On 9/11, Part Of Flight 93 Crashed On His Land In Shanksville, Pa. : The NPR Politics Podcast On Sept. 11, 2001, United Airlines Flight 93 was hijacked by four al-Qaida terrorists. The passengers and crew fought back and because of that, the plane crashed outside Shanksville, Pa., instead of its likely target: the U.S. Capitol.

Part of the plane crashed onto land owned by Tim Lambert, a public radio reporter at WITF in Harrisburg, Pa. The crash would end up connecting Lambert, in surprising ways, to the first responders who managed the aftermath and to the families of the people who died on board. He gained access and insight into 9/11 that no other reporter had.

Twenty years after Flight 93's crash, Lambert and NPR's Scott Detrow tell the story of Flight 93: what happened that day and what happened over the years to come.

Warning: This episode contains explicit language and content some listeners may find disturbing.

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Part Of Flight 93 Crashed On My Land. I Went Back To The Sacred Ground 20 Years Later

Part Of Flight 93 Crashed On My Land. I Went Back To The Sacred Ground 20 Years Later

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Visitors walk through the Flight 93 National Memorial in southwestern Pennsylvania. The memorial is dedicated to the people who died on United Airlines Flight 93 on Sept. 11, 2001. Tim Lambert hide caption

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Editor's note: This essay is adapted from reporting for the podcast Sacred Ground by WITF's Tim Lambert and NPR's Scott Detrow. The podcast episode contains explicit language.

Almost every step led to a snap or a soft thwack.

Fallen branches cracked under my feet. Ferns brushed up against my calves.

This past June, I was with my reporting partner Scott Detrow searching for something in this grove of hemlocks.

Metal debris from Flight 93 found this year on the grounds of the national memorial. Patrick White hide caption

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Metal debris from Flight 93 found this year on the grounds of the national memorial.

Patrick White

A reminder, really.

Somewhere in this swirl of skinny yet towering trees was evidence of scars from a day long ago — a spray-painted "X" on the bark. This stark landmark meant a tree had been climbed and searched.

In my head, I knew I should fix my gaze just above the base of each one. But I found myself slipping into an old habit. I was looking down. My eyes methodically scanned the ground — left to right, right to left, repeat.

Then I saw something.

Right at the base of a towering hemlock was a jagged, twisted piece of metal. It stretched from the middle of my forearm to the tip of my middle finger.

I picked it up and stared for a minute or so. Maybe a foot in length, it had weight to it. I felt my throat tighten and my heart speed up. I thought I might break down. I had to slow my breathing to collect myself.

I gently placed the relic back in the dirt.

Nearly 20 years after the Sept. 11 terrorist attacks, I was looking at a physical reminder of what was left of United Flight 93.

The wooded area I was trudging through belongs to the National Park Service. It is part of the Flight 93 National Memorial, which opened a decade ago. It can only be visited by family members of the 40 passengers and crew of the doomed flight. They can also bring guests with them.

But for nearly 70 years, 163 acres of this land belonged to my family. My grandfather bought it in the 1930s, then passed it to my dad, who passed it to me. As a child, I spent summer days in these woods, picking blackberries and fishing. Sometimes I'd check out the log cabins on the land, cabins my grandfather had built by hand.

They are still there, another relic of a time past.

A log cabin that was built by Tim Lambert's grandfather. This area belonged to Lambert's family for nearly 70 years. Patrick White hide caption

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A log cabin that was built by Tim Lambert's grandfather. This area belonged to Lambert's family for nearly 70 years.

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So by sheer chance, fate, coincidence — whatever you'd like to call it — my family's history is a small footnote in the story of Flight 93.

In the weeks after 9/11, Americans struggled to get their heads around the horror of that day. There were so many terrible images playing on a loop. The plane hitting the second tower. The "missing" posters plastered over Lower Manhattan. The collapsed side of the Pentagon.

But near Shanksville, Pa., there were no looping images. There was just a burned out pit in a field and a charred line of trees.

That image was misleading. The site itself told a different story.

I saw the crash site up close for the first time just three weeks after United Flight 93 went down. I'd come at the invitation of the county coroner, Wally Miller. He was going to let me see a space that had been hidden from public view since the day of the attacks. When I stepped from my car into the chilly fall air, it hit me.

The overpowering smell of jet fuel.

Officials examine the crash site of Flight 93 in Shanksville, Pa., on Sept. 11, 2001. David Maxwell/AFP via Getty Images hide caption

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Officials examine the crash site of Flight 93 in Shanksville, Pa., on Sept. 11, 2001.

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Three weeks had passed, but the smell still filled my nostrils — think about how your hands sometimes smell after pumping gas and then times it by 10.

Our grove of hemlocks had been hollowed out into the shape of a "U" after absorbing the blast from the crash. The high grasses and deep green ferns were gone. Now there was just barren, bulldozed dirt and random piles of downed trees. I knew dozens of the remaining hemlocks — burned like matchsticks — would not survive long.

Miller was wearing a blue hard hat, gray coveralls and an orange vest. He described what investigators had determined about the crash.

He bent down and picked up a piece of metal that may have been the size of a quarter.

Lambert and Wally Miller, the county coroner, walk through tall grass near the crash site. Scott Goldsmith hide caption

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Lambert and Wally Miller, the county coroner, walk through tall grass near the crash site.

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It was like a camera shutter clicked. Things that didn't catch our eye earlier suddenly came into focus.

Debris was all around us.

Flight 93 was all around us.

It was like confetti of metal. Tiny pieces were everywhere — each small enough to fit in the palm of my hand.

I picked up a singed envelope that appeared to be a wedding invitation. My colleague held a burned piece of luggage. Charred pieces of a paperback book slowly drifted by as a breeze picked up.

Another strong whiff of jet fuel.

The land and United 93 were entwined.

I climbed up a black metal container to peek inside. Piles and piles of wire, damaged circuit boards. Twisted pieces of large metal. A stray flip-flop. A lone tie.

Someone had written on two pieces of tape on the front of it — "THIS IS NOT TRASH" and "PLANE PARTS ONLY!!"

A container labeled "plane parts only" collected debris from the crash in 2001. Tim Lambert hide caption

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A container labeled "plane parts only" collected debris from the crash in 2001.

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I was back in Shanksville five years later at the request of Debby Borza. Her 20-year-old daughter, Deora Bodley, was the youngest passenger on Flight 93. The first years after the crash, I'd made many trips back and forth to my land. I went as a journalist to chronicle a story to which I had a front-row seat. But I also went to help. So I spent hours combing through the woods with Wally and others, picking up plane parts, noting which trees had been searched, indicated by big red Xs. I grew close to some families, close enough that during one visit, Debby threw me a birthday party at a restaurant a few miles from Shanksville.

This time when I stepped out of the car at the crash site, the air smelled like sugar maples and wildflowers. The ground was healing.

I walked through the security gate set up to keep trespassers out and was greeted by Debby. Ben Wainio and his wife, Esther Heymann, were with her. Like Debby, they had also lost their daughter, Honor Elizabeth Wainio, on Flight 93.

It was still early. The morning air damp and hazy.

Debby Borza stands next to a memorial for her daughter, Deora Bodley, who was the youngest passenger on Flight 93. Tim Lambert hide caption

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Debby Borza stands next to a memorial for her daughter, Deora Bodley, who was the youngest passenger on Flight 93.

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The crash site, once so brown, barren and charred, was now a vibrant green. The grass was back, tall and lush, and so were the wildflowers. The surviving hemlocks stood tall, although they still bore scars from that day, missing branches from base to canopy.

As we stood together that morning, steps from where the plane had hurtled into the ground five years earlier, we talked about the land and the connection families now felt to it. Ben told me he felt like he's here with Elizabeth. Esther said she found it poignant that something so sad and tragic could happen in this random, peaceful landscape. She found it cathartic to bring a lawn chair to sit for hours in solitude and peace.

This spot was a cemetery. The final resting place of their loved ones.

But reminders of the devastation from the September day still surfaced. I came across a large piece of insulated wiring resting at the base of a tree.

The land was still telling the story of Flight 93. But it was also healing — just like some of the families.

Ken Nacke holds a photo of his brother, Louis "Joey" Nacke, who died on Flight 93. William Thomas Cain/Getty Images hide caption

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Ken Nacke holds a photo of his brother, Louis "Joey" Nacke, who died on Flight 93.

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In 2011, I was able to walk the site for the first time since we sold our land. The 6 acres where the first-class cabin and cockpit had landed were now part of the National Park Service. The rest — 157 acres — went to the nonprofit group the Families of Flight 93.

I no longer had a right to be here, and I no longer felt like a caretaker of this place. I was here as a guest. Ken Nacke, a Baltimore County police officer, was here to visit his brother, and he asked me to join him. Louis "Joey" Nacke was a passenger on United 93.

But he was just Joey to Ken.

Like other family members, Ken struggled to cope with the loss of Joey. He remembered a dream where he was on that plane, seeing what unfolded through someone else's eyes. Vivid details played out in his subconsciousness — the narrowness of the aisle, the claustrophobic feeling — of the passengers and crews charging toward the cockpit.

But it was in this field where Kenny felt he really turned a corner in his grief.

As we stood near a 17-ton sandstone boulder placed at the point of impact, Ken told me about his brother. He was 42 years old, a weightlifter with a Superman tattoo on his arm. Ken gestured around us. Here, he told me, was the place he'd been able to finally subdue his grief. One day, he said, he'd been sitting on a bench, soaking in the wildlife and beautiful surroundings. The smells. The peacefulness.

A pair of bear cubs wandered out of the woods. Maybe 200 yards away. Stopping short of the impact site, they started roughhousing. Wrestling. Rolling around. Swiping at each other. Chasing each other.

He was fascinated and just watched. His mind went to a time when he and Joey would battle. In family rooms. In the grass. In a way only brothers can.

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A bench and placard dedicated to Louis "Joey" Nacke.

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Like the dream, he believed it was a message from Joey. He felt like it was a kick in the ass. Cherish the memories you have but move forward and honor your sibling by living your life.

As we headed back to our cars, a baby deer trotted on the road in front of us. It stopped and watched. It took one tentative step in our direction and then bolted into the trees.

Ken smiled. The healing continued.

As the nation prepares to mark 20 years since the attacks, I find myself contemplating how visitors will likely never get to experience — never know — what this place is like inside the security gate.

To feel its power.

Its presence.

To see physical reminders of the sacrifices made.

Maybe that's for the best.

The United Flight 93 crash site is often simply described as "a field in Pennsylvania."

A field once scarred by a smoldering crater, but now a living tribute to the 40 passengers and crew who likely saved the U.S. Capitol and hundreds of lives through their attempts to retake the cockpit.

It remains mysterious.

Out of reach.

Just like it's been since that day in September two decades ago.

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Hemlock trees and ferns are growing back on the land.

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