Ex-L.A. Gang Member Trades Streets For Family Seventeen years ago, BooBoo was a hard-core gang member in Los Angeles. Now, Cindy Martinez is a mother of five who teaches her kids not to make her mistakes.

Ex-L.A. Gang Member Trades Streets For Family Life

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For our series The Hidden World of Girls, produced with the Kitchen Sisters, we're taking you to the epicenter of street gangs, Los Angeles.

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NPR's Mandalit del Barco has been documenting the lives of gang members there for nearly two decades. She recently revisited a woman who was a teenager when they first met for an NPR documentary back in 1995.


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MANDALIT DEL BARCO: Long time. I always wondered about you.

Ms. MARTINEZ: Oh, Christ, dude. I'm a whole different person now.

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THE MARVELETTES (Singers): (Singing) Watch out. Oh girls, you know...

DEL BARCO: When I first met up with BooBoo, she was running the streets of L.A. with her homegirls, Nena and Chunky.

Ms. MARTINEZ, NENA AND CHUNKY: (Singing) Watch out for Playboys, they're bringing their shotgun. Watch out here come the Playboys...

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DEL BARCO: BooBoo was named after the cartoon cub that tags along with Yogi Bear. Back then, she was a hard-core member of the legendary Playboys street gang.

Ms. MARTINEZ: I wanted to belong to something. And, you know, I was - what - 12 years old? And I see a bunch of girls, you know, hanging together. I figured, yeah. You know what? I want to kick back with them, so I said I'm going to get into Playboys.

DEL BARCO: BooBoo was 19 years old. She sported more than 30 tattoos, including a little Playboy bunny below her right eye, and the signature body art of gang life: three dots signifying Mi Vida Loca.

Ms. MARTINEZ: It's mi vida loca, my crazy life. Yeah, I been stabbed, shot, busted...

DEL BARCO: Boo Boo's swagger was as course as the ponytail she was brushing during our interview. She talked about getting revenge with rival gangs.

Ms. MARTINEZ: For one of our homeboys that die, about 10 of their homeboys die.

DEL BARCO: She'd already been shot twice, and had been in and out of juvenile probation camps for various crimes.

Ms. MARTINEZ: I'm free for a little bit, yeah. I might go to school a week or two. I get busted a month, two months, three months. Come back out, go to school another week, get busted six months, seven months. That's it. That's my whole routine. Part of my probation conditions were to look for a job. They look at me like (bleep), who would want to give her a job? Look at her, she's all tattooed. She looks mean.

DEL BARCO: What would your dream be, for your life?

Ms. MARTINEZ: I would just dream of a normal life, you know? To have your, you know, your boyfriend or your husband, your kids, your house, a job. What I wouldn't give for that - just the responsibility of having to get up to go somewhere.

You guys, you have normal life, you know. And sometimes you go home and say I'm so tired, I wish I could just kick back. But look at us, that's all we do. But it's just hard, man. It's just hard.

DEL BARCO: At the time, BooBoo was pining for her boyfriend, Dreamer, who had just been locked away in prison on drug charges.

Ms. MARTINEZ: If you hear this, Dreamer: I love you, stupid.

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NENE: You're an idiot. No...

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NENE: No, Im just playing.

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DEL BARCO: Seventeen years later, BooBoo is in full mommy mode with five children, ranging from 18 months to 14 years old.

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Ms. MARTINEZ: Come on, Peter. Snap out of it.

DEL BARCO: At home in L.A.'s Glassell Park neighborhood, she cradles the twins, preemies, born with lung and heart problems. BooBoo coos and tenderly places an oxygen mask over Peter's mouth to help him breathe.

Ms. MARTINEZ: Feeling like the mother bear feeling. You know, you got to look out for your cubs. These are my little baby bears, my cubs.

DEL BARCO: BooBoo now goes by her real name, Cindy Martinez. Since we last met, she had all her gang tattoos lasered off her face and arms. She says she mostly just talks to her old gang friends through Facebook.

Ms. MARTINEZ: Some homies, you know, almost in their 40s, they're medical assistants, you know, secretaries. They're nurses, you know, some are in prison, some are dead. Some have kids, a whole lot of kids.

DEL BARCO: Cindy's relationships are complicated. She married her old boyfriend, Dreamer, after he was released from his eight-year prison sentence. By then, she'd already had her first two daughters with another Playboy, who was later incarcerated. She says after Dreamer became a heroin addict and was deported to Mexico, she had her younger daughter and the baby boys with different father.

Ms. MARTINEZ: If I sat here and I told you everything that has happened in my life, you'd be like this is a "Jerry Springer Show."

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Ms. MARTINEZ: I kid you not. I kid you not.

DEL BARCO: So what is your routine, now?

Ms. MARTINEZ: Making breakfast and you know, changing diapers, and doctors' appointments for the twins. I'll spend most of my days at Children's Hospital with specialists.

DEL BARCO: At 36, Cindy has her own health problems and says she gets by on government assistance and help from her construction worker boyfriend.

For a while, she sold Avon products, worked in a factory making adult sex toys, and cared for an elderly woman. She'd like to go back to school and get a good job. But getting in the way are her three criminal cases: for selling marijuana, assault and battery, and petty theft.

Ms. MARTINEZ: My life was set to be a gangster, a hoodlum. If you told me back then: Oh, you were going to have five kids. I would have slapped you upside your head. I'd be like, yeah, right. Me, have kids? Hell, no. But I would never trade them for nothing, as much as they get on my last nerve.

I tell you with all honesty, my daughter Gabriela, she saved me from that lifestyle. Knowing that was my baby and that baby needed me. Didn't have nobody but me.

DEL BARCO: Cindy says leaving gang life was like kicking heroin, but these experiences changed her: the moment someone cocked a gun to her temple while she was holding Gabby; the day gang members brutally gunned down her little brother, Freddie; the time baby Peter once stopped breathing.

Ms. MARTINEZ: All that, I'm a tough gangster, I'm a bad (bleep), you know, no. All went out through the window. You know, since I've had my kids, I've grown to appreciate the sensitive part of life.

DEL BARCO: When I met you before, you sounded pretty hard-core. You know?

Ms. MARTINEZ: You know, I had that (bleep) you...

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Ms. MARTINEZ: ...mentality. But like I try to tell my kids: be caring instead of being hateful. I am not as cold-hearted as I was. I'm such a sissy. I could watch a cartoon and cry. I was like, aww.

DEL BARCO: Cindy's quite proud of how restrained she is now, no matter how frustrated she may get by life.

Ms. MARTINEZ: Sometimes I'm like, I need a break. And my old BooBoo comes back and I'd be like, grrr. But I try not to have those days.

DEL BARCO: You still sing that Playboys song?

Ms. MARTINEZ: Yeah, I have it as a ringtone on my phone.

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DEL BARCO: Mandalit del Barco, NPR News.

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THE MARVELETTES: (Singing) So, Playboy, I've seen your kind...

DEL BARCO: Mandalit Del Barco, NPR News.

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THE MARVELETTES: (Singing) Winning every girl with that same old line. So, Playboy, stay away from my door. Oh, yeah. I know about the lovers you had before. Oh, yeah. Ah-ah. Oh, you know you've got to watch out...

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