Crossbearer

A Memoir of Faith

by joe Eszterhas

Hardcover, 242 pages, St Martins Pr, List Price: $24.95 | purchase

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Crossbearer
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A Memoir of Faith
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joe Eszterhas

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Book Summary

The author describes how his childhood as a refugee, work as a police reporter and screenwriter, addictions, and throat cancer led him to God.

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“I didn’t even really know how to pray…Part of it was that I felt myself to be presuming God’s favor in our new relationship. I thought to myself: Yeah, right, I reject Him so long ago, and then, after forty years of not just ignoring Him but of trashing Him in my writings, I’m suddenly back and talking to Hi as though nothing had interrupted our relationship, saying ‘How ya doin’, God? Haven’t seen you in a while—what up? Everything cool?...’

            And now here I was trying to speak to the God whom I had marginalized and mocked and lampooned. How do you approach someone to whom you’ve done that? I didn’t know what to say, so one of the first things I said was ‘I’m sorry. I’ve acted like a colossal A-hole. I’m really, really sorry. I don’t deserve to be forgiven, but please try to forgive me.’”

                                                —from Crossbearer