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Isolation from the pandemic has led some struggling with addiction to relapse. It has kept others from getting help. And overdose deaths last year are expected to be a record-breaking 81,000. Corrinne Hess with Wisconsin Public Radio reports.
CORRINNE HESS, BYLINE: After their son died in January, Jackie and Robert Watson found a stack of popsicle sticks in his Milwaukee apartment. He'd written an affirmation on each one. I'm a fighter. Don't sweat the small stuff. My kids love me. Thirty-one-year-old Brandon Cullins had been working with a drug counselor who advised him to write the messages to himself. Picking up the popsicle sticks, the Watsons were able to see how hard their son had wanted to kick his battle with cocaine. They wondered why he hadn't asked for help.
JACKIE WATSON: You know, we saw him losing weight and acting differently. And we would approach him and talk to him about it. And, you know, again, it was always a denial. He was like, no, mom and dad, I'm not doing that. You know, everything's fine.
HESS: Cullins died in January 2020 from a mixture of cocaine and fentanyl. He was found by a maintenance worker in his apartment. Cullins had three children and a contagious smile. His death came after years of fighting his addiction.
WATSON: It doesn't seem real because, like I said, he was so full of life and so happy. You know what? He was trying. He really was struggling but trying to get better and trying to fight that.
HESS: Cullins' struggle mirrors what's happening nationwide, as the pandemic has amplified mental health and financial issues. And social isolation has increased the risk of dying from an overdose.
MICHELLE MALONEY: You know, I know of several individuals who had been in recovery, and they lost their structure, their support networks. And most struggled then with wanting to relapse.
HESS: That's Dr. Michelle Maloney, who heads addiction services for Rogers Behavioral Health. The system has locations in nine states, including Wisconsin, Minnesota and California. When people are using substances, they're often hiding it. So even in normal circumstances, families struggle to understand what's going on. Addiction support organizations say that's because addiction is a disease of despair. Paul Earley is the president of the American Society of Addiction Medicine. He says staying in contact with somebody who has a substance use disorder is so important during this time, even if you're angry or you think they're in remission.
PAUL EARLEY: Now is not the time for what we used to call tough love. That is not the approach to use during this difficult time at all because you run the risk of if they're using, especially if they're using injectable drugs, that they could overdose in time.
HESS: Jess Keefe is with the addiction advocacy group Shatterproof. She was living with her brother when he died of a heroin overdose in 2015. She says all families go through a grieving period, asking themselves what they should have done differently. Brandon Cullins overdosed twice before he died, but those times, he wasn't alone. His parents have asked themselves if they were wrong to support his decision to get his own apartment. But Keefe says giving a person with a substance use disorder independence demonstrates love.
JESS KEEFE: When our loved ones are going through this, we want to babysit them (laughter) in these ways. And we want to, you know, keep our eyes on them all the time just to make sure they're going to be OK. And a lot of times, people going through substance use disorders can feel like they're treated paternalistically.
HESS: It's been almost a year since Cullins died. His parents have had to acknowledge his birthday and celebrate Christmas without him. Cullins' popsicle sticks with his messages of affirmation were displayed during his funeral, and empty sticks were available for people to write their own words about Cullins. The Watsons now keep those at their house to remember their son.
For NPR News, this is Corrinne Hess.
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