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Everyone Loves A Good Train Wreck

Why We Can't Look Away

by Eric G. Wilson

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An analysis of the human attraction to darker areas of life draws on findings in a wide range of disciplines and cites diverse examples to conclude that people experience renewal when they confront pain and death.

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"Don't look."

That's what she asked, more than once. I heard her distinctly each time, and told myself I should oblige, and even once partially turned my head in her direction, but I just couldn't take my eyes off the screen. I engrossed myself again, and again submitted to the anger, the sorrow, the fear, as well as guilt's perverse plea sure: I felt that I shouldn't be doing this, but I was doing it anyway, and got a peevish thrill from my transgression.

It was evening, dinnertime, and this had been going on since morning, right before I left for work. I had just finished breakfast. I had my satchel over my shoulder. It contained my books for that day's class (on Keats's "To Autumn") and also my lunch (a peanut butter sandwich). I had my hand on the doorknob, ready to leave, when Sandi, my wife, ran up to me, phone in hand, and said, "Turn on the TV."

I did, and there it was. Too slowly, a jet, brilliant white, wide enough to seat a hundred, plowed into a narrow rectangular tower, luminous and silver in the September sunshine. The blast silently boomed, and the skyscraper turned black billow, spume of flame: an immense sinister candle.

There was a stop, and the sequence rolled once more, soundless, with the same dilatory tempo. It repeated, each time more mesmerizing and meaningless, someone else's eerie dream. No words explained it — fit it into a familiar story, with reassuring causalities and characters. It was unmoored destruction, sublime. I watched, and watched.

We all know what this was, and likely remember our need to witness the eruption one more time, and also to look when the events became more horrific: another fiery collision, and then buildings sucked to the ground, leaving only rubble and crushed loved ones.

Sandi's voice broke my morbid trance that morning: "Come here." When I faced her, she appeared to me in the fullness of her three-month pregnancy, holding in her smooth belly a little creature who would soon be pressed from the warm darkness into this glare.

We hugged, not confessing our terror: an infant in this Armageddon. We sat down together and watched the catastrophe worsen.

After an hour, I made my way to my office at the university where I teach. I had seen the attacks on the towers probably twenty times by then. I turned on my computer, went to the Internet, and found the scene again.

But I had classes to teach, and so reluctantly left the screen. I held the students only briefly in each of my three sections, telling them that we would pick up with Keats the next class — even his wisdom did not that day suffice — and urging them to go back to their dorms and call their families and friends. Between classes, I persisted in watching the footage, breaking only to call Sandi, to comfort and in turn take solace.

I returned home around five. Sandi was in the kitchen preparing dinner, food that would best nourish our baby. The small television beside the coffeemaker, like the other sets in our house, was off.

After giving my wife a hug, I clicked the set on: the conflagration in the sky, now strangely comforting, like a wound you can't imagine not having. More than that, the footage at this point was, as shocking as this might sound, gruesomely beautiful: swelling ebony smoke against the blue horizon. And the film inspired this staggering thought: "Here is one of those rare ruptures from which history will not recover, and I am alive at its occurrence." I felt exhilarated, inappropriately, and I was ashamed.

"Come on," Sandi said. "Turn it off and help me chop the vegetables. Don't look."

But I did, though she asked me again to stop, and I continued into the night, brooding.


Don't look. Look. This refrain has played in my head much of my life, one voice telling me it's wrong to stare at morbid events and another urging me to stare anyway, hard.

It's my turn to pass the accident on the side of the highway. I tell myself to keep my eyes on the road, to avoid being one of those rubberneckers who clog traffic just for some sick titillation. But decadent anticipation takes over; I realize I'm going to gaze, and I'll enjoy the experience all the more because it's frowned upon. I hit my brakes and gape, until an angry horn prods me forward.

In high school, I heard there was a fight behind the cafeteria. I hurried along with everyone else to see it. Elbowing classmates aside to get a better view, I felt shame mixed with excitement. Here was something savage, but also vital, one boy mauling another.

In both cases, and there have been many others, there was a compulsion to watch, like that tickle in the throat, followed by the irrepressible cough, or the awful urge to sneeze: once it activates, it's impossible to contain. The only good of holding back is that it makes the imminent release more intense.

I imagine we've all felt that guilty rush before the morbid. The exploitation of a suicidal starlet, the assassination of a world leader; the hypnotic crush of a hurricane, the lion exploding into the antelope; the wreckage and the rapture, the profane and the sacred: whatever our attraction, we are drawn to doom.

Everyone loves a good train wreck. We are enamored of ruin. The deeper the darkness is, the more dazzling. Our secret and ecstatic wish: Let it all fall down.

From Everyone Loves a Good Train Wreck: Why We Can't Look Away by Eric G. Wilson. Copyright 2012 by Eric G. Wilson. Excerpted by permission of Sarah Crichton Books, an imprint of Farrar, Straus and Giroux.