Strumming The Pain, Songwriters Play Vets' Stories The SongwritingWith:Soldiers project connects veterans with musicians who help translate their experiences into verse. In a retreat outside Fort Hood, Texas, a group of soldiers opened up like never before about their post-traumatic stress.
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According to one study, nearly 300,000 men and women who've served in Iraq or Afghanistan, suffer from some form of post-traumatic stress. More than half don't seek treatment; but for those who do reach out, resources - from traditional therapies to new approaches - are available.

And at a retreat outside of Fort Hood, Texas, a group of Army veterans suffering from PTSD agree to try something new - collaborating with accomplished American songwriters, to capture their stories through music. KUT's David Brown reports.


STAFF SGT. EUSTACIO OBREGON: You know, we learned how to do the old fireman - like you see...

DAVID BROWN, BYLINE: In a small cabin room at a woodsy, central Texas retreat, Staff Sgt. Eustacio Obregon sits on a sofa, beside his wife. She keeps looking at his face, touching his arm as if to reassure him of her presence.

OBREGON: Well, for me, it's been four tours. From the first one to the last one, it's just a constant build-up - everything tacked on until it was just - there was - had one of those moments. And it was - came down to either losing my family, or deal with my - my PTSD.

BROWN: Obregon stares down at the floor, fumbling with his watch. He recalls his first deployment; and his desperation to find a phone in the middle of the Iraqi desert, to call home.

OBREGON: Everything I could do, to get - just a phone call; so I could hear her voice, and tell her that I love her, let her know that I'm OK. I've never shared any of this. This is all new, for me. I've kept all this bottled up since 2003.

BROWN: On the other side of the coffee table, Americana singer-songwriter Radney Foster - of the SongwritingWith:Soldiers project - listens closely and takes notes. Obregon and his wife begin to reminisce about the stars they'd look up to each night, to keep a connection during deployment. Foster picks up his road-worn Gibson guitar, and begins to play.

RADNEY FOSTER: (Singing) Looked at our stars tonight, said I love you then I said goodnight, tomorrow I'm gonna say it all again...

BROWN: Foster says the clipped style of military speech actually contributes to the collaborative process. As he puts it: Simple words make great songs.

FOSTER: You know, I've written with people who've been shot, or amputees, have post-traumatic stress. There's something about that, that makes them speak in poetry; and they don't know they're doing it.

BROWN: At this weekend retreat, 10 soldiers - veterans of multiple deployments, all dealing with some form of post-traumatic stress - agree to be paired with professional, established songwriters. Singer-songwriter Darden Smith is founder of the project.

DARDEN SMITH: The way that the process works, when we're writing with soldiers - when we sit down to write a song, we just ask them questions. We get quiet, and we let them talk.

BROWN: Smith is quick to underscore, this isn't therapy. But Dr. Jerry Wesch, a clinical psychologist based at Fort Hood, says there is something healing about the process.

DR. JERRY WESCH: The music is a way of moving emotion and images and ideas out of you, into an objective form where you can see what it is, where you can express it, where you can face and honor what's happened to you. And the process has been amazing.

SGT. 1ST CLASS SCOTT MCRAE: I can be - how?

BROWN: Sgt. 1st Class Scott McRae is also giving the process a try. He served in the invasion of Iraq, and has done two tours of duty in Afghanistan. But he admits he was reluctant to come here.

MCRAE: Um - certainly not an artsy kind of guy so - was a little apprehensive.

BROWN: McRae sits on a couch, slumped back in his oversized, khaki jacket. He begins to share his story with Smith through a clenched fist covering his mouth.

SMITH: What's starting to make sense to you? What...

MCRAE: My life.

SMITH: Your life.

MCRAE: Yeah. My - that old dream is starting to make sense.

SMITH: How long have you been...

MCRAE: It's a different dream now. It's not the same one.

SMITH: (Singing) I went to war one man, came home another. I loved that bottle just like a brother. Saw the white picket fence just disappear.

BROWN: McRae leans forward, now completely engaged in the process. He's listening to his own story.

MCRAE: You know, I have come a ways from where I used to be, and it's been really a powerful experience for me.

SMITH: (Singing) Yeah, I got a new dream, I got a new dream...

BROWN: The project, in its infancy, has drawn major donors, including the Bob Woodruff Foundation and Lockheed Martin. There are plans to expand nationally in 2013.

For NPR News, I'm David Brown in Belton, Texas.

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