Adam Weiner's New Song, 'Christmas Makes Me Cry,' Channels Holiday Loneliness The leader of Low Cut Connie, tasked with writing a pandemic-era holiday song, thought back to a journal entry he wrote nearly 20 years ago, while working as a perfume spritzer at a local mall.
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Adam Weiner's New Song, 'Christmas Makes Me Cry,' Channels Holiday Loneliness

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Adam Weiner's New Song, 'Christmas Makes Me Cry,' Channels Holiday Loneliness

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Let's get back to the MORNING EDITION Song Project. This is the series where we ask musicians to write an original song about the COVID era. Our guest today is Adam Weiner. He sings and plays piano like an old-school rock 'n' roller with the Philly band Low Cut Connie.


LOW CUT CONNIE: (Singing) My friends and I, just to pass the time, do all the macho things - sliced bologna, chicken wings.

GREENE: Like so many musicians, Adam saw his gigs go up in smoke this year.

ADAM WEINER: The first week of this lockdown, I was depressed. I just laid on the couch. And it was like, what's going to happen? And you know what then, David? Then after a week, I said, I got to get up, and I got to do something. I got to make myself useful.

GREENE: And with that, Adam essentially reimagined his job. It all began with a single livestream performance.

WEINER: I just wanted to send, like, a message of love and humor and we're going to get through this together to some of our fans.

GREENE: It turned into a twice-weekly variety show from his apartment. People tuned in to watch Adam and his guitarist play songs and be funny.


WEINER: (Singing) Pump up the jam. Pump it up while you're feet are stomping and the joint is pumping.

GREENE: And Adam started to realize that he was providing a real service.

WEINER: We had nurses that were working right on the front lines in a COVID unit in New Jersey, and they started watching the show every Saturday and streaming it for the patients.


WEINER: And they would send us pictures of the patients watching and the nurses, like, dancing to me singing "Shake It Little Tina" and people acting like they're taking their clothes off, like I was. And it was like, oh, my God, we are, like, reaching people and lifting their spirits during a time when they're totally isolated - because that's what we are right now.

GREENE: Well, I want to hear about the song. I mean, I know when our producer Vince Pearson kind of talked to you about it, one idea he floated was a Christmas song, and you were not sold on that idea initially, it sounds like.


WEINER: No, I wasn't because I never thought I would write a Christmas song.

GREENE: You had never done that before?

WEINER: No. And I had all kinds of sort of mixed feelings about the Christmas season. But once he started talking about having me write something about what it's like at Christmastime during a global pandemic, I kind of knew what I had to do.

GREENE: The song he wrote for our project is called "Christmas Makes Me Cry."


WEINER: (Singing) Staring up at the ceiling, such a strange kind of feeling, waiting for sympathy, waiting for sympathy to arrive. But nobody speaks to me.

GREENE: The title comes from a journal entry that Adam wrote nearly 20 years ago. At the time, he was home on break from college, working as a perfume spritzer at a local mall.

WEINER: It was just, like, soul-crushing. You know, I'm covered with perfume and having all these weird interactions with people. And then, of course, you know, then I'm back in my parents' house. And it was just like - I would always get sad, very sad. I think a lot of people struggle at the holidays, you know. It's very triggering for some people. And so I wrote in my notebook 20 years ago, Christmas makes me cry.


WEINER: (Singing) Something tells me Christmastime is near. Everything is nice this time of year. The family together - tell me, what could be better? I can't tell you why Christmas makes me cry.

GREENE: It feels like it fits so well with what so many people are going through right now. I mean, they can't be together for Christmas, or they might be mourning the loss of someone who died or is sick, or they lost a job. I mean, there's a lot to cry about.

WEINER: Absolutely. And to me, the good aspect of the holidays is increased sympathy. It's a time when suddenly people become more altruistic, more neighborly, and then it fades. That always bothered me. But here we are during a global pandemic, when everybody is going through something, and everybody is feeling isolated, and everybody has experienced some form of grief. And we all have neighbors and friends and relatives who have lost jobs and lost loved ones. We're all in the same boat. And so I thought that that idea that this is the time of year for sympathy and connectivity around us, it was important to highlight that.


WEINER: (Singing) And the evening is nigh, but it's also so trying - sharing our sympathy, feeling our sympathy. Like a dream without snow, till we wake up tomorrow...

GREENE: You really pull something off in the song. It's a lot of different emotions. I mean, there's some funny lines, but you're certainly not joking. There's some edge. There's definitely some sympathy and sad all in here, it feels like.

WEINER: Thank you, David. I appreciate that. I wanted to write something that was dark and soulful, but with some lightness and humor shot through there because isn't that life? It's never all one thing. And I'm fascinated by those emotional layers. And Christmas is a day of many emotional layers. The feelings that one is feeling about the joy of the season - somebody else, it might be the saddest day of the year.


WEINER: (Singing) Mistletoe above them, take your stockings and stuff them.

We just have to have that sense of sympathy for each other, that everybody's feeling a lot of things on that day.

GREENE: Well, Adam, best to you on this holiday. And a real pleasure talking to you. Thank you.

WEINER: Thank you, David. And to you, your family and all your listeners, I wish you all nothing but health and hope for all good things.


WEINER: (Singing) I can't tell you Christmas makes me cry.

GREENE: That's Adam Weiner from Low Cut Connie talking about his song for the MORNING EDITION Song Project. It is called "Christmas Makes Me Cry," and you can hear it at our website -

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