Interview: Mandy Moore On Her First New Album In A Decade, Post-Ryan Adams After a decade-long gap between albums, the singer and This Is Us star talks to NPR's Ari Shapiro about returning to music, conquering self doubt and revisiting old songs.
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Mandy Moore On Self-Forgiveness And Her Musical Reawakening On 'Silver Landings'

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Mandy Moore On Self-Forgiveness And Her Musical Reawakening On 'Silver Landings'

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Mandy Moore grew up in the musical spotlight. Her 1999 hit "Candy" was released when she was just 15.


MANDY MOORE: (Singing) I'm craving for you. I'm missing you like candy.

SHAPIRO: Today, she's best known as the Emmy-nominated actress who plays Rebecca Pearson on the NBC drama "This Is Us."


MOORE: (As Rebecca Pearson) Sometimes making people forget about their worries or what comes next, that's the most important thing you can do for someone.

SHAPIRO: Now, 11 years after her last album, Mandy Moore the singer is back with a reflective new album called "Silver Landings."


MOORE: (Singing) Not all pain is black and blue. Strongest people come unglued.

I'm incredibly lucky to be a part of a show and experience like "This Is Us." But, you know, there is a vulnerability in being able to express yourself as an artist with your own music, in your own words, and you're not necessarily hiding behind a character, per se.

SHAPIRO: A character, right.

MOORE: And that's what I think I've really longed for and missed from making music for the last decade, is there's a whole huge, you know, component to who I am that's kind of been dormant.


SHAPIRO: You did encounter fame from a very young age.

MOORE: Yeah.

SHAPIRO: And the song "Fifteen" really seems to speak to that.


MOORE: (Singing) Young girl, up early, wasn't old enough to drive, took a trip from Seminole County with her mother by her side.

SHAPIRO: I mean, what's it like to sing to an earlier version of yourself?

MOORE: I think the process of making this record something that was really important to me was coming to terms with that 15-year-old version of Mandy 'cause she still lives in me. I carry her around. She's kind of the reason that I'm here today (laughter) and still have a semblance of a career. So I have made peace with sort of the embarrassment I think I had over some of the creative choices that I'd made at that point in my life. And I also have an appreciation for the fact that I came out of that and sort of the pop music scene, thrust in this adult world - I've come out the other end, you know, kind of a functioning adult, so - (laughter).


MOORE: (Singing) No regrets, with a few exceptions.

SHAPIRO: I love the line, no regrets, with a few exceptions.

MOORE: (Laughter) It's a bit of a cheeky nod, I think, to maybe stuff that's a little bit more surface, like some of the fashion choices that I made. I mean, I'll still apologize for those 'cause the '90s were not really kind to me.

SHAPIRO: I don't think they were kind to any of us. I had long hair parted in the middle.

MOORE: (Laughter) Sure.

SHAPIRO: I'll confess.


SHAPIRO: Was there a specific moment that you learned to embrace and forgive that version of yourself?

MOORE: I think it was making this record.

SHAPIRO: Really?

MOORE: I mean, I think I battled with a lot of self-doubt, with regrets, with this idea of legitimacy and what I brought to the table, and perhaps this part of my life and this part of my career was over. I really - I wasn't sure that I was ever going to make music again.

SHAPIRO: So did the decision to forgive yourself lead you to write this album? Or did the process of writing these songs lead you to that forgiveness?

MOORE: I think it's a little bit of both. But I think it was an all-encompassing experience. Like, once I got there and I was in the midst of writing and recording, and I think that's where forgiveness and acknowledgement of what I've been through and what it took to sort of get here that it all kind of crystallized.


MOORE: (Singing) If the only way to win is by breaking all the rules, I'd rather lose.

SHAPIRO: Can you give us a sense of why you've been absent from music for so long?

MOORE: I think it's a combination of a lot of things. I think, most of all, I'll take the brunt of responsibility and say that it really did boil down to a lot of self-doubt. And I think I found myself in an unhealthy, you know, personal situation and relationship, and that definitely didn't help matters. But...

SHAPIRO: I want to just let listeners know, you have spoken openly about the destructive marriage...


SHAPIRO: ...You had to the singer Ryan Adams.

MOORE: Sure. I think also finding myself in a situation, personally, with someone that I held in such high regard and sort of working on things musically in a creative fashion and none of that ever coming to fruition also just further instills the sense of self-doubt and negativity and...

SHAPIRO: Because you were writing songs during your marriage to Ryan Adams.

MOORE: I was writing songs.

SHAPIRO: You had made music; it just never got released

MOORE: It never got released. A lot of songs were written during what I thought was a really fruitful time. But I want to take the responsibility in being able to sort of move forward and understand that I'm only in control of my side of the street, and so I'm just interested in sort of my role in why it took me so long to find my way back to music, and I've really made peace with that. And I'm also a big believer in things happening for a reason. And perhaps I wasn't really ready to make music until now and until I found myself in the right situation and I had the right creative partners, and this just feels like the perfect time in my life to be revisiting this.


SHAPIRO: This song, "When I Wasn't Watching," seems to speak to this hiatus.

MOORE: Yeah.

SHAPIRO: I mean, the lyric says, my favorite version of me disappeared through longer days and shorter years.

MOORE: Yeah. That was the first song written for the record. But...

SHAPIRO: Oh, really?

MOORE: Yeah, it was. We - I wrote it back in 2016, even before "This Is Us" was greenlit.

SHAPIRO: Really?

MOORE: I was writing music in fits and starts for the last, you know, five, six, seven years. And to me, it so encompasses that time in my life where I just felt (laughter) - I felt like I didn't know which way was up or down but, ultimately, sort of freed by that notion as well, that, like, this is what happens to everybody. I'm not an anomaly, and I'm going to use this to my benefit and use this as fuel to sort of, you know, find momentum forward.


MOORE: (Singing) ...What I became when I wasn't watching - when I wasn't watching.

SHAPIRO: So now that you have accepted and forgiven the 15-year-old pop star that you were, do you ever pull out that music anymore and listen to it?

MOORE: (Laughter) Considering the fact that we're going on the road and I want to honor that part of my life and my career and, perhaps, people and their nostalgic connection to that time and music as well, for sure.

SHAPIRO: This is going to be in the set? Are you saying you're actually going to perform some of that?

MOORE: Yes. I mean...


SHAPIRO: Amazing.

MOORE: I know that people are coming on the road and want to hear "Candy," so that's a no-brainer to me.


MOORE: But listening back to that era of music, there's definitely some songs that I'm like, OK, this wasn't so bad (laughter). I'm excited to figure out a new arrangement of this and make sure...

SHAPIRO: I was going to say, maybe an unplugged, acoustic version or something like that.

MOORE: (Laughter) Exactly. I feel like it's fitting to honor that time of my life and my career. And some of those songs, they need a little bit of an update.

SHAPIRO: Well, I look forward to hearing the new version of them.

MOORE: Ha, thank you very much.

SHAPIRO: Well, Mandy Moore, congratulations on your return to music-making. It's been great talking with you.

MOORE: Thank you so much for your time. I really appreciate it.

SHAPIRO: Her new album is called "Silver Landings."


MOORE: (Singing) Out in the light, facing the wind.

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