Off the Cocktail San Francisco writer Krandall Kraus and his partner Paul Borja are writing the book It's Never About What It's About -- What We Learned About Living While We Were Waiting To Die. Kraus has been living with HIV since 1982. When he was first diagnosed, he came to accept the idea that he was going to die, and felt a kind of freedom. Then, when new drugs became available, he started to believe and act like he was going to live, but found that he was more interested in the quantity than the quality of his life. Recently, he decided to go off his aids cocktail, and says his life has more value and greater meaning.