by Laurie Singer

So how did everyone do this long holiday weekend?

For those of us who were experiencing a "first" without their loved one, it wasn't easy, was it?

We all got the advice. Start new traditions. Make new memories. Surround yourself with family and friends. Well, at least I tried some of that advice. And it worked when I was in the moment.

But I still felt that other half of me missing when the house emptied out and the rooms went silent again. And I still cried.

So I decided to take some of my own advice. Remember holidays of the past. The healthy years, when cancer didn't get in the way.

For me, that worked better. I saw a strong Leroy. In-charge and in-command of the season... Celebrating with friends. Laughing out loud and living life. Oh, did he live life, especially around holidays.

I guess we all have to do what works best for us. This is such an individual journey. I figure I'm half-way through now. New Year's eve is just around the corner.

Any and all suggestions are welcomed. But rewinding back over the years might work best for me again.

And I know, no matter what, I'm still going to cry.