RACHEL MARTIN, HOST:
In Colorado Springs, burned trees still cover the steep foothills west of the city. They're reminders of the wildfire that swept through there this summer, destroying more than 300 homes.
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MARTIN: Now, one devastated neighborhood is coming back to life, with construction workers laboring over half-built houses. But while many of its former residents are preparing to move back, Colorado Public Radio's Megan Verlee reports that some just want to move on.
MEGAN VERLEE, BYLINE: In the days after the Waldo Canyon Fire devoured their homes, shell-shocked residents tried to wrap their minds around what had just happened to them. I met Janet Wilson just as she was leaving a recovery center.
JANET WILSON: It's interesting the process that your mind goes through. You're pouring yourself a cup of coffee and suddenly you remember that you don't have any coffee cups, or you don't have any Christmas decorations. When Christmas comes around, your Christmas decorations are gone.
VERLEE: That was back in June. Wilson had just moved into a rented townhouse and was trying to figure out what came next. Earlier this month that next arrived. Wilson and her partner, Stephen Gandy, decided to buy a new house, well away from their old neighborhood.
WILSON: The view in the back is exquisite. See, we see the mountains now. So, the next fire, we'll watch, we won't be in it. We'll watch it come down the mountain.
VERLEE: Wilson may be safe from the next fire, but she's still holding on to relics of the last one. Out in the garage, she shows me a few of the things they unearthed in the ashes of her old house.
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WILSON: Like this. These items...
VERLEE: Whoa. What is that?
WILSON: It is a kettle, of course, knives. That's one of my favorite knives. And just pieces of pottery.
VERLEE: The contents of this blackened pot look like things you might unearth in an old mining cabin. But for Wilson, they're the last tangible reminders she still has of the life she lived in her old house, and the fire that took it away.
WILSON: You look at that and say, well, what is that? Well, I know I'll get rid of it. But right now it's not quite time to get rid of it. I still have to look at it and touch it and go, wow, you know, 2,000 degrees. Wow.
VERLEE: Wilson did consider trying to rebuild at her old home site. A lot of her neighbors are doing that. But she found the construction process overwhelming. And even once the new houses are built, that once-forested area still won't be the same.
WILSON: It's a little sad. As weeks and weeks and weeks have gone by, all the needles and the leaves are off the branches now, and it looks like a vast area of toothpicks.
VERLEE: She's trying to move on, but starting over has its own pitfalls. Wilson says her new house feels a bit like it belongs to a stranger, filled with recently purchased furniture.
WILSON: I haven't sat on that couch for years and cradled my boys on that couch. So, I look at the couch and say, oh, that's nice, but whose couch is that?
VERLEE: Friends have chipped in to make the new house feel as homey as possible, buying Christmas trees and supplying new ornaments to replace the ones Wilson lost. But none of them can equal the single, soot-black Christmas ball she shows me, amazingly recovered intact from the ashes of her old home.
WILSON: And that this was come out intact. Now, it was crystal and now it's absolutely black.
VERLEE: Some people might want to hide such a stark reminder of the fire, but not Wilson.
WILSON: So, we're going to put that right in the front part of the tree. We're doing our tree in white and red - fire and ice, and that will be our only non-white and red ornament on the tree, a black ball. But it holds a lot of significance now for us.
VERLEE: Wilson says before the fire, the ball was a favorite of one of her sons. She's waiting until he comes home for Christmas to hang it on the tree. For NPR News, I'm Megan Verlee.
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