I Didn't Know How To Stop: Elaine's Story

Fun and freedom went hand in hand with marijuana and LSD for Elaine when she was a teenager. Then came the amphetamines, which her doctor prescribed for a weight issue. Add to the mix alcohol, and then heroin, and Elaine found herself locked into a 30-year cycle of addiction. Elaine is clean today, and she talks with Theo about what keeps her that way.

Life Starts Showing Up: Mary's Story

Mary felt invisible when she was a kid. She was a middle child in a family preoccupied by multiple illnesses. She knows now that she was clinically depressed, but at the time, all she knew was that illicit drugs provided her some relief. After years of addiction, she got clean, had a good job, and a family, but a relapse threw her into a tailspin. She's starting over now, again, with 20 months clean, and she talks with Theo about the highs and lows of her ongoing struggle.

That Moment of Clarity: A conversation with Rodney James

At the beginning of each day, Rodney James says, "I'm going to save someone's life today." Rodney works as a peer recovery coach at Saint Agnes Health Institute, steering others onto the path of recovery. He's traveled that path himself. Rodney talks with Theo about denial, shifting blame, relapse, and the importance of surrounding yourself with people who have your best interests at heart.

There's Only One Drug You Can't Do: Mike's Testimonial

Mike was introduced to alcohol by his older siblings and their friends at a party, and he fell in love. From there, it was on to illegally prescribed pills, until Mike's addiction almost destroyed his liver and brought him to the brink of death. Mike got clean, but he relapsed after 14 years. He's in recovery again today, and he shares his experience, including his daily mantra: There's only one drug you can't do: The first one.

I Died a Spiritual Death: Jack's Journey

Jack was introduced to heroin at age nineteen. At the time, he was behind bars serving a prison sentence. He talks with Theo about the early manifestations of his addictive personality, his multiple incarcerations, and the progression of his disease over three decades.Jack's moment of clarity came only after he'd hurt those closest to him and ended up alone and invisible to the world around him. That's when he finally embraced his higher power, learned humility, and began to turn his life around.

Lost in the music and the lights: Nina's story

Nina was a college graduate with a successful corporate job. She was also bipolar and abusing alcohol, marijuana, and cocaine. Things came to a head when she lost her job, foreclosed on her house, and crashed her car. Intensive outpatient therapy gave Nina a new start, and she talks with Theo about lessons learned and the challenges and joys of living clean.

The Gift of Desperation, A Conversation with Al

Theo and his guest, Al, originally met over a chessboard when they were incarcerated. Today, they're both addiction recovery veterans who are passing along their wisdom and experience to a younger generation. In this episode, Al speaks with Theo about stubbornness, suicidal ideations, and what he calls, 'The gift of desperation.'

An Inward Journey: A Conversation with Warren

Theo talks with Warren, whose addictions progressed through alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, and ultimately heroin. Today, Warren is a certified addiction counselor, and he shares his experiences and offers words of wisdom about learning how to let go and surrender to the recovery process.

We can't arrest our way out of the problem: A conversation with Kurt Schmoke - Episode 4

Theo switches it up and talks drug policy with University of Baltimore President and former Baltimore Mayor Kurt Schmoke, whose political career suffered in the late eighties and nineties on account of his controversial ideas about addiction as a public health issue, not a crime problem.

We can't arrest our way out of the problem: A conversation with Kurt Schmoke - Episode 4

We all suffer the same thing: Wisdom from George - Episode 3

Theo's guest, George, went to jail at a young age. While he was incarcerated, his father killed his mother. When he got out, his brother-in-law got him hooked on heroin. In the years that followed, he was shot, stabbed, and jailed multiple times. He sold dope, he stole, and he did whatever it took to get drugs. Today, he's 34 years clean. George and Theo discuss the challenge of boredom that can come with sobriety, the temptation to replace one addiction for another, and the philosophical differences between abstinence and medically-assisted harm reduction approaches to recovery.

If I can do it, anybody can do it: Laura's journey - Episode 2

Theo welcomes Laura, who recounts the story of her struggle with heroin and crack cocaine. The resulting addiction cost her a nursing career, a house, her freedom, and her relationship with her parents and kids. Theo and Laura discuss anger at God, Jackpot Prayers, surrendering to addiction, and the importance of asking for help.

An addict alone is in bad company: A conversation with Glenn

Theo makes his debut behind the mic, introduces himself, and shares his back-story of addiction, detox, and recovery. Theo's guest, Glenn, talks about his own introduction to alcohol and drugs. Glenn got hooked on heroin at age 15 and spent the next several decades alternating between homelessness and incarceration. In 2008, he went into treatment. He's been clean 10 years. Theo and Glenn talk about the concept of 'unlearning,' the challenge of dealing with cravings and drug dreams, and the benefits of service.