

Sent by Karen | 1:31 PM | 8-17-2008

Oh, what a shock..but then not really a shock. We could see the handwriting on the wall, yet wanted to deny the message. I am so sorry for the grief that I know is consuming you, Laurie. I'm thankful though that Leroy didn't have to endure a prolonged period of horrible suffering.

Sent by Susan | 1:31 PM | 8-17-2008

I used to go to this page every so often during the school year. I hadn't been on it for MANY weeks this summer and randomly thought I should go on it yesterday. Odd? I don't think so. I found Leroy's blog after my grandma passed away of cancer in October. So sorry for the loss. But what an amazing life he lived!

Sent by Anna | 1:33 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie..I read this somewhere. I don't know who wrote it. It speaks volumes. "Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts,and we are never the same." Unknown I think Leroy is one of those people that no one will EVER forget. I will miss him terribly. Sincerly,Karen

Sent by Karen | 1:33 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry to hear of Leroy's passing. His (AND YOUR) courage thru-out this ordeal has been remarkable! After my wife passed from a brain tumor I was unable to contemplate Cancer nor was I able to deal with it's mention for about a year, the pain was to great. I heard about Leroy on my way to work one morning and started reading his writings. I found them to be both thoughtfull and amusing. I kept reading them every day and even put my "two cents" worth in a couple of times.
When I found out about my own challenge with stage three Melenoma I found myself identifying with the both of you as a caretaker and as a patient. My heart goes out to you dear lady and Leroy was blessed to have you by his side thru-out his illness. His job is done and your's has not ended yet. Continue to be strong and remember the good times... and be proud of the job you did!
Your Mountain friend,
J.T. Thorup
Steamboat Springs, Co.

Sent by J.T. Thorup | 1:33 PM | 8-17-2008

This is my first time writing. I want to give my condolences to Laurie..from one caregiver to another..my heart goes out to you! I would read his blog and pull inspiration to get through another day..He will be missed!

Sent by CB | 1:34 PM | 8-17-2008

Friday's post was a prelude of what was imminent. Leroy's gift of this blog, along with Laurie's life giving grace, will be with me a very long time.

Sent by Ellen Ballard | 1:35 PM | 8-17-2008

I was not a regular reader but for some reason,I read his blog daily for the past several weeks. I was diagnosed last year with stage 3 breast cancer and have completed surgery, chemo and radiation.
Leroy had a gift of expression that went straight to the heart of the subject.He was a teacher who taught by example and his courage and eloquence will continue to inspire us all.
My heartfelt condolences to Laurie and family. I am sure knowing how many of us have been affected by his passing will give you comfort and solace that you are not alone in your time of grief.
So many have written so movingly and although I read the post yesterday, I did not feel I had adequate words to express my feelings. But I did so want my voice heard as one of so many who have been touched by his words. This has been a summer of loss. A dear friend lost her 33 year old daughter to leukemia last month, leaving behind 2 little girls. Another close friend has an older sister who is close to dying after a horrendous bout with mouth cancer . This sister donated her bone marrow to my friend 8 years ago when she had leukemia. So it is especially hard to see someone so selfless now suffering.
We cannot know God's plan and purpose for each of us and therefore we must let faith sustain us.

Sent by Dolly | 1:42 PM | 8-17-2008

I have followed Leroy's blog from the it's beginnings. Through it I felt that he became my friend. It's one of life's mysteries that the cancer we loath is what brought Leroy to most of us, and thus gave us all such a gift. One of my favorite blog entries from Leroy in February of 2007:
'But there is one quote that I want to leave you with. One of you sent it in a while back, and I loved it.
"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, totally worn out and proclaiming, 'WOW, WHAT A RIDE!!!'"
I just love that. And so for today, I think that's message enough.'

Thank you Leroy for allowing us on part of that ride. I'll miss you.

Laurie - Peace, love and strength. My heart breaks for you.

Sent by Bonnie | 1:50 PM | 8-17-2008

For me, Leroy's blog was not JUST about how to live with cancer... it was about how to live, period! He consistently inspired and moved me, and though I never actually knew him, I will miss him SO much, and like many others here, I too cried when I heard the news of his passing.

Fortunately, Leroy's beautiful legacy and profound words *will* endure.

Sent by Bradeleine | 1:53 PM | 8-17-2008

I have followed Leroys blog from London, England. I found it in some long forgotten random search! I do not have cancer but should my number come up some day Leroys words will be with me and will give me insight and some courage for which I know I will be eternally grateful. I wish him peace. I, a total stranger, will never forget him.

Sent by AMANDA OPPE | 1:55 PM | 8-17-2008

Good night, sweet prince.

Sent by Suzanne | 2:00 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
I read Leroy's blog everyday and was really hoping for a cure, a miracle, something to keep this great person with us. I'm so sad that he is gone, another person caught in cancer's trap.

My deepest condolences to you and his family. Just know how much a difference he made in so many cancer survivors' lives by posting his blog.

Sent by Leslie | 2:02 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,
I will greatly miss LeRoy's daily dose of wisdom, wit and strength. But the many, many things I have learned from him, I will keep with me until I myself take that last breath.

Sent by Suzanne | 2:10 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy will never be silenced as he has given many others living with cancer the courage to use their own voices. His spirit will remain present in our lives.

Laurie - thank you for understanding how important this blog was to Leroy. To have been so loved can only have made his journey more peaceful. May you find your own peace in the days and months ahead.

Sent by Patte | 2:17 PM | 8-17-2008

There is a hole in all our hearts now. A few days ago, someone mentioned the Hebrew Misheberach prayer. Now I send it to Laurie for strength and healing in this time of grief. I also send hugs, ice cream dreams, and a request that (only when you feel like it) you let us know if we can contribute to a particular charity that would mean something to you and Leroy.

Sent by Roz | 2:18 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so terribly sorry. I loved his blog and thank him and Laurie so much for letting us share their lives. xo

Sent by Sarah | 2:21 PM | 8-17-2008

I've greatly appreciated Leroy's words and insights. I will miss "checking on Leroy" every day.

Sent by LaTonya | 2:22 PM | 8-17-2008

May God bless you, and keep you, and make His face to shine upon you, and give you peace.

Everybody dies. What matters is how you lived. We will remember you, brother.

Sent by Rick | 2:24 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
God was holding Leroy in his arms. My heart hurts for you and I pray that you will be able to find peace through your final grieving no matter how ever long it takes. Leroy gave is so much on this blog and you gave us as much. You both showed us a way through this journey we have been chosed to take and I thank you for that. My love and prayers are with you, Laurie.
Paula

Sent by Paula Swink | 2:31 PM | 8-17-2008

I have been reading this blog since the beginning. Leroy's sharing of his journey these past years has been an inspiration. My prayers are with Laurie and all of Leroy's family.

Sent by Mary M. | 2:32 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy: He was generous of heart, urgent in living life, witty, fiercely engaged in every day's possibilities, able to cut through raw pain to give voice to us all. That he could "free the joy inside the self" was such a gift!

In the words of the late poet John O'Donohue:

"Though we need to weep your loss,
You dwell in that safe place in our
hearts
Where no storm or night or pain
can reach you.
...
The sound of your voice
Found for us
A new music
That brightened everything.
...
Your mind always sparkled
With wonder at things.
...
Though we cannot see you with
outward eyes,
We know our soul's gaze is upon
your face,
Smiling back at us from within
everthing
To which we bring our best
refinement.

Let us not look for you only in
memory,
Where we would grow lonely without
you.
You would want us to find you in
presence,
Beside us when beauty brightens,
When kindness glows
And music echoes eternal tones.

When orchids brighten the earth,
Darkest winter has turned to spring;
May this dark grief flower with hope
In every heart that loves you,

May you continue to inspire us:
To enter each day with a generous
heart.
To serve the call of courage and love
Until we see your beautiful face again
In that land where there is no more
separation,
Where all tears will be wiped from
our mind,
And where we will never lose you
again."
("On the Death of the Beloved")

With deepest sympathies to Laurie,
Maureen in Arlington, Va.

Sent by Maureen Doallas | 2:33 PM | 8-17-2008

When I went searching for answers over a year ago I came across this blog and I have read it everyday, even during this past week while I was out of the country, I found the computer in the hotels, and caught up with you. I have learned more here than anywhere else in my search for help. Leroy's comments were always engaging, intelligent, often very entertaining, and honest. You both have been so generous and expressive with your words. My journey parallels Laurie's, as my husband who is the same age as Leroy, fights his battle with cancer. Your insights have kept me afloat. In this journey, I feel lucky to have found you and for all the lessons I have learned from you, Laurie, and all the people who so eloquently post here. You have shown courage in recounting your deeply personal story right up to the end, this is extraordinary. I applaud you. I hope you are on a great adventure in a magical place spilling out big belly laughs. I will miss you! Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss, my heart aches for you.

Sent by Nancy | 2:34 PM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathy to all.

Sent by Ana from Slovakia | 2:37 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, you are in my thoughts today. We all miss Leroy but we are all here for you at this time. We have come to think of you two as a team. Stay connected with us as you can, and receive strength from us as the two of you have given us so much. Sharred so much of your personal lives.

Al Cato, I have looked over the last week for some word from you on this site and unless I missed it. I do hope all is well with you.

Their are many names without faces out there in a sharred path. You have all became very important to me. I say thank you to all for helping me survive a very difficult time.

Laurie, one day at a time, or as I learned even just one step at a time.

Sent by dorothy in oregon | 2:44 PM | 8-17-2008

I am very sad but what a gift we had in "knowing" Leroy. He made a positive difference in the world and touched so many. Not a bad legacy is it?- Peace to all of us in his family. We'll miss him very much.

Sent by Julie | 2:44 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie, I am sad Leroy is gone but glad he is no longer suffering. You both have been such a comfort to me. We lost our son, Andrew, on May 22nd to melanoma. I read Leroy's daily blog every day and appreciated his humor and thoughtfulness. He is at peace and we are so grateful for his sharing his thoughts regarding "Cancer World." He meant so much to so many people. I pray that you will find comfort from all his friends through this blog.

Sent by Maureen | 2:45 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

My heart cries for you today and will for many days ahead. You know that we all love you and Leroy immensely and I thank God daily that He put Leroy in our path and that Leroy had the opportunity through his disease to touch millions of lives in such a powerful way. Leroy was huger than life while in this world as you know and his legacy will remain for years to come. Thank you for sharing your lives with us and I pray for comfort and peace during this grief you are experiencing and may His love fill your heart all the days of your life.

My heartfelt sypathies and condolences.

Sent by Ed Brown | 2:50 PM | 8-17-2008

I came straight here this morning to see how Leroy was. I gasped out loud when I read of his passing. He has touched my life through this blog, and his words will continue to stay with me.I will miss Leroy and I'm so very grateful to him for everything he has brought into this world. I have felt so supported by this blog as we witness our 6 year old daughter win her own fight against cancer. Thank you. Sending all my love and deepest condolences.

www.helpisabel.us

Sent by Paulette and family | 2:59 PM | 8-17-2008

For two years I have listened, with love and caring, to the bravest person I have ever run across. I looked forward to Leroy's commentary on my daily commute. I read his blog and felt a part of this man's life. I lost my father last November and somehow Leroy's honesty in the face of his disease helped me to put perspective on my own life. I feel the loss and the pain but also the joy of who he was. Words cannot possibly capture what Leroy meant to so many people. Rest in peace, my friend.

Sent by Richard | 3:03 PM | 8-17-2008

Such generosity of spirit on Leroy's part . . . we have learned not just medicine, but kindness, vulnerability, hope . . . and more, we have opened our hearts together through this ever-unfolding world of connection and communication. Rest in peace, Leroy.

Sent by Loretta Donovan | 3:05 PM | 8-17-2008

my sincere condolences to Leroy's family. and belated thanks to Leroy for his wonderful contribution. i'm sorry he won't know just how many people he helped.

Sent by mike r. | 3:13 PM | 8-17-2008

Good night, sweet prince, and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.

Sent by GFC | 3:15 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie-- you are in my thoughts and prayers. I feel so fortunate to have met Leroy through this blog. The words he shared have helped me talk about life with cancer.
He will long be remembered as the person who gave us the words to talk about the cancer experience. He will also be remembered as an articulate and caring person.
He will be greatly missed by those of us in the community surrounding this blog.
I am so sorry for your loss.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you,
Jean

Sent by Jean | 3:16 PM | 8-17-2008

I do not have cancer nor know it through friends or family. However, I stumbled on this blog and became an avid reader. I feel Leroy shared such a large part of him and that in itself takes so much courage. He was brave both on the battlefield of war and battlefield of the mind. My love and condolences.

Sent by Rachel Ragauckas | 3:18 PM | 8-17-2008

Since reading of Leroys' passing yesterday morning, I've been reading about his life. I was up till 3:30 this morning, reading anything that I could find about him. I read two articles that he'd written in the LA Times, one about Rwanda, which could break the heart of anyone who has one, and a plea to a newly installed network president for the return of REAL journalism on TV.
He was a brilliant writer, and journalist, and with the state of what passes for news these days, we can ill spare such a strong, clear voice.
Over and over in the years that I've read Leroys' blogs, and contributed to the conversation, I've frequently been amazed at how his frankness allowed thousands of people to talk about their illnesses, or that of those they loved. The barriers about cancer as a touchy subject came down left and right. I've often counseled patients to be open with those they care for when talking about their experiences with their disease. The silence and "protecting" one another just leads to profound loneliness, and to isolation. Leroy was a perfect example of this. His willingness to be open to the world about all that he was going through made it "OK" for us to share that too, and for having cancer to be a bit less scary, and less lonely.
In an e-mail, Leroy once called me "a pillar of the blog"...a title that never fails to make me giggle. (have you ever heard of a sillier title?) He was not just a pillar of "Cancer World", he was our leader, guide and example. He showed such grace under the fire of multiple painful surgeries, procedures and complications.
I'm glad that his suffering is over, and that he's free. I'm very sad for Laurie, and for all of those who were his family, friends and co-workers. I know that it's more difficult for you all, as you have his presence to miss, and not just his words. I'm holding you in my heart, Laurie. I hope that your pride in Leroys' value to us all helps a bit in lightening the pain that you're feeling. Consider yourself hugged, Nancy

Sent by Nancy K. Clark | 3:19 PM | 8-17-2008

My last link with Cancer World is gone. I have continued this quest for survival since losing my David in 2006,and Leroy was my last connection. I guess I have had hope beyond all hope that somehow he would beat it. I am so sorry that he is gone. My heart goes out to all his family especially Laurie. I have been there and it is the hardest thing you will ever have to face. I had kept up with many people on another colon cancer support group but have lost all of them. When I found Leroy it was like somehow I still had hope even though my David was gone. So now what do I do? I want to know how Laurie is doing, I think she has a way with words too. I really can't express how deeply I feel but it breaks my heart. Leroy was someone I would love to have met. I hope someone will find a way to compile all of this blog into book form. It would be a Best Seller.
Please know we are here for each other, Leroy brought us here.

Sent by Janice, Troy AL | 3:27 PM | 8-17-2008

I was an intern at NPR in 2006, and for a few weeks I helped edit the comments for Leroy's blog. I have had many family members plagued by cancer, and reading Leroy's thoughts and all of the wonderful and supportive comments left by readers had a profound impact on me, as it did on countless others. My sincerest condolences to his family, and may the work he did to bring people together live on.

Sent by Afton Woodward | 3:28 PM | 8-17-2008

I feel such sadness to hear of Leroy's passing. This blog has meant a lot to me as we dealt with my dad's cancer. We lost him three months ago, and I have still read this blog every day-- My prayers are with you- and may the knowledge of knowing how much Leroy meant to so many people bring you peace and comfort

Sent by Kim Troup | 3:29 PM | 8-17-2008

My recent prayers have asked that Leroy's way be made smooth. Friday or Saturday (before I heard the news of his death on NPR's Sunday Weekend Edition) I smiled at sweet image of fresh rose petals strewn on Leroy's walkway. May his homecoming have been sweet. Leroy's fierce heart and Maeve's news that he was proud of the "My Cancer" blog, leave me so grateful for his life, and for his having chosen to share so much of it with others. And Laurie, you are wrapped in such a cocoon of care and respite. Please take all the time you need and be deliberately gentle with yourself in the year ahead. Grief can leave you feeling as though you have sustained a brain injury: scattered and forgetful, but do not be alarmed by this. Nurture yourself deeply and be patient as you process Leroy's life and his death and the ways your life is changing. My deep gratitude to you, and to the many caring souls who lifted you and Leroy up during this journey. So many lives touched. Such a magnificent voice given to the vitality of people living the caner experience. such heart and grace in the face of transitions. There is a lovely African saying, "As I go, I am wearing you." I will wear Leroy's influence in my life with joy for as long as memory lasts. My deep blessings to you all,

Sent by Sarah | 3:33 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy, here is a final Jeep wave to you from me, thank you for the courage you gave to us all, in sorrow, Carrie

Sent by Carrie | 3:34 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie, I am so sorry to hear that Leroy died. Ever since I saw the cancer documentary with Leory and Ted Koppel, I have faithfully read Leroy's blog. I can never thank him enough for writing that blog every day. He gave me hope, sometimes he mirrored my own feelings, sometimes he made me sad and other times he made me laugh. I'm so glad that for a few days we was able to enjoy the Olympics. He sounded almost happy the day he wrote the post about watching the Olympics! My thoughts and prayers are with you at this saddest hour.

Sent by Pamela Cassidy | 3:35 PM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathies, Laurie

Sent by Laura from Texas | 3:36 PM | 8-17-2008

I am sadden to hear of the loss of Leroy. I always enjoy his e-mails that he sent to Nightly viewers during the time of Ted. They were always long but wonderful to read. He did touch my life in a nice way.

Sent by Marion K Teisan | 3:36 PM | 8-17-2008

Sending everyone in Cancer World love, strength, hope and peace...
Laurie, you are in my thoughts.

Sent by Lori | 3:37 PM | 8-17-2008

Oh Leroy! Your voice was pitch perfect and resonated with a currency that all of us who visited your blog so appreciated. Your grace and humility will stay with all of us whether we are a fellow patient / caregiver / friend. You took a piece of your heart and put it into all of ours. thank you. Thank you Laurie for sharing him with all of us.

Sent by Joy | 3:50 PM | 8-17-2008

It is so sad to lose Leroy and the daily conversations about life and death... really mostly life. The raw, truthful details were and are so inspiring to us all. We were all given so much and I am very grateful to have known the true man through his words. We all hope to live our lifes well, and Leroy has shown us the way.

Sent by Helen D. | 3:50 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
Even though I feel I have no place here, I listened to him on NPR. His voice may be gone, but he will always be with us. He provided such tremendous support for so many people. My sincere condolences.

Sent by Lisa R | 3:54 PM | 8-17-2008

This morning I was watching This Week with George Stephanopoulos and learned that I had lost another friend to cancer. Leroy had become a friend because of this blog and his skills in reaching out to so many. Now that my tears have subsided a bit I want Laurie to know how much I admire her. You were there fighting the battle with Leroy every step of the way. It must have been a great comfort for Leroy to have you by his side.

Sent by Walt from Los Angeles | 4:01 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
I am very sad about the news of Leroy's passing. I read his blogs often but I will never forget the first time I heard a blog broadcast on NPR one morning when I was driving to work. I had just been diagnosed with breast cancer and was scared about what was coming down the pike. His blogs were an inspiration and a great help to me. I am angry that cancer claimed another life. I will pray for you.

Sent by Jeanine Brundage | 4:05 PM | 8-17-2008

So much sadness to hear of Leroy's passing. I send my deepest sympathy to Laurie and deepest appreciation for the treasures of insight and wisdom Leroy has shared with us.

Sent by Karen | 4:08 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so very sorry. Leroy's words in his blog and on the radio were honest, comforting - even raw and disarming at times. I wish you peace & hope in the coming days.

Sent by Kathleen B | 4:10 PM | 8-17-2008

The world will be a little more silent now.

Sent by Betty O'Connor | 4:11 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

It has been so long since the last time I saw Leroy and you. I had been following his battle with cancer on NPR and never quite accepted the idea that this day could come. I figured there was some special exemption or extension, for people, like Lerory, who reached so many so deeply.

I don't have cancer; there is no family history of the disease either. Yet, Leroy's insights had meaning to me as someone who frequently takes the here and now for granted.

I offer my deepest sympathies.

Sent by Loren Goldfarb | 4:17 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,
Please know that I have been praying for you and Leroy, even though I haven't posted much lately. I'm so very sorry to hear this. I will miss his bravery and humor as he battled cancer. He was an inspiration to all of us - with or without cancer in our lives. During times when I felt like I was in my darkest hour, I'd come to Leroy's blog and always find perspective and - again - humor. Even though he's physically gone from us, he will not be forgotten. You have my deepest condolences and you are in my prayers.

Sent by Lisa Lindstrom | 4:17 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy -
Laurie emailed me and told me you had passed. Sorry I never made it back to DC to see you one last time. Looking at that picture of you on the hood of the Rover during the ground invasion brought back some memories of those 4 weeks of non-stop attacking. It was an honor to be your friend and I will you miss you tremendously. Just know that we did real well in Afghanistan and that I got all of my guys back.

Sent by Erik | 4:21 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

I pray that you'll have the peace Leroy now has. I loved Leroy on Nightline and wish I'd known he came over to NPR. Reading his last posts is a treasure.

Pati

Sent by Pati | 4:26 PM | 8-17-2008

I first heard Leroy on NPR while sitting in the parking lot in front of my oncologist's office. I found the blog (what's a blog?) and it's been my routine to read it every day before starting work. It's been two years, and I believe that I've beaten it, although my husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer this summer. I read Leroy's beautiful, sad, happy, hopeful blogs everyday to remind myself to live EVERY day. Take nothing for granted. Don't sweat the small stuff. Laugh. Cry. He will be sorely missed. My thoughts are with his friends and Laurie.

Sent by Marcia | 4:36 PM | 8-17-2008

I'm so sorry to hear the news. My thoughts are with you Laurie. Leroy's voice on NPR on November 20, 2006, will always be etched in my memory. That was the day I found a lump in my right breast. I remember him talking about his cancer having returned a year earlier. I remember feeling for him and really loving to hear his voice. There was just something about the way he read his essays. Even, after he was off the air, I read this blog religiously and it helped me so much in my own fight with the beast. Leroy will be missed.

Sent by Cristina | 4:38 PM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathies, Laurie. Leroy was an inspiration.

Sent by Virginia from Boston | 4:40 PM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie,Leroy's family and friends,
My deepest sympathies at the loss of your loved one. I and other members of this online community loved him too. As a Stage IV cancer patient myself, I saw my thoughts appear through his blog entries. For this I thank all those involved in allowing Leroy the space to be honest, open and creative about a subject that many turn from. I hope Leroy is now kicking back, having a drink and watching over all of us. He'll be missed! - Rocco, Stage IV, Melanoma

Sent by Rocco | 4:43 PM | 8-17-2008

I just found out and am still in shock. Laurie, you will get through this and laugh again some day. My thoughts are sympathy are with you. Thanks to Leroy again (I believe he is still reading this blog in his own way) for all that he has given to the world. You are missed!!

Sent by Laura | 4:44 PM | 8-17-2008

Silent too long, weeping silently, I thank you Leroy.

Fritz

Sent by Fritz Stout | 4:48 PM | 8-17-2008

He showed us we are all humans together. We all lost a great friend. My prayers are with you Leroy.

Sent by mart | 4:49 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie - he is now completely healthy and happy and will be waiting for you.

Sent by Mary Lenzi | 4:50 PM | 8-17-2008

I am writing this fighting the tears that I knew would come. Thank you Leroy for your wisdom and caring even in light of your own battle. We are measured by the footprint we leave in this life and yours was huge. The world is a much better place for you having been a part of it. God bless.

Jim R.

Sent by Jim R. | 4:51 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you for taking the time to write about the things that most of us may not even think abouit. Thank you for your selflessness and sharing. Leroy you will be missed and Laurie, "May God hold you in his hand and carry you on the begining of this next journey." My heart is heavy for people that I have never met but have touched my life so deeply.

Sent by Ann | 4:52 PM | 8-17-2008

Godspeed Leroy

with much sadness, thanks, and love,

Sent by Patricia DuBose | 4:54 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy, my Hero, my cancer world friend, I will never forget you.You were a light in the darkness for those of us inside. You were my daily "feel good" and I will miss you dearly. I will look for you there, as we are all not too far behind.

Sent by Ted Kindler | 5:06 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy's voice has been stilled, but his legacy is formidable - touching so many souls, giving so much of himself with courage, candor and humor.
Thank you, Laurie for thinking of all of us, when you probably wished you could keep the world at bay, and only concentrate on Leroy. I hope you can find solace from this enormous outpouring of love and admiration for your very special, unique husband.

Sent by Maris from Holland | 5:07 PM | 8-17-2008

Fly high, pain and cancer free! Thank you for sharing your road. You will be warmly remembered.

Sabine

Sent by Sabine | 5:11 PM | 8-17-2008

What a mensch he was... when I read the blog every day, I felt like we were sitting at a kitchen table with our coffees, chatting like old friends.

Laurie, I am just so, so sorry.

Sent by Dorothy | 5:11 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy's musings helped me so much when I was going through my therapy for my awful cancer. The term "cancer world," which I first heard from Leroy, has helped me to define my plight personally, and to explain to others that those stricken with cancer are sadly in another place. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Sent by Laurel | 5:14 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Leroy, I will miss you. Rest well my friend. Your blog has taught me how to live and be free with cancer. Thank you.
Love, Getty

Sent by Huguette Johnston | 5:19 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
The testament to Leroy's immense spirit is the hundreds who so mourn his passing. He was a gift to those who loved him as well as this community he so touched. Your loss is immeasurable but I hope you take some comfort in his light that shown so brightly for us all.
Wishing you peace,

Sent by Lesa J in MO | 5:26 PM | 8-17-2008

May his name be for a blessing.

Sent by Eve | 5:27 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie
Yesterday was my daughter's 17th birthday. We'd just ret'd from a few days in Boston, checking out BU and Northeastern as college options for her. I booted up NPR and saw the sad news. I just sat there and cried. Leroy's struggle was such an open book going thru this w/ such grace. I'm grateful it was quick, because he'd been through so much. My prayers are with you.

Sent by Valerie Longfellow | 5:30 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
my husband has cancer and read Leroy's blog everyday for his insight, inspiration and strength. Leroy was a special human being. Having lived through my husband's on-going battle, I have an idea of how difficult this must be for you. Know that we're thinking of you and are so appreciative of every blog entry Leroy made. Thank you for helping to bring him to us.

Sent by Jennie | 5:41 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie & family -

It's hard to believe that such a vital, sane, true voice is silent. I never missed a post. What a marvelous legacy he has left! Leroy gave such an eloquent voice to what so many of us have gone through. He's certainly helped me keep my head screwed on correctly!

Our hearts go out to you all.

Ann

Sent by Ann Stern | 5:43 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so sorry for the people close to Leroy who are enduring such grief, and so sorry for Leroy and his wife who lost such a vibrant life together.

My own gratitude is different than most people who might visit this blog. I come from a family with no history of cancer, with long lives, and good health. My gut tells me the good luck will run out, and we are so poorly equipped to deal with bad luck.

Leroy provided me a first road map for what is surely to come. I will always remember him for that.

Sent by Kate | 5:49 PM | 8-17-2008

As painful as his words could be, listening to someone talking about the mundane-ness of cancer and how awful his situation was, I enjoyed listening just the same. I recently lost my father so Leroy's passing reminds me, about how sad one can feel, how alone Laurie and her family might be and how much wishing time back they might feel. This 'club' of us, who have lost loved ones, it's a horrible club, made more awful when it's a crummy disease. Try to find the happy memories during this time and my wish is that you can recall those more than you can recall the sadness of his passing. I am so very sorry.

Sent by Shawn | 5:53 PM | 8-17-2008

Rest in Peace Leroy.

This blog was crucial in helping me deal with my father's cancer and eventual passing.

Leroy you touched many lives in a profound way.

Thanks

Sent by Christina | 5:53 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I "tuned in" to Leroy not because of his subject matter, but because his voice was so human. In one way or another, we're all trying to get from one day to the next while doing the most good and the least harm. You and Leroy showed me that this is possible every day, regardless of circumstances.

God bless you and comfort you.

Sent by Sandy Houppert | 5:59 PM | 8-17-2008

With deepest sympathy

Sent by Carolyn | 6:02 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so so sorry and sad.

Sent by Katrina | 6:08 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry for your huge loss. I will miss him too. Reading his blog has been an echo of my soul. It reminded me that I am not alone.
Laurie, I know from listening to his recent npr radio program with Ted and Elizabeth that he was thinkning about what would happen to the blog once he was no longer able to do it. In the past few days I have been thinking that if you are emotionally able to do so I would love to continue to hear from you on the blog. You, too, touch my heart when you write. I know that you understand. Maybe we could help you.

Sent by Diane Buckley | 6:17 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie and all of Leroy's dearest friends and family. I am so sorry...for all that you've been through and are going through now. Laurie - I wish I could give you a big hug.

He touched so many with his courage, humor, and wit. The world is a better place because of his work here. He planted some beautiful seeds.

God, I am going to miss him so much and I didn't really even know him. My heart breaks for those who really knew him.

Sent by Nichole in FL | 6:33 PM | 8-17-2008

Late to this blog, I only see the tip of Leroy's legacy, but recognize it as enormous and of great heart. And Laurie, if the next weeks and months are anything for you like the first months for me after Kerry died, I hope you remember that just putting one foot in tront of the other is enough. Life force does come back.

Sent by Victoria Hendricks | 6:34 PM | 8-17-2008

I have cancer....I heard Leroy on NPR describe " I won't go," experience and felt that no one else had expressed what I felt. I have read the blog daily ever since but have never written. I feel like my brother who understood me just died... I am so sorry!!1 I am sitting in Berkeley, Ca, crying as I am typing. He came to mean so much to me. I want you to know what a difference he made !

Sent by miriam nathan-roberts | 6:38 PM | 8-17-2008

I pray that Leroy is now at peace and free from pain and suffering. I also pray that Laurie and all those that knew Leroy will find peace during this difficult time. I am so thankful to Leroy and Laurie for sharing all that they have with us. It has been a great help for me and I'm sure for so many others. God bless you Leroy! You will be dearly missed!

Sent by Maggie | 6:39 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so saddened by the loss of Leroy. I will miss my comfortable visits. I will always remember the documentary. Leroy was so kind to share with us at such a difficult time. I have gained such wisdom from him and this entire cancer family. Laurie, take care of yourself and I will be thinking of you. Thank you for all your efforts in helping us.

Love to all,
Betty Lewis

Sent by Betty Lewis | 6:40 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, today I told my violin teacher about Leroy's passing. I have been telling her regularly about his Blog and journey. So we played a fiddle tune/duet in his honor today. It is called: "Short Trip Home" by Edgar Meyer from the "Heartland: An Appalachian Anthology" Short Trip Home was nominated for a Grammy and is played by Joshua Bell on this album. It is the most beautiful song; a song about it being just a short trip home to one's spiritual homecoming in one's heart. When I play it well it makes me cry uncontrollably. But I dedicated the song to Leroy today because it is just a short trip home to the creator of the universe for him. He may not have known it but he was very close all the time which is why he touched all of us so. I will think of him always when I play this tune and cry all the more. The tears of sadness though will soon transform into tears of joy for all the love and wisdom Leroy gave me. I will also think of you Laurie and all of you here that I've gotten to know on this blog. I will miss you all dearly: Debra from New Hampshire, JCR, Kim Forester, Nikki, Stan Wozniak, Peggy Carey, Sasha, Sue Chap, Nancy Clark, Laurie Hirth, so, so many more; these are the names I remember off hand. I could mention dozens of regulars if I remembered them that I learned so much from, and laughed and cried with...As JCR said Godspeed to all of you, to you Laurie and to you Dear, Dear sweet Big Guy Leroy. Love always Graham from Sag Harbor.

Sent by Graham G. Hawks | 6:47 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie -

I am so saddened to hear of Leroy's passing. He was a great man and this column helped get me through the most difficult year of my life. Leroy was a very loved and respected person, and an outstanding writer - able to effectively describe the feelings and frustrations I (and I'm sure most of us)felt but struggled to articulate and properly express.

Again, my most sincere condolences.

Our most positive thoughts are with you and Leroy.

Sent by Adam Kiracofe | 6:48 PM | 8-17-2008

As painful as his words could be, listening to someone talking about the mundane-ness of cancer and how awful his situation was, I enjoyed listening just the same. I recently lost my father so Leroy's passing reminds me, about how sad one can feel, how alone Laurie and her family might be and how much wishing time back they might feel. This 'club' of us, who have lost loved ones, it's a horrible club, made more awful when it's a crummy disease. Try to find the happy memories during this time and my wish is that you can recall those more than you can recall the sadness of his passing. I am so very sorry.

Sent by Shawn | 6:53 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you Leroy for teaching us how to face life and death with dignity.

Sent by Tony | 6:58 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy's wonderful thoughts have meant so much to me each day as I also battle stage IV cancer. He has been an inspiration as he faced each decision with courage and wit. A truly great man has left us with a grand legacy, but with a sad void in our hearts.

Sent by Jill in New Zealand | 7:04 PM | 8-17-2008

Two initial thoughts regarding Leroy's passing:

I am a high school teacher, and much of the time I judge my effect on this world by the number of students that I can reach. On a weekend when many of us don't visit this blog, I see that there are over 800 messages from cancer survivors and caregivers who benefitted from Leroy's compassion, humor, and insight. I feel that number is but a small fraction of those for whom he was a blessing. He certainly helped me through my diagnosis and recovery. If there is a question about who the victor is this battle with cancer, I know Leroy is the winner.

Secondly, I've received emails from a bicyclist with a signature that may be appropriate to repeat.
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting...Holy $%^&!! What a Ride!! Live every day like its your last!!

I think Leroy had one heck of a ride. Let's celebrate his life.

Sent by Andy Kearns | 7:04 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. It was a surprise to see a blog on a Saturday ... and perhaps Friday's blog, "The Growl of a Predator," was a warning, too. You had written, "Leroy's cancer is making it's move." These words were powerful and chilling - especially for those of us who are dealing with The Beast.

Love and prayers.

Please take care.

Sent by Karen in Sacramento | 7:07 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

My deepest, deepest sorrow for your loss. I never knew Leroy except through this blog and he helped me and so many others as he travelled this really crappy road called cancer. I know that life will not be the same for you for a very long time but take strength in the fact that you will be able to think of him in the future with a smile on your face instead of the tears of today. I cry with you and I will never forget Leroy.

Sent by Cindee, breast cancer surviovor | 7:09 PM | 8-17-2008

to Laurie and all of Leroy's family and friends -- I'm so sorry for your loss. Leroy was a special man and will be remembered forever by so many of us. Peace and love to all.

Sent by Alison | 7:24 PM | 8-17-2008

Such a shock. Opened the NPR home page and saw the news. Like so many, always started my day with Leroy & friends. Tears, sadness. Love & hugs to Laurie.

Sent by Kathlelen | 7:34 PM | 8-17-2008

My breath was taken away opon reading of Leroy's passing. Please know Laurie that you and Leroy are in my thoughts and prayers. Your words this last Friday now seem prophetic. It has been a privilege being a part of your lives these last two years.

Sent by Martine Broome | 7:34 PM | 8-17-2008

I feel the need to write this to you Laurie and your friends and family before I even read the 819 comments that have already been left for you.

The loss of Leroy is hardest on you Laurie and family and I am terribly sorry for that loss. Watching cancer take a loved one is so terribly painful. I will be praying for you during this time of loss and grief.

I would like to express my gratitude (if I can see the keyboard through my tears) for this community and the hard work Leroy put into My Cancer. The removal of the isolation that cancer creates cannot be under estimated.

As a mom of a 5 year old child survivor, words will never adequately express what this blog has done for myself and my family.

Laurie - you and Leroy are our heroes. So much support and healing came to our family due to Leroy's courage displayed on the blog.

I am signing off as I cannot see now through my tears.

Thank you and I am so so sorry for the loss of Leroy.

Sent by Melissa T | 7:46 PM | 8-17-2008

As painful as his words could be, listening to someone talking about the mundane-ness of cancer and how awful his situation was, I enjoyed listening just the same. I recently lost my father so Leroy's passing reminds me, about how sad one can feel, how alone Laurie and her family might be and how much wishing time back they might feel. This 'club' of us, who have lost loved ones, it's a horrible club, made more awful when it's a crummy disease. Try to find the happy memories during this time and my wish is that you can recall those more than you can recall the sadness of his passing. I am so very sorry.

Sent by Shawn | 7:53 PM | 8-17-2008

I am broken-hearted. I don't have words. Like so many, I started every morning with Leroy. He gave me courage on some very tough days. I will miss him terribly. He was family in every good sense of that word. Laurie, I am so sorry. Please know the impact Leroy and you made on so many people. Know that from my heart.

Sent by JMoyer | 7:53 PM | 8-17-2008

So sorry to hear this news. Our thoughts and prayers go with you on your new journey. Please know how much Leroys openness and frank discussions about his struggle with cancer have helped us all be stronger in the face of it. It felt like we knew him. We'll carry the memory of him with us always.
Fondly,
The Sherman Family

Sent by Deb | 7:56 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, I am so, so sorry. I knew Leroy back at San Marino High School, and re-connected from afar through this blog. I always had deep respect for Leroy's intelligence -- through this blog I came to know him more deeply. I am just so sorry. Cancer is cruel. I pray that God will give you all the comfort and peace that you need.

Sent by Mary Oettinger Westra | 8:02 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie-
I don't know that I have anything to say that over 800 people haven't said already. It is, however, a marvelous tribute to Leroy and to Leroy's Army that so many people checked in over the weekend, when one wouldn't ordinarily have expected to see an entry. It shows how much we all love and care. As I hope Leroy recognized, this blog and the community it created were a wonderful gift to those of us who have lived, or continue to live, in Cancer World. My heart is heavy tonight.

Sent by Leslie C | 8:08 PM | 8-17-2008

Wishing you moments of peace and very, gentle memories....and thanking Leroy, for sharing his journey. Hoping that he can see how very many lives and hearts he has touched....

Sent by Dawn | 8:11 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,
My heartfelt condolences. I'm sending you a cyberhug. I found out about Leroy's passing from a friend that I met on this blog. Leroy's words have had a vast rippling effect and will never be forgotten. Please take care of yourself.

Sent by Elaine | 8:13 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

I am so sorry for your loss. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers through this difficult time. Leroy was such an amazing man and we are all very grateful that he shared his cancer ups and downs with us daily. Reading the blog was part of my nightly routine ever since learning of Leroy's blog on the Ted Koppel special. He will be truly missed on a daily basis. Thank you for keeping us updated and sharing your thoughts these past months. Know that there are many of us out here keeping you in our hearts and our prayers.

Sent by Karen | 8:14 PM | 8-17-2008

As painful as cancer is, as heartbreaking as it is now, what a beautiful journey you shared with us all. Thank you. Peace be with you.

Sent by Annie | 8:17 PM | 8-17-2008

The war you were reporting is sadly over for you. It is a "terrorist" cell(s) battle of cellular degeneration caused by the lack of intracellular oxygen or anaerobic metabolism. Hopefully someone will pick up the gauntlet, Au revoir.

Sent by Patrick McGean | 8:18 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie,

I will miss reading Leroy's posts and hearing his voice. My sincerest and deepest condolences to you and your family. I will miss Leroy terribly.

We travel the same cancer world paths. I found strength in reading Leroy's blog and looked forward to starting every morning by checking in with Leroy. May he rest in peace in God's loving arms in paradise.

Debra Dorr

Sent by Debra Dorr | 8:21 PM | 8-17-2008

I started my own cancer journey almost precisely at the advent of this blog. Very few days have passed since without checking in. I will miss you Leroy.

Sent by Michelle R. | 8:24 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
I am so sorry. Peace and love to you at this difficult time. I have rarely commented, but read the blof quite a bit. I've lost my mother and father-in-law to cancer. I hope you find solace in the fact that Leroy was respected and cared about by so many folks. We will miss him...this blog helped me so much when I was having a bad day. It constantly reminded me to count my blessings, that life is fleeting, and most of all, to have fun. I'm sure heaven has a great big smile as it has just gotten a great inhabitant.
Stay strong. It will always be different--but it does get better, I promise.

Sent by Kathleen Schmidt, NJ | 8:28 PM | 8-17-2008

As with so many others, I really struggle to find the right words. A man almost none of us ever met created a place where we somehow felt safe to share all of our very private emotions. You could find every conceivable viewpoint on this horrible disease. One thing that was common though was we all understood the huge emotional and physical toll associated with having or caring for someone with cancer. Judgements were not passed. Support was the watchword. All of us who have been coming to this site will have an empty spot where this community existed.

Laurie, we all feel your pain. We all keep you and Leroy in our hearts and prayers. It probably seems of little consequence at this moment, but you and Leroy did so much to help so many people that while he is no longer on this earth, his and your work will continue to live on. I think if Leroy could speak to us now he would tell us he is in a much better place and he will be waiting for Laurie with their dog to goto the beach and have that mai tai. He would also tell us to keep helping one another and make sure you laugh. Ultimately that is why God put us here - to help each other and to make the world a better place. God got all he could have asked for out of Leroy and we were all lucky to tag along for a while.

Peace be with you.

Sent by Dave Ulery | 8:28 PM | 8-17-2008

Let perpetual light shine upon him! Rest In Peace Leroy!

Sent by Cindy H. | 8:28 PM | 8-17-2008

I just read this!! I am so very sorry. I was looking forward to Monday when Leroy was going to be back. Laurie, I will wish and pray for continued strength for you. You and Leroy will be in my prayers. With strength/peace filled vibes from Seattle.

Sent by Chandana | 8:29 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so saddened that Leroy is no longer with us to bring hope, honesty and humor to those of us living in cancer world. I never missed his blogs and got so much encouragement and support through them. He truly wrote of cancer as it is-the good, bad and ugly and always full of optimisim despite the roadblocks. I will miss him always. My thoughts and prayers to Angels for you Laurie. May they hold you in gentle arms to help relieve you of the sadness at this time. Take comfort in happy memories of the times you shared and know that Leroy made such a difference in a huge number of people's lives.
Fran

Sent by fran | 8:35 PM | 8-17-2008

My heart goes out to you Laurie and to all of Leroy's family. I'm so grateful to have known him and join the legions who followed his truly heroic chronicle of his journey with cancer. Rest now.

Sent by Nancy | 8:38 PM | 8-17-2008

Just found out. Was in Illinois concluding a family memorial for my mother who passed from lung cancer.

Leroy, we miss you, now and for many tomorrows.

Laurie, my condolences and much appreciation for you and Leroy sharing so much to so many.

Thank you.

Sent by Marge from Texas | 8:39 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you for everything you've done for us as survivors and caregivers. Leroy's voice through my treatment helped make me stronger. What an incredible person.

Sent by Katy | 8:40 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie--I've never posted on this blog before. I loved listening to Leroy on NPR and, just out of curiosity, looked at his blog for the first time a few months ago. The headline that day was "The Disease has Exploded." Since then, I've followed this journey daily, feeling so much sorrow (and, somehow, hope) for you both. When I heard someone on the radio this morning referring to Leroy in the past tense, I burst into tears. You and Leroy both have inspired me with your courage, your strength, and your grace. Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your husband and friend. He was a gift, and so are you!

Sent by Hilary | 8:46 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy shared with the world a very personal journey which has touched and inspired so many of us. I am sure he never imagined the lives he touched with the words he wrote. I have faithfully read them for the past two years and he has given so much of himself for all of us to share. Cancer touched my life 30 years ago when it took my father with the same disease that took Leroy's life. May the memories of Leroy's life bring you peace and comfort during this difficult time and rest assured those memories will be with you forever and that his spirit lives on in all of us.
Chris D.

Sent by Chris DeBottis | 8:47 PM | 8-17-2008

Dearest Leroy and Laurie,

I've read your blog off and on over the last year, relating to you as perhaps only a cancer caregiver is able. I say "off and on" with great respect for the battle both of you waged, as I was drawn to your diary by a desire to reconnect with feelings for loved ones now long gone. Your writing recalled many experiences for me, most of them triumphs of the human spirit despite the fact that cancer, again in the end, was the victor. But cancer also gave me something that nothing else could ever provide: the ability to distinguish things that matter from things that don't. Often, the difference is subtle. But thanks to cancer and the resilience of the human spirit, my pains are halved while my joys are doubled. For me, your blog refreshed that perspective.

Sent by brenda | 8:48 PM | 8-17-2008

I am sitting here crying about the loss of a person I never met. But Leroy has shared his humanity with us, his fellow life travelors. We will miss him. Leroy has made a difference! What more can one ask of this life than to do that! My sincere sympathies to all who were touched by his life and especially his family!

Sent by maryann | 8:48 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie and Leroy's friends,

I send you my condolences and cyber-hugs. It is not nearly enough, but it will have to do for now.

As a kid, I always thought that Leroy was the smartest guy I knew. As a young adult, I thought that he was the bravest guy I knew, because he was willing to go into any war zone to make sure that the truth was told to the rest of the world. While both of these are correct, it turns out that they really did not show us the whole Leroy.

It took cancer to show us the depth of character that was really there. I have to admit, it was the cancer that showed how brave he truly was, as he fearlessly faced the disease, and shared it with the rest of us. The true hero emerged, thanks to cancer. We all got to see the honest, articulate, compassionate, and still irreverently funny man that was Leroy Sievers. This Leroy has been a gift to
all of us, and his words are a treasure that I am so grateful he left us. What a legacy.

Laurie, You are my hero, too. I know that he was able to face much of this because he knew he had your steadfast love to rely on. Please know that you have my love--OUR love-- as you go forward. Please know that you do not go forward alone.

For the rest of us, we are richer indeed for having Leroy Sievers in our lives.

Sent by Lisa (Ott) Bottom | 8:50 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you Leroy and Laurie for sharing your life with us. We all know how hard it is to do the normal things but keeping a blog going during the ordeal of cancer is just amazing, and a testament to both of you.
Leroy will be missed.
Laurie may you find the strength you will need at this time.

Sent by Brit | 8:55 PM | 8-17-2008

My deepest condolences, Laurie. My brother passed away in January 2007 and then I latched on to Leroy and Randy Pausch. I feel the loss of both of them as deeply as my own brother. Leroy and Randy were great inspirations to all of us survivors. My brother was my hero. Love to you all.

Sent by Dorothy Marvell | 8:59 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you Leroy.

Sent by Julie | 9:05 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
I know this will be small comfort but I wanted you to know that Leroy's blog has helped me finally deal with the death three years ago of a dear friend. I found so much in his words that helped me. I am so profoundly sorry for your loss.

Sent by Cristina | 9:09 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie:

Your husband became a companion for me as I tried to make sense of the many losses of close friends and family over the last four years. His honesty, the range of emotions he shared (and you shared)--somehow they were healing for me. Thank you to both of you for sharing this road with all of us.

I miss him. I can't imagine how much you do and will. Don't let anyone tell you how to grieve or for how long or when. This is a road only you can go down, but there are thousands of us who have been down it too. I hope you have them in your life to bear witness to your loss and Leroy's life.

Sent by Raquel | 9:10 PM | 8-17-2008

I am so sad and wish to express gratitude to both of you for sharing this part of your lives with us. I am a cancer survivor and tho several years out, I never really expect to return to "normal" and try to live life on life's terms. Leroy spilled his bold and brave life out in a way that made us see humor and hard decisions as part of our human existence.

Its not how long we live but how we live and love each day that counts. Underneath the sadness is a huge bunch of love. Thank you both.

Sent by Kate | 9:11 PM | 8-17-2008

My own cancer journey was made somewhat easier through the shared experiences found on Leroy's blog.

Laurie, please accept my most heartfelt condolences at this difficult time.

What an enormous loss. I feel like I have lost a member of my own family.

Sent by Lesa in Kansas | 9:12 PM | 8-17-2008

Many mornings I lingered to hear Leroy's descriptions of his dance with cancer. I laughed and I cried. I admire his courage and the way he humorously dealt with cold exam tables, doctors, nurses, work and life. As I read these comments, I am grateful for all those who were helped by his My Cancer. We have lost a friend. May warm memories help ease the hurt.

Sent by Marcia | 9:13 PM | 8-17-2008

May peace be with the family of Leroy Sievers.

Back in 2000 or 2001, I received e-mails every day from ABC News that featured information about the subject of that evening's Nightline. I read the e-mails every single day without fail. Partly because I only stayed up late if Nightline had someone really great on! But mostly because Leroy Sievers was the author of those e-mails (many times, the e-mails were better than the actual show!). I didn't know Leroy Sievers, but I got to know a little of him through those e-mails and I sure did like him a whole lot. He just seemed like the neatest and most wonderful person you would ever want to know.

I read an e-mail in 2001 in which he discussed that evening's feature story - on Louis Armstrong. In the second part of the e-mail, he said he would be gone for awhile - doctors had discovered his colon cancer. I didn't even know him, but I cried! He sounded strong and brave and ready to fight. At the end of the note he suggested that everyone be screened for the disease.

I have kept that e-mail all this time, and was so sad to hear he died. I hope all the wonderful comments left here by others will comfort his family. What he shared with everyone in his daily blog has so clearly helped many, many people. Take care always.

Sent by Kelly | 9:18 PM | 8-17-2008

I have been reading Leroy's blog for quite some time.
I'm sorry to hear of his passing, and his family will be in my prayers.

Sent by Teena | 9:21 PM | 8-17-2008

My deepest sympathies. Leroy's blogging carried me through a cancer scare, and I felt stronger after reading his words. He will be deeply missed.

Sent by Angie | 9:24 PM | 8-17-2008

There are no words for a time like this...only prayers for those who must go on without him.

Sent by Jan | 9:29 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie and Leroy's family and close friends,

I will keep Leroy in my heart forever. Thank you Leroy for your loving gift to all of us. Would that there was a public memorial in the DC area, we would fill National Cathedral to the rims to sing all Leroy's favorite songs so loud that the heavens will rock.

We're here for you Laurie - our arms are around you.

With my deepest sympathy
and respect,

Brin

Sent by Brin | 9:29 PM | 8-17-2008

My heart is so heavy with loss and sadness. Laurie, we are with you-just close your eyes and feel our love.

You were right when you wrote a few weeks ago that no battle has been lost here. Leroy has touched so many lives, and continues to do so. We all have a bond of love that I will hold in my heart forever.

Goodnight Leroy, we'll see you in the morning.

Sent by Tina from Alton, IL | 9:30 PM | 8-17-2008

words fail. again. when i read friday's post i thought leroy was coming to the end of his days on this earth. much love to laurie during this time. leroy will be deeply missed.

Sent by anita - pittsburgh | 9:36 PM | 8-17-2008

You will be dearly missed!

Sent by Paria | 9:36 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy was an amazing human being who changed many lives including my own. His grace, insight, kindness, and fight were an inspiration to many. The world and I will miss you tons Leroy.

Laurie--I send my deepest sympathy, and prayers your way. No words I know can ever heal the emptiness you likely are feeling, but know that there are many people, some that you've never met, who care a great deal about you.

Krupali Tejura

Sent by Krupali Tejura MD | 9:37 PM | 8-17-2008

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Laurie. This blog has meant a lot to me; been a daily part of my life for over a year. I will miss it -- and Leroy.

Dave

Sent by David | 9:37 PM | 8-17-2008

RIP.

Sent by Darth Odie | 9:42 PM | 8-17-2008

I was drawn to this blog for Leroy's insight and inspiration - not only on cancer, but life. I will miss him. My sympathies to all.

Sent by Kim | 9:47 PM | 8-17-2008

While on vacation for four days I did not have access to radio or tv news, and just got home only to discover this sad, sad news. I am sitting here in shock. I feel as if I've lost a dear friend...as all of us do. Laurie, thank you for sharing your wonderful husband with us. Leroy was fortunate in being able to make such a difference in the world, and in the lives of so many people. We have been blessed to know him. I will say Kaddish for him when I next say it for my dad.

How can we rid the world of this damn cancer that is taking so many wonderful people before their time!?!

My deepest condolences to Leroy's family, friends and this cancer community....

Sent by Diana Cramer | 9:48 PM | 8-17-2008

Dearest all,

Thank you for creating this project so that it could make my mother's journey easier, for the time that she was on it, too. Being part of the television show just absolutely tickled my mother. I remember that in choosing her clothes for each segment she made sure to wear purple, whether for pancreatic cancer or for the flair, I certainly couldn't tell you, but I know she loved this blog and the show.

It meant very, very much to our entire family and particularly my father that Leroy and Laurie sent flowers to my mother's funeral. Not to mention the outpouring of love from everyone on this blog.

Laurie, you have the deepest sympathies of the entire Dornbrook family. We know all too well this agony.

With deepest love, respect and pain,

Mara Dornbrook Fojas
(Stephanie Dornbrook's daughter)

Sent by Mara Fojas | 9:49 PM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie and all of Leroy's friends and loved ones - please accept my heartfelt condolences on the loss of Leroy. There are many of us out here who will miss him and I hope that brings some measure of comfort.

Sent by Leah Forst | 9:50 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,

You are beginning the road our family began in March. Leroy will be with you forever. Thank goodness he will also be with so many more. I hope you feel the support and love that sprouted from Leroy.

Sent by Laurie B (Rachel's sister and Leroy's fan) | 10:05 PM | 8-17-2008

We all new this day would come, whether it be today, or a year from now. Cancer is a relentless beast. But the knowledge of this does not less the emotion. Anger at our inability, frustration, relief that Steve's suffering is over, and most of all, sadness. Although we have never met, Steve has spoken to us. He took us through his personal battle with cancer and all its implications, sharing so very much with so many. We are all saddened by this news. I will miss your voice, your insight, your humor, your compassion. You will be sorely missed. Our hearts and prayers to all his family and friends. Rest in peace.

Sent by Don Richard | 10:09 PM | 8-17-2008

I was not aware of Leroy's blog until after his passing. I am a new member in the battle with the cancer beast having recently been treated for kidney cancer. But I lost both of my parents to cancer and the passing of Leroy has opened the old wounds of their battles with the beast. 1974 and 1987 were a long time ago, but the pain of cancer taking away a loved one is never gone. It is simply in remission. I only hope I can face my cancer with the grace and dignity of Leroy and Laurie.

Sent by Randy | 10:12 PM | 8-17-2008

Peace and best wishes to Leroy and Laurie and all their loved ones and to everyone here who was moved by this blog and compelled to visit and reflect. Strength and courage to us all in dark times.

Sent by Patricia | 10:17 PM | 8-17-2008

laurie, you and leroy made this sad journey in a very public fashion. you need time to process this whole thing, but know that the gift of yourselves is of huge value to the whole community that is affected by cancer. leroy's wonderful spirit lives with all of us, but especially with you.
my sympathy to you and your family of friends.

Sent by jini | 10:20 PM | 8-17-2008

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us all. I shall miss the sound of your beautiful voice coming across my radio in the mornings. I used to just stop when it was time for one of your sharings. My heart was so heavy when I learned the cancer had spread - I so wanted to you to win the battle. I was selfish and I wanted to continue to listen to your voice for years and years and to never stop. You had come into my bedroom and into my heart like a friend and now I shall miss you as a friend. Thank you for your kindness and grace and bravery and caring and generosity.

You were one of many gifts I received over the radio. Prayers to you and your loving family. Thank you for being you.

Sent by Grace Adele Spruiell, Bethlehem, PA | 10:23 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy,

You are deeply and fiercely missed....

Sent by Sandi | 10:27 PM | 8-17-2008

I have read Leroy's blog for a long time without posting. I think it was all too close to my own situation for me to respond in any way except deeply personal. I knew this day would come. And I think I knew it was coming soon. I know that it will come for me, too. It moves me deeply that only a few days ago he was planning to be back soon. But maybe in many ways, he is. All of us who have read his words, shared his courage, wept with his pain and frustration, we all feel his presence in a way that defies understanding. So to Leroy's family and friends -- and to the friends and family of all who stand by those of us with cancer -- I send my prayers and blessings for peace and the presence of the healing one.

Sent by Martha | 10:30 PM | 8-17-2008

Please accept my sincerest condolences. I loved Leroy and his candor. I'm heartbroken....I knew this was coming but I dont like it. I am a two time survivor of breast cancer and I was a religious reader of this blog. My best friend from high school is turning 52 tomorrow and she also has metastatic colon cancer. We will do something fun in Leroy's honor. God Bless you and him for giving so much to so many of us.

Sent by Kathy | 10:33 PM | 8-17-2008

My heart goes out to you Laurie and all. It is hard to know what to say, especially after so many people have said such eloquent things. Leroy had such a special place in my heart and his words and strength helped me live a better life. Thank you Laurie for your poignant and honest post on Friday morning. Reading your words broke my heart-it seemed that the end was near. I certainly was not prepared for how I felt when I read the news that Leroy had passed on. Stunned, breathless, and so sad. This blog is a force of nature, and I believe that it will live on and continue to help everyone who is lucky enough to come across it. Thank you Leroy, Laurie and all who have contributed. You remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Merin | 10:38 PM | 8-17-2008

I just want to add my condolences to Laurie, family and friends. It's too, too sad.

Sent by Paulette | 10:43 PM | 8-17-2008

We've been away on a vacation where we received no internet, but somehow we knew it was close to this time. But what is time anyway, but a veil we must pass through? Laurie, our blessings to you now. We know Leroy will always watch us from the other side of the veil and shine on you and keep you well. You have so much living he left for you to do for the both of you. Please know there will come again a time to do that.

Our love to you in this sad time.

Thank you once again for sharing him with us so generously.

Sent by The Quinn Family | 10:43 PM | 8-17-2008

To Laurie, Leroy, and the readers of this blog - I don't have cancer, nor do I know anyone who does, but somehow, I've been drawn to read this blog. Reading Leroy's words, and the comments from other readers, has helped me to realize just how lucky(?) I've been. I've also realized how sheltered I've been. The blog has helped me in so many different ways, and for that I will always be grateful. My prayers go out to Laurie, Leroy, and those who are also fighting the battle against the cancer beast. You have shown grace, courage, and strength that I will always be in awe of. My prayers go out to Laurie, Leroy and family.

Sent by Traci in Willow Park, TX | 10:46 PM | 8-17-2008

Yesterday (Saturday) was the first day in perhaps years that i didn't turn on my computer and read my email. So it was a total shock when my husband sat down on the bed this morning and said "I have some sad news that i heard on the radio this morning." He told me that he'd heard on NPR that Leroy had passed away on Friday night.

My first response was "no, that's not possible. They said on his blog on Friday that he planned to be back on Monday."

Then I burst into tears, crying for a man i have never met, whose voice I listened to every day when reading this blog. I am crying now, too, as i write this.

Laurie, and the rest of Leroy's friends and family - - I am so very sorry for your loss. I have lost many family members and friends to cancer, and am a cancer survivor myself - - so i have some sense of the grief and pain you are feeling.

But Laurie, i hope it helps you to know how many people Leroy has touched, and helped, with his blog. His honest, caring words have made such a difference in so many lives. Thank you for sharing him with us.

All of you are in my thoughts tonight.

With deepest love and respect....

Sent by Suzanne in Houston | 10:50 PM | 8-17-2008

I'm a regular lurker, and I just found out. I am so sorry to hear that Leroy passed. He will be missed, and although I didn't know him, I will remember him fondly as my friend.

Sent by Kira | 10:55 PM | 8-17-2008

I returned this evening from a trip, went immediately to the computer, and, --with some trepidation--opened the My Cancer message. Still, I was not prepared for the awful news. I discovered Leroy's blog when my mother was diagnosed with leukemia and kept reading through her illness and her transition and beyond. It brought me tremendous comfort and understanding--not just for my situation, but for so many traumas and painful episodes of friends and acquaintances to come. As with my mother, I know that he is in a better place, but also know that we are all in a better place due to his efforts. Rest well, Leroy, and may his tremendous gift to the world bring some solace to you, Laurie.

Sent by Belinda Tucker | 10:55 PM | 8-17-2008

I always felt a certain bond with Leroy as i was diagnosed with stage 3 colorectal cancer in february of 2006 which is appx the same time he started writing his blogs. I would read his blog daily and always get something out of it but the one that i will always remember and want to have framed is the one he wrote on 6/25/07 titled "The Toughest Kids on the Block". I still get a lump in my throat whenever i read this blog. I will miss Leroy, he gave such insight to this horrible disease. I hope he is finally at peace in a place with no more operations,procedures or pain. God bless Leroy.

Sent by Chris | 11:04 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
Thank you both for sharing your journey with us here. You gave us a safe place to vent, laugh, cry, and so much more.
I first heard Leroy on NPR in the beginning of the blog, when a friend was battling colon cancer. When I was diagnosed with cancer, I found it meant even more to read the blog. I hope that you find comfort and know that we are all thinking of you.

Sent by Margaret | 11:04 PM | 8-17-2008

I regret that I have been a loyal reader of this blog for 10 months now and this is the first time that I have written a comment.

You see,Leroy was a source of inspiration for me as I deal with Lung Cancer. I had it in my mind that there would be plenty of time to comment as Leroy would be around for some time to come.

Now that he has crossed over, I still feel that way. The impact he has had on my life is one that will not expire.

Rest In Peace my friend. Well Done and Thank You.

Sent by kirk s | 11:07 PM | 8-17-2008

Prayers & condolences to you from my family...the more you love, the harder it is to say goodbye, but what a gift Leroy & you have given to us out here in Cancer World...

Sent by Mike Armstrong | 11:08 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie, family and loved ones of Leroy, my condolences to you all, and to cyber friends and family of Leroy's as well. I found Leroy's My Cancer blog after losing my loved one to Cancer and at the time of multiple losses, I could hardly talk about it. The openness and forthrightness, honesty, humor, compassion and sharing of Leroy and of some messages in the blog spoke to my heart and has given me strength, easing my loneliness and helping bring me back from a time that made no sense and that I had no words for. I wish you all healing and peace and wonderful memories. Thank you for sharing from your heart and for your part in the meaning this blog has added to our lives.
Love and Aloha,
Fran

Sent by Fran Welsh | 11:13 PM | 8-17-2008

I am greatly saddened by this news. While I knew from his recent blog entries that things were not going well, hearing this news so soon and sudden was unexpected. Leroy shared so much and he became a friend to so many, including myself. He created an amazing community here. We will all miss him greatly. My thoughts and prayers go to Laurie, and all of Leroy's family and friends.

Sent by Lilly T. | 11:16 PM | 8-17-2008

I don't have cancer. No one in my family or close to me has died of cancer. Cancer comes crashing into so many lives and families, but never mine. Then I found out I lost Leroy.

Sent by JJB | 11:22 PM | 8-17-2008

My heart goes out to all of Leroy's family and friends. I've been reading this blog for months, and always found such beauty in Leroy's words. I nursed my mother through her battle with glioblastoma 9 years ago. It's been nearly a decade, but that experience remains with me and Leroy's voice touched on so many truths about the struggle. And while it was the hardest thing I've ever experienced in my life, it is also my proudest accomplishment to have been with my mother on that journey. My heart goes out to you, Laurie...good work and God bless.

Sent by Beth K. | 11:24 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie, Bless you for being a source of strength and comfort for Leroy. Because of your care, Leroy could share his thoughts and perspective with all of us. We are stronger people, having had this gift given to us. God be with you in your time of sorrow.

Sent by Ed S | 11:25 PM | 8-17-2008

Like many commenters, I've been a quiet lurker and faithful reader for a very long time. I would venture to say there are many like me who just stumbled onto Leroy and got totally hooked -- not as much by his story as by his amazing candor, insight and generosity. I gasped with shock when I saw this news today -- although I should not have been shocked, really. I guess I just thought and hoped that we'd have more time with Leroy and I'm sorry we didn't, although -- and I hope it does not sound presumptuous to say this -- I am also glad that he didn't have to go through additional suffering and sadness and anxiety. Laurie, please accept my heartfelt condolences.

Sent by Marcia Hopkins | 11:28 PM | 8-17-2008

Dear Laurie:
I am new to this blog. I just read of Leroy's death and want to send my prayers to you. It is so special to read these thoughts. I have had 4 different kinds of Cancer and so far, I am in remission. I know I'm not cured, only on vacation from the pain and treatments. When I read your blog, I realize that this is probably not the end of my Cancer. I start thinking that I can just go my merry way...I forget that another Pet Scan, given every 6 months now, may light up with another cancer coming alive in my body. Ten years ago, when the first enemy invaded, I would have said I was in good health. Now, besides the Cancers, I am Diabetic and had a Heart Attack and had a quad bypass. I still try to have a positive outlook and always look for an end to this, other than that which Leroy fought and lost. My prayers are with you and I thank you for sharing this blog with us. I appreciate you and Leroy for it.

Sent by Charlene | 11:35 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie-
I was so saddened to see the latest post concerning Leroy's death. My heart goes out to you. He was an amazing person who brought all of us in the Cancer World closer together. He will be missed.

Sent by Deneen | 11:38 PM | 8-17-2008

To Christopher T. della Volpe: Although a faithful reader of Leroy's, I've never read any comments on his blog until tonight, so even though others may already know you, I do not. But I wanted to reach out to you and tell you that I hope you will be able to find a way out of your sadness and despair soon. Please realize that almost all of us have let someone down or done something we are ashamed about, and it is never too late to start making amends, helping others, and finding our own self-esteem and dignity again as a result. Please, if you still feel alone as far as friends and family, keep reaching out, and if you have not done so, find some professional help. You deserve it. I will be thinking about you and praying that things go better for you.

Sent by Marcia | 11:43 PM | 8-17-2008

My grandpa died on Friday as well from cancer. I had come to turn to Leroy and Laurie for guidance during his journey. My deepest sympathies and prayers are with you. Both Leroy and Grandpa are now bigger than the universe.

Sent by Sarah | 11:49 PM | 8-17-2008

Laurie,
My husband died in March, so I am 5 months ahead of you. I thought I was prepared for his death, but I wasn't. Expect more tears. As a friend said to me, it doesn't get better, just easier. Leroy's blog meant so much to my husband and me, and you were a big part of that.
Here are two quotes that a friend sent to me that may be appropriate.

"All that we can know about those who we have loved and lost is that they would wish us to remember them with a more intensified realization for their reality. What is essential does not die, but clarifies. The highest tribute to the dead is not grief, but gratitude." Thorton Wilder

"So if you need me, call and I will come. Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near. And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear my love around you soft and clear. And then, when you must come this way alone, I'll be waiting with a smile, and say, dear, Welcome Home!" Pauline Chen

With great gratitude to you and Leroy and love and concern for you in this time of grief.

Sent by Betsy in Oregon | 11:58 PM | 8-17-2008

Leroy made such a courageous difference with this blog. I wish his family peace and love.

Sent by Chris E. | 12:05 AM | 8-18-2008

"...you'll be in our hearts--always..." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIVaUcE4kAM.

Godspeed Leroy - may you rest in the arms of the angels. Thank you for all you've done for us, for sharing your life and your journey. Laurie, I am sorry for your loss, you are in my prayers.

Sent by Beth | 12:10 AM | 8-18-2008

I will miss Leroy. Condolences to Laurie and family.

Sent by jeff bartlett | 12:11 AM | 8-18-2008

When I saw there was a posting on Saturday, I was hesistant to open the email. Laurie, I am so very sorry for what you are going through and your loss. My heart is breaking through to my soul.

My mom passed away 7 yrs ago this November of Multiple Myeloma. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Being part of Leroy's blog gave me comfort, provided me a closeness to someone I don't even know, and provided me the hope that all of us want.

I will continue that hope.

I will continue to think about Leroy daily, even without receiving a blog update.

I will continue to keep you in my prayers and send you strength.

Sent by Jennifer White | 12:12 AM | 8-18-2008

I just got back from a camping trip out in the wildnerness of oregon and heard the news. I am saddened and shocked. I was diagnosed in Feb. 07 with stage three rectal cancer. After chemoradiation, losing all my rectum and part of my colon, temporary ileostomy, Six months of chemotherapy and then my ileostomy reversal, I'm doing better but not great. I read Leroy's blog every morning and he became a great inspiration for me.

Sent by Erik Lundh | 12:12 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,
I like so many thousands have read Leroy's blog daily, his words have given me the strength to fight the battle and get through each day. He will be missed so very much by so many. I thank you for sharing Leroy with us. My prayers to you, your family and friends.

Sent by Kim | 12:16 AM | 8-18-2008

He was such a light. May we all try to have a wry laugh and maybe even peice of cake with loads of gorgeous globs frosting in his honor.

He will be deeply missed and continually appreciated through his, Laurie's friend's and brave words.

Sent by Haley | 12:17 AM | 8-18-2008

I'm so sad that I won't see anymore of his witty comments or his disdain for crappy TV anymore. :) Leroy, you made me smile, you made me think and you made me admire your strength. I'm happy you got to see some of the Olympics.

Laurie, I hope you find solace in knowing how much he helped us all...even those not in Cancer World (I'm a nursing student). You are in my thoughts!!! Hugs to you.

Sent by Allison | 12:21 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie -- I wandered through this weekend with a heightened sense of life's beauty and fragility. Leroy's words will be missed, but his spirit and tenacity live on through this army of cancer survivors. Thank you Leroy.

Sent by Mary Ann O'Rourke | 12:25 AM | 8-18-2008

I have held you in my heart all week-end, Laurie. Just so sad to lose a man I never met. Reading this blog has been my morning ritual since Aug.2007 when my mother was diagnosed w/stage 4 colon cancer. I have prayed for Leroy daily and I will continue to pray for you and for comfort and peace to you.

I, like another who posted, picture Leroy in his jeep cruising thru heaven giving the secret wave to other angels.

My deepest sympathy,

Sent by Stacy | 12:25 AM | 8-18-2008

My deepest sympathies to you and your family. I've followed Leroy's blog since the beginning while I was working in France and continued when I moved back to Houston, but I've never written. What wonderful people you and Leroy and the rest of the cancer family are who have shared your lives with me and others. I, like others will very much miss the man I never met but felt close to. God bless you all and Leroy, you and Spanky be sure and tell my dad and Tuffy hello for me.

Sent by Betty in Houston, Texas | 12:28 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Maeve, Dear Laurie, and Dear Leroy (whom I hope will always be connected to us in spirit),

I've been out-of-touch visiting family for the past two weeks. When my husband picked me up, Leroy's passing was the first news he gave me. And, I wept on the spot for Laurie, for NPR, and for the loss we all share. This blog and this community have been an important part of my life since late June in 2006. At that time I was in the midst of first-line chemo. I didn't feel ready to go to a support group. And yet, this blog with Leroy at the helm, became my first support group, as if it was the most natural thing to do. It was just by chance I heard Leroy's initial June 2006 entry on NPR radio. He moved me and tugged at me in a way no one had before. Everyone on this blog has taught me so much. The depth and breadth of experiences in this community have probably been the biggest factor in my own psychological healing and positive outlook today. For this, I can never thank you all enough.

Thank you for sharing highs and lows, and creating a place to tell it all like it is. My heart breaks for Laurie, as you must bear this unbearable loss. I hope that you may take some comfort in this outpouring of caring.

Sent by Sheara | 12:31 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sad. I will miss you Leroy. You have given such a gift to all of us who share your struggle. I am so sorry for your loss Laurie. May you be blessed with peace and comforted by all of us who send you love.

Sent by Rachelle Portner | 12:43 AM | 8-18-2008

God Bless, Leroy, we all miss you terribly already. Heaven has welcomed a beautiful soul back home.

And Laurie, we're all walking this road with you in spirit. Please know you're in our thoughts and prayers each day. We look forward to reading your words when you're ready. Please take care of yourself, one minute at a time.

Sent by Amy in NJ | 12:46 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I knew Leroy long before cancer became a part of his life. Leroy was my mentor at Nightline when I began my career at ABC. He was always someone I could go to for guidance, even long after I left Nightline. He always gave me honest and straight forward answers that have helped me make decisions that affect where I am today in my life. Leroy was always very generous when I needed a recommendation or just a little advice. I am only one of many many others who looked to Leroy as a role model... I will miss him dearly.

May you rest in peace Leroy.. I will take your advice with me everywhere I go.

Sent by Reem Akkad-Kasm | 12:53 AM | 8-18-2008

I found Leroy's blog awhile ago and since my husband and I also lived in Cancer World, I checked on Leroy every day and occasionally posted a comment. My husband, who also had metastatic colon cancer, took his last breaths this morning, August 17. Leroy and Armond, your journeys were different in many ways, but you both fought this beast and now you are both at peace. Laurie and all of Leroy's friends and family, my sympathy goes out to you. Thanks for keeping the blog going and building this community.

Sent by Sara in California | 12:58 AM | 8-18-2008

When I stumbled upon Leroy's documentary aired in 2006 my good friend Maha, age 39 was diagnosed with the same cancer and at the same stage as Leroy. It seemed that they were woven of the same skein, their words were almost identical: the acceptance of the diagnosis, the factual description of the chemo hall, the reports, the tests, the doctors, the drives to the hospital. I wished that both Maha and Leroy would make it through somehow-there's always that percentage that defies the known. And there's always that unknown hand that is at work in our lives. .
She left this world exactly a year ago, after fighting for 10 months. I watched Leroy on the documentary and felt like I was watching what she was going through, and what was going through her mind, so articulate and so clear was Leroy.
Laurie, I wish you all the strength that you need.

Sent by Medha | 1:03 AM | 8-18-2008

Though Friday's sadness lingered long...I did not hear any news this weekend...and tonight I find you all here, gathered round.

Dearest Laurie and all who are Leroy's family, thank you for sharing this journey with us, enlisting us and enriching our lives. I vow to write more, to share forward this experience of living with cancer.

I will miss Leroy's light, yet smile imagining him beyond pain. Laurie, you are supported for as along as you need.

Thanks and love to all who are in community here.

Sent by Joan S. | 1:04 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,

I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in May of 2007. Leroy's blog has been a source of information and comfort and support for me. To borrow his words, I will miss him. Thank you so much for sharing him with us. I am thinking of you now and hope that you will find comfort and solace in knowing how many of us have you in our thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Loretta Kepler - Seattle | 1:05 AM | 8-18-2008

I cry because this person, Leroy, who has obviously impacted so many people on such a personal level is just gone, just like that. Isn't that what terrifies us all? Especially as a cancer survivor, it reinforces the fact that I am living on borrowed time and I want more. It's just never enough sometimes;not enough to raise your kids, love your spouse, and help to alleviate some of the suffering in this world. Your writing, which on a daily basis, reminded me to appreciate all I have, will be so missed. God bless you!

Sent by Lisa Hunt | 1:09 AM | 8-18-2008

Rest in peace Leroy. You have been a champion for me and all whose lives hve been affected by the cancer beast.

Sent by Joe | 1:17 AM | 8-18-2008

Rest in peace, my friend.

Sent by Myrna | 1:21 AM | 8-18-2008

What is so marvelous about a life well spent is the memories, the legacy it leaves behind. I have read this blog since it's beginning. I looked to it daily as so many readers have. I savored all the wisdom that Leroy shared & provoked from all of us - survivors and caretakers alike. Like you, Laurie, we all wonder what our days will be like without Leroy's message and your soft words of support and compassion. This illness has taken another great soul from us. However, the community that grew up within its shadow is one I am so fortunate to be a part. Leroy left us a legacy - a bond with each other - a place where we could hold each others hearts & hands in spirit. Laurie, we are here for you. Leroy's spirit will never leave us.

Sent by Linda Domeier | 1:26 AM | 8-18-2008

He didn't know me, but he was a friend of mine, and I will miss him dearly.

Leroy, thank you for sharing your journey with us. You were a very brave man. When I "grow up", I want to be as brave and open as you were.

Thank you, too, Laurie, for taking good care of Leroy, for sharing him with us, and for sharing your experiences with us. I wish you the very best as you begin to heal.

I am so very sad.

Sent by Pamela | 1:26 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry. I lost my mother to cancer. Leroy was an inspiration to me. I enjoyed reading his blog and his honesty about his journey with cancer. God bless you Leroy.

Sent by Janice | 1:29 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy may you finally rest in peace and be at peace. Cancer sucks and stikes too many people. We have got to find a cure for this awful disease. Laurie - I know NOTHING I can say will take away this pain and I am just so sorry you have to face this. Please use all of us as your sounding board and for comfort in this time of need no one understands like we here at this blog. I have used this blog as my comfort and it is where I have turned to everyday for the past 10 months to get thru my grief!! Laurie we are here for you we love you as we love Leroy! My heart breaks for you as you stayed so strong through all this and now is when your fight really begins but we are here please Laurie let us help you get through this we can do it together day by day as we did it regarding cancer with Leroy. Laurie I am so sorry for your GREAT loss. Thank you to everyone here you are all great people!!! Leroy is finally at peace but it doesn't make this loss any easier, it does not make it easier at all. DAMN CANCER we will win and beat you down you had better watch out we have too many angels up stairs!!! Love you Laurie! With great sympathy, Cori Swanson

Sent by Cori Swanson | 1:36 AM | 8-18-2008

This community has been very important to me. I'm currently NED, but based on multiple recurrences strongly believe that my cancer will return. Last week I had the opportunity to visit with my brother and his family in Maui. It was a last minute decision and was partly based on what I've come to learn from Leroy and this community... life is short and every day is a gift to enjoy.

My thoughts are with Leroy and the people he has left behind.

Ed Steger
www.hncancer.blogspot.com

Sent by Ed Steger | 1:59 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry about your loss. Leroy's blog was a gift and has made a difference to many. His spirit and insight will live on.

My father passed away from cancer at the young age of 48. Days after my father's death I came across "To One Shortly to Die" a poem by Walt Whitman and it provided comfort. Maybe it will provide a bit of comfort for you too.

Sent by Natalie | 2:10 AM | 8-18-2008

Cancer sucks! My best buddy Tom pointed me to this amazing gift of sharing when it started. Tom died twenty days after his diagnosis. I can only join the chorus of wishes of peace to Laurie and to all who are hurting.

Sent by Ellen | 2:12 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie- our heartfelt sympathy goes to you and your families. I linked the blog every day until Leroy's cancer exploded- and then I left for awhile- I was a coward- here's to all the courageous ones out there in the my cancer community! I admire your fight... Leroy and you, Laurie and the folks at NPR have made this community a possibility- please please please in Leroy's memory keep the community alive- so many people depend on it!

Sent by jeri from Villa Park, illinois | 2:12 AM | 8-18-2008

Goodbye Leroy, I will miss you. Laurie, you are in my prayers.

Sent by Susan | 2:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Farewell friend. Laurie, My heart aches for you. I am at a loss for words. I am so sorry.
Wendy

Sent by wendy | 2:43 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry. I am thinking of you and of all of your family, and remembering our June so very much. They were so much alike...I hope they are up to some good pranks together!
My Love and Prayers from the Philippines,
Terri Woods

Sent by Terri Woods | 2:58 AM | 8-18-2008

I'll miss Leroy and his great sense of humor. His blog was like a friendly voice in the dark for those of us who have cancer. He made the world a better place.

Sent by Steve in Olympia WA | 2:59 AM | 8-18-2008

I will miss Leroy's words of courage and wisdom. My thoughts go out to Laurie and his extended family.

Thanks for sharing, Leroy. We will never forget.

Sent by Greg (Honolulu) | 3:06 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear laurie
it seems strange that this time,, that leroy, yourself and all of us have been anticipating and yet seems so unexpected as well.
I am recalling your recent post about wanting him back, about wanting back the life you had together before all this happened.
laurie, I am so sorry.
I hope you can find strength in all the words of your friends.
I for one do not know "the right words", I wish I knew ones that would bring you some peace from your own pain. The man I never knew but who shared himself and made us feel we knew him, ..he must have been one great guy to know as well as you have known him.
And much as we know of you there will be many other people who knew him better than his family here , and who also feel a great loss.

I feel very privileged to know you and will be returning to re-read Leroy's words, listening to his mix of humour and insightfulness.

My sincerest condolences to you all.

Take care
JJ

Sent by JJ | 3:09 AM | 8-18-2008

This weekend I was in the Ardennes (I'm Belgian) and while I was in a huge cathedral, I decided to light a candle for Leroy, unaware he was dying... I followed his blog dail because Leroy was a wonderful man, who wrote beautifully. He is in the hearts of many people, he will not be forgotten.

Sent by Sigrid | 3:18 AM | 8-18-2008

Why not have a cancer walk in Leroy's name on the C&O Canal? Its long, lovely and would be a great way to raise funds to help folks who do not have insurance. (Grateful listener at the other end of the canal in Cumberland)

Sent by BJ | 3:34 AM | 8-18-2008

Too soon, Too soon

Rest well my friend

We will hold your memory forever in our hearts

love and peace

susan
california

Sent by susan | 3:39 AM | 8-18-2008

My thoughts are with Laurie and everyone who visited Leroy's blog. I hope your cherished memories of a life well-lived are a source of comfort. Through his honest and gifted writing, he helped me connect to the world my friends with cancer have had to navigate. I salute the courage everyone with cancer seems to muster.

Sent by Blair Barton | 3:39 AM | 8-18-2008

How to memorialize this literal and figurative giant of a man ? Maybe we can rename something he loved "Leroy". Melted cheese on anything, Leroy. A deep belly laugh, Leroy. A jeep wave, Leroy. A new kind of blogger who made friends of strangers and only brought out the best in people. Dear Leroy. How we will miss you.

Sent by Charlotte | 3:57 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,
I only met Leroy a few times but it was very clear that he truely enjoyed life and loved you. His legacy is not only his work on this blog, as a journalist, but also his love for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you now as in the past two years as I read the blog in the morning. You have been a true Women of Valor and I know that it will be hard but you will continue to embrace life as Leroy and you always have... With all my love.

Sent by Alan N | 4:02 AM | 8-18-2008

I let out an audible gasp when I read this post. Yes we knew this was coming, but that doesn't make it any easier. I'm just heartbroken.

Laurie, you are a courageous woman. I can't begin to imagine how hard this must be for you. I wish for you hope and peace, and for you to be surrounded by those you love. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing Leroy touched the hearts and changed the lives of more people you can possibly know.

I wrote a short post in memory of Leroy. It feels so inadequate, but it was one small thing I could do. If you'd like to read it go here: http:/lemonmargaritas.com.

Thank you, Leroy, for sharing yourself, your heart, your humor, and your journey with us. You will be missed by us all.

Sent by Snafu Suz | 4:07 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, the uplifting and love you are receiving from us will not go away with this blog. You and Leroy will be with us always, you have our love, strenght and respect. Leroy....job well done. Rest well our dear dear friend.

Sent by Karen/Jax | 4:41 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, Please, please do not leave all of us out of the next step in the world of grief. We are all a family and we should stick together as our lives go on. If you can possible manage somehow to hold us together we will all grieve with you and move on with you through the next few years. Maybe Leroy's gift is to keep on going through all of us sharing our lives even though he is not here. Maybe that is what he taught us, to not be afraid to share our deepest feelings with out judging. You are the only one that can move our Army on. We will all be there for you and help in any way we can. Think about it as I am sure you are doing. Wanted to put this in words not just think it. This energy should move on. With you in Spirit. Elizabeth

Sent by elizabeth | 4:59 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you both Laurie and Leroy for exposing your lives to us all. I was so relieved to hear Laurie's eloquent, candid thoughts and Leroy's frank and humorous words. You are blessed people and Leroy will be missed. What a wonderful community you have brought together. See you when I get there.

Sent by Lisa | 5:50 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
The loss of Leroy leaves a hole in all our hearts.

Sent by Molly from Texas | 6:32 AM | 8-18-2008

If I Should Leave You
by Isla Paschal Richardson

If I should leave you whom I love,
to go along the silent way,
grieve not, nor speak of me with tears,
but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you still,
and I'd come, I'd come, but could I find a way.
But would not tears and grief be barriers?
And when you hear a song or see a bird I loved,
please don't let the thought of me be sad,
for I am loving you just as I always have.
There are so many things I wanted still to do,
so many things to say to you,
but remember that I did not fear,
it was just leaving you that was so hard to do.
We cannot see beyond,
but this I know,
I loved you so,
'twas heaven here with you.

Sent by Harriet | 6:37 AM | 8-18-2008

I feel as if I have lost a friend.

I extend my heartfelt condolences to you, Laurie, and his family and friends.

Godspeed, Mr. Sievers. Journey well, and sweet dreams.

Sent by Jane | 6:38 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie--My heartfelt sympathy and thoughts are with you and all who read this blog. You and Leroy have come to be a member of our extended family. I know that his passing saddens all of us in a very real way. His courage in the face of the disease and your love and support for him have touched me deeply. His wisdom has given me much to think about in my own personal life.

Sent by John L | 6:42 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I scrolled down past the hundreds of comments that I knew would be there, and I started to cry again as I did yesterday morning when I got up to put a program to air Down Under. I was so busy all day that I didn't get a chance to think about it again until today, and I was just too sad to send an email. It's still not easy, but I had to offer my sympathy. Leroy was a classy, one-off kind of guy. Never too busy to help, no matter how busy he was, and honest and funny and genuine. When ABC got rid of him, they really got rid of the heart and soul of Nightline, and although it's still a good program, it ain't what it used to be under Leroy and Ted. Sorry to concentrate on his work, Laurie, but that's how I knew Leroy, and although I'm thousands of kilometres away, I feel the pain you and all the correspondents above feel. I loved Leroy even though we never met, and I cannot begin to imagine the loss you are now coming to terms with. As we say in Australia, Leroy was a great bloke and I would have loved to have a beer with him and share a few war stories. One day perhaps in that great newsroom in the sky. Please accept my sincere condolences. Love, Tom

Sent by Tom K in Sydney | 6:44 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry. Please know that Leroy has been an example to all of us, especially those of us with cancer, through his quiet courage, his ability to put our situations in a broader context, and his remarkable gift for words.

Sent by Carl | 6:44 AM | 8-18-2008

I owe Leroy and Laurie thanks for the example of courage, openness, generosity of spirit, and optimism. It is an example that set me straight day after day as someone not yet living in "cancer world." You have my condolences, Laurie.

Sent by Anne | 6:45 AM | 8-18-2008

As a cancer survivor myself, I followed Leroy's blog with a mixture of fear, respect and love. He put into words so many of the thoughts that we, on this side of the diagnosis, feel. It's not the first time that I've cried hearing an NPR story, but I have to admit, I've never cried harder. It's like losing one of your own family. My heart goes out to his family.

Sent by Katie Delahaye Paine | 6:51 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry! Leroy helped me cope with the death of my brother from lung cancer on 7/16/08. It helped me see into what my brother must have been going thru even tho he hid it from me personally. Leroy will never be forgotten. Heartfelt thanks from Tennessee.

Sent by raownby | 7:01 AM | 8-18-2008

This blog is such a tribute to one single man who made such a difference to so many people. Thank you Laurie, for sharing an extraordinary person with us, the ordinary cancer warriors.

Sent by Tammy Valley | 7:04 AM | 8-18-2008

My heart is sad and aches. Thank you Leroy, Laurie and all for getting me through some difficult times. My prayers to all. The moon was bright on Friday shining for Leroy. Wit care...

Sent by anne lumberger | 7:17 AM | 8-18-2008

While we all knew we would wake up to this news some morning, it still feels so unreal.
He was a wonderful, caring man.He was so perceptive. He was so honest with us.
Laurie..you clearly were Leroy's true soul-mate, who lived every second of everyday with him, and cared for him as much as humanly possible.
My prayers are with you. Leroy will be missed, and this blog is a real testimony to how much you both were loved and respected.
Leroy is at rest.
May The Grace of God Be With You.
Wanda Amorose

Sent by Wanda Amorose | 7:17 AM | 8-18-2008

Namaste, Leroy, Namaste. Things have not changed. The light in me still honors the light in you.
Love, Don

Sent by don winslow | 7:20 AM | 8-18-2008

Goodbye, Leroy.
All I can say is "thank you."

Sent by Karen | 7:24 AM | 8-18-2008

My condolences to Laurie. Leroy has brought me many things as I battle my own form of the beast: courage, laughter, tears, but most of all, lucidity and perspective. Thanks to him, I live with cancer, but the cancer isn't my life.

Sent by Benoit | 7:28 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you all for sharing your expirnces here. It made me feel so much less alone in trying to take care of my Mom. Leroy said many of the things Mom and I felt and made it all a bit easier for the rest of us.

Sent by Erin | 7:30 AM | 8-18-2008

My deepest sympathies. Leroy was one of the few people that can truthfully be call "a good man". He had the incite and feeling to bring thousands of people who never meet personally to care and love each other. He will be sorely missed.

Mel Marsh
Spring Hill, KS

Sent by Mel Marsh | 7:34 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,

One huge gigantic hug from all of us. We are all here for you. Please, however we can help you, let us.

All the bloggers

Sent by Kim | 7:39 AM | 8-18-2008

I just discovered this blog today, 3 months to the day that my husband gracefully and heroically lost his 4 year battle with cancer. The daily posts tell our story as well. They share with the world the private, unforgettable experience that the two of us lived every day. Thank You.

Sent by Andrea | 7:44 AM | 8-18-2008

ive never had the opportunity to meet laurie and leroy but they have become part of my everyday routine. i cant even begin my day with out reading his blog. many thanks to his family for allowing us to become part of his life.

Sent by sarah | 7:45 AM | 8-18-2008

Dearest Leroy(in heaven) and Laurie, I will miss the both of you so much. I looked forward to your message everyday. My deepest sympathy, Annette Purdy

Sent by Annette Purdy | 7:54 AM | 8-18-2008

My Monday morning routine the past few years consisted of checking email..followed by Checking for a post from Leroy after His weekend Hiatus...
So,it's Monday Morning...but there's no post for August 18th from Leroy.
Life is always worth living..but it isn't always fair.

Sent by Allecia | 7:55 AM | 8-18-2008

I lost my husband to cancer after a valiant 12 year fight and Leroy's blogs brought many a tear to my eyes. My husband too lived his life to the fullest as long as he was able; I recognized many of his comments and thoughts as I read Leroy's words. My sympathy and love to his family.

Sent by N. Palmer | 7:56 AM | 8-18-2008

May the angels take you into paradise; may the martyrs wlecome you on their way, and lead you into the holy city Jerusalem. May the chior of angels welcome you, and may you have everlasting rest and peace.

Sent by cbm | 7:58 AM | 8-18-2008

There was no one like Leroy. The big guy. The one with a heart of gold. His loss is a loss for us all. I am glad that he is no longer in pain, but I sure wish he hadn't gone. As a journalist words were his raw material, which he crafted into finest gold. He was never finer than right here in this blog. If you define news as "that which affects people", then My Cancer was news. Not so much about Leroy himself, but about every one of us. We are all touched by cancer and Leroy brought that to life with his brilliant, personal writing. This blog meant so much to so many. I consider myself extremely lucky to have known him personally for many years. He was a great man. We will all miss him. Laurie, my heart and the hearts of thousands of Leroy's admirers go out to you today.

All our love,

Joe

Sent by Joe Robertson | 8:03 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you Leroy!

Sent by Pierre, Cincinnati OH | 8:05 AM | 8-18-2008

I am devastated. Leroy was my rock. He gave me the strength that I did not have. He will be missed beyond belief.

Sent by Barbara Hirsch | 8:06 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I have been reading Leroy's blog everyday and praying for him and all the people fighting cancer everywhere.
I lost my mom to cancer when I was 25 and I lost my dad to cancer when I was 29. As if that wasn't enough cancer took my oldest child away from me when she was only 24. Cancer SUCKS.
When Leroy talked of selling his jeep it reminded me of my daughters blazer and how she wanted to drive it so badly and couldn't because she was so sick.

I will miss Leroy.

Sent by Olivia Wallace | 8:08 AM | 8-18-2008

The comfort you provided others was enormous. May God provide such comfort to your family now.

Sent by Rob | 8:08 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry yet I know that he was struggling. Peace be with Leroy and you too.

Sent by Pat Z. | 8:08 AM | 8-18-2008

I am at a lost for words. I do know that I talked with my dad, who is up above since Dec, and he will be looking for you so you all can hang together.

THANK YOU Leroy for all that you did for me since the beginning of this blog. You gave me strentgh when I didn't have any, made me laugh when I really didn't feel like it, and most of all you helped me to see and understand what my dad really felt as I would read your blog and understand what my dad meant when he said things.

You are an angel and I will never forget you and what you have done for such a big portion of our lives (all us bloggers).

Laurie, THANK YOU for being so supportive of Leroy through the end and helping him to write this blog when he didn't have the strentgh to write on certain days. Remain strong and always remember the happy times and moments you all shared! You are a beautiful person and I hope that somehow we can all stay in touch and keep all of our loved ones memories alive and going!

God Bless you Leroy!

Love,
Cristina

Sent by Cristina Barthel in Tampa, FL | 8:08 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie, I read many of Leroy's posts, after my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor last year but before most hours of the day, and night, became dedicated to taking care of him, as his abilities weakened and disappeared, one by one. Please know that there is a stranger here in Ohio thinking of you, sharing what you must be going through, as my husband also died this weekend, early Sunday morning, while our 14-year-old son and I held him, having to let him go but needing to touch him with loving arms as long as we could. I send caring thoughts to you and understanding as well.

Sent by nancy roth | 8:12 AM | 8-18-2008

I enjoyed Leroy's blog from the start and was honored when he chose to answer one of my questions in a post. Leroy was a large man who led a large life. He reminded us all that cancer is the great equalizer. He a gave a voice to all of us who live with the disease and shed light on a type of cancer that gets little attention. My heart goes out to Laurie and their community. The giant has left us and the feeling of loss is great.

Sent by Andrea Clay | 8:13 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you.

Sent by jen barad | 8:13 AM | 8-18-2008

I'm very sorry to hear this. Leroy did such a wonderful job brining us all together with this blog, he will truly be missed and touched many many lives. My condolences to Laurie. R.I.P. Leroy.

Sent by Bill | 8:19 AM | 8-18-2008

Another long time lurker who never posted. Elizabeth Edwards was right. I'm certain it will never be known just how many were touched by this blog.
Laurie, some of the most poignant entries I read were yours. The words shared by the two of you meant so much to so many. Peace and strength to you. My sincere condolences.

Sent by Kim H | 8:20 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Leroy & Laurie,
All weekend I thought about Leroy and here today I discover he has gone. I'm so sorry. I'll miss hearing from him each morning so much. Thank you for sharing your lives with us. What a gift his life has been to so many.

Sent by Tina Oehser | 8:21 AM | 8-18-2008

I can't begin to express the sadness I feel at this loss. It's as though I have lost a memebr of my family. Having already lost a sister-in-law to this beast this feels eerily the same. Leroy's blog has kept me in touch with the "other side" of life. the side that we don't smile about; the side we fear; the side we all know lurks so close to each of us. What has amazed me about his posts was his unflagging intellect that shone through all the pain and suffering he endured. I will miss his spirit and his perspective. As with so many losses, we have lost somoene we can ill afford to lose. All my parayers are with Laurie and the rest of his family. May he rest in peace at last!

Sent by Mike Rosenwasser | 8:22 AM | 8-18-2008

This wonderful and inspiring community of people, survivors, family members and friends all mourn your loss. It is ususual for me to sit at work and have tears running down my face. Laurie, know Leroy will be missed. His blog was the first thing I read in the morning after getting to work. In spite of the blog begin about cancer, Leroy's humor and insights were and are something to behold.

Sent by Carolyn, Haslett, MI | 8:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope your friends and family will help you through this very difficult time and please know how much you and Leroy have given to all of us. Thank you for sharing him with us, he was a remarkable man, he was a mensch of the highest order. May he rest in peace and may God hold him close to him. Leroy is no longer in pain.

Love,
Lianne

Sent by Lianne Friedman | 8:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy was a brave man who looked the beast in the eye and called it by its name. His comments and insights have helped me enormously. Thank you Leroy. My deepest sympathy to Laurie and to his family and friends.

Sent by Catherine Doyle | 8:23 AM | 8-18-2008

Rest in peace kind and gentle Leroy...you made our difficult journey easier. You are now free of the beast!

P

Sent by Pat | 8:24 AM | 8-18-2008

we are never truly ready to let go of love , love given,taken, shared... so losing leroy is profound and sad, he has magnified the world for so many of us, help me get to what matters most leroy exemplified life, living all the moments of it , whatever is brought to you , you've been blessed to share so much with him laurie and my heart breaks with you... I hope you can find a bit of peace knowing you journeyed together in this his last war.. bravely, with courage and at the front

Sent by barbara | 8:25 AM | 8-18-2008

My stomach dropped when I heard about Leroy's death on CNN. I read his blog every day at work. It's funny how cancer bonds us all: once touched by it you become part of an extended family (albeit one you never, ever wanted to join in the first place). I felt such a connection with both Leroy and all the wonderful people who posted comments and shared their stories as well. My heart is with Leroy's wonderful wife. xo

Sent by Sarah | 8:30 AM | 8-18-2008

Oh Laurie, how sorry and sad I am for you. You and Leroy, and this entire community, have made such a difference in so many lives. I can't type through my tears, but know that we all love you and will miss Leroy very much. Thank you for sharing.

Sent by Kelly in Maryland | 8:31 AM | 8-18-2008

ALL IS WELL
by Henry Scott Holland Canon of St Paul's Cathedral, 1817

Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I, and you are you

Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my own familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used, put no difference
into your tone.

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me
Pray for me if you wish.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was,
Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight.
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
Somewhere, ever near, just around the corner,
And all is well.

Laurie, you are not alone. Leroy will always be with you. My heart is pierced yet again. May you feel all the love that surrounds you as you start your new journey.....God Bless you. We also will miss Leroy. All my love,

Sent by Joanie Weaver | 8:34 AM | 8-18-2008

I am posting in the hopes of doing my small part to let you know extent of Leroy's positive impact. I haven't had close personal experience with cancer, but began reading Leroy's blog after the shock of learning that a coworker - a woman about my age who, like me, is a mother of a young child - had brain cancer. I think the sum total of compassion and understanding in the world has increased due to Leroy's efforts. I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by Sharon in Takoma Park | 8:35 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry to hear of Leroy's passing. Catching up on the blog on Monday's is my first activity. Just seeing this today makes me sad. Leroy will remain with this community for a long time. He made a huge impression with me as I continue to Live With Cancer. God bless you.

Sent by JJG in Minnesota | 8:42 AM | 8-18-2008

I have followed the blog for several months now and have come to love Leroy. He displayed so much courage in the face of impossible odds. I do not suffer from this dread disease but I gathered strength from Leroy's blog. I shall miss him!!!

Sent by Debora Phillips | 8:44 AM | 8-18-2008

I'm so sorry Laurie.
I wish you peace.

Sent by Susan | 8:44 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy has obviously touched so many people during his time on this blog. I was only one of so many, a daily reader each morning before work.

Like many others, I was not ready to see it end.

Hoping that all the words will give strength to you, Laurie, during this time.

Sent by Morgen | 8:45 AM | 8-18-2008

Like most of us making comments here I never met Leroy in person but still feel the loss of losing a friend. Beginng tonight I will always pay tribute to a great guy as I tip a cold one and enjoy a jalepeno from the garden with some cheddar on the side. Here's to you, Leroy. Shine on friend!

Sent by Dan | 8:46 AM | 8-18-2008

Amen

Sent by Judy | 8:46 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you for all your reports and your legacy. You will be sorely missed.

Sent by P. | 8:46 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I am sad for your loss. My thoughts are with you.
It is almost mysterious to think about -how could I be sad to lose someone I never even met? We never spoke, never exchanged words in any way, yet I am sad he is gone and he will leave a gap in my life.
And to all the others out there that I've never met yet I think about almost daily, JCR, Sasha, Bruce, Nikki, Stan, Don, John...never met any of you and yet I think about you and care about how you are feeling.
I will go about my normal day a bit sadder today but unable to explain to anyone why. Would it make sense to say someone I don't really know died and I will miss him?
Anyway, this isn't about me. Laurie, no mere words can help you through but maybe somehow you will feel the warmth of all of us here and it will ease the pain just a bit.

Sent by Jeanne | 8:49 AM | 8-18-2008

You are in my thoughts and prayers, Laurie. Thank you and Leory for sharing this difficult journey - you have helped countless people with and without cancer.

Sent by Molly | 8:51 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,

This news brings me to a very heavy heart today. I have kept your family in my prayers for some time now. Leroy was the most wonderful person. Sharing his life story through this blog has brought so much comfort to so very many. Laurie, your loving husband has left you with so much to remember him by...many people never share this kind of love. Find comfort in knowing that he will no longer suffer. You will always carry his love in your heart forever. May God Bless you today and give you the strength you need to get through these next days and weeks. Thank you too for allowing the world to share in your story.

Sent by Chris in Virginia | 8:52 AM | 8-18-2008

"What strength"!!!!!! "What Courage"!!!!!

Sent by Dr. Jeffrey Schlesinger | 8:53 AM | 8-18-2008

I have been touched in a way that I will never forget. We all want to make a difference in this world; Leroy you did!
For those that knew him best, I wish you peace in knowing that his pain is over and that he gave you (and us) great memories to carry with us.
Thank you Leroy!

Sent by Phil | 8:53 AM | 8-18-2008

My deepest sympathies. I am truly sorry for your loss. I never met Leroy, but I will miss him.

Sent by amy | 8:53 AM | 8-18-2008

Hero is a word often overused, but Leroy and Laurie are true heroes. To chronicle this journey and call people to unite together and face this challenge head-on is truly inspirational. You showed us how to live bravely and gracefully, and now pass on bravely and gracefully. Thank you and all my love to you.

Sent by Ann White | 8:56 AM | 8-18-2008

Prayers and Peace to you Laurie. Thank you for your courage to share this journey with us. I am so grateful for Leroy's honesty. I am so, so sad. My heart goes out to you. And may the good wishes and memories of all of us carry your love Leory to the place of his dreams. Namaste, Namaste.
Susan

Sent by Susan | 8:56 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy brought me tremendous hope. His journey has been a blessing to many. It saddens me so that one that could bring so much to so many has to fall in this way. Godspeed Leroy.

Sent by Jason J. | 8:57 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie, I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope that your strength and that of the family and friends who love you and Leroy will carry you through to a place of Peace.

With deepest sympathy, Robin Solomon

Sent by Robin Solomon | 8:58 AM | 8-18-2008

Rest in profound peace. I never knew you, but I felt I came to know you as a friend through your writings. They filled me will hope, sorrow, anger at a hideous disease, joy and wonderment. Thank you for sharing your life and passing.

Sent by Scott Alie | 9:01 AM | 8-18-2008

LeRoy, I'm so sorry you left so suddenly, but I have been really concerned about all terrible experiences you might be facing. So while I hate the fact that you had to drop your body, it was of no use to you. I know you are feeling better now, and it is easy for me to imagine your awareness and response to all of this activity related to your death and life. I only wish I could have the experience of you while you are in the spirit world. My mother died of cancer on the same day 14 years ago. I am very grateful for your blog, since so many of my loved ones have died of cancer. I will always remember you with gratitude and love, LeRoy, on this day, when I remember my mother's crossing over.

Sent by Patricia Quinn | 9:01 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie: i send you peace in your sorrow. I was so sad to read that Leroy had passed away, but also glad for him because of his increasing suffering. Your comments on the blog meant so much to me because I am a partner of a person living with cancer. The blog helped me to focus on living each day with as much love as possible.
I'm praying for you and Leroy's extended family ...

Sent by Eileen Paul | 9:02 AM | 8-18-2008

I normally am not one to post on blogs, logs, and anything of this nature. I was deeply moved by the reports put forth by LeRoy Seivers and his dealing with his cancer. I have never had cancer, but have always in fear of it after losing both a parent, a child to cancer.
His reports where honest, sincere, and real. Something I valued and will miss.

Sent by Jim B | 9:02 AM | 8-18-2008

we have lost a great communicator, a man who helped us all to understand what the people we love with cancer are going through when we ourselves can't know.
leroy will be missed by so many.

hang in there laurie, time helps it hurt less.

Sent by bethany sumners | 9:03 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie

I know there is nothing I can say to take the hurt away. But I am truly sorry and will miss your Leroy so much. I was not prepared for the post this morning; I still don't think it's set in. I consider myself so lucky to have stumbled upon Leroy and his blog during my cancer journey. And now I'm left wondering who I will look to for guidance, who will answer the hard questions HONESTLY?

I will never forget you, Leroy...you touched my life and I am grateful. Peace be with you...

Sent by Tess from KY | 9:03 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy's voice became so familiar, so welcomed, that I greedily thought it was ours to enjoy for many years to come. I'm so sad it's been silenced.

Sent by Steve Julian | 9:06 AM | 8-18-2008

I am feeling tremendous sadness today.

Sent by Susan Ebbinghouse | 9:07 AM | 8-18-2008

My sincerest sympathies to Leroy's family and friends. I don't often cry over the passing of someone I never knew but after having listened to Leroy on NPR for the past two years I did indeed cry for the loss of a generous man. Generous because he offered his deepest personal thoughts to those who could most benefit from them, others with cancer. I wish you well, Sir, on your journey to the next world.

Sent by Christine Henderson | 9:08 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy's blog provided so much to so many. It helped us understand our disease; we knew we weren't alone in the fight. It helped our caregivers and family understand our feelings and theirs. Leroy, you shared the most personal, vulnerable, serious parts of your life with us and helped us better understand ourselves. Thank you and God bless.

Sent by Norma H. from Kentucky | 9:10 AM | 8-18-2008

I've never commented before but I wanted to say thank you to Leroy and his family. I work with cancer survivors and reading his blog reminded me of the daily struggle. Peace to his family and friends.

Sent by Krista | 9:16 AM | 8-18-2008

I am saddened to hear that the ABC News reporter, who has been candidly sharing his views and his battle against cancer, has in the end succumbed. His struggle touched me.

Rest in Peace.

Sent by Paul Weimer | 9:16 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry to hear about Leroy's death. The blog was a great help to me during and after my cousin's death from cancer. This is such a loss.

Sent by mt | 9:17 AM | 8-18-2008

There are no words for the sorrow we feel for your loss and our loss. You are in our prayers.

Linda

Sent by Linda | 9:19 AM | 8-18-2008

I never met Leroy, but through his words, I just loved the guy. I can't stop crying.

Sent by Annie | 9:19 AM | 8-18-2008

Thank you Leroy for you. for Doing this post, for helping all of us "lifegivers" understand your perspective that our loved ones wouldn't or couldn't share. Thank you for your openness, honesty, and dedication to the blog. I hope that the blogs and the podcasts can make there way into book format somehow. I think there is a lot to be learned from this diary. and can still do a lot of good for more people to come. Laurie, I don't know you but I know how you feel. I am So sorry.

Sent by Paul Ciszewski | 9:25 AM | 8-18-2008

What a profound loss, dear Leroy I will miss you but your memory and everything you have taught us will remain forever.

To Laurie, I never met Leroy and I am crying at the news as if I lost a great friend, which speaks to the daily strength and inspiration Leroy eminated. I am so sorry for your loss and I encourage you to read the poem posted above, "All is Well" by Henry Scott Holland that beings "Death is nothing at all, I have only slipped away into the next room". It truly is comforting in these times. Laurie, Leroy will be next to you, walking with you always. Never forget that. Much love and strength to you, thank you both for sharing with us and for your continued inspiration. My deepest sympathy is extended to you.

Sent by liz h | 9:25 AM | 8-18-2008

You made a difference Leroy. Godspeed.

RJ

Sent by Randy Johnson | 9:26 AM | 8-18-2008

Adding my voice to this chorus of mourners. A melody that lifts, comforts and envelopes us all. Much like Leroy himself.

Please know the love and gratitude I feel for having been provided the safe haven of this community......

Sending my deepest sympathies and heartfelt condolences.

Sent by Judith Albert | 9:28 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, you will be missed beyond words. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. My mother is dying from Ovarian Cancer. You helped me get through moment by moment. I will remember your warrior spirit forever.

Laurie, I hold you deep within my heart, and thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us. So much love to you.

Sent by Leah | 9:32 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,

I can't find the words to heal your broken heart. You are in my prayers always. God bless you.

Donna G.

Sent by Donna Green | 9:34 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie
This is my first comment, although I have read Leroy's blog since the start. He started the blog at a time when I was going through the final stages of cancer with a very close friend and I got so much help and insight from reading what he had to say. I wondered if I would stop reading the blog when she died, but I still read every one. Then, another close friend was diagnosed with cancer and Leroy was again my guidance through the process. I'm feeling a great personal loss, even though I only knew him through this blog.
Thanks to you and to him for making such a difference.
My deepest sympathy to you on your incredible loss.
Betsy

Sent by Betsy | 9:35 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie -

You have my deepest sympathies - I also want to thank you for sharing with all of us what you and Leroy experienced with cancer. You have helped me in ways that I cannot express. Thank you. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Sent by E.L. | 9:41 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie:

Leroy's valiant fight with cancer provided a valiant inspiration to those of us who, too, experience the uncertainties associated with being a cancer survivor. It would be a lonely experience were it not for courageous individuals such as Leroy who shared his experience in a kind, understandable manner. My sincere sympathy to you.

Sent by J Richard McMillan | 9:46 AM | 8-18-2008

Oh I am so sorry! I lost my husband on our 12th wedding anniversary - May 25, 2008 and it was very quick. I was told he had maybe three months on the wednesday before he passed. It was shocking and sad. Laurie, this will be hard at times but at other times it will feel almost tranquil. The tough days may not set in for a month or two but you will survive. I have read two especially good books - On Grief and Grieving (Kubler-Ross)and Companion to Grief (Patricia Kelly). All I can say is that I am so sorry for your loss and that Leroy will live on in my heart and memory as does my beloved Bruce. Their struggles seem to mirror one another at times, especially in these final days. I will pray that God stays close to you to bring you solace in the months ahead.

Sent by Sarah Senter | 9:48 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I've followed Leroy's blog since my own cancer diagnosis last year. His words always rang so true -- he wrote with such honesty, humor and grace. I remember days when I was overwhelmed by cancer and somehow, Leroy's words made things more manageable. When I learned of Leroy's passing, I literally lost my breath for a minute and couldn't stop the tears. I never met Leroy but somehow I felt like I knew him personally because he shared so much of himself through this site. Please know how much Leroy, and you, are loved. I hope you can feel the prayers that are surrounding you. And Leroy, you left a remarkable imprint on the world around you. There's no better legacy than that. You'll be missed more than you know.

Sent by Jen | 9:49 AM | 8-18-2008

Another light... gone too soon. Rest in peace, Leroy. Godspeed.
Laurie, no words... just love... coming at you.

Sent by Holly Anderson | 9:52 AM | 8-18-2008

Oh my, I tuned in this morning to read a post, never imagined to read this. G-D Speed to Leroy, And heart felt sorrow and my blessings to Lourie. Now is the time for inner streanth and know Leroy will always be with you. Fondly, Glenn

Sent by Glenn from Florida | 10:02 AM | 8-18-2008

I started reading this blog about two years ago, before I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It's been a great comfort to me and I thank you both. I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by Dianne (DC) | 10:06 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, you changed my life. We're just not ready to let you go, just not ready ..... go in peace our brother. Thoughts & prayers to Leroy's family and friends, we are so sorry for your loss.

Sent by Jen in NOLA | 10:06 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie and All,

I've been away from the Blog this weekend so, I just now learned of Leroy's passing. Like so many of you, just as it felt when my mom died from cancer, we all knew this day would come. Yet, that hasn't made it any easier. Our loss is profound and will be felt for days to come. Leroy, for someone I never met, you have been a part of my day for a while now. Your strength, courage, humor and willingness to share with us has been a gift that inspires us to live our lives in a different way.

Much love and prayers for all of us, particularly those who knew and loved Leroy well.

Peace.

Sent by Patty | 10:07 AM | 8-18-2008

Deepest condolences. I wish you peace and comfort. He will be missed.

Sent by N M L in MN | 10:11 AM | 8-18-2008

I saw the NPR blog on my email screen Saturday morning so I knew before I opened it what the news must be and of course the tears that came then made it almost impossible to see. Why has Leroy's death touched me so profoundly? I've lost other dear friends that I've known all of my life that didn't move me to such utter sadness. I can't answer that. But I can honestly say, I watched the clock some mornings and was in front of my computer by 8:05. I think it was because he walked among us, able to put his (our) thoughts and pain in words. What a gift, and what a gift we've lost. There will be a cure for cancer hopefully soon.

Sent by Betty E. Carpenter | 10:14 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Leroy's Family and Leroy's army,

I find it very difficult to find the right words to say. Especially for a person like Leroy who touched so many in so many different ways. His legacy will go on. Rest in peace Leroy. Laurie, my prayers are with you. God give you the strength to get up each day and continue on.

Anita Hovsepian

Sent by Anita Hovsepian | 10:16 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss of Leroy. I have read every column since he began this, and enjoyed his take on everything. I remember his occasional Nightline daily blog, and seeing him with Ted in Iraq. He will be missed. Thank you both!

Sent by Gretchen S. | 10:21 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, rest in peace. I will miss you and your wisdom immensely, as will all of us in this community. I feel like I have lost a loved member of my family. But when it's my time to cross over into the next world, I will definitely look you up, shake your hand, give you a hug and thank you in "person" for the contribution you have made to my life.

Laurie, words cannot express my sorrow for you. You have my deepest condolences. You were so entwined in Leroy's life that for you (as it was for me when I lost my husband) the healing process will be long and slow. But eventually you will get through it and then you will treasure your memories of Leroy and the life you lived (to the fullest) together.

God bless you both.

Sent by Marsha Hogarth | 10:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie
I have been an everyday reader for over two years; I started when my bother-in-law was diagnosed with kidney cancer. We lost him, but I continued reading Leroy. Who could leave Leroy once they heard or "heard" his voice?

I actually clicked on the blog by mistake on Sunday, and gasped to read the news, and haven't been able to stop thinking of you two since. I am so sorry for your loss, and so sorry for our loss. What a wonderful place Leroy created. One thought I keep having is that Leroy was lucky in a way. He left knowing at least partly, the impact he had on others, the difference he made, the lives he touched and made easier. An invisible and separate community of cancer battlers, survivors, caregivers, and loved ones was given a common space and became a supportive, stronger community of readers, listeners, commenters and many, many lurkers (like me).

Thank you Leroy for sharing your journey, and thank you Laurie for sharing your journey and Leroy with us.

After I read the blog on Sunday, I immediately remembered I saw a jeep on Saturday and thought of Leroy. We were driving along, and it was coming towards us in the opposite lane. I got a good look at it as it stopped and made a u-turn. It was an army-style looking jeep, no top, no roll bars, dull brown. One guy driving. I immediately thought of Leroy, and "the wave". I like to think that was him, turning back to his original starting place. Wouldn't it be something if everyone who was touched by Leroy saw a jeep this weekend.

We are all still here with you Laurie.

Sent by chris in RI | 10:23 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy's insightful and honest sharing of his journey has been an incredible gift and an inspiration. While he continues his journey in another realm, thank God his gift of hope and inspiration will stay with all of us. So very sorry for your loss.
Patricia, Wake Forest NC

Sent by Patricia Earnhardt Tyndall | 10:23 AM | 8-18-2008

My heart grieves with you, Laurie, friends, and family. Leory has been a member of our family since the beginning of his journey. I lost my husband to cancer on 8 months ago. I saw this in an obituary recently and thought it so beautiful. "God saw that you were in pain and knew there was no cure. So He wrapped his arms around you and said 'Come with me'" Be at peace and thank you.

Sent by Karen M | 10:24 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so very, very sorry. I know he is out of pain, but you are not. May God bless you and be with you and comfort you.

Sent by Carole from Houston | 10:29 AM | 8-18-2008

It's Monday morning and I just heard the news. I'll miss you so very much, Leroy, as you had become the start to my day. I would silently cheer for you, and pray that we'd see a miracle. Leroy, you've enriched so many lives, especially those that are walking the same road that you traveled. I hope you felt our presence on that long trek. You will be greatly missed, and it was a genuine honor to have been a part of your blog. Rest in peace, Leroy.

Sent by Sharon | 10:29 AM | 8-18-2008

So, so sorry for your loss, Laurie. Did not expect to hear this so soon.
Praying for peace for your heart, and many thanks for allowing us to share your lives for a while. It has meant so much to me.

Sent by Michelle | 10:29 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie, My sincere condolences for your loss...I always checked in to Leroy's blog and everyday took away a gem of wisdom. Paulette

Sent by Paulette Kensey | 10:34 AM | 8-18-2008

What an amazing man he was - his spirit was so strong, and the gift of this blog has touched more people than you know. I am so very sorry for your loss.
Rosemary from South Dakota

Sent by Rosemary Ingle | 10:44 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I am so very sad. Leroy gve so much hope and courage to all of us. Our lives have all been made better because of him and his writings. We knew, through his words, that we were not alone in this journey of cancer. I hope that somehow, knowing what a gift he was to so very many will somehow give you peace during this time. Know that likewise,now at this time, you are not alone. We all ache with you

Sent by Lori | 10:44 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so profoundly sorry to learn of Leroy's passing. He most certainly fought the good fight and set an unforgettable example of grace and dignity under terrible circumstances. God bless Leroy and his friends (bloggers and otherwise)-- especially Laurie -- who love and miss this extraordinary man!

Sincerely,
Nancy Boomer

Sent by Nancy from Canada | 10:47 AM | 8-18-2008

Another great cancer fighter sent to a peaceful place. Thoughts are with you Laurie and family.

Sent by C | 10:51 AM | 8-18-2008

Oh My God Laurie, I'm so sorry. To quote Leroy "May you find peace when you most need it" which is now. We're here for you Laurie, you are in my prayers.

Sent by Ruth White | 10:53 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry for your loss.I found this blog due to my husband's cancer diagnosis in 2006 and it has had a tremedous impact on me, both while he was in treatment and after his passing at 53 in December. Nothing anyone can say will ease this pain, but I am certain you will find strength in what he left behind.

Sent by Debbie O'Brien | 10:54 AM | 8-18-2008

The tears are spontaneous for a man I never met, but whose eloquent and unflinching courage on the page and air made him feel like a dear friend. While I am not (blessedly) a cancer patient, I do lead a journaling group at a regional cancer care center. I tell the people who join me once a month to write that courage is it's own grace. Leroy time and again made me laugh and cry and see how much life we all can squeeze out of every day. He showed us a way to move with grace through whatever life gives us. It is a legacy that does not fade. Thanks so much, Leroy. I miss you, but hope it's you who keeps prodding me to the page.

Sent by Wendy Warren | 10:57 AM | 8-18-2008

I miss Leroy. Coming to My Cancer was the start of my daily routine. Leroy and Laurie's honesty, humor, insight, thoughtfulness and compassion regarding their daily life (as well as their bloggers' lives)and cancer inspired me daily. Thank you for sharing your lives with others.

Sent by Judy T | 11:08 AM | 8-18-2008

I began reading this blog 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with cancer. I came here first thing every day to read what Leroy had to say about living with cancer, and it was so comforting to know other people were out there dealing with the same things. I am so sad that he is gone...I looked forward to reading his words every day. May he rest in peace.

Sent by Deena | 11:10 AM | 8-18-2008

How much I have gained strength from Leroy's brave effort to share his fight with cancer and how he tried to maintain his humanity till the end. Such courage is a beacon of hope. I am glad he is free.

Sent by Martha C. | 11:14 AM | 8-18-2008

I feel like I just lost a member of my family. Leroy's insight and humor have helped me and touched me countless times as I deal with my own cancer. We will miss him tremendously.

Sent by Kris | 11:15 AM | 8-18-2008

I began following Leroy's story after hearing an interview with him a few days after my own diagnosis. I've gotten better, but haven't done so well watching as others haven't done so well themselves. I hadn't realized how big a part of my life Leroy and his words have become to me, and here I am bawling like a little girl. . . I can't even imagine how hard this is for you, Laurie.

Leroy provided an amazing service to all of us with his candid comments and ability to explain some pretty complex medical and emotional concepts to the world in general, but especially for the folks who have to go through all of this cancer "stuff" with us.
His willingness (and yours) to share those words have made it easier for me to have important conversations with folks close to me, (and sometimes to avoid conversations, too!) because he was willing to say so many of the things that we ourselves were afraid to say out loud.

Please take care of yourself, Laurie. Thank you for sharing your own words, as well as supporting Leroy in sharing his. I hope that you get some comfort in knowing how important Leroy has been to all of us.

Sent by Adrienne in DC | 11:18 AM | 8-18-2008

May his memory be for a blessing.

Sent by Kathleen | 11:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy's NPR pieces spoke straight to my heart. I lost my mother to ovarian cancer, and Leroy's matter of fact approach about cancer and life both moved me and made me laugh. I will miss hearing his voice.

In sympathy,
Kerri

Sent by Kerri Yim | 11:22 AM | 8-18-2008

This chapter closed much too soon. Leroy helped me immensly in my struggle to share my feelings with my cancer. I too have begun to write about my journey and I hope that one day, I touch just a minute fraction of .001% of the people whose lives are changed forever for knowing/reading about/listening to Leroy. Laurie, may you be strong in your tender memories of a warrior, partner, friend, confidante and lover. We all take a piece of Leroy with us and in that, he is never really gone. He will always be in my cache of memories of the real side of life from a cancer warriors eyes. God Bless Leroy, Laurie and all of his family and friends, all over the world. We will miss you Leroy. Thanks for sharing your story and your life. Ellen Easterly - remission from Malignant Melanoma, Stage IIIC.

Sent by Ellen | 11:22 AM | 8-18-2008

Awaking to NPR and hearing this story, a short cry. Thank You for your insight. People should talk about whatever they feel and want- hopefully your friends will celebrate as you requested.

Sent by D. Turnbull, San Francisco, CA | 11:25 AM | 8-18-2008

I've lost a friend. Leroy walked a path and described the walk with the honesty, humor, insight and dignity of a true journalist. To share that walk with us was the compassionate act of a true friend. On the days when I can look reality square in the face, I know it's a path that I too may take. But not today, and I think that was the power of Leroy's blog: here is today, live it, and take the strength from it to face tomorrow with grace and gratitude.

Sent by Marlou Imes | 11:26 AM | 8-18-2008

I've been reading this blog for 2 years now. Leroy's musings have served to help me understand the patients I work with, to process my own loss of several very close friends, and to help me focus on the day to day gift of life.
He will be missed.

Sent by Suzanne | 11:27 AM | 8-18-2008

My deepest condolensces to Laurie and to all of Leroy's "family". Thank you for all you've given to the world.

Laurie, my thoughts are with you.

Sent by Mary Jo | 11:27 AM | 8-18-2008

Time will heal all. Cancer had touched all of us , we saw it and we lived it , we survived.bitter by its invasaion ,but we are here. Time will heal you too. Be patient.

Sent by Hengameh Arab | 11:27 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,

Thank you for sharing Leroy with us. We all carry him in our hearts.

Sent by ejd | 11:30 AM | 8-18-2008

A bright light has gone out in this world with Leroy's passing. His was a light that shone on truth, caring and what is real in life. I will miss reading his words each day, words that lifted me up, made me laugh, cry or understand so many things. His life was a true blessing to so many and all the tributes on this blog are only a small piece of what he did in this life of his. His life stands for so much that is good and true and I will dearly miss hearing his words each day. May his love surround you Laurie, and keep you warm and comforted in the coming days. Thank you both for sharing so much that was so personal and real.

Sent by Barbara Langan | 11:37 AM | 8-18-2008

I just read the news...I am shocked and sad. I know there are simply no words that can make you feel better Laurie...my heart is with you and may Leroy find peace and joy wherever he is.

Sent by Clauz | 11:38 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry for your loss, Laurie. But I feel Leroy looking down on us all, cheering us on to keep up the fight, not to give up. I will miss him very much...

Sent by Danielle | 11:39 AM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie, I am sorry for your loss. May you find peace in your good memories. I am grateful for all that you have both shared.

Sent by Lisa Martin | 11:42 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so sad. I've sent a message to our beloved Bernese Mtn Dog (also lost to cancer) to go over and give Leroy a huge greeting and be his dog while he needs her. Laurie I wish the same kind of friends, family and support for you here. Words were how we all knew each other, the backbone of this relationship, and they seem so empty now. I wish you peace.

Sent by keri | 11:45 AM | 8-18-2008

As the rest of your blog friends, I am deeply saddened by the loss of a good man. Please accept my deepest condolences and prayer that you will find some peace with your memories. May God bless you and help you find strength.

Sent by Kathy | 11:46 AM | 8-18-2008

I am sorry for your loss. Leroy was an inspiration to all of us. He had a magical way of telling us about his illness. I waited anxiously for each email. My favorite until last Thursday was 'Cancer Sucks' - that says it all.

Last Thursday's post was very special to us because our son has been fighting a brain tumor for 13 years. When he was first diagnosed, we got him a dog. We are now trying to keep the dog alive at 14. He is doing good but slowing down. So with last Thursday's email, again Leroy says it all - "So here he is, sitting with me on the bed. My comrade in cancer. A boy and his dog".

Thank you for sharing!

Sent by Mark Schauls | 11:49 AM | 8-18-2008

Leroy will be missed. He was so open and able to express what life is like in the cancer world. My thoughts and prayers are with Laurie and all of Leroy's family and friends.

Sent by Joyce | 11:52 AM | 8-18-2008

On Saturday morning, I, intuitively, went to our blog and was so saddened by the message of Leroy's passing. There are no words that fully express just how much he meant to me. Many days he was a true lifeline; everyday he showed us how to live with a renewed delight in the small gifts of life. I trust you will be borne up by your family and friends through the greatest pain we ever must bear. I send much love to you, Laurie, and, one last time, I wish you enough. Joyce

Sent by Joyce Hughes | 11:54 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I am so sadden that LeRoy has passed on..even though in my mind it was going to happen. He was able to express in words what my husband is going through with cancer and chemo for the last five years. LeRoy will be very much missed. Everyday I would get up in the morning and read what was on his mind. I really really miss him.

My deepest sympathy to you and your family. May you find peace and comfort through your grieving process. May your faith be strong. May God Bless you and keep you strong.

Sent by Gayle | 11:54 AM | 8-18-2008

I don't know quite what to say. How do you eulogize such a BIG man? How do you capture the many blessings he brought to you? How do you acknowledge his gifts enough? My private memorial to Leroy will be a week of conscious "Pass It On" mode. Who knows how long that week could last? Look at how long Leroy's "3 to 6 months" lasted. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing him with us.

Sent by Nancie | 11:57 AM | 8-18-2008

Laurie and Family, I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy was awesome. Love love love... always.

Sent by Sarah | 11:58 AM | 8-18-2008

I am so profoundly sorry to hear of this news. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of the sacrifices that went into this wonderful, supportive place. Laurie, may you, family, and friends find a little bit of solace in such a challenging time.

Sent by Kristen | 12:03 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,
I miss Leroy and I am crying now for him. And for my grandfather, mother-in-law, and a childhood friend. I believe that they would have loved him and appreciated his shared words and I like to think that they will be welcoming him and making him smile up in heaven. I know how hard this is Laurie because cancer is a horrible theif. I will hold you in my heart and I wish that you will be held up as others have held me up at these times of theivery and as Leroy held up so many people who have been resisting Cancer.

Sent by C.B. in NC | 12:05 PM | 8-18-2008

I am saddened. No matter how prepared you think you will be -- you're just never prepared enough. You're in my prayers Laurie. And thank you Leroy for all of the joy and insight you've given me!!

Sent by Laura | 12:06 PM | 8-18-2008

I don't check the blog over the weekend but this morning in my shower I had a strange sense that things were not okay.

I'm sorry to hear of Leroy's passing. I can only imagine the feeling of loss Laurie. I'm sure at the same time, it is a relief to know he no longer suffers. I am glad to hear he passed quickly and I hope he was comfortable.

Thank you for sharing the journey with us. For me personally, it has brought me hope and inspiration in a world we know as the C world. I can't tell you how much it has meant to me personally.

My sympathy and condolences are with you and your family.

Alexis Redmond

Sent by Alexis Redmond | 12:09 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie- May you always be able to hear Leroy's laughter. With deepest sympathy. Cindi

Sent by Cindi- Hood River Oregon | 12:12 PM | 8-18-2008

I'm so sad and sorry, but also grateful for finding Leroy and having the blog so long. My sister's colon cancer paralleled Leroy's so closely - the surgeries and radiation, the brain, spine, lung and liver metastases - I could hear from Leroy what my sister could not say. She passed away in July.
Thank you again for sharing, Leroy, and for all the family and friends, I am so very sorry.

Sent by Kate | 12:14 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie - Leroy was a gift to all of us. Please know that we all understand your need for time to grieve. No matter how "expected" his passing was at some point, it is so hard when it happens. Thank you both for sharing with us your feelings, happenings, etc through his courageous battle with cancer. My prayers are with you. I will miss him too! Andi

Sent by Andi | 12:14 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, please accept my deepest sympathy. Leroy was a light to all of us who have experienced a cancer diagnosis. He touched my heart and soul, and helped me feel less alone and despairing on those "meltdown" days during and after treatment. The world is a darker place for his passing, yet we will not forget him.
I will continue to pray for both of you.

Sent by Melissa | 12:16 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Leroy's legacy will live on.
Love to you.

Sent by Kathleen, Seattle | 12:18 PM | 8-18-2008

I am sadden by the passing of Leroy and I will miss him.

Sent by Colin R. Ferriman | 12:19 PM | 8-18-2008

I have never posted until today; content to read the blog and everone's comments each and every day. My heart is hurting for this world's loss of a truly wonderful soul. Leroy has touched us all in so many ways. May he finally find peace and comfort in whatever is to come.
Namaste

Sent by Myra | 12:25 PM | 8-18-2008

OMG... I was hoping to read the Monday morning post as usual, hoping that Leroy feels slightly better (well... evening here in Malaysia.
Well... God knows what is best for each of us and He'll always look after us here and thereafter.
Laurie, my heart bleeds for you. My deepest sympathy to you and family. Be strong.

Rose
Penang, Malaysia

Sent by Rose from Malaysia | 12:31 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie (and to you too, Leroy):
Words can never properly capture the feelings inside that one has at times like this. Leroy, his words, and the way he lived his life have been a gift to us all. Thank you, Leroy, from the bottom of my heart for helping me navigate my own path through Cancer World. And thank you, Laurie, for sharing this wonderful person, as well as yourself, with all of us ... people you wouldn't even recognize if you walked past on the street, but who will forever consider you and Leroy an extraordinarily special part of our own journeys.

Sent by Peggy | 12:36 PM | 8-18-2008

Like many others, I found this blog when a loved one was diagnosed with cancer. It has been and will continue to be a source of comfort and hope to me. Thank you Leroy, for sharing yourself with us. And yes, you did make a difference and the world is better because of you. May your soul find rest.
May God surround the family and friends with his peace and comfort and strength. My tears and prayers are with you.

Sent by Meredith Newcom | 12:44 PM | 8-18-2008

It is impossible to express the sorrow of Leroy's passing. He meant so much to so many. His courage (and Laurie's) have bolstered me through many long, anguished nights when I thought my fear would devour me. Many the love of so many be there to help you now, Laurie.

Sent by Roxane | 12:49 PM | 8-18-2008

never has a more brave or eloquent man ever lived. rest in peace Leroy.

Sent by Dave Wright | 12:54 PM | 8-18-2008

damnit.

ya know.....
after reading about Leroy's death this morning, I thought, wow. That's bad news. And then i continued on with my work for the day.

But here it is, several hours later, and I can't shake it. I've been reading Leroy's blog on a weekly basis for the past couple of years. When I first started, I didn't have cancer. During that time, I found out I did. I'm lucky, I'm doing well now.

It's raining outside, and I feel gloomy. He and his blog affected me.

Sent by Karen | 12:58 PM | 8-18-2008

Reading this blog each morning was reminiscent of returning to a novel you hoped would never end; always imagining the ending better than the author could write. Unfortunately more than a chapter ended Friday, and in the worst imaginable way.
Laurie, May you find peace in your heart and joy in your memories.

Sent by Annette S | 12:59 PM | 8-18-2008

I knew Leroy only from his stories played on NPR. It was extremely brave of him to share his experiences the way he did. As someone who is lucky enough not to know anyone who has gone through that, it was eye-opening and I'm extremely sad to hear of his passing.

Sent by Kara | 1:04 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy's blogging really began before there was such a thing. His daily emails to Nightline watchers gave us an incredible depth of insight into the backstories of many reports. More than that, though, it gave us the sense that someone with a soul was paying attention on our behalf. His emails preceding the Iraq war were prescient, insightful and powerful. I hope someone will collect those emails and publish them someday. A big thank you to his family for sharing him with us and deep sympathy to them and to Ted Koppel and his colleagues for their loss.

Sent by Lola Peters | 1:04 PM | 8-18-2008

My heart is filled with such sadness today. Yet, beneath it all is a sense of gratitude to Leroy & Laurie for being so open and sharing their story. And to all of you in the cancer world, where your journey continues, I hope you take with you everyone here who only has good wishes and thoughts of comfort to you and your loved ones.

Sent by c.k. | 1:05 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie: I thought of Leroy this weekend while working in the yard petting my cat who was helping me weed. I thought of how I would let him know that I think of him in those fleeting moments, how I thank him for helping me learn all I have, how he's taught me how to react when a friend says those words, how to comfort and how to hope. I thought to myself, I need to make a donation in his name and let him know about it. When I came here this morning...I found out Leroy told me good-bye this weekend, in one more fleeting thought. I'm glad we were outside, I hope enjoyed the beautiful sky as he went by. He will be missed. All my love & strength to you Laurie. I mean all of it.

Sent by Jennifer W. | 1:19 PM | 8-18-2008

My mother has fought this dreadful disease for the past 4 years. She has gone through two rounds of chemo but I know it will eventually take her from us. Thank you Leroy and your family for sharing your story with us, it has made a differemce in my life.

Sent by Ken Kropen | 1:23 PM | 8-18-2008

I've approached the blog each morning fearing this news that seemed like it would come soon.

So many thanks to Leroy and Laurie. You have been a tremendous gift to us all.

Peace.

Sent by Geoff | 1:28 PM | 8-18-2008

I have nothing profound to add to the thousand or more before me--just sorrow and sadness at our loss.
Leroy touched so many lives and really made a difference on this planet. He has been part of my morning routine for several years now, and I will miss his insight and his wisdom.
Hugs and condolences to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family.

Sent by Maggie, Seattle | 1:29 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie,
We can never be ready for the loss of such a good and amazing human being. I am so sorry and yet I am so grateful for Leroy and all he wrote, and I'm glad to 'know' you. I don't know what I will do with out him, so I can only imagine your pain. I'll be thinking of you constantly. Peace be with you and Leroy's family and friends. Oh yeah, I keep calling my dog Spanky. Can't help it. I may have to change his name in memory of a gentle and loyal friend who always told the truth and made me laugh through the tears.

pat

Sent by patricia benson | 1:41 PM | 8-18-2008

I cannot begin to express my feelings of sadness at learning of Mr. Sievers passing. I have read the blog daily since it began and,like with so many, his struggle became my struggle to follow. I pray I never have to face cancer but, if I do, I pray I can face it with the humor, dignity and bravery I have witnessed these past years. My family's prayers go out to you.

With deepest sympathy,
Bill Combs

Sent by bill combs | 1:42 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, my friend.....I'll be seeing you.

Laurie,my friend.....through you and all of us Leroy lives!

Sent by Dottie, Vermont | 1:43 PM | 8-18-2008

It took me a while to come here; I knew I wanted to, but I never know what to say. A simple I'm sorry, seems so inadequate, yet sorrow is what I feel. But his message to us was different. Leroy lef a fierse spark of recognition and love for every minute we live and every lesson we learn along the way. I hope I can honor his legacy. The poem posted below, was written some time after my diagnisis. I often meant to send it his way. I wish I had. ~~Carmen

The Sound of Time
by Carmen Ruggero

I heard a sweet little sound --
soft and light as a feather on the breeze,
break the silence of night.
Like a velvety tune, it caresses my senses.
I'm curious, so I sit and listen:
It whooshes like a gentle wind
scurrying through supple leaves and petals
heavy with the scent of summer.
A flash of sound, a hummingbird in flight,
and I wonder, as I watch it scurry through the air:
Where does it land when it leaves my sight?

And the silence whispers tonight,
a song I seem to remember, now.
It resonates inside my throat,
and my lips want to echo a reprise
to this sound that dribbles through space
like bouncing droplets of rain.
I feel it close to me; its breath brushes my skin
then it ebbs as swells do
when they break and foam around my feet.
I watch them rush back to the sea
and I wonder, as I see them disappear:
Whom will they touch, after they've touched me?

And the silence whistles tonight,
a tune it needs me to hear, no doubt.
It has traveled the worldly planes,
it has flown celestial realms
like a mischievous cherub playing
amongst the softness of snow,
and pine trees heavy with the scent of hope
and then a traveler heard its sound
and he listened: It whistles, cheerful and bright...
He felt it like the swells that rushed and foamed
around his feet, and wondered
as he stood in the midst of silence, again:
who will hear it, when I set it free?

Carmen Ruggero ?? 2008

Sent by Carmen Ruggero | 1:48 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I first became aware of Leroy while listening to the car radio on the way to work one morning. While most discussions about cancer bring tears to my eyes, Leroy's incites had me smiling through the (inevitable) tears. I was hooked after that, and was pleased and awed to find the blog. Like so many others, I've read it daily and commented periodically, and was honored to participate in the photo gallery.

Your generosity to share him - and your own feelings - with us go above and beyond! As my mom would have said, you both earned a gold star in heaven!

My strength continues to be with you.

Thank you again and always!

Sent by Judie in CT | 1:56 PM | 8-18-2008

I was an intern at Nightline when Leroy was there, and found him again through his blog. His words touched me every day and I will miss him, and will be keeping Laurie and his family in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Brian | 1:56 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy was my buddy. He was my daily partner is this never ending war. He gave me laughter, comfort and hope. I never actually met him but I have lost a very valued and treasured friend. His words will continue to bring be peace. I am so sorry for your loss

Sent by Jean | 1:57 PM | 8-18-2008

I feel so blessed to have found Leroy's blog. I will miss him. My deepest sympathy to you in your loss.

Sent by Emily | 2:04 PM | 8-18-2008

Aw, Leroy, I'm sorry cancer invaded and took over your life. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and allowing us all to know you through it. Thanks for teaching us about illness and death. It's nothing to be ashamed of and the way you shared your story helped show that.

Sent by Sarah Lovering | 2:04 PM | 8-18-2008

Our world is emptier without Leroy, his courage, his words, his inspiration, his challenge to us to face cancer with our eyes wide open. But, blessed is this community he created -- it's his gift to us. A beautiful legacy where Leroy lives among us.

I'm so sorry, Laurie. Strength and peace to you as you make your way. Leroy will always be with you.

Sent by Tracy | 2:06 PM | 8-18-2008

I went away on vacation and came back to this very sad news. Leroy touched people in ways that none of us will ever be fully aware of. The ability to communicate with others the way he did and to be able to share one's life and thoughts with others is a very special gift. I will miss him very much but am very grateful that for a time I was able to know him.

Sent by Elena | 2:07 PM | 8-18-2008

I rarely go onto the NPR website and do not even know what prompted me to do so today. Leroy's passing was the first thing I read. Leroy sounds like he was a really exceptional person in so many ways. He did and continues to make an impact on all he touched. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Laurie, and your family.

Sent by Janet | 2:10 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy not only helped me to cope better with the death of a friend, but also reminded my how precious and big the "little" things in life are. I will miss him.
Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Jen | 2:12 PM | 8-18-2008

Dearest Laurie,

My heart is filled with saddness as I just read that Leroy has passed away. You and all the members of Leroy's Blog are in my thoughts and prayers. We have lost our guiding light but we will always remember his courage and grace.
You have both given all of us so much and I thank you from the bottom of my heart!! I can only hope that I can follow your examples for I too hear the rumble of the thunder in the background.

May you feel our love surround you and give you strength. God Bless

Eileen Pruyne
Charlotte, NC

Sent by Eileen Pruyne | 2:15 PM | 8-18-2008

Oh, Leroy. I have prayed for you and hoped that you would pass gently, but I did not see it coming so soon. You helped me through your writing to deal with my aunt`s death and I felt that when I read what you wrote, it was much about living as well. I laughed at times and of course I admired you ( and still are) for your braveness and fighting spirit. I am sad, but like many others relieved as well.

Dear Laurie, you are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your lost.

Marianne

Sent by Marianne | 2:16 PM | 8-18-2008

I am very sorry to read of Leroy's passing. His blog was inspirational. Funny, tough, insightful, honest.. I will miss that. My thoughts and prayers are with his family at this very sad time.

Sent by Brooke | 2:22 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy was such an inspiration to me. No one expressed what it is like to love in the "Cancer World" as eloquently as he did. I felt a bond, a connection with him as I struggled with my own colon cancer diagnosis. The world has lost a wonderful person. My sincerest condolences to Laurie.

Sent by Kathy Roe | 2:23 PM | 8-18-2008

I work in a surgeon's office, and so deal with many cancer patients of various types. Leroy gave me a look into their world and I will be much better able to understand and help my patients. He was a brave and inspiring person and I would not for the world have missed knowing him, even remotely as I have. It seems odd to grieve someone you don't actually know, but I do. And my equal admiration to you, Laurie, for your courage and determination.

Sent by Kathy Zelazny | 2:36 PM | 8-18-2008

this is first and only time i've ever posted to this blog although i have read every posting everyday for three years. every single word.
i, like leroy, was diagnosed with stage III colon cancer (march 23, 2006)i was 33 years old. i can't begin to convey to everyone how much this site has meant to me while i've fought my own beast. like everyone here, there have been days that i've laughed out loud and day when i've wept openly (today is one of the days).
like everyone else i offer my sincere condolences to mr. siever's family and friends. i regret now never taking the time to say 'thank you' to the person who helped me in a way that my family and friends couldn't. i always felt that everyone else's words were always more eloquent than my own.

my final thought is that whatever else leroy sievers might have accomplished in his life i personally want to acknowledge the difference he's made in mine.

Sent by La'Tresha Gregory | 2:39 PM | 8-18-2008

A larger than life man who continued to be so while facing all that cancer handed to him. That's how I will always think of Leroy.

He will truly live on in the hearts of those he has left behind.

Sent by Janet Levinsky | 2:50 PM | 8-18-2008

I want to thank Leroy (oh, such an unbelievable loss!!!),Laurie, Ted Koppel, Maeve, the "Our Cancer" community and all who have made this blog possible. In a time and a nation where folks can still lose their medical coverage and/or jobs when their diagnoses are made public, when some folks may need to strategically marry to qualify for medical insurance or divorce to contain the financial devastation of paying for medical treatment, and when membership in Cancer World still carries a stigma, Leroy courageusly explored and documented the lived experience of cancer. His fierce frankness went beyond "illness as metaphor," knitting together a community with shared knowing, laughter, anguish, love, pain, dread, sadness and hope -- but most of all, with small life stories from a big life book. Even cookies and no amount of ice cold milk will suffice today....a giant among us has passed. Leroy made us all stronger, taller, more candid and willing to fight the Beast head on. Laurie, words and condolences are insufficient to your loss but they're all that I can send; thank you for supporting his blog and for writing, as candidly as Leroy did, about the realities of living -- and dying -- in Cancer World, of life before, and beyond.

Sent by Marcia E. | 3:00 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy and Family have enlarged World Quality of Life with open hearts and open hands. Thank you so much.

Sent by J. Longley | 3:01 PM | 8-18-2008

I just found out....my computer was on the blink!! I am so sorry to hear this news but I must admit that I believed that the end was near. As we all know, Leroy was such a special man....a man we called our friend and our muse. His voice may be silent but his memory lives in my heart.

Laurie, there are not words to say how we weep with you with your loss. Always know that you too live in our hearts.

I will say to all that the little flame of Hope continues to burn and it will until I die in memory of Leroy! He gave us Hope in the face of despair; he and Laurie allowed us to walk this journey with them and they taught us how to live in the cancerworld. I'll be forever grateful.

I pray that God has taken Leroy to his home, a place of peace. As we mourn our loss, let us all try to emulate the teachings of our mentor, Leroy and to reach out to those who are in need to let them know that they are not alone. Leroy did this for us so if we all just touch one life, what a difference this will make. It can be Leroy's legacy!!

Laurie, may God bring you peace and comfort at this time of great loss. May your spirit be renewed as Leroy would want it to be.

Sent by Al Cato | 3:05 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy,

I have lost a majority of my family to cancer. You have made You were an amazing person. Your blog was funny, sad, and introspective. Being a young guy myself, I feel I have already a better understanding about the important things in life, because of you. Laurie, I will be thinking of you and Leroy. I won't forget.

Sent by Nate Plutzik | 3:07 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie- His death was expected, especially since the tone of the recent emails changed. Although expercted, it was still a shock. I have read his blog every day for almost 2 years. I have appreciated his insight and humor and have grown to love him and you. Thank you for sharing yourself with all of us. He will continue to be an inspiration for my life. Now it is time for all of us to cry but to also be glad that his pain is over. He sure made the most out of his life- wow!

I hope we will hear from you Laurie because I care about you and will hold you in my thoughts.

Love-

Sent by linda h. | 3:10 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie I am so sorry for your loss.
As I read this today I am so incredibly sad. He is my hero. I know he said that he was not comfortable being called a hero but he got me through the most difficult time in my life. He felt my feelings and put them into words. He inspired me and gave me hope and courage. I will miss his insightful words and his wisdom.
I will miss him!!

Sent by Jolyn | 3:10 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Leory, Laurie and Family,

I am deeply, deeply sorry for your loss.

I have read his blog religiously for the last 2 years and for this last year especially when my mom was in the fight for her life. His words rang true for her and gave her hope and relief when it seemed that no one else could.

My mom crossed over in March but I have continued to read the blog and cheer you all on from afar. As difficult as it was to read some of the postings I felt honored to be able to read them. Leroy's postings as well as the responses by everyone in the community inevitably made me sob each night but this time, unlike the times when we were racing to ease my mom's pain, the tears seemed cathartic. I cannot thank you enough for this gift of expression.

Here is a poem/blessing that has helped me through this dark, dark night of the soul. I hope that it may bring you some solace in the storm....

Beannacht
("Blessing")

On the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.

And when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colours,
indigo, red, green,
and azure blue
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight.

When the canvas frays
in the currach of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.

May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.
And so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.

~ John O'Donohue ~

Sincerely and with much love and gratitude,

Sara

Sent by sara | 3:16 PM | 8-18-2008

Like so many of you, I first heard Leroy on NPR, and was deeply saddened to hear of his death. Like the rest of you... I'm keenly aware of what was lost.

I myself do not have cancer. Nor am I a survivor of it. I'm a remainder. My mother died eleven years ago of Carcinoid Syndrome at the age of 42. My father was diagnosed two years ago with Papillary Thyroid Cancer.

I stupidly smoked for ten years... but with all the illness and death and so forth, I guess I needed something to take the edge off. So it's pretty much only a matter of time for me, too.

I only hope that if a diagnosis like that should ever come to me, that I will respond to it with the dignity, intellect and class that led Leroy to creating this wonderful blog... introducing us all to one another... and allowing us to know him, even if our time together was all too short.

To his family - if you're reading this - know that a perfect stranger loves you today. And know that he loves Leroy, too.

Sent by a. | 3:17 PM | 8-18-2008

When I received my breast cancer diagnosis, I didn't tell anyone; not my family, friends, I mean not anybody. I even drove myself home from the first surgery.
I had never been sick; never had the flu, hadn't had a cold in over 30 years. I don't even know what heartburn feels like or how you tell if you have it. When I was pregnant, I left from work to go to the hospital and checked back in from the delivery room. There is absolutely NO history of cancer in my family. No way was this happening to me.
I knew the doctors were talking and probably saying something important, but I couldn't hear them over the jet engines running in my head.
Here is what I learned: If the doc comes into the room alone - the news is good. If he/she enters the room closely followed by a maternal nurse figure holding a box of tissue - the news is not good.
Hearing Leroy's reports on the radio helped me to confront what was happening and actually talk about it.

Sent by Jane Fandray | 3:17 PM | 8-18-2008

With anticipation I have opened the blog each day knowing that this might be the one that says he's gone. I'm saddened to have lost a friend and all who have been touched by Leroy the strength he showed as he battled. I know he's well and whole now and I hope he's visiting my young son in heaven. We miss you all. Big hugs to you Laurie.

Sent by Robyn | 3:19 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. This blog has meant so much. It is so hard to witness the human spirit succumb to the fraility of our human bodies.

Sent by Patty | 3:24 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie - I am one of those many who checked NPR over the weekend - I just had that feeling that we were very near the end. Although I've never met you, I have posted before, and I assume that we are close in age (I am 53 just like Leroy). I have used the phrase "I have walked in your shoes" several times, and unfortunately, I have been down that miserable road that you have been thrust on now. I knew in my heart that whether or not you and Leoy were married "officially" or not, that you were in your hearts. Welcome to the widow's club, Laurie - yet another club that no one ever wants to join. Perhaps where you live there are other young widows who you can commissurate with; only another young widow can truly know how you feel. And, I have found that widows like us are slightly different than those whose partners have experienced a sudden, unforseen death. It all sucks in the end, of course, but I want to let you know about "grief net". They have a blog, updated by anybody who wants to say anything, because it won't be long until you think you are losing your mind. Just reading and knowing that others know what you are really going through was a great comfort to me. All they care about is getting you "through" this stage; remember, you will not be miserable forever (although I know that it doesn't even seem fathomable now). The most important thing to do now is to eat, sleep if you can, and do only what you feel you can do. If there are days you can only sit in your chair and cry, go ahead and do it. But make sure to take care of yourself.

I also wanted to let you know that personally, reading the blog everyday gave me a lot of strength, but most of all it gave a name and a face to cancer. There are so many of us out here, and none of us know what to do. I think that Leroy's blog made that pretty clear. I believe that this will be Leroys biggest accomplishment in so many ways - you have every right to be so proud to have taken this journey with him. And just know, Laurie, that you alone made his journey a little more bearable. I wish you peace and strength as you go through this next stage in your life. Sincerely,
Jeanette Carney

Sent by Jeanette Carney | 3:24 PM | 8-18-2008

It's weird to say this, but listening to his stories on NPR... I always just chose to believe that he'd beat it. I know, it's stupid, but I never gave up hope that some miracle would occur where even in this most invasive stage, where he'd beat it all back and triumph over the Beast. I heard the news this morning on my drive in, and I just burst into tears. He let us all into his life, and made us his family; sharing his pain, brooking it with humour, and such an even keel, there is so much to admire in that. I've never posted here, because I didn't need to; people always said what I might have said. But I have to express how sad this is. People say it wasn't unexpected; but to me it was.

It might have beat his body, but it couldn't touch his spirit.

What a good soul he is. And a Wrangler driver too to boot.

Sent by Stephanie | 3:26 PM | 8-18-2008

The world has lost a treasure, a friend.

Sent by Theresa Lovin | 3:39 PM | 8-18-2008

Good-bye till we meet again. It has been so comforting to know you. jld

Sent by jldeberry | 3:40 PM | 8-18-2008

I was away from my pc until this afternoon - I last saw Leroy's Olympics post - I can add nothing to the words already written here, but feel the need to say how very much I admired him, enjoyed my daily visits with him - he is gone much too soon, and I am so, so sorry.

Sent by Leigh | 3:41 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry; I have been in your shoes and know your tremendous grief. I will feel lost not turning to Leroy's blog every morning. It becomes easy to understand Faustian bargains - if we could just have him a little longer, what wouldn't we do. You are now on a new roller coaster, mourning world. I wish you comfort.
Denise

Sent by Denise Galloway | 3:41 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so thankful for Leroy, but just SO saddened by this! I could tell his time was running out, and I know what those last days must have been like. Laurie, I wish you strength and good memories and faith in the goodness of life and love.

p.s. i HATE cancer.

Sent by crow | 3:41 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy- I so wish I would have thanked you before now- for your words that taught us how hard, how real and how immediate a cancer diagnosis and the ensuing fight is. You were magnificent and will ever be remembered by anyone reading your blogs or hearing your deep and resonant voice on NPR's Morning Edition; it was always so good to hear because it meant you were still with us, still able to fight the fight. How we will miss you.

Our thanks and thoughts and prayers go to your beloved Laurie, who shared so much of you with all of us. We now share in the tears.

Sent by Judy Fry | 3:42 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie:

Words can't express how sad I was to open Monday's blog to read that Leroy had passed. As many have shared we felt so connected to him through his wonderful writing. We felt like we knew a part of him even though we never met. He was able to connect to each of us in a very special way. I'm sure there will be days in the future when I will automatically open his NPR blog and expect to see his words. It will take awhile for each of us to adjust to his absence. I hope that all the words of comfort from thousands of readers will help ease your loss over the coming weeks and months. Leroy's legacy will continue in each of us as we pass on his compassion,understanding,determination,and humor to fellow travelers on this path of life.

Thank you for sharing him with us.

Sent by Elaine S. | 3:43 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie and all members of the blog,
I'm so sorry for our loss. Leroy did so much for us but now we must go out and do for others what Leroy taught us. He showed us how to live.

Sent by Ann Murphy from Michigan | 3:58 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie...I started reading the blog when my wife was dying of cancer...and it helped me, and her. After she died I couldn't read it for months...but when I did it was comforting. You've been through a lot, and have more ahead but be assured you did all you could to love him and make his journey easier.

Russ

Sent by Russ Swanson | 4:04 PM | 8-18-2008

I will greatly miss Mr. Sievers comments. He shed light unto all that friends and relatives too numerous to mention are going through. God bless him for doing this blog.

Sent by E. S. Wasiluk | 4:05 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy became the voice for millions of us in cancer world. Now the voice is stilled and my heart is broken.
My deepest sympathy to Laurie, Leroy's family and friends.

Sent by Brenda Wylie | 4:06 PM | 8-18-2008

Thank you for the gift of sharing your life and your cancer with us all. I will be forever grateful for your openness and your ability to always point out the important things in life. I will miss going to your blog whenever I needed a boost to keep myself positive in my own fight with this disease.

Laurie, I send you thoughts of strength and gratitude. You are not alone.

Sent by Hana | 4:08 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,

I had just sent you a note the day before Leroy died saying to you I am right by your side with all the love and support. You are not alone. I am with you in spirit. That night I woke up from a dream about my Mom and cousin who had died recently. I had a heavy heart thinking someone close to me had passed away. Then I opened up Leroy's blog....and there it was...that is how close I felt to this beautiful man of yours. Time heals.....

Gail Hunsberger, Roch., NY

Sent by Gail Hunsberger | 4:09 PM | 8-18-2008

Hmmmmn, I find myself wondering why is that all of these poems are so comforting at this time of great loss. I am generally not a "poem-kind-of-person", and yet, when I read the news today, the very first thing I thought was that I need to send Laurie this poem that provided great comfort to our family when we went through an unexpected death. To Laurie and all of his close friends and co-workers, my heart goes out to all of you. I can say I feel like I knew him because I have been reading his blog for almost 2 years, but when I read another person's comments about missing his voice on the radio, I almost couldn't believe that in all this time, I had NEVER heard his voice, only read his words that I found so honest and eloquent. I guess I will now have to go back and "listen" to him too. I'll be keeping you all in my thoughts over the coming days, weeks and months. Here is the poem:

Meditation on Death

I am standing upon the seashore; a ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean.

She is an object of beauty and strength, and I stand and watch her until - at length - she hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and sky come down to mingle with each other.

Then someone at my side says, "There! She is gone."
Gone where? Gone from my sight - that is all.

She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side and just as able to bear her load of living freight to its place of destination.

Her diminished size is in me, not her; and just at that moment when someone at my side says, "There! She is gone," there are other eyes watching her coming and other voices ready to take up the glad shout, "There she comes!"

And that is dying.

- Author unknown

Sent by Peggy | 4:17 PM | 8-18-2008

I don't know if I can add to anything that's already been said. Every time I heard Leroy's commentary, it just tugged at my heart, and made this evangelical agnostic say a little prayer that he would keep going on and on, because his voice was so important to so many people. Laurie, I'm guessing you're having those crying jags now, which is probably a good thing - it'll help to grieve.
I received a book when I lost my parents (not to cancer, just old age) called "I wasn't ready to say goodbye". Within it's pages are some of the best advice for dealing with the death of someone you love, and I highly recommend it. It may make it all a bit more bearable for you. We're all hurting along with you, and I hope our messages give you some comfort.

Sent by Rachel | 4:19 PM | 8-18-2008

All I can say is thank you. This blog has been an inspiration and a blessing for so many people. Laurie our thoughts and prayers are with you. Thank you for sharing your husband and your soul mate with all of us.

Sent by Don Flanigan | 4:20 PM | 8-18-2008

Thank you for the strength and wit in terrible circumstances. We will miss you.

Sent by The Munn Family | 4:27 PM | 8-18-2008

I thought the column would run indefinitely. I mean Leroy had run past the six month diagnosis. Prayers were on his side. Laurie and his doctors were on his side. God was on his side. I assumed the blog would not end. Now that I reflect on it...How stupid was that? He had cancer, it was only a matter of time but time kept going for 2 1/2 years. He put a human face on this very hard fight. He chose to live to the end and in the end he helped thousands more learn that they are not alone. Well, Leroy...You are not alone, you will never be alone. God bless you and Godspeed in your journey.

Sent by Mike Wilson | 4:43 PM | 8-18-2008

As a chronicler of my own cancer, it was with some trepidation and some solace-seeking, that I approached each of Leroy's bulletins from that front he and I know so well. Unlike Leroy, I'm five years in without either remission or survival, still waiting for the other shoe to drop or, in my case, the PSA to rise.
He was inspiration despite, or maybe because of, his perspiration. We could only hope that while our memory of him resists fading, another will pick up the banner (or laptop) to lead all of us up the hill that he no longer climbs, and on which I teeter, expectantly, half way there.

Sent by john o'donnell | 4:45 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so sad to hear this news. Thank you so much for sharing him with us as he went thru this journey. I admired so much his strength every day to write whatever was on his mind. My thoughts and prayers go out to you Laurie as you continue on. I have gained so much in reading Leroy's blog every day as well as what I have learned from everyone else. We're all in this together! May God Bless You Laurie~

Sent by Leslie Miller | 4:46 PM | 8-18-2008

Thank you for sharing. You will be missed, but never forgotten.

Sent by Roni Roberts | 4:48 PM | 8-18-2008

Thank you. I just wanted to say that I've been heartened and touched by this over the years.

Sent by Julie Shevach | 5:01 PM | 8-18-2008

I have been following Leroy's posts for over a year now. I have read quietly of his amazing grace and courage. I have witnessed his humor, and strength.

I had not read his blog for about a week, but that doesn't mean he wasn't on my mind. See, last week I had a very small brush with cancer. The doctor did a biopsy on a fibroid in my uterus. I had to wait a week for the results. When I would get scared, I'd think of Leroy. Whatever happens, I'll be okay, and I'll fight it. Just like Leroy. The test was negative, and I am investigating what my next step will be.

I will always remember him, his wit, his strength, and his wish for normalcy. Tonight I will pour myself a margarita, and raise my glass to him. He fought a valient fight, and lived with grace and strength. My life is changed because of him.

Thanks Leroy. Godspeed, and pleasant journey.

Sent by Kim Rule | 5:09 PM | 8-18-2008

I was stunned to hear the news on NPR. While an infrequent commenter and frequent reader, and cancer patient myself - my heart goes out to Laurie who must carry on.

It is with great sadness I learned of his death. To him I am grateful to learn I am not the only who didn't buy new anything as it would be a waste. My first truly optimistic move was to buy a houseplant. Small thing - but a very large shift in thinking. For that - I have Leroy to thank.

Care - or did she say Life - givers never seem to get the patience and understanding they need. Maybe the blog will change into one showing her life-path and the other fears, stress, hopes of other Life-givers. I've reconciled to my impending death - it is my family that I mourn their pain.

Laurie - platitudes you have plenty of, hopes, prayers - we all offer those. But as someone with cancer who watched her own mother die of cancer, I tell you this - I understand. All the emotion, guilt, fear, anger, frustration - depression. Virtual **hugs** is all I can offer - and as with so many, a kind understanding and listening ear. :(

Sent by Linda | 5:13 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. You and Leroy have given strength and comfort to so many cancer patients and those of us who love them. You have lightened the burden and eased the fears. For that I and many others will forever be grateful.

Sent by David | 5:16 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy -- You will truly be missed my friend. A true professional in every sense, you approached your work with integrity and honesty. I knew the first time I worked with you in Rwanda that you were special...the type of journalist that was focused on getting it right and being fair. We shared many experiences (and MREs) while deployed. I'll forever cherish knowing you and I miss you my friend.

Sent by Bob Williams | 5:28 PM | 8-18-2008

Godspeed, Leroy. The world is a better place because you were here. Thank you.

Sent by Jane | 5:37 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie,
We've just returned home from Maine and I am just checking in. I'm typing through my tears here, wanting you to know how much we will miss Leroy. My thoughts are with both of you right now.

Love,

Betsey

Sent by betsey from albany ny | 5:45 PM | 8-18-2008

i heard about Leroy this morning on my way to work and i cried for a man and his family i never knew. My thought are with Laurie, family and friends.
dt

Sent by d. tallent | 5:47 PM | 8-18-2008

Dear Laurie
I like so many others found so much comfort and identity with Leroy. Please accept my deepest sympathy. The day after my dear brother past away, I wrote a poem to remind me of my life with him. It still gives me great comfort in my grief, perhaps it may do the same for you.
Rosemary

Sent by rosemary | 5:52 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie - You have my deepest sympathy.
Thank you for sharing Leroy with us - what he did here was an immense help to so many.

Sent by Susan | 6:04 PM | 8-18-2008

I am sitting here weeping, as I am sure a lot of you are. The sadness is overwhelming for a friend I never actually met. I hope to meet you in the next life Leroy..till then pray for us as we are all broken hearted.

Sent by ellie wingerson | 6:05 PM | 8-18-2008

Oh No! I didn't think this day would ever come. It's like losing a friend I never met, but checking this blog everyday was part of my daily routine. I'm so sorry

Sent by Elizabeth Hertzfeld | 6:06 PM | 8-18-2008

I didn't know it was possible to cry for someone I've never met. Leroy really touched me. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing him with us. Like Jane said, the world is a better place because he was here.

Sent by Tammy C. | 6:19 PM | 8-18-2008

I didn't have a chance to check the blog on Friday, as we were anxiously awaiting word on my dad's latest scan & MRI. We breathed more easily over the weekend after hearing that there was no sign of tumors or cancer, even as we reeled at the news of a fractured hip that had gone undiagnosed for the last two months. (That excruciating pain was a "pulled muscle".) Yes Leroy, Cancer World really is a roller coaster ride.

As I got ready this morning, the breath was knocked out of me & I dropped to a chair upon hearing news of Leroy's passing. I knew the time was coming, and yet always there remains that bit of hope. Just a little longer, Lord... I have been in tears ever since.

Dearest, dearest Laurie, I can't tell you how much comfort, companionship & peace this blog has brought to me over the past year. I thank God for the generosity of you & Leroy in your willingness to share the trials, the pain, the small victories and the eventual acceptance. As a matter of fact, I am grateful for all who have been willing to share their stories. I would not have made it through this year without you.

My dad has what we all hope is his last surgery tomorrow afternoon, and then maybe we can close the door on cancer world for awhile and regain some normalcy. I can tell you this, several of my prayers will be for the intercession of one of Heaven's newest angels, Leroy Sievers. Beannacht agus Deat, Laurie. Eternal rest grant unto him, O Lord.

Sent by Kate in CO | 6:23 PM | 8-18-2008

It took my breath away to open the blog and find that Leroy had died. My heart and condolences go out to you, Laurie. I cannot add much to what's already been said; he was larger than life and shared what might otherwise be private in a public forum with the utmost of dignity. May his memory be for a blessing.

e-hugs and tears to join with yours, Lyn

Sent by Lyn/AZ | 6:39 PM | 8-18-2008

He will be missed by all. What an amazing person, hero and a blessing for us suffering from cancer. I was diagnose June 19th 2006 and with Leroy posts it keep me going with his strength. Thank you, and god bless.
-athena

Sent by Athena Gomo | 6:46 PM | 8-18-2008

Your spirit, your committment to the human are both equally our collective call to search out and speak out the truth in love. Thank you, dear soul, for making many of my years brighter and so much more well informed.

Sent by Daniel Krueger | 6:51 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, you gave stregth, courage, hope, and peace to so many survivors as well as those left behind... your name and spirit shall be remembered. Peace to your spirit and comfort to your family and friends.

Sent by John Riutta | 6:55 PM | 8-18-2008

I am sad. My sister told me about Leroy's death - she knew I read his blog. I was out shopping, trying to live my life, waiting for my own test results. Then I heard the news story this morning. I will miss reading his blog - I will miss his wisdom. We are part of the same club. I am so grateful to have known of his life.

Sent by Janell | 7:07 PM | 8-18-2008

I asked God to help me learn how to die with grace and Leroy showed me how to live with joy. And in the joy is the dignity. Thankyou both.

Sent by Christine Cain | 7:08 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I can't tell you how soooo sorry I am! I will miss my Blog Friend for as long as I have left. He was an inspiration to everyone. He will be missed by so many. I came to the Blog nearly 2 years ago, and I truly think he has kept me alive. I consider him a Friend as I do You. I feel your pain and grief. He meant so much to so many, but he meant the most to you. My deepest condolences on the passing of this beloved "Big Man".

All my prayers are with you! I sit here crying for a truly noble man. I don't know what else to say, I don't want to stop, I just don't know right now how to help. I will miss him so much!!!! Stan

Sent by Stan Wozniak | 7:20 PM | 8-18-2008

Though I am so terribly sad that we have all lost Leroy's voice and his character and his courage, I am heartened that the end was quick, no lingering, melting away. I hope that in time, Laurie, you can see this as a blessing. Sit with your grief and give it the time and attention it deserves. Do not be shushed. Cry and scream and rail against the injustice of it. It makes it so much easier to live with it for the rest of your life if you fight with it and then befriend it.

Leroy was so incredibly special. Thank you for sharing him with us these last two years. He has done so much good in his life, and especially here with us on the blog. Though I never met him, I will miss him.

Sent by Yvonne | 7:24 PM | 8-18-2008

I am sorry to be tardy with my comments. I was away over the weekend and just got home to my computer. In San Diego I was searching on the radio for the local NPR affiliate; when I found it the first voice I heard was Leroy's! I knew right away what that meant.
It is difficult to explain all that I feel. Respect, appreciation, affection, sorrow, and more are within me now.
I hope you will find a way to continue the blog, because it has been so very valuable to the patients, their loved ones, and others who care so deeply.
For now, Laurie and close friends of Laurie and Leroy, please accept my sympathy, experience your loss as you need to do, and remember him always, as I'm sure the rest of us out here will, too. I send loving thoughts to all of you. From now on, I think thunder will remind me of Leroy, based on Laurie's post from that last day of his life here on earth.
Judith

Sent by Judith Newkirk | 7:28 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy,
You have been a mentor to many on this journey of yours. Thank you for the4 many hours you devoted to this.
Godspeed.

Sent by Hilary Collins | 7:28 PM | 8-18-2008

My advanced prostate cancer is coming to its first year's end. I've been "with" Leroy the past few months. Today I cried.
I am a Hospice chaplain, with cancer. I hear Laurie's growl as the thunderstorm passes by. Working for Hospice with cancer...interesting.
My heartfelt thanks and sorrow. My cancer is what it is. Leroy's, all the more so.
Cancer World lives and sucks. I seek only peace for you, Leroy and selfishly, me.

Andrew C. Russ

Sent by andrewcruss | 7:35 PM | 8-18-2008

I never knew Leroy personally of course, but nevertheless I feel like I've lost a dear friend. He spoke directly to me (or so it almost seemed) in the daily Nightline e-mails so many years ago, and of course that wonderful voice continued here in this forum. The world is a little too quiet, a little less bright today. To Laurie and to Leroy's many dear friends and loved ones, my deepest condolences for your great loss.

To Leroy, rest in peace my friend. You will be missed. Tonight I'll have ice cream, the kind with all sorts of stuff in it, or on top of it, or both, and think of you. I suspect you'd approve.

Sent by Lisa T | 7:39 PM | 8-18-2008

I was so saddened to hear the news. I have read this blog daily for over a year now, even though I have never commented before. I felt I had a friend even though we had never met. Leroy's words were so honest and heart felt. He will be greatly missed. My thoughts and prayers are with you Laurie.

Sent by Terri | 7:50 PM | 8-18-2008

"Good night, sweet prince, and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest!"

Sent by Mary | 7:50 PM | 8-18-2008

I heard the sad news of Leroy's passing on npr while driving today. When I returned home, I got the call that my friend Michelle, aged 60, had died this morning. She was diagnosed with cancer 10 years ago and given 6 months to live. She was our miracle in more ways than one. She was outspoken and honest from day one, reassuring us all. She is my role model for how to live a good life. I know that Leroy embodied the same strength, humor and honesty. We are all blessed and made stronger by knowing these true heroes.
My sympathies go out to you on this great loss.

Sent by JoAnn Solov | 7:55 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy and this blog have been an amazing gift for all have been touched or will be touched by cancer. Thank you for letting us all learn from your experience, Leroy. Now it is your turn to be free from this beast. We will miss you.

Sent by Joel Widder | 7:57 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy helped me through my darkest hours, as did the wonderful community he created. He made the cancer experience real but also gave it dignity and purpose. He is a man who made a difference! My sincerest sympathy goes out to all his family and friends.

Sent by Louise | 8:09 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie
Very few ever touched me the way Leroy did......for whatever reason.....not mine to question........thanks

Sent by Mike | 8:11 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry to read that LeRoy passed away. You are and have been in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you so much for sharing this blog with so many of us. It helped me through my own cancer, which has taken the lives of so many of my family. Take care Laurie.

Sent by Maureen Cable | 8:21 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie
For whatever consolation that it is worth--Leroy touched so many of us. Being part of this community helped me understand a little of what my mother was going through during her battle with colon cancer. She passed away in Dec 2006. I read every morning, first thing and tried to figure out how to apply his message to my grief process. My mornings will be different now, but nothing compared to the immeasurable grief you must feel. Peace be with you, Laurie, and thank you for sharing Leroy for us.

Sent by JoAnn | 8:24 PM | 8-18-2008

Even though we never met I feel as if I lost a good friend.

Sent by Perry A. | 8:52 PM | 8-18-2008

My wonderful husband died from cancer 7 months ago. I was able to understand through Leroy what is was like for my husband because it was difficult for him to vocalize his thoughts. I am forever grateful to Leroy for sharing his thoughts. Laurie, all I can say is I will pray for you during this very difficult time.

Sent by lisa blancero | 9:11 PM | 8-18-2008

I only read this blog as frequently as I remembered to look in my "bookmarks", but whenever I did, I was so touched by Leroy's honesty and clarity. I have been working with women facing breast cancer this past year, and I've seen how it impacts them but still, this blog made it so intensely human for me. I hope it can be published in such a way that his fight, vigor, and keen perception can continue to impact others as it has me. My prayers are with you and your family Laurie.

Sent by Julia | 9:14 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie: I commented this morning on the Monday entry, but after reading all the messages here, I had to add.

If we live in the memories of everyone who knew us, Leroy's light will go on for a long, long time. There are so many who have posted today...and as usual, I'm one of the late ones.

If I (we...the caregivers left behind) can help in anyway, we are here for you. Just take it one step at a time.

Nikki

Sent by Nikki in Kansas | 9:21 PM | 8-18-2008

How privileged we all were to be graced by Leroy's candor, humor, and bravery up 'til the end. Laurie, I add my voice to the chorus of condolences and my "virtual" arms to this group hug. God bless you and Leroy, your friends and family, and the many doctors and nurses who've helped you both on this journey.

There's a Carly Simon song in which the refrain goes - "life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a horizon. Life is eternal, as we move into the light and the horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight, the limit of our sight." Leroy has slipped over the horizon, out of your sight but always within reach of your love and thoughts.

Peace be with you.

Sent by Lisa Laico | 9:29 PM | 8-18-2008

My home page is NPR, and I, too, gasped when I saw the news on Saturday morning. I don't know when I began reading this blog, but I have checked it daily for over a year. I lost my mother to ovarian cancer 5 years ago. She was the 'miracle patient', living and not just surviving for 10 years and long enough to meet and know all 4 of her grandchildren. I spent the last 12 weeks of her life with her and my Dad, so many of Leroy's posts and subsequent comments hit home. The most amazing aspect of the blog for me has been the incredible outpouring of support for Leroy and all of the other members of 'cancer world'. It shows the best in humanity and that's why I kept coming back. The words of comfort and wisdom make all the difference. Thank you to Leroy for his voice of courage, humor and reason. Hugs and peace to you, Laurie for now and always.

Sent by Margo MacIntyre | 9:32 PM | 8-18-2008

Thank you so much for this blog, which has touched and given strength even to those of us whose lives have not been directly affected by cancer. Leroy has been an inspiration to me in grad school and I'm so grateful to have gotten to know him through his stories.

Sent by sr215 | 9:39 PM | 8-18-2008

What we have feared for so long has happened. And now we will try to go on without him. I know this community will not let his legacy die.

Sent by Paula | 9:40 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so sorry to hear Leroy is gone. I am not personally affected by cancer, by I was personally affected by Leroy's story and his openness. He has boldly gone where no one has gone boldly before. I knew this day would come, but as everyone, I wished it wouldn't have.

Sent by Roberta | 9:49 PM | 8-18-2008

How heartbreaking it was to check the webpage on Sunday and read of Leroy's passing. Many of us were fortunate to have "met" him on this blog. I only wish I'd had the opportunity to meet him in person.

Laurie, and Leroy's family, please know that our heartfelt thoughts and good wishes go out to you as you work through this difficult transition.

Sent by Gretchen B | 10:05 PM | 8-18-2008

i am still in tears
the tears that cannot wash away
the hurt of a good friend passing
maybe time and knowing he is at peace
will bring back the joy that his writing
over the years brought to my soul.

Sent by denise m. | 10:21 PM | 8-18-2008

I am so very, very sorry to hear of Leroy's death. He helped make my every day a better one, by sharing his thoughts on how his cancer was affecting him. My lymphoma of almost two years seems small in the face of what he went through. The world is a far better place because of him having been a part of it. I will miss him more than my words can say. My thoughts are with Laurie and all those who loved Leroy.

Sent by John Brady | 10:32 PM | 8-18-2008

We left home Friday and returned tonight. Reading the news of Leroy's passing away tonight saddened me. His blog has touched me in so many ways, especially after losing my cousin to cancer just over a year ago, shortly before she turned 55. My thoughts and prayers are with Laurie and other family and friends of Leroy's.

Sent by Martha H. | 11:04 PM | 8-18-2008

Laurie, I'm sorry for Leroy's loss.

I know the words of a stranger can't help much, but they're all I can offer now. I'd gotten to know this blog only after it had been going a while, and during my own recovery from a bout of cancer. He gave me a helping hand along the way, just by writing every day.

And I'm grateful, and I thank you and him.

PN

Sent by Patti Niehoff | 11:10 PM | 8-18-2008

Leroy, I miss you. The world was brighter with you in it. Laurie, The world can still be bright for you. Time does heals those of us still here.

Sent by Richard Barnes | 11:41 PM | 8-18-2008

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please know that Leroy's comments made me a better caregiver to my wife. And Donna drew a lot of inspiration and confidence from Leroy's experiences. We will miss him.

Sent by Mike and Donna Perry | 11:54 PM | 8-18-2008

A local art museum had an exhibit this summer called "Heaven Is Being A Memory To Others". Leroy's Heaven must be huge!

Sent by Judy | 11:56 PM | 8-18-2008

As a cancer survivor I read Leroy's postings every day cheered for him. His survival was the survival of all of us. I felt like he was my friend and his passing is a blow. Please know that my prayers are with his family and that his courage meant so much to me and everyone else in the Cancer World. I will miss him.

Sent by Teddi Simons | 12:20 AM | 8-19-2008

Thank you, Leroy. Rest in a peace so richly deserved. My sincerest sympathy to your family. I hope they can gain some solace in celebration of the wonderful life you lived and the inspiration you became to tens of thousands around the world.

Sent by Bryan | 12:27 AM | 8-19-2008

I am saddened to hear the news. I came to know Leroy through his Nightline daily e-mails that I received years ago. There were a few writers from the Nightline Office but only Leroy's name stayed in my heart. His sharing of personal thoughts and feelings made me feel like an old friend of his. I missed him when he left Nightline. Now I will miss him forever. My prayer goes with you, Laurie.

W Tin from Hong Kong

Sent by W Tin | 12:49 AM | 8-19-2008

I so so sorry for your loss...our loss. I got so much from Leroy's insight and his honesty. It felt as if he was writing to me, like we knew each other. There will be an empty time each morning without reading his latest entry.
Peace be with you

Sent by Jeff Brauns | 1:18 AM | 8-19-2008

My husband is a very stoic, stalwart Marine corp officer; definitely not one given to fits of emotion. However over the past year he listened to Leroy's blog with me and followed in his fight.
We were both saddened by Leroy's passing when we read about it over the weekend. Sad and a little shocked even though it was obviously coming.
My husband said to me that Leroy was obviously a very strong and generous person to have taken the time to continue to share his story at a time when most of us would surely have wanted to be left alone.
Leroy knew people were depending on him and needed his words and, as a Marine, my husband definitely understood the courage it takes to follow through on that kind of commitment even through the worst kinds of experiences.
I hope we both get to meet Leroy on the other side; it will be an honor and a priviledge.
In the meantime, my heart goes out to you in your sadness and you are in my prayers.
Missy Patterson

Sent by Missy Patterson | 1:44 AM | 8-19-2008

I am shocked at Leroy's leave!let's pray for him for good! I am a Chinese who has been reading Leroy's blog daily for his courage to fight cancer. I feel sorry for losing a friend!

Sent by Zhang Yan (Nanjing,Jiangsu Province,China) | 5:19 AM | 8-19-2008

What a gift this has been to so many; may it continue to provide comfort, strength and hope, and may Laurie feel the collective hug.

Sent by Jack | 5:31 AM | 8-19-2008

Free and beyond the bounds of our earthly experience now, may all be light and love.
And that is what we must all tap into with our thoughts of Leroy, and all the other heroic people that have passed this way.
Laurie, so many, so much, and also the spirit of Leroy is there to hold you as you traverse these enormous times of transition in your life. We all love you both.

Sent by M.SHH | 6:14 AM | 8-19-2008

Oh dear Lord, I am so sorry to read of Leroy's passing. Like so many others, one day I stumbled on this blog and never left it. Most every day, I would log in and read the latest info. Many times, I felt such a surge of hope that somehow Leroy was one cancer patient who was going to beat the odds and make it. The sudden downturn after his last surgery and now this has just left me stunned.

Thank you for the courage and strength both you and Leroy provided to this community of cancer patients and those who love them. My condolences to you at this time.

Sent by Irene Mikol | 6:54 AM | 8-19-2008

Free at last, Leroy finally gets to go back home. Leroy is truly a light! He has made the world a better place by sharing his experiance with cancer. It was so beautiful to see how he would deal with all the challenges he would encounter he was a true hero fighting the battle and now he gets to go home. I feel honered to have known him. My prayer are with you. With love
Sandy

Sent by Sandy Patterson | 8:21 AM | 8-19-2008

Like so many others, Leroy's daily posting was the first thing I read each morning. The outpouring of feeling from everyone in this community gives a glimpse of how much his life and words meant. He has peace and is free from pain now and for that I am grateful.

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. You did all that love could do for your man.

Rest in peace, Leroy

Tim Broussard

Sent by Tim Broussard | 8:48 AM | 8-19-2008

Laurie,
I was glad to hear that Leroy, and you, experienced so little of what he seemed to most dread- a hospital bed life that is neither life nor rest.

Congratulations, strange as that may sound, to you for surviving Leroy's cancer. As I found with my wife, the dread you feel when you first find out pales in comparison with the misery of daily dread over months and years.

Sent by Anna | 9:02 AM | 8-19-2008

The tears are flowing for the loss of this awesome force. I shall always remember his fortitude and grace. I am yet another daily reader of this blog really feeling this loss of one incredibly amazing human being.

Thank you so much to Leroy and Laurie. My sincerest condolences to the family and friends.

Sent by JSM | 11:11 AM | 8-19-2008

I first learned about Leroy and Stephanie through the Ted Koppel special. My heart broke when we lost Stephanie. Now it breaks again for Leroy. He impressed me so much I even put my cancer story on the Discovery Cancer channel site. From then on I was hooked on his stories and strenghth. On days of my chemo I would get up read Leroy's blog then feel like I can do this if he can go through all his test and treatments. My family would even ask what great advise Leroy gave today. He was a great story teller. At times he made me feel like a little kid going on an adventure with him when he told of his stories from the past. Or I would sit and think when he would ask a question of all if us. Like everyone else I think it would be great for his blog to be made into a book, but that is a thought for another day. Laurie my families thoughts are with you and just know that there is one more shinning star up there and we have one more person to pray to and hopefully be our cancer angel.

Sent by Cathy | 11:20 AM | 8-19-2008

Laurie, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. When Leroy started his blog, I had just been diagnosed with breast cancer. He helped me immensely along my journey, as I know he has with countless others. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Sent by Patty | 12:35 PM | 8-19-2008

From the moment I first saw Leroy with Ted Koppel on the television show, I felt a kinship with him. He seemed so kind, gentle, a big bear of a man, smart, funny, and determined to make this world a better place. Having lost my dear husband Philip to Hodgkins Lymphoma in 1989, I began reading the blog and often commenting back to Leroy. My prayers and thoughts are with Laurie and all of you who have lost a dear friend. Leroy will be missed dearly.

Sent by annie | 1:02 PM | 8-19-2008

What a legacy he left.Laurie,I am so sorry for your loss.Over a year and a half has passed since a doctor told me I had mets.My husband found Leroys blog that evening.I wrote Leroy not expecting a response.I told him of my troubles and that my niece worked at NPR in Washington.I told him I had no insurance and was in pain.He wrote me back,I was elated.He said if there was anything he could do for me?What a saint he was.My heart was filled with joy.Just as I was going to ask his help,he let his readers know that his cancer spread to his spine.I wanted to be there for him.His every word was all I needed.I lost both my parents to cancer and knew the battle we were facing.He made me cry and he made me laugh.He has given me hope and inspiration.I lost my nephew Matthew Butler to a senseless robbery in Garland ,Tx. last month.He was only 28 years old my sisters only child.I hate cancer,just as the thief in the night took my nephew another thief in the night took my friend Leroy .We need to find a cure for this disease that steals from us.It is good to know he didn't suffer long.It helped me to know Matthew didn't suffer long.I'll miss my friend .Heavens gain our loss.

Sent by Annette J. | 1:33 PM | 8-19-2008

I found Leroy's blog last year as my mother was receiving 6 months of inpatient chemotherapy. His words brought me closer to her, and his selflessness in expressing where he was at with everything, an inspiration. I learned of Leroy's death yesterday, on the same day my mother got her results one year after completion of therapy. I spoke to her as she sat outside on the deck, watching the sunset, appreciating the flowers, the music on the radio, and the wildlife running around. She is cancer free. She is celebrating life on the backs of all those courageous people like Leroy that in their treatment advanced the understanding of cancer. Thank you Leroy for giving my mom that sunset. Thank you for all the sunsets you will continue to give, and thank you for the solace you offered in her journey. You are an inspiration and you will be missed.

Sent by MK | 1:51 PM | 8-19-2008

may his memory be for a blessing...and may that blessing be of comfort to you, laurie, and to leroy's family and many friends.

Sent by ESD | 6:12 PM | 8-19-2008

for several years I looked forward to the daily Nightline blast from Leroy. He was sardonic, funny, brilliant and inciteful all at once. I always appreciated how the man could describe some pretty horrible things yet still find the humour in the absurdities of it all. Sort of like "you laughed, you cried", yet knowing that you would understand it better after the show. News for the thinking crowd - so darn little of it. I always wanted to hit reply on the Nightline program notes to just tell Leroy how much I enjoyed his daily dose of humour, and to thank him very much for making me laugh for a minute each day. Of course you couldn't hit "reply" and actually trying to navigate the maze of phones at ABD NY would've taken more time than it was worth. Figured some day I'd get a chance to just tell Leroy how much I appreciated him and to thank him for taking the time to write such thoughtful daily blasts. Like so many other things in life it just got away. Damn!
Laurie, thank you so much for having shared that wonderful, remarkable, funny person with the rest of us.

Sent by Bryan W | 6:26 PM | 8-19-2008

Oops. I meant "insightful" NOT "inciteful"
Big difference. I suppose, given the right occasion he could be the latter, but he was ALWAYS the former.

Sent by bryan w | 6:30 PM | 8-19-2008

I have this feeling from what Leroy has been saying to all of us... "Life is like a great motorcycle ride..." Remember that it is better to have made the ride, enjoy it, and when the ride nears it's thrill...ride on.
Leroy kept on HIS ride throughout this challenge...I wish I could do the same for others...

Ride on, Leroy, ride on...

Sent by Richard Williams | 6:56 PM | 8-19-2008

We've just returned from vacation, time off I really needed after a lung infection post chemo---and just read this post.

I read this post and the following posts aloud to my other half as we both sat and cried. We knew this day would come for Leroy, but were still not ready for it to be NOW. We can only assume the feelings are magnified for those closer to Leroy.

I found this blog after I was diagnosed with melanoma that has killed a number of folks in my family. I lived and breathed Leroy's words and during some of my most awful days of chemo. Leroy's words helped me through the side effects. His keeping alive long after the doctors assumed he would be long gone gave me hope and energy to live.

As many here have long said---I never "met" Leroy, but he was here in my life via his posts. I am sure he understood how powerful his work was for everyone. I hope that Laurie and the rest of the crowd closer to Leroy know that we out here in 'net land thank her (and the rest) for letting Leroy into our lives. We send our love and hugz to Laurie.

Sent by Trish | 7:24 PM | 8-19-2008

Goodbye Leroy, thank you for this wonderful journey. In my days of sickness and despair you were a companion and my inspiration.

Sent by Juan Pablo Martinez | 10:05 PM | 8-19-2008

I can't express how much reading this blog has come to be a part of my life. After losing my journalist father to cancer last year, it was immensely helpful to read the words of someone so strong and open about the illness. There were so many circumstances I recognized, and although they were painful to think about, I commend Leroy's brave writing about the whole situation.
To Laurie, best wishes, and I hope that you know how much your husbands words affected others.
Love.

Sent by Brooke | 11:06 PM | 8-19-2008

Laurie:
Leroy was such an inspiration to me as I have concurrently battled leukemia. His wonderful insights got me through the tough times. Thanks to you both. Thoughts and prayers are with you

Sent by pete | 12:31 AM | 8-20-2008

Dearest Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss, our loss. I knew you both in the LA Bureau of CBS for too short a time, but I had known Leroy since KTVU times in Oakland, when I was just a lowly freelance Photog and a female too, oh my how they tortured me..but not Leroy! He was ALWAYS a gentleman, a professional, a person who knew that giving his co-workers a positive spin on whatever was pulling us down would heal all the wrongs faster.. He then hired me for for a second time, into the LA Bureau and let me come "home" to work and to be with my mom when she died from Ovarian Cancer now 8 years ago. He encouraged and prodded and gave of his friendship without thinking of himself. And when the Two of you left our bureau, I was upset/the bureau was upset for a long time. Geeze...no more Laurie Parties!! I still watch that silly goodby reel we did, with Leroy's toys tramping up and down the ladder, spinning around, punching those little boxing gloves at us...and remember the waterfights he had with other "so mature" members of the LA Bureau...THOSE WERE THE GOOD DAYS! And they made us all smile. Love and Prayers. Susan Ottalini, Editor, CBS News Los Angeles

Sent by Susan Ottalini | 12:34 AM | 8-20-2008

I am so sorry to hear this sad news. Last summer I had a friend who was dying from pancreatic cancer and he often spoke of how much reading Larry's blog meant to him during that difficult fight. My friend and Larry passed away a year apart and far too many years too soon. I will mourn Larry's loss and send my thoughts and deepest sympathies to his family, friends and colleagues.

Sent by Anne Payne | 12:35 AM | 8-20-2008

When I think of all the dangerous assignments that Leroy was on, it makes me wonder if he was meant to be a comfort and companion to all who travel in "Cancer World".

He has made a huge difference in so many lives. You also, Laurie, are part of this. Our prayers are with you and your family, that your heart will heal and joy will return as time passes.

Sent by Mary | 4:06 AM | 8-20-2008

Grieve not...

Nor speak of me with tears...

But laugh and talk of me as though I were beside you.

I loved you so...twas heaven here with you.

Sent by George Smith | 8:40 AM | 8-20-2008

I write this with tears at the news of Larry's death. Back in the 60's, my youth was spent watching and waiting as my mother struggled with cancer. She died when I was 18. She had spent 12 years mostly in isolation with her disease. This blog was part of losing that isolation. Thank you Larry.

Sent by Holly Cohn | 11:31 AM | 8-20-2008

Laurie, my deepest condolences. Leroy truly has made a difference in the world - his courage and compassion will be missed by so many people. He will be missed terribly.

Sent by Helen H. Kang | 12:10 PM | 8-20-2008

Laurie,
My deepest sympathies to you, and Leroy's family, on his passing. It wasn't until I saw your surname in the NYTimes story, that I realized we had worked together in San Diego. You contined your great TV career, and I wound up in MLB, and later the NFL.
How wonderful it was that your path crossed with Leroy, and vice-versa. As a cancer survivor (5yrs--8/27), the caregiver is such a vital part of the process, and we know from the blog how wonderful you were in that role.
You will continue to be in our prayers and thoughts. God Bless You, and may Leroy rest in peace.
John

Sent by John Shean | 1:45 PM | 8-20-2008

Dear Laurie,

Leroy was an inspiration to us all.

As my mother battled colon cancer over the past couple of years, she lost my father, her husband of nearly 40 years, in the midst of it..sudden heart attack, six months after she was diagnosed as stage IV. Leroy's blog provided support, community and a virtual friendship that was very important to her everyday life. While she grieved my father's death, and fought for her own life, Leroy provided guidance and perspective on the disease. Since her passing on March 30th of this year at the age of 58, I have continued to follow Leroy's fight, in her honor and because I've come to realize those of us that are left behind...need each other too.

Laurie - I am so sorry to hear of Leroy's passing. He was an amazing person and will be remembered by so many. I thank you both for sharing your life over the past couple of years and making the world more aware of what it is like to live with cancer.

My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

Sent by Becca | 2:34 PM | 8-20-2008

My heart breaks for Laurie, for all those who were close to him and for those of us left behind. No matter what type or stage our cancer is in, life threatening or just annoying, Leroy always made us feel like "just one more hurdle to jump"

With tears in my eyes, I say "thank you" for sharing your lives, humor, sadness, anger and pain with us. You both have been an inspiration to anyone who has followed his blog or just happened onto it once or twice. We have all been touched.

My thoughts are with you and I wish you peace that will come with time.

Sent by Karen | 3:46 PM | 8-20-2008

Leroy's insight and humor throughout his journey were extraordinary. I am a nurse and Leroy's blog allowed me a first person insight into what it means to live with cancer. For this I will always be thankful, but what a loss for us all!

Laurie, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and friend. How luck you all are to have known him so well.

Sent by Alicia from Los Angeles | 3:54 PM | 8-20-2008

Laurie-The blog and the thoughts Leroy shared were extraordinary. Thank you for allowing us this privilege. My condolences and blessings for you.

Sent by holly | 10:22 PM | 8-20-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy's blog was a comfort for me once my chemo was done. He helped me smile, move on, and go forward with my life. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sincerely, Christina

Sent by Christina Marotta | 11:49 PM | 8-20-2008

I'll miss you, Leroy!

Sent by Christina Marotta | 12:00 AM | 8-21-2008

I was shocked toear of Leroy's passing. I had heard some of his commentaries in the last two plus years, and got some insight into what a wonderful person he was. More recently I looked in at the blog and saw that he and Laurie were dealing with the decision to go into hospice. It was then that I realized how much it all reminded me of when my father died of cancer 10 years ago. I realized that I was finding some unfinished grief inside of me. At the same time I felt tremendous sympathy for Leroy and his family.
I guess I thought that Leroy would be different; that he would somehow turn the corner again, no matter how unlikely it was, and return to health. After a short camping trip over the weekend, I heard Talk of the Nation on Monday talking about remembering their friend and colleague, Leroy Sievers. I just yelled out loud "He's gone already!"
My heartfelt condolences to Laurie and all his family and friends. He is in a better place now, and you should all do what you need to to take care of yourselves and eachother.

Sent by Don from Rochester, NY | 10:12 AM | 8-21-2008

Dear Laurie,

May the angels lead him into paradise -

I send my deepest sympathy to you at the loss of your Leroy.
I was so saddened to read the news on Saturday morning.

My thoughts and prayers have been with you both since I began reading the blog. I have been reading it and the comments for almost two years. It made
me feel connected, like I was not alone, like my support group.
It was so generous of Leroy and you to share your lives with all of us.

My husband died July 20, 2008 of bladder and liver cancer.

He had bladder cancer for 8 1/2 years and was diagnosed with liver cancer on Labor Day 2007.
He dealt with his illness and all the problems it caused, with courage and dignity.

Cancer is so awful!!!!!

Laurie, May God be with you and send you strength.
I know that you must feel that God is comforting you from the care and concern you are receiving from so many.

Thanks again, to two most special people and to all those who write the comments.

Elaine - In Colorado

Sent by Elaine - In Colorado | 10:15 AM | 8-21-2008

Happiness and joy is what Mr. Sievers meant to me. I never met him, read his blog occasionally but I felt a deep love and respect for this human being who touched my life in such a special way. Words cannot express how grateful I feel for coming across his blog and reading his words he shared so unselfishly with me a stranger of no consequence. My heart goes out to his special family and friends.

Sent by Noemi Y Martinez | 11:09 AM | 8-22-2008

Thank you. You will be missed, especially by those of us impacted by this disease.

Sent by Mollie | 7:00 PM | 8-22-2008

Today (Aug.22nd) while watching the news I learned of Leroy's fight and blog. I wish I had known and had the honor of emailing him personally. From what I have read, he was an incredible man. My heart pours out to you and your family. I too am fighting that awful word, 'cancer'. I have chronic lymphocytic leukemia and have to go for my first chemo next week. 5 days of treatment. And, YES, I'm scared shitless but I feel not so alone after reading his thoughts and the humor he shared.

Thank you for sharing your most beloved. May God Bless.

Fondly, Renee

Sent by Renee Wagner | 10:21 PM | 8-22-2008

You have been with me all the days of my life, giving me hope and purpose for over 65 years now... but I just recently learned your name: "Courage & Hope". Your suffering is over now, dear person, and you can now live life as it was truly meant to be... in perfect health, in a perfect body, in a perfect world where there is "...no more pain, suffering, weeping and gnashing of teeth". We shall meet again.

Sent by Steven Davis | 11:02 PM | 8-22-2008

Rest peacefully Leroy. I was a stranger to you too but I will miss you.

Sent by Sandra in Ohio | 8:09 AM | 8-23-2008

After "meeting" Leroy on the "Living with Cancer" special, I became inspired by his determination, his "larger-than-life" presence - - and I knew his radiation doctor and cancer team would be successful in holding the enemy at bay.
When my father's oncologist and radiologist had conferred with me - - showed me to see Xrays of the tumors in his lung and brain - - I thought that surely, radiation can reduce the sizes, maybe even eradicate them! And Leroy? He was larger than the enemy - - a bulldozer would be needed to shake his resolve or run him down - -
Then I was SHOCKED: My father died with 13 weeks of being diagnosed. My son was put on life-support, only for a few hours. And with regard to Leroy, Dr. Christian Meyers announced, "He will die from this cancer."
As I watched Dr. Meyers, I felt no resentment; he wasn't urging people to "stop living." His eyes seemed to water and his voice seemed to quiver. This caring man knew that the success would be in extending Leroy's life so that he could live as fully, as optimistically as he could with each extra day he hoped the team could "provide" for Leroy.
And he was correct in his judgment - - his diagnosis - -
Leroy's gift for expressing his hopes and depression, his courage and his fears has enabled those of us who continue suffering from life-threatening illnesses AND the grief of losing an only child to "keep on keeping on."
After learning that Leroy had succumbed to the invasive disease, I, too, grieved - - but I recall mary Frye's poem:
"Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thusand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glintz on snow.
I am the sun on gazing grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain...."
Yes, his body has been interred - - but what a legacy! When I see a sunset, I am reminded of his sunset, his words I listen to and read each day - - through his life AND after his death, he CONTINUES to speak to us, elevate our spirits, remind us of hope and valuing each day in spite of our losses and the unsurmountable obstacles we are hindered with.
Thank you, Leroy and Lori, for sharing what could have been very private reactions and empowering us to "keep on keeping on."
Carla Gilray Richburg, New York

Sent by Carla Gilray | 3:44 PM | 8-23-2008

For me reading his blog and listening to my cancer spots was an opportunity to partake of excellent reporting from that place none of us want to face and all of us will. I appreciate his humor and graciousness and insights and feel a little better prepared to someday face the inevitable. I'm sure that maintaining his work through such late stages of his illness took him away from you a little more than you might of liked - so thank you for your generosity in supporting him continuing to write and report to the end.

Sent by Kathy in Hancock, Michigan | 12:52 PM | 8-25-2008

I just learned of LeRoy Sievers 30 minutes ago. I mean literally. I don't know how his existence managed to escape me all this time he obviously has been a household word for many years. I haven't even had a chance to do much more than watch the ABC video clip of his passing, read the Internet article and these most recent postings of condolence (I haven't even read his Blog yet) and I am already overwhelmed and in tears. I too, am a Stage 4 cancer survivor who has been in remission for 4-1/2 years. My brother Joseph LeRoy is also a cancer survivor in remission for 11 years and we lost our brother David to cancer in 1994. I will be reading LeRoy Blog momentarily, but just wanted to say that if this man can have such an impact on me in only 30 minutes worth of time, I can only imagine how he must have affected the lives of those around him and those who knew of him. He is gone from our world but is now embarking on the most incredible and fulfilling endeavor of all - afterlife with God. May peace be with you.

Sent by Annette | 3:03 PM | 8-25-2008

I always approached Leroy's blog sideways...not really wanting to be there reading about cancer, but not able not to. I still have the unknown of "did we get it all?" of prostate cancer. Leroy's frontal assault on cancer and on all the feelings that come with it, made the shadows just a little less ominous. Thank you Leroy, for such a giving of yourself.

Sent by Bernie | 5:06 PM | 8-25-2008

Laurie,

I just want to tell you that I know what you're going through because I went through the same. I lost my husband 4 years ago to cancer, I was 37, he was 47. Since then I've moved back to Brazil (where I'm from) and from here I've been following your's and Leroy's struggle.
Let me send you some strengh and tell you that no, life will never be the same again, but life must go on.
With love,

Marcia Triunfol, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

Sent by Marcia Triunfol | 7:37 AM | 9-1-2008

I just read about Leroy's passing a few minutes ago. I read him just about every day but I am caring for my Dad as well and he is at the end stages of ALzheimers disease, so it became more difficult to continue with Leroy's journal. My heart is so sad today. Leroy was a gentleman~~strong, caring person who I greatly admired. This world gained such wonderful things when Leroy was part of it~~I'd like to believe that Leroy is in a place where he can continue his greatness~~just in a different way. Im grateful that his pain is no longer a part of what he had to live with for so long. Today, I will think of this kind and very humble man that gave me so much more than he will ever know. Laurie, thank you for fighting this battle and sharing your heart with us as well. You are one in a million! Warm hugs to you ~

Sent by Robin Cassidy | 1:10 PM | 9-6-2008

Peace be with you as you make your way moment by moment without him by your side, take it moment by moment.

Sent by Jamie | 2:18 AM | 9-9-2008

Thank you very much for this information.

sohbet

Sent by sohbet | 11:39 AM | 9-9-2008

I'm just reading this 9/19/08 eyes filled with tears. I read Leroy's blog every day while I was taking care of my Dad who recently died of lung cancer. Sometimes I would read the posts to him and he would nod as if to say, "Yeah, he knows what I am going through." I stopped when he passed away, retreating into myself. I am so sorry to hear that Leroy passed away. He was a strength to me...and to my Dad. Thanks for continuing the blog, Laurie...it's brave and wonderful.

Sent by Gail M. | 3:00 PM | 9-19-2008

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