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Yet as NPR's David Folkenflik reports, there is one way in which TV anchors live in a very different world.
DAVID FOLKENFLIK: CNN's Don Lemon is on TV a lot. He is the network's weekend primetime anchor, but you've never heard him say what he's about to say. And Lemon says he's been advised not to.
DON LEMON: Do I want to be the gay anchor? Which is what my mentors in the business, my agents, the people I respect said. Do you want to always want to be labeled as the gay anchor? And I'd have to say this point, why the hell not?
FOLKENFLIK: As a kid, Lemon says he knew he was different but kept hearing the call in church to...
LEMON: Pray the gay away.
FOLKENFLIK: Colleagues at work do know about his four-year relationship with his boyfriend, a CNN producer. But until now, Lemon has been extremely guarded with the public. He was told anchors do not talk about such things.
LEMON: We live and die by people watching us. If I give people another reason not to watch me, that is a concern for me and that's a concern for whoever I am working for. My livelihood is on the line. I don't know if people are going to accept me. I don't know if I'll have a job. I don't know how people are going to feel about this.
FOLKENFLIK: Lemon spoke with NPR ahead of the release of his memoir, "Transparent," in which he talks about his upbringing, his discovery of who his true father was, and about the sexual abuse he suffered as a child. Lemon first disclosed that on CNN last fall during an interview about a prominent minister accused of abuse.
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LEMON: And let me tell you what got my attention about this, and I've never admitted this on television. I am a victim of a pedophile when I was a kid...
FOLKENFLIK: Lemon was writing his memoir at the time. He says it was cathartic to release secrets he had been holding so tight. And yet Lemon says he was scared, is scared, that he will pay a price.
LEMON: Most people would think if you're the prime news anchor, then you should sort of be this Edward R. Murrow kind of Clark Kent kind of a guy with a family and the 2.5 kids, or the perky, cute yet smart Katie Couric. Anyone would have to be naive to think that it wouldn't make a difference.
FOLKENFLIK: I asked Lemon: Surely his own mentors don't think being gay is a negative in this day and age.
LEMON: Yeah, I don't know about that.
FOLKENFLIK: Tell me I'm wrong.
LEMON: Yeah, you're wrong.
LEMON: Yeah, you're wrong.
FOLKENFLIK: Former ABC News president David Westin.
DAVID WESTIN: When you're talking about, particularly on-air personalities - and this is a problem with these jobs - you'd be shocked at what you talk about. You talk about hairstyles. You talk about accents. So you talk about everything. And so among those things, yeah, we would talk from time to time about the question of sexual orientation and whether it would make a difference.
FOLKENFLIK: He said executives concluded being gay was not disqualifying for an anchor, but that some viewers would turn away. TV news ratings, after all, are dropping and there's a lot of money at stake - millions for top anchors and hundreds of millions for top news outlets.
WESTIN: When you have that fine a margin - and you're fighting for every little competitive edge you can - then it's understandable that people would be afraid of the unknown. I personally think we will get through there and we'll look back and say what was the big deal. I think. But until you've done it, you haven't done it.
FOLKENFLIK: A lot of news stories involve sexual orientation - gays in the military, ordination of gay clergy, gay marriage. Lemon says he's concerned some viewers may not accept hearing about such stories from someone whom they know to be gay. Though, as Lemon notes, heterosexual anchors - regardless of their private lives or private views - don't have that problem.
LEMON: It may not be a year - it could be five years or it could be 10 years - but this revelation about my sexuality will end up being in the pro side of the column rather than the con side of the column. And so be it. If in this broadcast industry, the way it works now, that I can't be the anchorman, then my career will transform into something else.
FOLKENFLIK: David Folkenflik, NPR News.
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