GUY RAZ, HOST:
It's WEEKENDS on ALL THINGS CONSIDERED from NPR News. I'm Guy Raz. Cartoonist Alison Bechdel's first memoir came out in 2006. It was called "Fun Home," and it dug deep into her complicated relationship with her father. He was a closeted gay man who poured his emotional energy into redecorating the family's Victorian Gothic home.
Shortly after Alison Bechdel herself came out as a lesbian in college, her father was killed by a truck, possibly a suicide. Now, that's a lot of information to take in, but it's essential in understanding Bechdel's new book, "Are You My Mother?" It's a psychoanalytic portrait of Bechdel and her mother, a relationship that is still evolving. Bechdel says when she sat down to write a new book, she wasn't intending to write about her mother.
ALISON BECHDEL: I decided to write a book about relationships, and I was sort of interested in the philosophical idea of the self and the other using examples from my own life, like from my own romantic relationships. But eventually, it all seemed to - I felt like I was avoiding something.
I was working on the book for a very long time before I realized that it wasn't making a lot of sense. I was trying to mix my life story with ideas about psychoanalysis that I was learning about. I reached a point where I realized that the real story here was about my relationship with my mother, and I had kind of been writing around that.
RAZ: Bechdel's mother - who is still very much alive - is a constant presence in the book, commenting acidly on the narrative, even as it's being written.
BECHDEL: She is not at all happy about the fact that I am exposing our family secrets, and now specific material about her life. And that's a, you know, a difficult ethical problem that I struggle with. Perhaps I don't struggle with it deeply enough but, you know, I feel like, how do we decide how much of our parents' stories belong to us?
My mom is actually really remarkable. She's understanding about this. Like, she hasn't forbidden me to do it. I know she's not happy, but she somehow recognizes that it's something I need to do, even though it's uncomfortable for her. We just - we have a kind of uncomfortable truce.
RAZ: Alison Bechdel says there's something, a kind of accepting warmth, that she never got from her mother who stopped kissing her good night when she was 7 years old. But in the course of writing the book, she realized something.
BECHDEL: My mother taught me to be a writer at the point when she took dictation from me, made my diary entries for a brief period when I was 11 years old. I was in this sort of obsessive-compulsive phase where I had to do all these repetitive motions in my writing, and so making my diary entries was taking a very long time each night.
So my mom said: Let me just - you tell me what to say, and I'll write it down. And I feel like it was in that writing exchange, my words coming out of her pen, I think that's when I became a memoirist.
RAZ: That's cartoonist Alison Bechdel. You can see pages from her new memoir, "Are You My Mother?" at npr.org.
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