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Karl Marlantes knows what it's like to go to war. That's the name of his latest book. The Vietnam veteran also knows what it's like to come home and to struggle for years, for decades, making sense of his war experience. For Veterans Day, Marlantes has written this essay about the fight that begins for every military man and woman the moment they come home from war.

KARL MARLANTES: I returned to America in October of 1969 after 13 months as a Marine in Vietnam. During that time, I would comfort myself by imagining all the girls I ever knew hugging me in a huge warm group embrace. Somehow, I thought something similar would be waiting for me when I came home.

I was totally unprepared for what actually happened. My big brother picked me up at Travis Air Force Base. As we started to leave the terminal, he put his hand on my shoulder and warned me that there might be trouble outside. Trouble? I asked. I'd just gotten back from Vietnam. But the war held no hurt or humiliation like what happened as we drove through a crowd of protesters shouting obscenities at us and pounding on my brother's 1960 Valiant with their fists and protest signs.

I can still see the hate-filled face of a protester snarling at me through the passenger side window. I can still feel my utter bewilderment and pain. There were no hugs. This kind of thing no longer happens. I'm immensely happy that America has learned to distinguish the kids fighting our wars from the adults making the war policies. But I worry that, instead, we have become smugly complacent. These days, there are yellow ribbons, beer commercials showing people clapping at airports, banners on freeway overpasses.

There's the well-intended thank you for your service and a hasty handshake. I've even received these 40 years late. I know it is done with kind intentions, so I smile and say thank you. But inside, I feel hollow. I know too many people who have died doing what I'm getting thanked for. I also know, having gone through four decades of trying to re-integrate into my own culture, that ribbons and handshakes fall way short of what returning veterans actually need.

We veterans are just part of a complex and interconnected web of people who voted for the policymakers who decided war was the right response, who paid their taxes to finance it, who grew the food, who financed the factories where the weapons were built or who taught the scientists who designed them. The veterans' part of this complex web is that we were the ones who pulled the trigger at the end of the line and carry the burden of that for everyone else. I recently shared a radio interview with a young veteran from Afghanistan.

He'd been back two years. While we were waiting to go on the air, he told me that three of his friends from his own small unit had already committed suicide. Two years. Although suicide statistics for veterans are very difficult to pin down - is a drug overdose a suicide? How about cirrhosis of the liver? Veterans Affairs statistics from 2010 show that 18 veterans a day commit suicide. Clapping at airports and a handshake is way better than what happened after Vietnam, but clearly, it isn't enough.

Our troops are coming home and our part of the killing over there is ending. Our work to end the killing over here is just beginning.

RAZ: Karl Marlantes is the author of the novel "Matterhorn." His most recent book, "What It Is Like to Go to War," was named one of Amazon's 10 best books of 2011.

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