NO....!!!!! I want you back! Oh, if not, Leroy please feel us all carrying your spirit into the ether. I miss you profounding already. Thank you Leroy. You have made such a difference in my life.
Love,
Cathy R.

Sent by Cathy R. | 8:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

as husband of a survivor, Leroy's blog and NPR appearances brought a lot of solace. I'm so sorry about your loss but glad he's at peace.

Sent by W. David Stephenson | 8:20 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I woke up this morning and came straight here. I think all of us here have been virtually bedside lately, and would have been in reality had it not posed such an enormous imposition. I miss him hugely. What Leroy thought of was a cancer blog. What he created was so much more. How can we honor him? How can we honor Laurie? It's very hard to think about, though I knew it was coming. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing your thoughts with us. I'm sure you will be foremost in my thoughts for many days to come. To the rest of Leroy's community, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. Many times, they've gotten me over a hump or lessened a burden by showing how many carried it with me. I feel so sad, and know that as the day goes on, and as I check back in, many of you will have things to say that will temper my sadness. Love to all, Ellen

Sent by Ellen Royer in NC | 8:24 AM ET | 08-16-2008

No words can convey my sorrow for your loss.

Sent by Trish Whittaker | 8:24 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart is broken. Please know that your grief is shared by many. I'm so sorry.

Sent by Stacy Fox | 8:25 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Rest in peace Leroy! Thank you for sharing with us your fight against cancer and helping us better understand the realities of cancer. You are an inspiration to 12 million cancer survivors.

Sent by Brian Dowd | 8:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart,soul and gut feels so empty? Leroy demonstated what a cancer warrior is, I'm thankful for his typed words of courage that propel me through my battle.

Sent by John Allen | 8:36 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I found this blog due to my sister's diagnosis. You will never know the impact it has had on me.
I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by Lisa | 8:38 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Deepest condolences. We've all lost a friend.

Sent by Susan | 8:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My breath is just...gone. I suppose somewhere in the back of my mind I knew this day would come, but...Leroy was only two years older than I, I know we remember many of the same things of growing up in the sixties. Laurie, I wrote yesterday that we are all with you and Leroy in the midst of the storm. That is still true, we are still here. Please feel our love, compassion and draw from our strength.

Charles

Sent by Charles Willingham | 8:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so glad that the escalation seems to have come so quickly and all the stages you two particularly did not want to have thrust upon you were with you only fleetingly: hospital bed, hospice, very strong pain medicine. I literally gasped when I just now went to the website, intending to read more of yesterday's messages. Tears sprang into my eyes, but really, relief washed over me immediately after that. I am so glad for Leroy that he did not have to linger long once everything had escalated in the last few days. I will miss his unique voice and presence in my daily life but I know he is strong, vigorous and full of peace in another realm. Laurie, I hope your loving family members and friends can help hold you up and nurture and care for you as you go through these next days. I feel strongly that Leroy will be helping you every step, too.

Love and prayers to you.

Sent by Katie | 8:46 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh God. I am so, so sad. Prayers.

Sent by bettye | 8:46 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Just like the other readers, I come here first thing everyday. This saddens me so. Thank you for being there for me helping me to get thru my cancer. I shall miss you greatly.

Sent by Patsy | 8:46 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sad and sorry for your loss, Laurie. This blog has helped me soooo
much in my battle and fight with cancer.
I thank you both from the bottom of my
heart.
God Bless You and LeRoy,
Kathy

Sent by Kathy Hoerle | 8:47 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Goodnight sweet prince. And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest. Hamlet

Take him and cut him out in little stars, And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night,
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
Romeo & Juliet

Sent by TC in Rhode Island | 8:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I have been here every day gaining strength from every word. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time of sorrow.

Sent by Carole | 8:53 AM ET | 08-16-2008

There are lots of voices in the world today clamoring for attention. LeRoy's was one I sought out every day, and I'm still not sure why. I think it was his honesty.

I'll miss him. My condolences to those left behind.

Sent by Barry | 8:55 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My children's grandfather died yesterday of cancer as well. We will miss him. And I will miss reading Leroy's words, his honest sharing. I know that no one will miss him as much as you, Laurie. My heartfelt love and blessings with you as you navigate this deep sadness.

Sent by Linda Heintz | 8:57 AM ET | 08-16-2008

He is traveling up the path on a bright, sunny, day and we wish him "Godspeed" Dear Friend May you walk with your old steps and pain free. We all knew this was coming but it is still hard to accept and yet, I am so glad to hear that he went peacefully carried on all the love and devotion he has inspired in this world.

Sent by J C R | 8:57 AM ET | 08-16-2008

The blog has meant so much to me. Thank you

Sent by Dale Budslick | 9:01 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy's courage in sharing his journey will stay with his readers, and in that way his spirit will live.

Sent by Jessica | 9:06 AM ET | 08-16-2008

When he shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.

I wish all Leroy's friends and family peace.

Sent by tom | 9:07 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I have no words..............

Rest in peace Leroy

You have left a legacy here..............

Sent by Ron Bye (NH) | 9:08 AM ET | 08-16-2008

May God bless Laurie and Leroy. I will miss Leroy's voice in this blog as will so many others. Leroy provided me and my husband with so much understanding companionship in the fight with cancer before and after we lost a loved one to the disease.

Sent by Amy | 9:11 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie and Friends and Family of Leroy,

Celebrate the joy; grieve the loss; find peace in love. You walk with friends, family and life and that will continue to lift your spirits.

Wishing you all healing and love.

Sent by Elaine | 9:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sad and crying for a man that I have never met. I feel I lost my good friend. I followed this blog from the very beginning and I will miss Leroy so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you today Laurie.

Sent by Doreen | 9:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What a loss for all of us who knew him through his words and for those, like Laurie and Ted, who shared his life.

One can only hope to face one's future with the humor and humanity Leroy brought to us each day.

Peggy

Sent by Peggy | 9:16 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

I find myself sitting at my computer crying as I read this news. I had not written often to this page because I felt I wsa, for the time being, not directly IN the cancer batle and left the space for others who needed this connection more. But, I followed this colum EVERY day since it began, hjoping and praying for the best for you two. I kow the feeling of a life being irrevoably cahnced by cancer... my 7 year old got it when we least expected such a thing. Now, cured of cancer he is experiencing aftershocks of the chemo to his kidneys, which are predicted to fail within two years. Every day his health, safety, vulnerability is on my mind. I woke up this morning thinking "even though this path is hard, what would it be without him. What if he were not with me?" I never imagined that today would be the day that Leroy would leave you. I knew, as I lay in bed, that Jordan would never leave me, even if he is not to make it...that my life would always be defined by his and his struggle. His struggle has made me mroe aware, more conscious, more grateful for all that does surround us in this life. So, in every single second, he is with me, as Leroy will surely be with you...allowing you the special privledge of total awareness of the gift that is this life. I will truly miss Leory and you as part of my life...and I wish you well,

Sent by Jeanne Fleming | 9:16 AM ET | 08-16-2008

How can you ever be prepared to hear this news and let go of such a special person? Leroy meant so much to me and to everyone on this blog. I felt I knew him - he seemed like a friend. My condolences to Laurie and to everyone close to him. He will be greatly missed but not forgotten. He has given us a part of him that we will carry on. We have to keep strong in fighting cancer - Leroy would want us all to do that. He set an excellent example for all of us.

Sent by Marianne | 9:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so very sad.

I have relived moments of my life and experience watching two people I love die from cancer.

Thank you for sharing these most personal insights. I'm sure you have no idea how much you've helped so many of us.

Sent by Patti | 9:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie,

I'm so glad Leroy passed as quickly as my Pat. From other postings I've learned that his passing could have been so long and sadly drawn out.

Now you'll have to start the rest of your journey armed with the wonderful memories of Leroy. Please know that we life giver survivors are on that path with you and if you need us, we'll be here waiting.

God bless, Leroy. What a difference you've made in this world!

Sent by Kathy Barney from Michigan | 9:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh...I am so sorry. I knew that his time was short, but he was such a fighter I did not think it would happen so soon after calling in hospice.

Having worked with hospice before, I do know that many times bringing in hospice makes it possible for one to finally let go.

I will miss his words and am grateful to have had a chance to follow his journey.

My thoughts are with you Laurie.

Sent by Elizabeth Harper | 9:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry. He needed a rest. Thank you for the compassion you have given me through your struggle to help me through mine. Peace for you and Leroy. Marilyn Cowles

Sent by Marilyn Cowles | 9:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My deepest condolences to Laurie and Leroy's friends and family. I have followed this blog since its inception, and it has been a source of strength and comfort to me.

Leroy articulated so many of the hopes, fears and challenges that go along with cancer treatment. This project will be a resource in years to come both for people who are going through cancer treatment and for the people who love them.

Laurie, I hope that you will continue to share your thoughts as you go through the mourning process. Your insight is much appreciated. I hope you know how many of us out here are grieving for and with you today.

Sent by pam | 9:19 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I found this blog when my wife was diagnosed with cancer. I have continued to read it daily since her recovery. Leroy was a man who shared so much with all of his. He let us into his life, and we are all the better for it. Leroy, I will miss you greatly. I appreciate al you did for everyone staring cancer in the face. May your next adventure be as fulfilling as the one you had on earth. God bless you Leroy.

Sent by Jeff | 9:21 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Since my father passed away 2 yrs ago with cancer and going thru chemo and cancer with my best friend last year this blog has been a place of comfort. In the days I didn't know how to feel, Leroy, Laurie and all of you helped to keep me grounded. Thank you for that and with a deep sadness I say goodnight Leroy, sleep well.

Sent by Teresa in WV | 9:24 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss. My husband died 10 months ago and I miss him everyday. But each and every day I came here to read Leroy's words and send him good thoughts and prayers. I will miss him so much. His humor, his perspective, his intelligence. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Sent by Patty | 9:24 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh dear Lord, what a shock. Of course not completely unexpected, but it just caught me off-guard...
Leroy has been a tremendous inspiration to all of us; this blog was an exercise in strength & courage that few of us could match. My deepest sympathy, dear Laurie, as well as the rest of the family & friends.

Sent by Val | 9:26 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Thank you, Leroy and Laurie, for all you have given us. We will miss you both, but we will hold on to you dearly. My deepest condolences to you, Laurie.

Sent by Denise | 9:26 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sad to hear this news; however, I felt exactly like Katie described when I read the blog this morning. Thank you, Leroy, for the precious gift you have given those of us who walk this cancer journey. And thank you, too, Laurie, for sharing your wonderful man with us. May God bless you and give you strength during these difficult days.

Sent by Dianne in Nevada | 9:28 AM ET | 08-16-2008

You will never know how many people you and Leroy touched. His courage and honesty gave strength to so many of us who were fighting our own battles. Laurie, you will be in my prayers.

Sent by Barbara | 9:29 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy touched many people through this wonderful blog. May his memory be for a blessing, and may you be comforted among all the mourners.

Sent by Amy | 9:30 AM ET | 08-16-2008

When I read Laurie's post, I sort of felt Leroy was transitioning from this world to wherever we travel next. As I checked my mail and found news of his death, my heart saddened and opened in appreciation of my comrade in this cancer fight.

How I will miss him; but that is selfish. How so many will miss Leroy and how so many of us benefited from his strength, wisdom, humor, and guts.

I wish Laurie and his family and friends peace.

In Healing,
Deborah

Sent by Deborah Kanter | 9:30 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Cancer took my first wife eighteen years ago. Life does go on but it is never the same. I am saddened by the loss of Leroy's singular human voice, but glad for the lasting effect of his profoundly moving words and everyday courage.

Sent by John | 9:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What is there to say...I'm so sorry. And I'm so thankful for Leroy and the family he brought together through this blog. My prayers and thoughts go out to Laurie and Leroy's family, friends and everyone who loved him. That includes all of us.

Sent by Jen McGeorge - Boston | 9:33 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy was a special person - his laughter and spirit will be remembered. I am glad to have known him. Good Luck Laurie - We are all thinking of you.

Sent by LJ | 9:33 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy inspired me everyday, and I expect he will the rest of my time on this planet. Thank you, Leroy and Laurie for sharing your life experience. I love you and will miss you. Lynne

Sent by Lynne Simonfy | 9:36 AM ET | 08-16-2008

After reading Leroy's blog so often, I think this may well be what he finally wanted. One regret I have. He never experienced hospice care. My wife and I worked as volunteers in a hospice in Harrisonburg, Virginia, in the late 1980s, and we were so rewareded in caring for the families and their dying loved ones, and in seeing how wonderfully the hospice nurses attended their patients. God bless you, Leroy, and may He give you, Laurie, some measure of strength for your equally long trial.

Sent by Don Gaines | 9:38 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, my deepest sympathies to you. I am coping with my mom's cancer battle, which is so frightening, but I cannot even begin to fathom the loss of a partner. Leroy was a little lifeline for me every day and I will miss his take on cancer -- and life. I hope you're belly-laughing where ever you are, Leroy.

Sent by Marylee | 9:39 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Be at peace now Leroy.
My sympathy to Laurie and to all who mourn this larger-than-life wonderful man. Thank you for allowing us to walk this path with you.
Be At Peace now Leroy.

Sent by Sandy Fisher | 9:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Our lives will never be the same again...that day we 'met' Leroy Sievers. Leroy entered our lives and we became his Army of Advocates. Our days began with his words of wit and wisdom. Today we cry but smile at the legacy he left us. God Speed on the next journey.

Sent by Jo-Ellen De Luca | 9:41 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Such terribly sad news. Our thoughts are with Laurie and all of Leroy's family. His many friends and colleagues marvelled at his energy, passion and enormous talent. And his bravery and insights in the face of his greatest challenge.

Sent by Jon | 9:41 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry...I feel like I have lost a dear friend. Laurie, I think you are incredible and you had a lot to do with him living longer. I haven't got the words......

Sent by Becky | 9:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

How devastating for all of us - especially those who had Leroy as part of their REAL lives, as those of us who knew him only "virtually". He was a huge part of our days - always a place where we visited first every morning. Thanks for making all of us better understand and tolerate our journeys through this disease. And how to live better lives in any case.

Sent by maryz | 9:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My days will not be the same without his wit. I will continue to think of you Laurie. Being the patient is the easier job. I can't imagine being in your shoes.

Sent by Lisa | 9:44 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart is so broken. I am so very sorry for your loss. I have a malignant brain tumor and have lost many friends, and I just read this email, and I feel so very sad. I keep wondering how many pieces my heart can be broken into. I will miss all of his emails. I will miss him. You have my deepest sympathy and love, Marguerite Sciuk

Sent by Marguerite Sciuk | 9:45 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie - I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy's blog has been a source of inspiration for me. I feel numb, like I've lost a dear friend. I hope you find strength in knowing how you and Leroy touched our lives. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Diane | 9:47 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What a shock! And what a trooper he was!!!! Keeping up this blog with us right until the end! I will miss him and the daily, written, connection with an incredible, giving, loving man.

My heart goes out to you, Laurie. You meant the world to him, and helped him live his life to the fullest, right up to the end. It was clear you felt the same way about him. What an incredible couple!

Hugs and love to you, Laurie, and all the rest of his family. In Twelve Step Recovery we talk about family, and family of choice. They are equally important.

In grief,
Sydney in NC

Both you and Leroy will always be in my heart.

Sent by Sydney in NC | 9:48 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My deepest condolences. Thank you for sharing your life with us on this blog.

Sent by Luba | 9:48 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What a terrible loss. Laurie, I'm sorry, you'll miss him so much. It's amazing to me how, I think, no one can ever really be prepared for a loss of this magnitude- even when someone is ill, death comes as a shock for those who love him, and a kind of mystery.... Or that's how it is for me, anyway.
Leroy's big heart lives on, and will continue to live on, through the many people he touched.

Sent by Barbara K | 9:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I've been following LeRoy's blog since watching his TV special with Ted Koppel. Before Ted's special I never knew of LeRoy. I, too, am a cancer survivor and when I found out he had this blog I signed right up. Only another cancer survivor can understand and know what we go through on a daily basis. I will miss LeRoy....for his candor, his insight and for his understanding of a disease that only those of us who have/had it can understand.
For LeRoy himself though, I am so thankful his struggle is over and he is now at peace with God.
For you Lori, I ask God's Peace and presence to be felt by you.
Love and Peace,
Mary Jo

Sent by Mary Jo Cyr | 9:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I was expecting this, but it's still a shock.

Laurie, my dear, I am so sorry.

Leroy, it's comforting to know that someone's gone before - I'll be seeing you...with a real dog, Spanky, I hope.

Sent by Jessica | 9:50 AM ET | 08-16-2008

If only the blogs could continue from Heaven ...and there would be no more pain and suffering.It would just a healthy and happy Leroy telling us how it is ...up there.

I am going to miss Leroy and his daily accounts so much. However, I am relieved that his terrible suffering is over and it did not go on any longer than need be. Would that he not had this horrid disease at all!

God bless him and you Laurie.

Sent by Elizabeth | 9:51 AM ET | 08-16-2008

So many people found courage, hope and inspiration reading Leroy's My Cancer. Someday, I would like to be notified that MY CANCER is in book form for purchase. I would like to have it available not if, but when, cancer strikes me or those I love again. Leroy has been like an invisible friend as I drew strength from him so many times over. Even when my sister-in-law passed away in June, I continued staying connected to Leroy to keep his special perspective in my mind. You will be missed.

Sent by Marleen Salo | 9:52 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What can i say...when i read the news i felt physically ill and very sad, although i am glad he doesn't suffer any longer. Rest in peace.

Sent by Janine Martini | 9:53 AM ET | 08-16-2008

As many have said before me, I will miss Leroy so very much. I shed tears for him and you, but really, found relief as I prayed to God for giving us such a friend as him. I am glad that Leroy did not have to linger long once everything had escalated from the hospital bed to hospice. Also Lauri my thought and prayers go out for you today and in the days to come. Thanks for sharing Leroy with us.

Sent by Lois | 9:54 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart stopped beating when I read the news -- it was like losing my father all over again. That the shock would become less somehow? I'm struck by the strength of emotion I'm feeling and reading from others -- the strength of a bond built over the Internet. What an amazing legacy for Leroy to have left behind. And Laurie, words cannot express how much we love and feel for you -- you are in ALL of our hearts. Thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us...

Sent by Tammy Reasoner, Cincinnati, OH | 9:55 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Two days ago, when I met with my oncologist, I said, "Leroy's not doing so well right now. They've called in hospice." We've talked before about Leroy and the blog, and how important it is. Since my diagnosis, I have felt that anytime I heard or read of someone's death from cancer, it was if another warrior had been taken down, that my on-going battle was diminished. Today, my battle is not diminished, but, perhaps I am. What a loss for Laurie, for Leroy's friends, and for the community he built. He will be missed.
My condolences, Laurie.
"May light perpetual shine upon him."

Sent by Dianne Ericson | 9:55 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Just tears today...lots of tears. Hugs to you, Laurie.

Sent by Linnea | 9:57 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie and family..you have touched thousands of us with Leroys blog. You will never know how Leroys words helped us threw the 28 months my husband had cancer and it has been a daily space I must turn to since he died last Sept. Intimate contact with the cancer world makes you family. Laurie my heart reaches out to you, the grief, loss & loneliness you must go threw on this your next journey. Whatever your faith hold it close...I have carried this saying with me for the last year "We must remember to make their LIFE more important than their death".. To Our Hero's in life.
God bless you in the hours, days and months ahead and know that we are all in this together and you are held close in our hearts.

Sent by raven | 9:58 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I was so shocked to hear the news. I am so sad. I will send prayers of comfort and peace!

Sent by Rebecca from Minnesota | 9:59 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy's blog helps me to understand my father's journey in Cancer World and the strength it required to live there, not just for him but for all of us.

I hope I have strength like Leroy if ever I should visit Cancer World again.

Thank you, Leroy. May God bless you and keep you.

With deepest sympathy,
-Rob

Sent by Rob Williams | 9:59 AM ET | 08-16-2008

It is a beautiful and blinding Saturday morning, as the Josh Groban song says, as I watch it unfold from my husband's hospital room window. In spite of all we have been through in the past week, landing in the hospital due to an acute pain episode brought on by the continued metastasis of his stage 4 melanoma, it is a day of hope and I'm walking around his room singing, because he is better than he was when we got here, and I think we will be able to go home soon. Then I read the Leroy's blog, as I do and have each morning for a while now, and I am plummeted into sadness, shock, disbelief, crying for a man I never knew, his wife whom I also never knew, but whose words have meant so much to us as they walked the same road my husband and I are walking. He has lost his battle and I am filled with dread, I cannot help but wonder how long until my husband loses his, how unexpectedly it may be when it comes, which is a strange thought as his diagnosis was over 2 yrs ago, but nevertheless it would be. I keep thinking one thing, that Leroy fought the good fight, just like my husband is doing, refusing to give in to the cancer that wants to take over, continuing to combat it with whatever weapon he may have left, giving us all hope. And I think....yes, even in the loss, there is still hope. Thank you, Leroy and Laurie, and everyone everywhere who walks this road. By sharing your words with us, you shared your indominable spirit, you shared the most basic element that life must contain to be worthwhile, to be fought for to be maintained. It is the greatest gift one person can give another. Hope.

Sent by Tina Thomas Batchelor | 9:59 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie & Leroy-

I can honestly say, I hate the cancer world. Since I was diagnosed three years ago, I have watched more amazing people be taken, than I ever imagined back in my "regular" life.

Laurie, the pain you feel must seem unbearable. I know this because here I sit in Wisconsin crying for the loss of someone I never even met. The loss for me and the others on this blog means so much more than the news reporting the death of another well known talent. Leroy not only had the courage to stand and fight against cancer, he had the strength of character to share that battle with the rest of the world.

When I think of Leroy an old Coca-Cola slogan comes to mind: He's (It's) The Real Thing!

How light and smiley you must feel right now, Leroy! Thank you!!
Kathy Bero

Sent by Kathy Bero | 9:59 AM ET | 08-16-2008

So sorry to hear. I have been following. May he rest in peace.

Sent by Dan | 10:00 AM ET | 08-16-2008

To paraphrase Ronald Reagan's comments in honor of the Challenger astronauts:

Leroy honored us by the manner in which he lived his life. We will never forget him, nor the last time we saw him...as he prepared for his journey...and then
he slipped the surly bonds of earth to touch the face of God.

Sent by Tom Escott | 10:00 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie:

My prayers and sympathy. I am very thankful for the opportunity to walk a little way along the road with Leroy as we battle cancer. I for one will miss his inspiring observations. My sincere thanks to you and Leroy for sharing such personal moments during the past two years.

Sent by Kate | 10:00 AM ET | 08-16-2008

We have all lost a most wonderful caring "best friend". Everyday, without fail, this is the email I have to read. Because I, too, am a Cancer Surviver (bilateral breast cancer 2 1/1 years ago and thyroid cancer). Leroy showed everyone how to live. Because he lived life to the fullest, everyday. My heart, too, is broken into a million pieces. Even though we never personally met, I consider Leroy (and Laurie) my friend. Because he cared. About people. All over the world. Please do a book, his blog, please, please, please. I need his continued words of humor and inspiration. He spoke for millions. Laurie, I cannot even fathom the huge loss you are suffering. My thoughts and prayers are with you now and in the future.

Sent by Sandi Packard | 10:01 AM ET | 08-16-2008

leroy showed such strength and passion for life. I will keep him in my thoughts and prayer. from a fellow cancer victim. thank you for sharing leroys life with us when he had bad days.

Sent by carolyn pangraze | 10:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sad. I just loved Leory's candor and courage, and most of all is willingness to share so much with us.
Laurie, my thoughts and prayers are with you. What a rock you have been.
Blessinga and peace, Nancy

Sent by Nancy Elzinga | 10:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie - I am so very sorry. I too wondered yesterday if, after finally getting enough pain medicine, he might slip away quietly. But I too gasped when I read Maeve's posting.

I will be much in prayer for you over the next days, and I'll often think of my "virtual friend Leroy". God Bless You Laurie,

Sent by KELLY in Indiana | 10:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy's blog has been my connection to another cancer victim's thoughts and feelings for the past year as I was going through my own processes. I have felt a connection never imagined and now great loss. His suffering is over, now Laurie will need our combined prayers. Laurie - you are in my prayers!

Sent by Tracey | 10:04 AM ET | 08-16-2008

What can I say? As most of his friends that blog for and about him are feeling, I have cried upon reading the news but deep down inside I am happy that he is now pain free. We're sad to lose him on earth, but am relieved to know he no longer has to fight the fight like so many of us. God bless you Laurie and his family. His blog has truly inspired countless people, more than you will ever know.

Sent by Jane Kaminske | 10:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My husband "brought" me to your blog when we began our journey toward recovery and remission. You gave us both the strength and courage to carry on, to face our fears, and to live each day as if it was our last one together. You will forever live on in my heart . . . thank you for sharing your lives with us.

Sent by Marilyn | 10:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Very sad news today...

Leroy will be remembered as the voice of Cancer for millions of survivors!

Sent by Dave | 10:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Goodbye, dear brave Leroy -

Your generosity os spirit, your humor, and your all-embracing friendship will not disappear. I am strengthened and encouraged in my cancer journey because of you.
To Laurie - My deepest sympathies on your loss. Take time to take care of you.
Love,
Kathy

Sent by Kathleen Shapiro | 10:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I will dearly miss his spirit. Peace be with you.

Sent by Steve Horn | 10:07 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Thank you Leroy for helping me to meet via
your blog all the wonderful people who have commented daily about your circumstances. I don't have cancer but I volunteer with cancer patients at an Infusion center and at a Hospice. Cancer patients have become my raison d'etre so to speak, as they face their battles with such bravery every day.If there is anything I can do to help them, I am there. Your blog in turn helped me to understand more fully what they are going through even tho they may not express it as well as you did. Thank you Leroy for being there for all these people, for sharing your thoughts and fears so that others may learn from it and benefit in some way. Thank you for putting others before yourself with each and every update. It was a job well done and you deserve the rest and peace of a soldier, who will never fade away in anyone's mind.

Elizabeth

Sent by Elizabeth | 10:07 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy had a gift for reaching out to and conecting with others. Leroy was our gift. I will miss him...

Sent by Nancy | 10:09 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am crying having just read this morning's post.
I am one of the very many readers of Leroy's blog who added very few comments on the blog. But I have cancer and Leroy voiced what I was feeling and could not always say. He was my friend and I miss him very much. Please know that I am thinking of you and your loss.

Sent by Harriold | 10:11 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie -- I have read My Cancer from the beginning but never posted. In addition to the amazing fact that Leroy kept up this blog up almost every day, he was such a gifted, insightful writer. I think he would appreciate the following, which hospice gave us when my mom died 4 years ago (I hope it comforts you and others as it did me):

A ship sails and I stand watching till she fades on the horizon, and someone says, "she is gone".
Gone where?
Gone from my sight, that is all; she is just as large as when I saw her...
The diminished size and total loss of sight is in me, not in her, and just at the moment when someone says "she is gone", there are others who are watching her coming, and other voices take up a glad shout, "there she comes!"...

Sent by Jane D. | 10:12 AM ET | 08-16-2008

This blog is Leroy's monument--far grander than anything carved in marble or granite.

Sent by Shirley Petersen | 10:13 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I'm just so sorry.

Sent by Brandy | 10:13 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My second time checking the mail today. I was so worried. All our sympathy on your loss and yes, ours too. He gave so much to us and will be greatly missed.

Sent by Karen | 10:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Words cannot express our loss.......

Sent by Linda Bongardino | 10:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, I am so, so sorry for your loss, and for the loss of all of us who treasured Leroy's words every day. What a wonderful, wonderful man who truly left the world a better place. Peace.

Sent by Denise Bennett | 10:15 AM ET | 08-16-2008

The gentle giant sleeps, May God Bless you Leroy. Two hearts now beat as one, Laurie, May God comfort and give you strength.

Margaret

Sent by Margaret Fowler | 10:15 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss. Leroy had spoken of passing the torch of his blog and the natural progression would be to you-to speak to your experiences during his illness, to the grief and to your own going on without him. I know you would have a great support system among us.

Leroy, be at peace. When I think of your selflessness in sharing this last journey I think of you in Gibran's writings in the Prophet:

"Brief were my days among you, and briefer still the words I have spoken.
But should my voice fade in your ears, and my love vanish in your memory, then I will come again,
And with a richer heart and lips more yielding to the spirit will I speak.
Yea, I shall return with the tide,
And though death may hide me, and the greater silence enfold me, yet again will I seek your understanding.
And not in vain will I seek.
If aught I have said is truth, that truth shall reveal itself in a clearer voice, and in words more kin to your thoughts.
I go with the wind, people of Orphalese, but not down into emptiness;
And if this day is not a fulfillment of your needs and my love, then let it be a promise till another day. Know therefore, that from the greater silence I shall return.

The mist that drifts away at dawn, leaving but dew in the fields, shall rise and gather into a cloud and then fall down in rain.

Wise men have come to you to give you of their wisdom. I came to take of your wisdom:
And behold I have found that which is greater than wisdom.
It is a flame spirit in you ever gathering more of itself,
While you, heedless of its expansion, bewail the withering of your days.
It is life in quest of life in bodies that fear the grave.
There are no graves here.

The stream has reached the sea, and once more the great mother holds her son against her breast.
Fare you well, people of Orphalese.
This day has ended.
It is closing upon us even as the water-lily upon its own tomorrow.
What was given us here we shall keep,
And if it suffices not, then again must we come together and together stretch our hands unto the giver.
Forget not that I shall come back to you.
A little while, and my longing shall gather dust and foam for another body.
A little while, a moment of rest upon the wind, and another woman shall bear me.
Farewell to you and the youth I have spent with you.
It was but yesterday we met in a dream.
You have sung to me in my aloneness, and I of your longings have built a tower in the sky.
But now our sleep has fled and our dream is over, and it is no longer dawn.
The noontide is upon us and our half waking has turned to fuller day, and we must part.
If in the twilight of memory we should meet once more, we shall speak again together and you shall sing to me a deeper song.
And if our hands should meet in another dream, we shall build another tower in the sky."

Fare you well, Leroy.

Sent by Syndi Holmes | 10:16 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy touched so many people and provided a source of inspiration and hope. His strength, courage, honesty and wit provided a sense of calm and sensibility to those living with cancer and to those caregivers. Laurie, may you take strength in and cherish the memories of your life with Leroy.

Sent by Marian Hyder | 10:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, May knowing the enormity of Leroy's gifts to others provide you with some light at this dark time. His words, courage and the lives he touched will continue to shine. Warmly, LJ

Sent by LJ | 10:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

My heart goes out to you and your family at this time of grief. I lost my father to cancer in 2005 and so I understand a tiny bit. I've been checking the blog every day, sometimes twice, anticipating the inevitable but hoping it would be very far away. That inevitable has come and the loss is emmense. Leroy was such an inspiration and motivation for all those dealing with cancer in one way or another. Thanks to this blog, his voice and spirit can continue on touching peoples lives. Bittersweet is this time. Such loss and emptyness makes it very bitter indeed, yet sweet because he will no longer suffer or feel the pain. God be with you and give you strength through this time.

Sent by Melisa | 10:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Each morning I would read the blog. Today is the one year anniversary of my father's death and I was shocked and saddend to hear it will also be the date of Leroy's. Please try to remain strong and know you are not alone.

Sent by April | 10:19 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh Leroy, how I miss you.
You've been such a remarkable voice for me and so many others. I don't know how many times I've peppered my conversations with, "Well, my friend Leroy says..."
Laurie, I don't know if there's comfort in knowing how many of us ache with you today. But there's an army of us out here standing beside you. Thanks for allowing us to share your most remarkable partner.
Maeve, thank you for sharing the fact that the blog meant so much to Leroy. It's meant everything to me.
With great sadness,
Anita

Sent by Anita Solomon | 10:19 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy tried to compassionately prepare us through his thoughtful writings:
'So from me to all of you, here's one last secret wave.' I responded with 'peace-out' but the reality of his passing is painful, & will remain so especially for his loved ones.
Laurie, Leroy was so fortunate to have you as a loving companion/partner/care-giver-- be well & live as he would want you to-- eventually in joy again, & to the fullest.
Thanks to all, live well, & in peace

Sent by J Ron | 10:20 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Good bye Leroy, until we meet again. You will be missed immensely. You brought a spotlight to cancer that few have been able to do. And it was a light that helped light the way for the rest of us on this "cancer road".
Dear Laurie and families -- our hearts & prayers are with you. Even though it was not totally unexpected, it still is never easy to accept. Leroy will stay alive with you & all of us in our memories. Our condolances to you are deeply felt. We've never met, yet I feel like I've known you & Leroy for a long time. Peace be with you Leroy! And peace with you Laurie!
Tom

Sent by Tom May | 10:20 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry to hear this sad news today. I hope there is no more suffering for Leroy, he endured so much and shared it with us so generously on each step of his journey. I too feel like I lost a friend.
May your memories give you some comfort. rely on your friends and family to carry you through this difficult time.
God Bless you all,

Sent by Kathy Elftmann | 10:20 AM ET | 08-16-2008

We have all lost a dear friend, one I never met but who helped me understand my cancer as much as any doctor or priest could. what a gift he gave us all. God bless you, LeRoy and you, too, Laurie.

Sent by Meg Kissinger | 10:22 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am a stage four colorectal cancer victim just as Leroy. Everyday I read his thoughts and he had become a person leading the way for people like us. We know what is coming and it's a little scary so when a great man like Leroy shares what he is going through it brings a level of comfort to the rest of us. I don't want to sound bad in anyway but I am relieved for Leroy. He is no longer in pain and is no longer feeling the fear that gripes us all as we move toward the end. Leroy, you were a champion. Thanks for showing the rest of us in the same situation how to live.

Sent by Tony Knott | 10:23 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

Thoughout this entire journey it has been clear that Leroy was a mensch. Your love for each other came through, loud and clear and that is another gift you have given us. . .Thank You!

To open your lives to the entire world and let us share the blessings you are to each other is a wonderful gift to us all who joined this on line community.

I will continue to hold you and Leroy in the Light that holds us all.

Sent by Free Polazzo | 10:26 AM ET | 08-16-2008

...my immediate flood of tears flows into our community ocean of sorrow...I just didn't expect it...yet. Thank you Leroy for the most excellent gift of all --YOU.

No Coward Soul Is Mine
No trembler in the world's storm- troubled spheres.
I see Heavens glories shine,
And faith shines equal, arming me from fear. --Emily Bronte

Love & Light to you Laurie.
xxoo

Sent by Vi | 10:27 AM ET | 08-16-2008

If it is impossible for I, who have never met Leroy, to imagine the world without his presence and voice, I can't imagine how it is for you, Laurie. He is a hero for his unselfish giving of his thoughts. What a loss for everyone. I will miss him, especially in the mornings when I first would read him.
Marcia

Sent by Marcia Greer | 10:27 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
Thank you for sharing Leroy and your journey together with us. He has been a voice and a hero for all. I will miss his talent and his positive contributions. Those of us who have come to know and love the both of you through this blog will keep him in our hearts and souls forever.
Peace and rest for the both of you.
Sincerely,
Cindy

Sent by Cindy | 10:28 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Unlike others, I wasn't strong enough to check here every day, checking only about once a week while holding my breath. And here it is. So many thanks to Leroy and Laurie for sharing their personal journey. I hope Laurie can somehow manage to continue to share with us how to go on "after". As with others...thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Sandy Shaner | 10:29 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie and Friends,
I suspect we have all "sensed" what was coming. The reports have been shorter, the flow becoming disrupted by The Beast's impact on Leroy's and Laurie's lives. Still, I am in shock. My foundation has been rocked at the core. I've been following Leroy's blog nearly since the start. Since then I went through my own relapse and subsequent radiation treatment. Leroy Sievers' blog has been my primary treatment, though. My virtual, support community. Laurie, we are all so very sad and with you now, as we have been in the past. Thank you for all you have done that has helped Leroy continue this critically valuable work. In so doing, you have not only helped him, but us as well. Your loss is profoundly shared by all of us.

Godspeed Leroy, you are free!

Sent by Dan E. | 10:29 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss.

Sent by MH | 10:30 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Words can never describe how important Leroy and his blog were to all of us these past months. We have lost a great friend, and he will be missed by all of us.

Sent by Carl Volkmann | 10:31 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I LOVE YOU

Sent by Elizabeth Sebastian | 10:31 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am nearly speechless. Leroy's blog has meant so much to so many of us - lucky survivors like me, people going through treatment, significant others of those with cancer. It is unimaginable that we will no longer read his words each day. We will miss him, and we are fortunate that our lives got to intersect with his for this all too short a time.

Laurie, please accept my sorrowful condolences. I promise you that I will write Leroy's name again on my next Team in Training Marathon shirt.

Peace be with you, brave Leroy, and also with you, Laurie. Art

Sent by Art Ritter | 10:31 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I never look at the blog on the weekend, but today I came in from my garden and just had that feeling. I am so sorry, but what a wonderful inspiring life! What a mensch. What a living thing he created with this blog and all its contributors. Thank you Leroy. Thank you Laurie. Love still coming. Wendy

Sent by wendy | 10:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Some of us die, and fade away. Leroy will never be forgotten. He has given voice to all cancer patients, and an understanding of the need to conquer the beast.
Charity is considered the greatest deed by all religions. Leroy has given us all the greatest gift. He shared his life, love and pain with all of us.
His memory is with all of us.

Sent by Robert Brower | 10:34 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Some of us die, and fade away. Leroy will never be forgotten. He has given voice to all cancer patients, and an understanding of the need to conquer the beast.
Charity is considered the greatest deed by all religions. Leroy has given us all the greatest gift. He shared his life, love and pain with all of us.
His memory is with all of us.

Sent by Robert Brower | 10:35 AM ET | 08-16-2008

And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest - John Dunne

Prayers and love to you, Laurie.. You were a keeper for Leroy...

He is at peace and as he said Friday, HE WILL BE BACK MONDAY.. He will ALWAYS be with us..

But I am SO SAD....

Sent by Patsy Elmore in Knoxville, TN | 10:35 AM ET | 08-16-2008

As the tears drip down my face with sadness for Laurie, I also feel that sense of relief that comes at the end of this long struggle. I have been there, watching my husband disappear into this illness. Now, 9 years after his death, I know that my love remains within me as Laurie's love for Leroy will remain with in her. You have both been strong and vulnerable and giving...to each other, to us in sharing all of this. Thank you for this time we've been able to be part of your lives. I have come to appreciate Leroy as a writer and a human being in a manner rarely possible with 'a reporter', and with Laurie for her sharing this very public journey. If there were something i could do to lessen your pain,Laurie, I would do it. But the next stage is your journey alone. My advise is to remember to take care of yourself, at all levels, to ask for what you want and need, to take the time you need, to allow the wound to scab over at it's own pace...and to let any of us know if we can help. Many thanks and much love to you both. in sorrow,

Sent by Cynthia/hgpig | 10:36 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I can't seem to stop crying. Leroy has touched my life and I thank him for that.

Laurie, I am terribly sorry for your loss.

Sent by Amy | 10:37 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

Our prayers and thoughts are with you and rest of your family. I am extremely sorry that I missed his blog all this while, when there was terminal cancer in my family as well. It would have definetly helped me and my family, bear this dreaded disease better.
Please remain strong and we are with you.

Sent by Bob A | 10:37 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dearest Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. Words cannot describe how heart broken I am. May God Bless you and your family at this time.

Sent by Roxi | 10:39 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Chills running through me. Though we never met in person, he revealed himself in ways most friends never do. We will miss him; his humor, his honesty, his stubborness, his tenacity - and I cannot fathom how deep the loss you and your family and friends is this morning. Thank you seems so trivial and empty - we all were touched by this bear of a man. We will draw on his courage and words for a long time. Deepest sympathy. Wishing you strength in the days ahead, Lauri.

Sent by kathryn | 10:39 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh.... this hurts us all so very much. We have to remember that he is at this very moment, being greeted by all of his loved ones, both family and friends and by any and everyone that he wishes to be greeted by. We also know that we WILL also greet him again. There is no doubt. Trust and believe, Laurie, trust and believe.

Sent by Sandra | 10:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy,
May you rest in peace. I will miss you. Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sent by Liz | 10:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie,
I am so sorry. Leroy has touched many lives here and many of us have survived because of this site. Leroy's fight, his courage and bravery and the people on this blog have all been a part of the healing and survival that goes on here.
I pray you find comfort with your family and friends. His memory will live on forever in our hearts.
I am so sorry...

Sent by Laurie Hirth | 10:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Peace to you, Laurie. And to all here. Leroy will be missed....

Sent by Julie | 10:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh, Laurie,
My heart goes out to you.
May Leroy's spirit FLY! May you find solace in the energy of Love pouring out to you.

Sent by Sondra from MT | 10:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Peace to Leroy and his family. His spirit, courage, and strength will be with so many of us. We who struggle with this devastating disease will never forget. My prayers are with you.

Sent by sylvia | 10:42 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I sadly felt this day was getting closer but was surprised when it got here so fast. Laurie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. When I looked at photos of Leroy I felt I could see a very gentle soul. I will miss hearing from him every day.
Charlotte in Rural Ridge, PA

Sent by Charlotte Kewish | 10:43 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart is broken! The tears are falling freely and will for quite some time. Leroy changed my life. LeRoy could explain when I couldn't find the words. I hope that this blog becomes part of every cancer patient's documents the day they hear their diagnosis. I will miss him.

Sent by Kathy B | 10:44 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry. Leroy and you have meant so much to so many of us, helping us to face cancer with humor and sadness at the same time. I send you my love and prayers... all I have to give you.

Sent by Nancy Abbott | 10:44 AM ET | 08-16-2008

May your sorrow be eased by those sweet sweet memories.

Thank you so much for this blog that helped so many, and for keeping it up until the end, that was extra generous.

Things that Leroy said and wrote will be with me always. He deserves a gold medal and so do you Laurie.

I will think of you and your family and wish you peace today and every day.

Sent by Sarah | 10:46 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I just woke up and turned on ABC News. The first item I saw was a reference to Leroy. I was shocked at the news. Even though things were discussed recently that gave me a clue that the battle had intensified, I was prepared for, and expecting, weeks if not months more of posts.

My heartfelt condolences to Leroy, Laurie and his family. The hole left at his passing is huge, raw, and terribly painful.

I am heartsick with this news. I never met Leroy but I felt I knew him, and I wish I could have shaken his hand in real life. Now, I can only add my tears to the others shed upon hearing the news.

With time, routines appear again, life 'goes on', but it really doesn't. Leroy will never leave his family and friend's life. Eventually it is true that the good memories are the ones that remain. It's also true that thoughts of our missing loved one will intrude at the oddest times. These thoughts will bring back a little of the pain, but more happiness as we recall how much our loved on meant to us, and how they were a part of our life, and how much they will forever be with us.

Peace to Leroy's loved ones. I am truly sorry this happened. He didn't deserve this. None of us does.

Godspeed on your next journey, Leroy.

Sent by Scott S. | 10:47 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I read, cried, and laughed each day, but never wrote.
Love and prayers,

Sent by Janet | 10:47 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, I can't imagine your pain.. My eyes are filled with tears for a man I never even met. I am so sad for you.

Sent by Robin L. Fairfax VA | 10:47 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie, I am so sorry for your loss of this wonderful man. And so grateful that he didn't suffer longer.

Sent by Nancy | 10:48 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,

It's evening "across the pond" and so I lift a glass of pretty good wine to Leroy - with thanks for his remarkable life - as I send up prayers for comfort for you and Leroy's closer, "hands-on" circle. He - and you ALL - have made such a difference in this often harsh world!

Blessings and Peace!

Sent by Peg in Estonia | 10:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

as my tears of sadness flow freely down my lap i believe that leroy is sitting tall and proud and pain free above us all.I will forever hold this blog, these people and you and leroy in my heart for all the joy , smiles and friendship and understanding that i have gained in the past 2 years through my journey of this bastard called cancer. leroy made it all "doable" in his script of witt , charm, honesty and integrity. i thank you both from the bottom of my heart.
marianne dalton
cancer survivor

Sent by marianne dalton | 10:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I came here as soon as I woke up, too. Laurie, after my husband died of cancer, my mother said to me that "a new life is waiting for you". I was hurt by that and did not believe it, but it did come true. You will be in my thoughts for a long time to come. Love, Mary Ann

Sent by Mary Ann Gray | 10:49 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I have been inconsolable this morning. Last night my friend Leroy Sievers lost his battle with cancer. I never met Leroy. He never even knew my name. But every day for a year, I read his funny, thoughtful and insightful 'My Cancer' blog posts. He was my friend during my mother's final days with cancer. He was my friend in the days following her death. It takes great personal courage to put on paper one's innermost thoughts and feelings. He was a role model for me in this and so many other ways. I will miss him so much but am happy for him that he is at peace.

Sent by Josephine McMullen | 10:51 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie,
I don't have any words except that I am very sorry. Knowing the day is near does not make it any easier. You are obviously a strong person but it must be taking all of your energy to move through this day. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Godspeed Leroy.

Sent by Kathie | 10:51 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
No words can be said to explain to you how sorry I am that Leroy has gone on to rest from his battle. He gave me so much strenght and hope when I have felt on days that I had none. I first saw Leroy on the show he did with Ted Koppel, and immediately signed up for the blog. This man, this HERO was saying and doing the same battle I am going through and bringing a real face to a cancer patient. I will miss him so much, and I know you will miss him more. I too am stage IV and each day find myself with frustrations and each time I read a blog, I could look at the battle with a sense of strenght. I knew if Leroy kept his sense of humor, I could keep mine.
I wish I could hug you and take away your pain. Please know that I am so grateful that you shared Leroy with us and let us get to know the strongest man ever. I wish you peace today and always. I wish I could do more than sit here and write.
Again thank you for allowing us into your life and giving us hope.

Sent by Miriam | 10:53 AM ET | 08-16-2008

May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you.
May the Lord lift his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

Sent by Travis | 10:53 AM ET | 08-16-2008

we were just talking about Leroy around the bonfire last night, what an awesome piece of his self/life he dedicated to all us unknown people. I went to bed praying for him. Iam going to miss Leroy and his army. Love Sarah j.

Sent by sjc | 10:53 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I'm so sorry. I hope Leroy's death was peaceful. I've read the blog since the beginning when my sister in law was diagnosed with melanoma. She passed away last year. It really helped me alot.
God Bless

Sent by Cheryl | 10:54 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My daughter was diagnosed w/ stage IV colorectal cancer 2 1/2 years ago (like Leroy) and we started reading his blog daily...She passed away July 22 and her last words were "cancer has been a blessing in many ways" it allowed us all to love and not count the costs and to interact in many lives...Leroy's blog paved the way for us all to reach out and support others on this journey in the cancer world..His words and thoughts live on forever...but we left behind will miss him as we miss our dear daughter also....Peace..

Sent by earline brown | 10:54 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry Laurie, he is at peace know! Peace be with you and of Leroy's friends.
My his spirit continue in our lives.
Marelly

Sent by Marelly | 10:57 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My heart sank when I read the news. I was so surprised at how fast it happened. I secretly wished for a miracle. This blog has helped me and so many others who have cancer or a loved one with cancer. His honesty was very refreshing and the community of people that he brought together is what makes me in awe. I give my love to his family during this sad time. May he rest in peace.

Sent by Michelle Toratani | 10:58 AM ET | 08-16-2008

A beautiful new star will twinkle for us in the skies now. Leroy, and Laurie too, thank you for sharing this road with all of us and for allowing us to walk beside you. And thanks to NPR for putting it all out there. These meditations and conversations have so very much enriched my, our, lives. I will never forget and always cherish. Thank You!

Sent by Valeska | 10:59 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie
Thankyou and Leroy so very much for all that you have shared and given to me, my family and so many.....peace be with you both xo

Sent by janet | 11:01 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy was on my mind this morning before I even checked my email to learn this sad news. My deepest sympathy to Laurie and everyone who love him. His courage and humor and willingness to share his life with and without cancer has helped more than anyone could know. May the Good Lord shine a light on you and yours.

Sent by Jennifer | 11:01 AM ET | 08-16-2008

How sad I was to hear about Leroy's death. Like so many others, he gave me such strength and solace day in and day out as I battled my cancer. What a gift so selflessly given, especially on the days when Leroy wanted nothing more than to be as far away from "cancer world" as he could be. I am so grateful and so sad. My prayers are with you, Laurie and I thank you, too, for being such a meaningful part of this wonderful legacy. We have lost a hero.

Sent by Jan | 11:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie,
I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that we are all keeping you in our prayers and send you much love.
Peace to you.

Sent by Laura | 11:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear my thoughts are with you today. Leroy has made all of us cancer survivors more strong in many ways. We will miss hium dearly

Sent by luisa | 11:02 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am also crying for a man that i have never met,as a terminal cancer patient, thank you Laurie and Leroy for this blog.
Leroy's spirit and courage has showed me to go on fighting..My deepest sympathies to your family.I really loved this man.

Marc.M.

Sent by Marc | 11:03 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I have to admit that I didn't expect this entry today. I thought we had more time with Leroy. I have truly felt as though I was on this journey with him. The ups...the downs.

Today, I am saddened.

Laurie, you have my prayers. I pray that you will find comfort in these messages from everyone. God bless you.

Jamie

Sent by Jamie | 11:04 AM ET | 08-16-2008

As I step from the light that I know, into the darkness that I don't, faith tells me that one of two things will happen: Either I will step onto solid ground, or I will be taught how to fly.

Sent by Michael | 11:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I don't know how I stumbled upon this blog over a year ago. I don't have cancer; neither does anyone in my family. I don't comment often or read the comments often. Yet Leroy's words are the first thing I read every morning. I read every comment today. My God what an incredible resource Leroy has been to so many suffering people. I am awestruck by the love. It is in every word. The comments are so beautiful, raw and honest. This morning as I am delving further into the life of Leroy, I am so touched by his belief that this blog has been his life's greatest accomplishment. I also read a comment from Elizabeth Edwards that the blog allows other cancer patients and family and friends to express themselves freely. What a gift he has given and left behind.

I am so, so sorry for everyone's loss. He will not be forgotten.

Sent by Madeline | 11:05 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh Laurie, my heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing him, and for your own wonderful posts. He will be so missed.

Sent by Laine | 11:08 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I think I'll have a mai tai today and drink to Leroy's memory. He'll be sorely missed.

Sent by BEG in MA | 11:10 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Im so sorry. I lost a wife to Cancer. Laurie I cannot say "I know how you feel" Even though I and others have traveled a similar road, no one knows how you feel, but you will hear that phrase often. Leroy is at peace. Your life will, in the future start a new normalcy. It will take time and it will hurt and for that I am very truly sorry.
Dan

Sent by Daniel Friend | 11:10 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry to hear hear this. This morning, when I got up, I was thinking about Leroy. I have no idea why. A short time latter got on the computer and read to sad news. I have follow this blog for almost two years being a cancer patient. Many of times he has cheered me up. My condolence to Laurie and his family. Peace be with you all.

Sent by Roger C | 11:10 AM ET | 08-16-2008

This blog and accompanying comments should be collected into a book and published for inspiration to those stricken with cancer for generations to come. Leroy was a hero. Laurie still is one. God bless.
--Liz Cratty

Sent by Liz Cratty | 11:10 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie and family and friends - Peace. God's grace.

Sent by jk | 11:11 AM ET | 08-16-2008

We all are thankful for Leroy giving voice to all of us. He is gone but not forgotten. His greatest gift to all of us, was sharing his love, life and pain.

Sent by Robert Brower | 11:12 AM ET | 08-16-2008

There hasn't been a day I haven't read Leroy's blog. I have too much experience with the "beast." May God bring peace to Laurie and the rest of Leroy's family. God bless.

Sent by A.J. | 11:13 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh god, Laurie, I am SO sorry.

I can only say we're all poorer for the loss, and like Kathy B said, we caregiver-survivors are here for you.

Like I said yesterday, this grief is yours. This burden doesn't have to be.

Much love

Sent by Bruce | 11:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I posted earlier today but I found I just can't put this loss out of my mind or stop the tears. I went to the main My Cancer page and clicked on that first link in today's message "Leroy passed away last night" to read a wonderful tribute by Shomial Ahmad. Take the time to read it - and click on each of the links included in the remembrance. Leroy's June 2005 article in the LA Times magazine about his experience in Rwanda is sobering, but shares more of what kind of man he was. Thank you, NPR, and mostly thanks to Laurie for sharing this wonderful man with us.

Sent by Dianne in Nevada | 11:14 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I send my deepest condolences to Laurie and the families. My husband Phil and I read Leroy's blog from the beginning, and I have continued to draw strength and solace from it following his death last year from colon cancer. Leroy had a profound impact on countless lives, through his intelligence, candor, humor, and courage - all of which shone through his writing. He made possible a dialog amongst thousands of people, in which no aspect of cancer was shied away from, and from reading the posts, I felt that many who came here were able to share thoughts that they had not been able to express elsewhere. I know that Leroy's life was so much more than this blog, but nevertheless it stands as a shining achievement and gift to all of us. I will miss him.

Sent by Mary | 11:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I will truly miss him. As a physician in a specialty which provided so much of the care Leroy received, I implore whoever it might be to publish his blogs in book form. It would be an invaluable resource to cancer patients, their family members and friends. It would be just one more part of his outstanding legacy.

Sent by James Davis III | 11:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

My prayers are with Laurie and all of Leroy's many friends who will miss his earthly presence. Leroy is with Spanky --safe from his stalker, having WON the battle of living the best life possible with what he was given.

Sent by vateresa | 11:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy's words are one of the first I read every morning. His word's have been an anchor to each day I live with a chronic illness and daily pain. I will miss him so much. Thank you, Leroy, for making this a better world.

Sent by Diane | 11:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie,

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my husband to Cancer last November and he loved to read Leroy's blog. His writings helped us through many difficult days

Sent by Lucy Bernhardt | 11:17 AM ET | 08-16-2008

So very sorry! The first thing i did was to check this site and I too feel like I have lost a friend.

Sent by karen | 11:18 AM ET | 08-16-2008

The heavans are crying....SBH

Sent by Susan H | 11:19 AM ET | 08-16-2008

"A boy and his dog." Simple, complex, fitting. I imagine you running around Heaven seeking out that next hot story, Leroy! Thank you for this blog and all you've shared. Though I will miss you, I am glad your suffering on this Earth is over and that you have begun a painless life in the next world. Prepare the way for we are coming.

Laurie, May the joy of Leroy fill your heart and soul forever! He lives in all of us! Peace and prayers.

Sent by Imani | 11:21 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Let Leroy's spirit lift us all. Let us rejoice in the gift he gave to all of us. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Laurie.

Sent by ABolles | 11:22 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy made such a difference on earth, as I am sure he will in heaven. He will be missed terribly by so many. My deepest sympathies and tears to you, Laurie.

Sent by Priscilla | 11:22 AM ET | 08-16-2008

No matter how much you anticipate it, this news was still a surprise. I don't even know why I checked this morning because it's Saturday. Thank you Leroy for sharing your journey with us. Even 10 years after my Mom's death you gave me a glimpse into so many things she was feeling at that time and not able to express and for that I will be forever grateful. My deepest sympathies to Laurie and all who loved you.

Sent by S A | 11:23 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I was so sorry to read of Leroy's passing; his thoughts and honesty have really helped me to grow in my relationships with others. Laurie, may you have great comfort during this exceptionally sad time.

"I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills;from whence cometh my help?
My help cometh even from the Lord,
who hath made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved,
and he that keepeth thee will not sleep.
Behold, he that keepeth Israel
shall neigher slumber nor sleep.
The Lord himself is thy keeper,
the Lord is they defence upon thy right hand; s that the sun shall not burn thee by day, neither the moon by night.
The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil;yea, it is even he that shall keep thy soul.
The Lord shall preserve the going out, and thy coming in, from this time forth for evermore."

Peace to you,
Martha in FL

Sent by Martha in FL | 11:25 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Leroy,
You have shown us the path that each one of us can take if we are struck by cancer. (1) Fight as hard as you can with every tool available. (2) Appreciate the simple things - extra cheese does make that sandwich taste better. (3) Embrace the love from your family and friends. (4) Find humor in little things. Thank you for your gift.
I will miss you.
Susan

Sent by Susan | 11:25 AM ET | 08-16-2008

After cancer took Joe I was wrecked. A neighbor man stopped me one day and said Now you will have to quiet yourself. A few days later the neighbor died from a heart attack. I believe he lived long enough to give me the gift of those kind words. Leroy gave you the most intimate gift by aharing this journey with you.

Laurie, in the days and weeks ahead you will have to quiet yourself. The experience leaves you wondering what happened to you and your lives.

Anything I can do for you I will do.

Sent by Irene | 11:26 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh no. That is too fast, too sudden. Laurie, and Leroy's family, colleagues and friends, my heart is with you all. He was bigger than life, and he is bigger than death. I feel I have come to know him as a friend. Love to all,
Alycia

Sent by Alycia Keating | 11:26 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Oh lord.....Leroy, may you enjoy all heaven has in store for you.I might have given in to my enemy of bladder cancer, had it not been for you, and Laurie. I am empty right now. But, I pray for you even more.
Oh Laurie, may God help fill your void.

Sent by Peter in Colorado | 11:27 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Peace and love to you, my dear friend.

Sent by Diane | 11:29 AM ET | 08-16-2008

In the past several years, I've lost my dad, my mom, my brother, my favorite brother-in-law, and grandmother to this horrible disease. I never met Leroy but through his blog, he became family. I'm really saddened to have to add him so soon to the ever-growing list of my family members now gone. My prayers are with you.

Sent by Peg | 11:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Our deepest sympathies for your loss. Our hearts go out to you. You are both brave, amazing people.

Sent by Jodi and family | 11:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Each life is a miracle that changes the world and leaves it a better place than it was before. Leroy has done this for all of us and will forever be remembered.

Life is like a roller coaster. Yesterday I was so thankful to get the results of my scans showing that my lymphoma was in remission and today I am saddened to read today's blog.
Prayers and condolences to Laurie and Leroy's family.

Sent by Shirley in Wisconsin | 11:32 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I didn't expect the tears to well up, just as I didn't expect the news that Leroy had passed would pop onto the computer screen this morning. But life in cancer world often does not conform to what is expected.

So to Leroy, to Laurie and everyone else associated with this blog: thank you for providing us with this daily gift for the past couple years. Thank you for helping us examine our own thoughts and feelings. Thank you for your honesty, your compassion and your sense of commitment.

Leroy will be missed, but most certainly not forgotten.

Sent by Scott | 11:33 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Dear Laurie, Although I've never meet Leroy, I feel like I lost a friend. I've gotten to know him through this blog and attempted to send messages of support and healing. Thank you for sharing Leroy with all of us. He has inspired me through some rough times and not a day went by that you both were not in my thoughts and prayers.In Peace, Lynda

Sent by Lynda | 11:34 AM ET | 08-16-2008

It saddens me very much to hear about Leroy's death. I've been following Leroy's "My Caner" blog from the beginning. And I've made several comments because I can relate to so much of what he has gone through with his cancer.

It's hard for me to keep my composure hearing about his death as I feel like I almost knew him as a friend with his daily comments. I'll miss him until the day I meet my maker. So much has happened in the past three months with so many good and some famous people who have passed away from this mutation of cells called cancer. Until we meet in Heaven.

Sent by Kris Worrall | 11:36 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I am so sorry for your loss, Laurie.

The one thing Leroy kept talking about was the loss of independence, the loss of control. That seemed to be his biggest fear. I am glad, for him, he was able to live his life, mostly on his terms, until the end.

I am heartbroken. His life has been such an important part of my life living with and after cancer.

I am so very sorry.

Sent by Robin Smith | 11:36 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I will remember you.

Sent by Nancy | 11:37 AM ET | 08-16-2008

NOOOOOOOOOOOooooooo...

To grieve so profoundly for one whose hand I've never held, whose cheek I've never bussed, whose eyes have never looked into mine could not should not bring so much pain.

To weep so violently for Laurie that my stomach churns and my mouth aches.

To have shared just a little with two souls so generous takes my breath away.

For each of us - many who have lost someone or are losing someone - I cry.

...and I wait for the pain in my chest and the ocean of tears to bring peace.

peace to you Laurie, peace to all the volunteers in Leroy's army.

Sent by eaf | 11:39 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Bless you, Laurie. While I never responded to this blog I listened and watched and was boosted by the fact that one of us cancer folks had the guts and wit to write himself through to where he probably knew he would go. Please be good to yourself over the next weeks and take solace in having been part of a remarkable couple.

Sent by Mary Sue in Newark, NJ | 11:39 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Leroy has been elevated into another team and we all suffer from his absence. We are fuller of this team because of his ability to bring us together. I embrace each of you as we continue our trip and especially want Laurie to know we are also with her. Thank you, Leroy, for your worldly life. Thank you, Laurie, for sharing him. God Bless each one.

Sent by Lucy Groh of Alaska | 11:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Now the tears come. I am glad we could all be there so strongly for Larry until his final moments. He was truly valiant, and gave me such a good example of how to live without self-pity.

Thank you to everyone on here too. You provided new insight into the world of cancer, and lots of voices about how to deal with the unimaginable.

Graham from Sag Harbor, thank you for your kindness.

Joyce from Florida, thanks for using Dude as your salutation, too.

Laurie, even saying "there are no words" sounds trite. Know that there are hundreds of us reaching out to you with love, helping to bear you up in this time of grief. Our hands of light touch you and hold you.

Loving thoughts to all my compadres on this blog. I will miss your insights.

Peggy C.

Sent by Peggy Carey | 11:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I gasped when I read the news. I've only commented once before, but I've looked forward to reading every day.

To Laurie and all who loved Leroy: thank you for sharing him with us, this crowd of strangers to whom he gave so much. May you find peace.

Sent by Katherine | 11:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

Laurie, My heart aches for you and the emptiness you must be feeling. The ripples of inspiration and hope are endless the ones that you and Leroy sent countless. Feel them from heaven and let wonderful memories bring you comfort in the days to come. Surrounding you with prayers of peace and love.

Sent by Suzanne Lindley | 11:40 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I felt a need to reread and reread Leroy's last blog words.

"A boy and his dog."

It seems so fitting.

Sent by Robin Smith | 11:41 AM ET | 08-16-2008

I'm devastated. My deepest deepest condolences to Leroy's family and frien